CHAPTER EIGHT: RENAMON'S HARD DECISION
She sat on top a pillar of rock somewhere in unknown surroundings. Her cerulean eyes were filled with teardrops and as her long white and gold tail swished endlessly from side to side, she stared idly at an aimless emerald humming-bird sucking nectar from a hibiscus flower. She, this fox like creature by the name of Renamon, had previously gotten her heart broken by someone she had loved more than anything else. Even though it was her own fault that this situation happened, Renamon could not help feeling utterly destroyed.
"What have I done," Renamon thought sadly, "oh I remember what I did…I cheated and lied to Wolfemon. How could I have done this? How could I have done this to Wolfemon…myself…to our relationship? I have never felt so terrible about myself in my life."
Lowering her head shamefully, Renamon recapped a flashback to her previous engagement with Wolfemon…the moment when she got her heart broken to pieces.
FLASHBACK……….
Wolfemon: Renamon, you are a cheater and a liar and as long as I live and breathe on this very earth, I no longer wish to see, hear or even talk to you. You and I are no longer a couple nor are we friends.
Renamon: What? Wolfemon, what are you trying to say?
Wolfemon: What I am saying is I no longer love or like you Renamon. I now hate you and I hope that this will be the last time I ever saw your dishonest face.
END OF FLASHBACK………
Those words echoed incessantly in Renamon's mind and she tried endlessly to shake them out of her head.
"Ooh what's the use in trying to forget this horrible day? Anyway I take it this memory will always be wedged in my mind forever," Renamon said, "(Sighs) I wish this horrible moment never occurred."
Hugging her legs up to her chest, Renamon cried eternally into his gloved hands. She did not stop her constant weeping, not even when the sun began to set, she still kept on crying. It was dreadful…a young beautiful fox crying friendless on top of a rock pillar.
It was a very awful thing to watch indeed; at least it was to the creature who was watching Renamon. The mysterious creature stood on top of another rock pillar, silently watching from a distance. He eyed the crying form of the yellow fox and shook his head despondently at her.
"(Sighs) Very sad, without a doubt," said the mysterious creature.
Renamon's head suddenly cracked up. She had sensed a new appearance among her surrounding. But strangely, out of familiarity, Renamon did not bother to strike her strange invader. Renamon knew who this creature was and opening her mouth, Renamon spoke slowly but loudly. "Is that you Renomon?" she said.
As if on cue, Renomon phased in right beside the suspecting Renamon's side.
"Did someone say my name?" Renomon said in a joking tone looking down at Renamon.
"Yes, I did," Renamon answered monotonously.
"What's up with you now?" Renomon asked.
"Nothing. I just sensed you were near and said your name, that's all," Renamon answered with the same dull voice.
"Okay, that makes sense," Renomon said. The brown fox then decided to change the subject.
"So…Renamon, did you ever get the courage to tell your beastly boyfriend about last night?" Renomon said with a sort of bright smile on his face.
Renamon shuddered a bit. "Ye…Yes," she answered hesitantly.
Renomon's smile widened as he stared at Renamon. "Oh you did, did you," Renomon said, "so…how did it go? Was your beastly boyfriend's reaction just as beastly as he is?"
Renamon shuddered again. "For your information Renomon...yes…yes that is exactly how it went," Renamon answered, "but…do you know what the worst part of Wolfemon's reaction was?"
"No? What was it?" Renomon said questioningly.
Renamon looked directly into Renomon's crimson eyes, revealing the remaining tears in her eyelids.
"The fact that he dumped me afterwards!" Renamon shouted.
Renomon looked confused. "Dumped?" he said puzzled, "define the word dumped."
"It means that…Wolfemon and I are no longer a couple Renomon," Renamon answered the tears reforming in her eyes, "it means that we are no longer together and we never will be again."
"Really!" Renomon exclaimed. The expression on his face was a mixture of happiness and amusement.
"Yes….really," Renamon answered crying into her hands again.
The broad smile on Renomon's face stretched into a conniving smirk. "At last," Renomon thought, "I have my beloved Renamon all to myself. Now she will love me just as she use to in the past. No more of that beastly Woofmon or what ever his name is to take her away from me ever again."
Renomon smirked toothily before turning her attention back on the crying Renamon. Renomon walked over to the female fox and consoled her compassionately.
"Awh dear, dear Renamon," Renomon said gently stroking Renamon's back, "don't cry. It'll ruin your reputation as the strongest, bravest, swiftest and modest Renamon in the digimon world."
Renamon made a strange sound between a giggle and a sob. "That was what I was when I used to live in the Foxwood village," Renamon said.
