Email: tenryuexcite.com
Title: Outside (part of the "Break of the Cycle" series)
Rating: PG13 (mature people only please, this is some heavy stuff.)
Disclaimer: The characters in here do not belong to me in any way possible. Cause if they did, well I'd be dating Tawny right now…. But they don't. They belong to Disney (lucky bastard)
Note: You all understand by now that this stuff is deep right? Hope so. By the way, the names of this series and the parts comes from that band Staind and their album "Break the Cycle" Gay themes come into play….ooh scary…..
Why was she here? She didn't belong with this crowd. She never could fit in with Louis and his friends. So why was she making herself suffer through this? Because she didn't want to sit home alone. This way she could at least make an appearance in public and make it seem like everything was ok, whether it was or not.
Two hours of her life was wasted on a film that she didn't pay one ounce of attention to. There went fifteen dollars of hard earned money down the drain. Ren couldn't get the object of her affection out of her mind. The crush that had started all this turmoil just sat mere centimeters away from her now. The crush had no idea either.
When the movie was over, Ren was the first to leave. She stood outside with her arms crossed over her chest. The slight remains of winter blew by her causing her to shiver.
"Here, take my jacket." Tawny's soft voice came up slowly behind her, so as not to scare Ren. "I don't need it, I have on long sleeves." She held the jacket out in an offering manner.
Hesitantly Ren took the jacket and slid it on, revealing in the warmth. "Thank you." She whispered with a smile. Why was Tawny being so nice to her? The two hardly ever talked. But Ren enjoyed the company either way.
Ren turned her head to watch cars come and go picking up and dropping off more kids. Seeing all the happy people only reminded her of what depression lay dormant inside her.
Tawny could see a mix of emotions playing through Ren's face. Something was wrong that wasn't being said by the silence. The girl placed a comforting hand on Ren's shoulder. She gently squeezed and softly said, "Why don't I come over tonight so we can talk? You look like you need a friend."
Ren's shoulder began stinging with slight pain. Why was that? Oh yeah, she had fresh cuts there from that morning. Trying not to think of the pain Ren instead mulled over in her mind what Tawny had said. That would mean Tawny would be in her room, in her safe retreat, where she could find out about Ren's problems.
Ren nodded. She gave a smile that betrayed more than just normal happiness. "I'd like that Tawny. I could really use a shoulder to lean on."
The smile intrigued Tawny, she was glad to see Ren smile a genuine smile for once.
"Hey Stevens!" A popular jock called out to Ren. He waved his hand in a gesture that meant for her to come to him.
Confused but curious, Ren slowly made her way over to him and his friends. "Yeah." She said as she stopped.
"What's up with all the cuts on your arms?" He motioned his head toward her arms that were still folded over her chest. "You get lost in a book and couldn't find your way out." He gave a hearty laugh and earned a high five from one of his buddies. The joke wasn't funny to Ren.
"Jerk!" Tawny came to Ren's rescue. She wrapped one arm around Ren's waist as if to protect her from any further torment. "Why don't you go get lost on a football field you ass hole."
"Oh look, Ren's little girlfriend is trying to protect her." A blonde cheerleader said with a sneer. "Cute little dykes aren't they?" The crowd gave a laugh that could still be heard as Ren and Tawny walked away.
"Don't listen to them Ren." Tawny's arm was still wrapped around Ren's waist. That's all that could run through Ren's mind was that Tawny was holding her close.
"I just want to go home." Hot tears began rolling down her face. She kept her head hung low, hoping that Tawny would watch their path and keep Ren from running into anything.
"Hey! Tawny! Ren! Where you guys going?" Louis called out as he came running up to them.
"Home." Tawny said, never looking at him.
"Is everything ok?"
Never breaking her stride, Tawny simply said, "We'll see you guys later. This is a girl's only kind of thing."
So? Good, bad, ugly? What do you think? I'm going places with this story...hopefully you'll like where it's going.
---Jade Unicorn