Hi y'all! Im back from hibernating! Did u all miss me?

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...0 anywho, sorry it took me so long to update...the thing is, i wrote this chapter along time ago, but i didn't post it cuze i didn't finish the next chapter yet.. i sorta wanted to get that done before i post this. So that this story doesn't end up like "first date", being tossed in the back of my brain...only one final chapter to go too!for "first date" i mean.I'll try to start writing it...i'll try.

I seem to have writter's block right now. Ughh...

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Thanx for my reviewers from last time:

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Now that's done...let's get it on!

Disclaimer: hello...this is called a FANFICTION...meaning a FICTION written by a FAN...u figure it out. and please note that i am not, i repeat, not japanese, nor do i speak japanese, so in the process of naming the characters, i try to make them sound japanese, i don't knoe if such names really exist, so don;t get offended if they end up not being japanese at all. i try.

and u might notice some names r japanese-ish, some r in plain english...well, try to ignore that as well. i can't make up myy mind about the names.

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"Hello, Serena. And how is your day so far?"

"Good morning, Mrs. St. Claire. I'm fine, thank you."

"Your father is sleeping soundly now. I think he's getting better. Who knows, maybe he'd be out of here soon." Mrs. St. Claire said and gave Serena a warming smile. And to be polite, Serena smiled back.

"Well, I've got to keep busy. The breakfasts don't just go to the patients' rooms themselves."

Serena watched as the short plump woman wheeled away with her cart. Maybe he'd be out of here soon...Serena knew it wasn't ever going to happen, not with her father's conditions. He's been a vegetable for a little over a year now, after a fetal car crash that had killed everyone in the car, including Mommy. She was been dragged to some lousy dinner party that day by Serena's father. She had insisted on staying home for the day, but after another brutal beating by him, she gave up just like she had always done and went with him.

Serena remembered the funeral well. Neighbors brought tons home made cooking and all said the same things more or less, with fake smiles plastered on their faces: "I'm really sorry, Serena...Your mother, she was truly a wonderful woman. But be thankful that your father is still here...don't worry, he'll get better soon." Then they would quickly look away and avoid eye contact, showing their guilt for lying to her about her father—how lucky she was for having a father like that and how he's going to get better soon. Bullshit, all of it. And they knew it. They all knew about what kind of a monster he was...well, parts of it; how he always beat mother, and by God he deserved it all. It was time that something went against him, it was time that he got his punishments for every thing that he did.

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"Father? Oh...you woke up...a nurse told me you were still sleeping..." Serena placed her bags on the drawer next to her father's bed then took off her jacket and sat down. It was an every-day routine—she come here and talk to her father for a while, check to see if everything was all right, like any other daughter would do for her father...what did that mean, exactly? She had kept her promise to her mother, but inside, she heart was never there.

She hated it.

Her father seemed to stare at her blankly. Sometimes she wondered if he knew how much she hated this, she wondered if he knew about the promise she made to her mother, the reason why she is still here. She didn't know if he was in pain; she hoped he did, she hoped he was in a lot of pain. She hoped he would never wake up from this...she hoped he would always be burdened with the guilt. Because nothing would ever make up for what he did—

Her thoughts were interrupted by a light knock on the door. She was relieved that her anger and hatred hadn't gone out of control this time, because sometimes she scared herself when she was thinking about all the horrible things she wish would happen...

She turned around and there stood a young doctor instead of Dr. Yuki, the women who'd been checking up on her father every morning.

"Good morning. I'm Darien Shields; the new doctor whose going to take over for Dr. Yuki temporarily." The young man looked down on a sheet of information and said: "And you must be Serena, right?" He smiled and held out his hand.

Serena shook it and nodded. "Hi."

"Dr. Yuki is a maternity leave. So I'm taking over for now. I'm still new at this, so please fill me in on anything important about your father's condition when I don't seem to know about them; Dr. Yuki had given me specific instructions, but..."

Once again, Serena nodded. That's right! How could she have forgotten! Dr. Yuki was already into her 7th month of pregnancy, she even told Serena the day earlier, but somehow she had seemed to have tossed the information to the back of her head.

Serena watched as Dr. Shields examined her father, doing the usual routines, and when he was done, he gave Serena a assuring nod and said: "Well, he seems to be doing okay." And walked out. "See ya."

He went into the room next to her father's before she could respond politely.

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Once again, Serena stared out the window as she waited for her stop to come. She wondered about life. What was the point of bringing another life into this world when life would be so hard? To her, a new life meant another unfortunate person having to be burdened with the troubles of living. She hoped she would never be forced to bring another life onto this cruel world, never be forced to do such a horrible thing.

She wondered why Dr. Yuki was so happy about the birth of her child then. Didn't she know what a bad thing she was doing, to her self, to her baby, and to everyone else?

Then again, she never understood other people's thoughts. And no one seemed to have ever understood her. She was all alone, she had understood that along time ago, but why would it hurt so much then? She asked the question to her self, but she knew the answer:

For once, maybe just for once, life wouldn't betray her like it always done so in the past. Maybe she too, needed someone to trust, to pour her heart out to, like everyone else.

But how could she do that when she was too bitter about everything? She would never have the guts to reveal just how full of hate, how bitter she is inside the quiet and timid girl whom everyone see as strong-willed and brave about every unfortunate thing that happened to her. She would never break her protective wall and let anyone see just how weak and pathetic she was inside. No; the wall protecting everyone from the truths has been there too long, and now, she didn't how to tear it down.

Little did she know, she would soon learn.

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