"I know and you still are too," Renomon said smiling at Renamon as he wiped away a few of her fallen tears.
Renamon beamed at Renomon but then she sulked sadly.
"What's the matter Renomon?" Renomon asked.
"I was just…thinking," Renamon answered, "thinking about how much different my life is here from when I used to live in the Foxwood village."
"That's true," Renomon said in agreement, "in the Foxwood village, you never lived among indifferent humans and digimon. Instead you lived among friends and families who knew you and cared for you."
Renamon nodded. "You're right," she said.
"In the Foxwood village, you never had to depend on a human to care for you and help you to digi-evolve to higher levels," Renomon continued, "instead you had to depend on yourself and your own strength and will power to digi-evolve."
Renamon nodded again. "You're absolutely right," she said again agreeing with the brown fox.
"And most importantly of all," Renamon went one lifting Renamon's face up to his, "in the Foxwood village, the ones you love, actually love you back and they don't get angry at you for the tiniest mistake you make."
"I guess…you're right about that too," Renamon said, "now that really makes me miss my home. Life was so much…easier when I lived in the Foxwood village. In the Foxwood village, everyone treated me like an equal not like some digital menace like some of the humans here in the Real world."
"Did they make your life uncomfortable here in the Real world?" Renomon inquired.
"Not exactly," Renamon answered, "some of them are actually nice to me though others scream and run away from me or call me names like monster."
"Urgh! Humans are so vile," Renomon said disgustedly.
"You could say that again," Renamon said, "it seems that Rika and the other tamers were the only humans who treated me like an actual person but (Sighs) between them and the other billion and one humans in West Shinjuku, that's not enough people for my comfort."
Renomon placed his hand on Renamon's shoulder to ease her a little. Renamon smiled at him.
"You know Renomon," Renamon continued, "it's times like this when I truly wish I was back home in the Foxwood village. It was…the only place where I felt completely like I was among friends. But knowing my luck (Sighs) I may never see the Foxwood village again."
"Never say never," Renomon quoted, "Renamon, if you miss the Foxwood village so much then for god's sakes go home."
"I can't Renomon," Renamon said sadly, "even if I wanted to, I know that there is absolutely no way that I can get back to Foxwood village."
"You think so," Renomon said, "well Renamon, what if I told you that there was a way you can get back to the village."
Renamon swiftly spun around to face Renomon. "Seriously?" Renamon said, "you know a way to get back to the village."
"Of course I do. How do you think I got here? Hitchhiking?" Renomon said chuckling.
"Very funny Renomon," Renamon said dully, "now really, how do you get back to the Foxwood village."
"Via a portal," Renomon answered, "I found a portal that leads directly to the Foxwood village. It's situated on top of some building in this city by the name of Watanabe Studios."
"That is wonderful!" Renamon shouted excitedly, "a portal that leads to the Foxwood village sounds like a perfect way back to me."
"Yes I know," Renomon said, "and that is why I have decided to use that portal and go back home."
"You're leaving…already?" Renamon said dumbfounded.
"Yes. I've decided to leave in two days," Renomon answered, "besides; I have no use in the Human world."
"I guess you're right," Renamon said disappointedly, "ooh Renomon, I'm going to miss you so much. It's been a pleasure seeing you again. If only you could have stayed a lot longer."
"I wish so too Renamon," Renomon said holding Renamon's hand in his, "but I can't stay longer. The portal back to the Foxwood village closes in two days and if I stay any longer, I will not be able to go back home."
"Nor would you be able to come back and visit me in the Human world again?" Renamon asked.
"Precisely," Renomon answered.
"Renomon," Renamon said sadly, "I wish you didn't have to leave so soon. If only there was a way for you and I to see one another more often."
"Maybe there is," Renomon said.
"Really! How?" Renamon inquired.
"You could always… go back," Renamon suggested.
"Go back? You mean like go back to the Foxwood village?" Renamon said.
"Yes," Renomon answered, "go back with me Renamon. Go back with me to the Foxwood village and you and I could see each other everyday for the rest of our lives."
Renamon stared at Renomon wide-eyed. "Are you mad Renomon?" Renamon exclaimed, "I can't go back to the Foxwood village with you."
"Yes you can Renamon," Renomon said, "it is where you belong."
"Where I…belong?" Renamon repeated speechlessly.
Renomon nodded in response as he kissed Renamon's hands gently. Renamon looked sideways.
"But Renamon, I can't go back," Renamon said, "what about Rika? What about my friends? What about...
"Wolfemon!" Renamon said with harshness in his tone, "For the love of mike Renamon, when will you stop thinking about that beast. He does not love you anymore, you said it yourself."
