Chapter Six.

That night as soon as the sun went down, Remus was escorted down to the Whomping willow by Dumbledore. He made his way through the under ground tunnel all the way to the Shrieking Shack. This was a small abandoned building that was on the edge of Hogsmead village. Everybody called it the world's most haunted shack because of the terrible screams they'd hear coming from it every month, but the screams were really coming from Remus as he painfully transformed into his werewolf form.

When he got to the small shack the others were already waiting for him having sneaked out earlier. "Almost time mate." James said looking at his watch. They had these nights down to a science. "Three…two…one"

Just as James finished the count down Remus began to transform. He howled in pain at first but then he began just to howl as a wolf howls at the moon. This was their cue to transform also. All three of them were unregistered animagus. Sirius became a large black dog, Peter became a rat and James became a stag. The three of them had to study almost their whole second year to become animagus's for it was something you were usually born with. All of them transforming always seemed to make Remus's life easier, with his friends beside him he even remembered who he was while he was a werewolf. He felt so indebted to his friends for their dedication to becoming animagus's and their devotion to him and his secret.

Lily was sitting in her dorm looking out her window wondering where he could be. She had waited by the quidditch pitch waiting for him and the marauders but he never showed up. She also checked the library, the common room countless times and wandered the halls until it was time to back in their houses. Lily sat down in the chair closest to the fire. The common room was nearly deserted except for a few first year students who were making sure they hadn't forgotten any supplies and talking excitedly about their first lessons tomorrow morning. Lily was getting annoyed very fast with their cheerful chatter and found herself grinding her teeth and tightly squeezing the arms of the chair. The first years went to bed about a half an hour later. Finally, she thought, peace at last. She was now beginning to get worried. Lupin had been gone for a long time and she was beginning to wonder if he had ditched her because he really didn't want to be with her. No, that's not true, she thought to herself, he wouldn't have came after me and told me all those things if they weren't true, he's to good of a person, isn't he?

She fell asleep after hours of being lost in her thoughts. It was nearly four in the morning when the moon went down that night so the marauders came back exhausted from their night of causing mischief. They entered the common room thinking it was deserted. "I'm going to bed now, I'm to tired to do any more tonight guys see you in a few hours." Lupin said as he disappeared up the stairs.

"I'm going to bed too," Peter said "I don't want to fall asleep in McGonagall's class again last time she nearly skinned me alive!" he shrugged and followed Remus up the stairs. James an Sirius took a seat at a small table near the window.

"Poor Moony, must be hard on him to have to go through the same thing every month." Sirius said with a glance at the stairs Lupin had gone up.

"Ya your right, at least our transformation is painless his always sounds like it hurts him in more ways than one." James replied looking at the floor.

"I wish there were more ways to help him deal with it. I know us being there helps it stay under control but I mean I wish we could help with the pain of it all." Lily began to stir over in her chair by the fire. "Blimey!" Sirius jumped "I didn't think anyone was still down here, do you think they heard us?"

"Hey you over there!" James called causing Lily to awake and sit bolt upright.

"Wha… Where am I?"

"Oh Evans it's you, your in the common room." James said, as Lily looked over at him still dazed from her sudden awakening. "What you still doing down here there's class in the morning don't forget."

"Yes… Right, class." She said dizzily getting up and heading up the stairs to the girls dorm.

"Night Evans!" James called to her but she didn't even acknowledge him.

"Wonder what she was doing down here so late?" James asked more to himself than directly to Sirius.

"I don't know but more importantly did she hear any of our conversation." Sirius said in a worried voice. James just sat back in his chair and stared out the window until the sun began to rise. Finally they got up to catch an hour of sleep at least.

Lily was one of the first people down in the great hall for breakfast that morning. She sat down in an empty seat and helped herself to some toast. She was just about to take a bite when the marauders walked in. Lily looked over to Remus and was just about to get up and go talk to him but he gave his head a small shake to tell her not to come over. He looked even paler than normal and he had an extremely sick look about him. What could he have been doing last night to make him so awful? Lily knew she had to get him alone so she could talk to him. Professor McGonagall came around handing out their schedules and Lily saw that she would have no free classes today for she double potions in the morning, herbologry and charms in the afternoon. She knew getting him alone during class would be near impossible because of Potter so it would have to wait until after dinner.

The day seemed as if time had stopped Lily was nearly in tears by the time dinner came around she need to talk to Remus desperately. Finally though she got her chance. She seen all of the marauders get up and she knew exactly what to do. She followed the marauders making sure not to be seen. She pulled out her wand and muttered a small incantation causing Lupin's lace to untie.

"Go on ahead." He told the other marauders bending down to tie his shoe. "I'll be up in a minute." The others continued on ahead of him and soon were out of sight. Lily ran up to Lupin just as he was about to go up the stair.

"We need to talk." She whispered taking his arm and leading him into the nearest empty classroom. "What are you trying to pull?" This question shocked him and all he could do was give her a confused look. "Last night, you said you couldn't meet me because you were helping your friends with quidditch and homework, but I couldn't find you anywhere." She said on the verge of tears.

"Listen Lily…"

"No Remus just tell me the truth do you really want to be with me or not?"

Remus truly had to think about this. He really did long to be with Lily but at the same time it was so hard. He didn't want to betray James and he knew that if he kept this up James would find out and most likely be furious because he had like Lily since their first year. Also Remus knew that if he continued with Lily she would continue to feel hurt and betrayed because he knew that on the full moon of every month he would disappear and she would go through this every time. He finally came to a decision. He took Lily and hugged her in an embrace that seemed to last forever. "Lily," he said, "I don't want to be with you. I thought I did but I don't so please understand."

"W..wh.what?" she sputtered as he let her go, turned and left the room. "It isn't true, it can't be true." Lily just stood there holding herself, crying softly.

Remus couldn't bring himself to face his friends at this moment. He ran down the corridors until he had found his favourite hiding spot, the Room of Requirement. He entered it and found that there was a nice large soft chair in the middle of the room with a fireplace burning gently. He sat down in the chair sobbing, which he didn't dare do in front of his friends. He felt empty inside, he had just broken Lily's heart as well as his own. Before now he hadn't ever though of liking her but right now he felt as if she'd be the only person he would ever like again. He couldn't stop the tears from coming they just poured out of him. Everything seemed so unjust, him being a werewolf he knew no matter what his life was going to be full of hardships but in this moment he figured nothing could ever hurt more.

A/N: … I really don't know what to say do you? See. So what so you think I hope you all like it because I'm decently proud of it so Please review, thank you!