Hi everyone. I am so sorry that it has taken so long for me to upate. I have crappy dial-up internet at home and it rarely works lol. Plus I lost the disk I had saved this story on and rewrote this portion twice Then I found the disk.lol. I hope the next update doesn't take this long lol. Thanks to anyone who is still reaing this :D

Disclaimer:I don't own the characters. Don't sue me I'm poor.

Anna vaguely heard the commotion in the kitchen as she quietly re-enter the house. It was most likely Scott and Emma at it again or even more likely Emma going after Logan because of his prank, so she ignored it. She passed by the door without noticing the broken shards of glass, the spilt liquor or the words spoken by Remy. Instead she deafly walked down the hall, back to the solitude of her bedroom. She had had enough confrontation for one day. She thought maybe if she barricaded herself in her room for the remainder of the day things would make more sense…or not get worse. Anna noticed that Piotr and Kitty had vacated their chairs; instead Lorna, Bobby, and Jean-Paul were engaged in some sort of argument. She passed by without them noticing and closed her bedroom door behind her. She set the small box on the dresser. Unable to calm herself, she began to pace across the floor, her arms folded across her chest. Remy's words ran through her mind: The whole world ain't out to get you…she knew he was right but somehow that didn't comfort her. Instead she began to think of everything that she had done in her life that could have led to her current situation. No-one deserved to be blamed for what had happened to her, no one needed to suffer because of her; especially Logan and Ro…and Remy…he deserved a life with his daughter…someone he can love…and some who could love him fully…and with someone who could touch him…someone who could give him a normal life. She smiled sadly and thought back to the past when they had been together. He had told her that he didn't think about it, he didn't worry about it…as long as she was there. A family wasn't his priority. He never thought of their future only their present. Then she remembered the day she left. Remy wouldn't even speak to her. He didn't even come out to say good-bye. Anna took a bottle from beside the dresser and was about to take a drink but stared blankly at it. No, she thought. Last night was caused by drinking and now her secrets were almost out. Hank knew almost everything, which meant that Cecilia did as well. She had told Logan about her marriage and everyone had seen her last night in a stupor. Remy had seen the ring and heard David's name. If he didn't know already it would only be a matter of time before he found out. She set the bottle on the dresser and rummaged through her purse to find a jar of aspirin. Anna popped a couple of pills into her mouth and swallowed without taking a drink. The chalky taste was nearly comforting to her. She stood staring at her reflection in the mirror. Why did this have to be so difficult? Sadly she laughed at her reflection. She had been so stupid. If she hadn't got caught up in David's lies, if she hadn't wanted so badly to be a mother, if she had paid more attention to him he would have stayed true to her. If she would have told Remy what she felt the day she left…everything would have been different…maybe she would be happy. "Christ," she muttered in self-loathing. She was beginning to think she was bi-polar. She had gone from tears to anger and back more times in the past week than she had thought possible. Emotionally, she was exhausted. Self blame consumed her as she sat on the edge of her un-made bed. Her hangover had been forgotten, now only dread and self-hatred filled the pit of her stomach. She was so preoccupied that she didn't hear a knock on her door, or notice the fresh tears gracing her cheeks. The door opened and Emma walked. Anna only noticed when the tall blonde woman called her name. Anna looked up embarrassed and again tried to hide her tears.

"Anna?"

"Sorry Em, I didn't hear you."

Emma's damp, blonde hair was pulled back in to a pony-tail and she was dressed more casually that normal. Emma's smile turned to a frown when she saw Anna.

"What the hell has happened to you?" She asked, as direct as ever.

Anna sniffed, "It's nothing ta worry about"

"Like hell it isn't," Emma persisted as Anna looked away, "Do you expect me to believe that after last night?"

Anna sighed. Emma tolerance was dwindling.

"Emma, Ah got a little drunk was all…" Rogue turned away, "It was nothing."

Emma wasn't about to believe that feeble attempt to have the subject dropped. She hated seeing Anna like this as much as anyone and had hoped it wouldn't come to this. She was not about to let a friend drown alone and unlike her team-mates, Emma had the ability to find out the truth. Emma did not have the same respect for privacy that their teacher had had. She quietly concentrated. Soon her mind was filled with Anna's thoughts and experiences. Anna's recent animosities flooded Emma's head. Dark thoughts and feelings made her gasp in surprise. Without thinking she waded through the barriers of Anna's mind. She could see Anna dressed in white with a man on her arm. She was smiling. Images flashed through Emma of arguments, lies and betrayal. She saw Anna laying on a hospital bed and felt her friend's pain and fear. Emma cringed as she relived Anna's loss and gasped when another similar scene made itself visible to her. She saw graves and felt the same man's disgust and disapproval. Emma saw her friend curled up on a small sofa as a man threw suitcases at her shouting for her to get out. She watched through Anna's memories as he grabbed her wrist and pulled her from her position. Her eyes were red from crying and alcohol. His eyes burned with annoyance.