"I know that Renomon but what can I do?" Renamon said still staring sideways absentmindedly.
"What can you do? What you can do is forget about that beast Wolfemon," Renomon said, "he's not right for you. Wolves and Foxes just don't fix. In wildlife wolves hunt foxes down as prey, they don't mate with them."
Renamon's eyes narrowed slightly. She knew that Renomon was correct.
"Renamon please," Renomon implored, "come back with me to the Foxwood Village. You belong there other than here in this human-filled society besides; this is the last chance that you will ever get to see your sister again."
"See my sister," Renamon repeated, "you mean Reremon who is now a Renamon."
"Yes. Think of how trilled your sister will be to see you again after so long Renamon," Renomon said, "she has missed you a lot ever since the last Foxwood Village burnt down. Her only wish was to see your face again."
"Really? She told you that?" Renamon asked.
Renomon nodded. "Yes, she told me that and she's not the only person who wanted to see your face for the second time," Renomon said with a heartfelt smile.
Renamon gave a halfhearted smirk.
"So Renamon, what do you say?" Renomon asked, "are you going back to the Foxwood Village with me or not? What is your decision?"
"My decision," Renamon said, "my decision is…….I don't know."
"You don't know? What does that suppose to mean?" Renomon inquired a bit flabbergasted.
"It means that I'm uncertain of what my decision is going to be," Renamon answered, "Renomon this is a very big choice I have to make here. If I go with you to the Foxwood village, I will be allowed to see my sister and my old Renomon and Renamon friends again but…that also means that I have to leave Rika and the others forever."
"So, what's your point?" Renomon said.
"My point is that I need more time to think about this," Renamon said, "I will need about an hour or two to think this over because this is a very big decision I have to make."
"I see," Renomon said, "you need more time, eh?"
"Yes," Renamon answered.
"Very well then," Renomon answered crossing his arms, "since I'm leaving in two days, I will give you one whole day to think about this whole situation and by the end of tomorrow, I want your final decision Renamon. Agreed?"
"Agreed," Renamon answered.
"Fine then," Renomon said, "I will now leave you to your thinking."
Turning his back to Renamon, Renomon slowly started walking away from the golden and white vixen. But then Renomon stopped for a second. "Renamon," Renomon said.
"Yes Renomon," Renamon answered.
"I just want you to remember this while you're thinking," Renomon answered, "if you by any chance you decide to stay here in the Human world then I suggest that you rethink it over because…if I may recall, as long as you live in this world then not only will you be hated by most of the humans here but you will also be hated by your ex-lover too. And do you really want to be loathed that much for the rest of your life. Think about that."
Renamon stared wide-eyed at Renomon. Conjuring up his usual sapphire cloak, Renomon whisked the coat around his body and after that, he was gone. After Renomon had disappeared, Renamon returned to her seat on top the rock pillar, now watching as day slowly turned to night.
Now Renamon had to make the biggest decision of her life. The only question she did not know what to answer was what was her conclusion was going to be?
The other day quickly came. As usual, it was another perfect day and the tamers seized this day to throw another tamers' group picnic only this time they threw it at the West Shinjuku shoreline. All the digimon eagerly went with their tamers to the beach, all excluding Renamon.
It seems that Renamon did not want to go to the beach. No matter how many times Rika begged her to come and relax on the sandy beach, the vixen refused. Truth was, Renamon did want to go to the beach but then she decided not to go for only two specific reasons.
One: Renamon still had to think about leaving the real world for the Foxwood village or not and Two: Wolfemon was at the beach.
As much as she hated to admit it, Renamon was trying to avoid Wolfemon. She knew if she had gone on that tamers' group picnic with everyone else, she would not have been able to even look the wolf-like in the eye without being scolded at and Wolfemon's glare made Renamon's skin crawl.
So as the tamers and other digimon were by the beach, enjoying themselves excitedly, Renamon went to the West Shinjuku Park. Renamon did not know why she went there in the first place but she figured that the only reason she went to the park was because it was the only place in the whole city with lots of serenity.
Enough serenity so Renamon could think peacefully.
So the for the other fourteen hours in the day, Renamon stayed in the park. She sat on top of a shady tree while she thought long and hard about the decision that she'll make. From time to time, the golden fox would jump off her porch and just start pacing around the park. She didn't know why she bothered to do that because no matter how much she paced, she still could not make up her mind.
It was only six o'clock in the evening when Renamon finally stopped her continuous pacing. She was very exhausted now from those long hours of pacing up and down. But even after that, Renamon still had not made her decision. Slumping onto the ground tiredly, Renamon inhaled a breath of air and then breathed out gradually.
"Ooh I can't believe it," Renamon groaned wearily, "after all those hours I still hadn't made my decision. (Sighs) I just don't know what I'm going to do."
Renamon leaned back on the soft grass of the park and stared up at the sky. The sky looked very attractive when the sun sets. the beautiful shades of rose pink reflected in Renamon's blue orbs as she stared absently at the clouds.
"Awh, what a lovely sunset with such beautiful clouds," Renamon thought, "I've never seen one so extraordinary in my life. I wonder…my sister would have loved to see something as pretty as like this."
Renamon sulked sadly. "Oh now I remember, I don't know what my sister would think because she's not here with me, she's back in the Foxwood village in the digital world," Renamon sadly.
Renamon turned her body to the left. "Hmm, I wonder if my sister even remembers me," Renamon said.
FLASHBACK……….
Renomon: Yes. Think of how trilled your sister will be to see you again after so long Renamon, she has missed you a lot ever since the last Foxwood Village burnt down. Her only wish was to see your face again.
END OF FLASHBACK……….
"Then again, I guess she didn't forget me," Renamon said remembering what Renomon had said, "as I did not forget about her."
Renamon then raised her head up to the sky. "Oh my dear sister. My only wish is to see you again too. Infact I would be more than happy to see you and all my friends back in the Foxwood Village. But for some strange reason, I think I can't," Renamon said.
"I don't know what is the matter with me is?" Renamon continued, "I would have loved to go back to the Foxwood village. After all, it was the place of my birth. Seeing my home once again would be the best thing to ever happen to me. But something is holding me back from deciding to go back home and I don't know what it is."
Getting off the ground, Renamon started pacing again.
"What? What is holding me back," Renamon thought in frustration, "is it the fact that I will miss Rika if I leave? No that's not it. Is it the fact that I will miss all my good digimon friends? No that's not it either."
Renamon stopped her pacing. "It's something…bigger than that," the yellow fox said, "and…I think that bigger thing is……Wolfemon."
Renamon shook in her head. "No! Wolfemon can't be the reason I'm having problems deciding," Renamon said, "or maybe he is. Maybe I just don't want to the leave the real world because…I don't want to leave Wolfemon. And as much as hate to admit it, I'm still…in love with Wolfemon. Even after he yelled at me, I still have feelings for him. I don't know why, I just do."
Renamon then leapt on top of a sycamore tree. "Question is," she continued, "does Wolfemon still have feelings for me? I guess the only way I could figure that out is if I go to him…in person."
And with one final glance up at the now sunset orange sky, Renamon bounded out of the park and immediately teleported herself to another yet familiar place.
Renamon had reappeared right on top the roof of the Istosh family abode, home of tamers: Mia and Alex Istosh. Making sure not to make too much noise, Renamon slowly crept up the roof and looked down from the edge. From there, the vixen could see only the balcony of the house. No one was on the balcony at that moment and Renamon waited cautiously. Soon two loud voices were heard.
"Wolfemon! Wolfemon, would you please listen me!" said one voice.
"No I will not. What you have to say is of no importance to me," said another voice.
Renamon cocked up her ears. She had recognized those two voices. One of them belonged to Gabumon and the other….to Wolfemon. Quivering a bit, Renamon peered down at the balcony where two digimon now stood. They were Wolfemon and Gabumon. Making sure that she could not be seen by either digimon, Renamon looked at both Gabumon and Wolfemon and listened attentively to the conversation that they were having.
"Wolfemon, why were you acting so strange around everyone today?" Gabumon asked Wolfemon.
Wolfemon snarled. "My behavior doesn't concern you Gabumon," Wolfemon answered stubbornly.
"Your behavior doesn't concern me? Of course it concerns me," Gabumon said taken aback, "Wolfemon your attitude towards the other digimon today was atrocious. Especially after what you did to Calumon and Marineangemon."
"All I did was touch their silly sandcastle." Wolfemon said.
"Touch it! You knocked it down," Gabumon shouted, "the sandcastle was at least 3ft tall and you knocked the whole thing down to nothing."
"So what's wrong with that," Wolfemon said snobbishly, "it's not my fault that that sandcastle of Marineangemon and Calumon annoyed me enough to tear it down to size."
"Did the sandcastle annoy you because Calumon and Marineangemon also drew a small picture of Renamon's face on it?" Gabumon said.
Wolfemon gritted his teeth angrily. "Don't…mention that name." Wolfemon snarled.
Gabumon rolled his eyes and shook his head. "Wolfemon, are you ever going to speak to Renamon again?" Gabumon asked.