"I thought your powers were the key to your goddamn problems Anna, but I was wrong. You are worthless. It's not like you are the first person to lose a kid and you act like this is the end of the world. Hell they were mine too Anna. Did you ever think about that?" Emma watched Anna turn away which angered the man…David. He forced her eyes back to him again, leaving red marks where his fingers gripped her chin. "But it's been almost a month and you still can't seem to get it. You lost the baby Anna. Get over it and get out."

"You're telling me to leave? How can you do that?"

"I can't deal with you anymore! You're a lost cause and a one-way ticket to the loss of my sanity. You've turned into a crazy drunk bitch! You can't be helped Anna and I've stopped caring. All the things I've done for you and you don't appreciate a thing and cry and drink and don't give a damn about anyone but yourself!"

"Ah lost our baby David. It died, inside of me. Doesn't that mean anything to you?"

"What am I supposed to say Anna? That it's fine for you to ruin my life as you grieve for the baby you killed?"

Emma could see the hurt in her friend's eyes as she whispered. "How can you say that?"

"Well it's not like it wasn't unexpected. It wasn't the first time."

"You act like it's nothing. Our children died. I…we tried to stop mah powers so that nothing like this would happen…we…failed and now…"

"We? No Anna we didn't fail. My inhibitor worked, but it seems that your body hates you as much as everyone else does. Face it Anna. You will never be normal. Your mutation is too strong for that. You were a killer in your past and you continue to be. Even if you try to do otherwise your genetics betray you."

The Rogue that Emma had known, as an x-man, would have fought back, lashed out. The Anna she watched let the words of this man seep into her mind and only sad words escaped her lips.

"How can you say those things David. You married me."

"And I was wrong to do it. How could I marry someone so unstable?"

"How can you tell me how to grieve? What did I ever do to you David? I was always there for you. I wanted to give you a home a family…"

"Well you didn't did you? Get out."

"You're the one who's been sleeping around."

"So? I guess that means you can't satisfy me in bed either."

"You bastard. How can you be so hateful?"

The hand came across her face in an instant. Stunned she ran her fingers over her reddening cheek. She glared at him. Quickly she picked up a suitcase and walked into another room.

Emma blinked and took a step back. Anger flashed across her face, "I'll kill the bastard."

Anna looked up in surprise, "What?" Then he realized what Emma had done, "Stay out of mah head Emma! You have no right to…"

"Oh common Anna. What do you expect me to do, watch you fall apart like everyone else?"

"This isn't your problem. This isn't you choice"

"That ass hit you!"

"Yeah, he did, once, he cheated and he lied. And I married him so what does that say?"

"That you loved the ass that hit you but that doesn't make him any less of a bastard."

"Everyone's got demons they gotta get through Emma. Ah'm no special case."

"You are mourning your children and he hit you for it and threw you out!"

"Ah'm fine Emma. Just let it be."

"Would you quit saying that? It's getting old and no one believes you any more. Everyone in this goddamn house can see you're upset so quit trying to hide it." Emma sat down on the bed beside her friend, "Hank knows, why didn't you tell the rest of us?"

Anna sighed, "Hank talked to David. Ah wouldn't have said a thing to him either…Ah didn't…want to burden y'all, make this all about me and take it away from the wedding you know…it's not like mah stupid problems matter…Ah can deal with'em mahself."

"You have an entire mansion of people worried about you and you don't think you matter…"

"That's not what Ah said…"

"But it's what you meant. You can't lie to me. Remember that."

"What do you want me to say?"

"The truth."

Anna scoffed, "All Ah want is to be left alone."

Emma laughed, "Now that I do believe, unfortunately having people worry about you is the price you pay for having friends, something I had avoided quite nicely until I succumbed to the team," she said with a hint of sarcasm.

Anna looked at the ground. "Do you regret it?"

"We'll I'm not one to gush about my life choices Anna. If you want happy-go-lucky girl talk I'm sure Kitty's around somewhere. But do I regret all this?" she said motioning around her. "How could I…" Before she could finish the door swung open and Ella ran into the room and closed it behind her. She put her finger to her lips motioning for the two x-women to keep quite as she crawled under Anna's bed. Rogue looked questioningly at Emma and she shrugged. Moments later two other children burst into the room and looked suspiciously around the room. The little girl turned to Emma

"Mother, have you seen Ella?"

Emma smiled and winked at Anna. "Haven't seen her."

The little girl pouted and the two of them scurried back into the hallway. When she was sure they were gone Ella reappeared from beneath the bed.

"Thank you!" she called as she took off in the other direction.

Anna shook her head and laughed.

"As I was saying," Emma continued smiling, "How could I regret having two loud little monsters as children?"

Both women broke out into laughter.

"They are beautiful kids Emma."

"They get it from me of course." She smirked.

Anna sighed, "You're going to tell the others aren't you, about all this?"

"What would you do if you were me dear?"

"Forget this ever happened."

"That's a damn lie and you know it. Wouldn't you rather have you friends try to help you through this than be left in the dark and worry about you anyway?"

"Ah honestly don't know…"

"Rogue, trust us. We're here for you."

Emma stood and walked to the door. If she had here way she would find David and bring him to his knees.

"Emma, are you going to tell them about my kids?"

"I'm going to do what you would do if it were me."

Rogue sighed and put her head in her hands.