"For the last time do not mention that name," Wolfemon snarled, "and no, I may never speak to…what's her name again as long as I live."
"But isn't it time that you forgave her," Gabumon continued, "I mean, Renamon did say that she was sorry for what she had done."
"No I may never forgive her again," Wolfemon answered, "and if I may recall Gabumon, I clearly said that I now despised Renamon more than anything else."
"But, what if something terrible happened to Renamon?" Gabumon said.
Wolfemon opened his mouth to answer but then he paused for a while. Renamon observed this watchfully, his heart was pounding for the anxiety of Wolfemon's response.
"If something terrible happened to Renamon," Wolfemon repeated hesitantly, "then…I wouldn't care one bit."
For the second time, Renamon felt her heart being shattered like glass as she stared at Wolfemon. Gabumon was also staring at Wolfemon, his jaw drooping.
"You wouldn't care! How wouldn't you care?" Gabumon yelled at Wolfemon.
"Because Gabumon, as I said before I no longer love Renamon," Wolfemon said, "she means nothing to me now. I wouldn't care if a building came crashing down on her right now; as long as I don't ever see her lying face again, that's fine with me."
"Wolfemon," Gabumon said stunned, "are you listening to yourself? Are you listening to what you are saying?"
"Yes I am Gabumon and I won't take it back," Wolfemon said, "now will you excuse I'm going back inside."
Wolfemon walked past Gabumon and vanished inside the house.
Gabumon goggled after Wolfemon as he followed him back inside. The navy-striped dog-like could not believe what the grey wolf-like had just said. Neither did Renamon.
I no longer love Renamon; she means nothing to me now. I wouldn't care if a building came crashing down on her right now; as long as I don't ever see her lying face again, that's fine with me.
Those very words coursed through Renamon's mind as she stared at the balcony where the once love of her life previously stood. The golden fox still could not believe what she had heard.
I no longer love Renamon; she means nothing to me now. I wouldn't care if a building came crashing down on her right now; as long as I don't ever see her lying face again, that's fine with me.
"Did he really mean that?" Renamon thought, "I guess…he did."
Tears started flowing from Renamon's eyes again. "How could Wolfemon had said such a thing about me," Renamon said softly, "I can't believe that he said that he no longer loves me. Then again…that wasn't the first time that he said it."
FLASHBACK……..
Wolfemon: What I am saying is I no longer love or like you Renamon. I now hate you and I hope that this will be the last time I ever see your dishonest face.
END OF FLASBACK……….
"I now hate you and I hope that this will be the last time I ever see your dishonest face," Renamon repeated remembering what the words that Wolfemon had said to her the previous afternoon. Renamon then clenched her fists. Now she was furious, tears still continuing to fall from her eyes.
"Wolfemon hopes that this will be the last time he sees my dishonest face, huh?" Renamon said her folded fists shaking with anger, "well then I will grant his wish."
Renamon then turned backwards. "Now I know what I must do," the yellow fox-like said and after that, she disappeared into thin air once more.
At around half past midnight, Renamon had another rendezvous with Renomon. Both foxes had arrived simultaneously on the same spot they had met before: the rock pillar in the unknown place.
"You called for me Renamon," Renomon said to the female fox.
Renamon nodded. "Yes, I just wanted you to know that I have made my decision," Renamon said.
"Really," Renomon said smirking, "so what is your decision?"
"I have decided that……I will go back with you to Foxwood village Renomon," Renamon answered.
Renamon eyes widened. "What?" he said a tad stunned, "you mean, you are coming back to stay in your old village….forever."
"Yes, I am," Renamon answered coolly.
Renomon all of a sudden embraced Renamon, which sort of caught her by surprise.
"Oh Renamon, I am so glad that you're coming back," Renomon said blissfully.
"I'm happy too Renomon," Renamon answered.
"But tell me, what made you finally decide to go back?" Renomon said.
Renamon sulked sadly. "I rather not…say," she answered.
"Okay," Renomon said understandingly, "but you know, I don't care what your reason was Renamon, the best thing is that you're leaving this retched human world forever and going back to the Foxwood village."
"You're sure right Renomon," Renamon said smiling slightly, "I'm leaving the human world…forever."
MistressPC: I guess some of readers all must be really mad with Wolfemon after what he said about Renamon, huh?
Wolfemon: Heh it was you who made me say that line you know because it's your fic, remember Mistress?
MistressPC: Oh yeah, I did. (laughs nervously) anyways, now that Renamon had made her decision, it is now time for her to say 'Goodbye' in Chapter 9: Goodbye Real World! the final chapter Please review.