A/N: Remember, Rogue's accent only comes out when she's upset. She's had a chance to calm down now, so she's back to normal. Also, everyone who wanted Logan to get it, let me grant your request. :) But now it's back to serious. Sorry. At least it could be worse. Wait, maybe I shouldn't have said that….Well, Enjoy!
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The steady pulsing beeps of the machines around her brought Rogue out of her little nap. Slowly, she raised her head, taking another long look at Remy lying in the medical bed. In the main part of the Med Lab, outside the enclosed area of the Intensive Care Module, Hank busied himself looking at charts and going over reports on the latest break through treatments to increase Remy's chance of recovery.
After making sure that the doctor wouldn't disturb her privacy, she squeezed her love's hand before standing to look down at him. Brushing a stray lock of hair out of his face she let her bare hand rest on his unharmed cheek. Rogue surveyed the damage she had done. While it was true she didn't actually cause the accident or force him to drink and drive, she was the reason for Remy's bout with depression. She recognized it as soon as they got back from bringing Jean home. As she and Logan intensified their relationship, Remy became increasingly distant.
It was cruel of her to carry on with the other man, but Remy had promised her a long time ago that his life in New Orleans was over and nothing would be able to take him away. Then he came to her with the problems facing his family and the fact that he couldn't ignore them, she was absolutely devastated. Suddenly, Logan started showing up more and more. Maybe it was just the heartache from losing Remy. Maybe it was the fact that, in his absence, the opportunity to live a school girl crush was made available to her. Maybe she just wanted to hurt him the way he had wounded her.
No matter the excuse, the fact of the matter was Rogue should never have carried on with Logan the way she did and as long as she did. After getting closer to him, she realized the feelings she held as a seventeen year old were no longer present or enough to sustain a relationship. Logan would never be able to capture her heart and soul as completely as Remy had. Yet, she was unwilling to admit this and instead punished herself for her betrayal by refusing happiness with her one true love.
If only she had come to terms with her actions and abandoned her self loathing.
If only she had ended her relationship with Logan before things could happen.
If only she had not accepted Logan's advances so quickly after Remy's leaving.
If only she had believed in his promises and trusted Remy when he made them.
If only, if only, if only…
It didn't matter now. Rogue could beat herself up all she liked, but it wouldn't change a damn thing and it wouldn't make Remy jump once again healthy out of the bed before her. She was torn between the life she had chosen to lead while faced with the representation of all the happy possibilities her life could have brought. Her choices were made. No matter what, she had to live with them. Even with this realization, she found no comfort. All these thoughts were never resting in her active mind; never ceasing so she could find peace.
Pausing the gently smoothing motions rubbing up and down his cheek, Rogue grabbed his hand in both of hers. She whispered softly to him.
"When I was coming back here tonight, all I could think about was getting to see you before…before…I realized tonight just how much you mean to me."
Tears started to form in the corners of her eyes again and she blinkingly looked up in an attempt to keep them at bay. Her nose started to run as a side effect of the unshed moisture. Sniffling while breathing in to try to gain composure, Rogue once again returned her sight to the man lying before her.
"I'm so sorry I didn't wait for you. I should have believed you when you said nothing could keep us apart for long. You never thought about loving any woman but me and I turned my back on loving you. It's horrible that it took tonight to understand the depth between you and me, to understand that, no matter what, my mind, my heart, my soul is, and always shall be, forever yours. You're the only one that's here in my head now."
No longer able to hold back the emotion threatening to spill over, she let her tears fall in an unending river down her cheeks. She finally had to break one hand away from their embrace so she could vainly wipe at the dampness with the back of her hand.
"Is it selfish of me to want a second chance with you? I know there is no way I come close to even justifying one. You're not someone I deserve."
"You're kiddin', right darlin'?"
Rogue had missed Logan come into the Med Lab. She had even been oblivious to him standing in the ICM's doorway. Not knowing how much of her confession he overheard and not particularly caring, she focused her attention on her shortly to be dumped boyfriend.
"What do you mean?"
"That Cajun is the one who doesn't deserve you, not the other way around. He's the one who left you, remember? He's the one who made you cry on my shoulder when I got back after he'd taken off. He's the one who-"
"-Enough, I get the picture, but you're wrong Logan. Yeah, I may have cried my heart out. That wasn't an invitation for you to move in on me. I was vulnerable."
Moving farther into the room, Logan stood just inches away from Rogue, her hand still tightly clasping Remy's. The moisture in her eyes evaporated, only to be replaced by a quickly growing indignation.
"I didn't hear you complainin'."
"What was I supposed to do, Logan? Despite what I may like to admit, I was on the rebound from the man I love leaving and my teenage crush took the opportunity to hit on me."
"Hit on you! Darlin', you were the one who came to me."
"Oh come on. You could see I was in no condition to-"
"-No condition my ass, Marie. If you were in no condition why did you start flirtin' with me?"
She had taken about enough of this conversation as she was willing. Her indignation rose to a silent rage boiling through her blood. It was time to end this once and for all. Breaking away from Remy for the first time since she came down, Rogue closed the few inches to Logan so she could get right up in his face.
"It doesn't matter who did what to whom. The fact of the matter is you knew my heart belonged to someone else and you preyed on that vulnerable state. You should have recognized any attentions I threw your way were a means to defend my feelings."
"Excuse me, but when a woman starts to hit on me I take it as genuine interest. What the hell is wrong with you anyway? If I didn't know better I'd swear you were the one who'd hit her head. You're fuckin' delusion right now, Marie."
"No, for once I see clearly what I've been missing all these months. Besides, how can any kind of love between us be a good thing? I would only tie you down here when you wanted nothing more than to be out on the road. And you would only grow to resent the fact that I won't always want to wander around Canada with you while you try to find your past."
The look on his face set hard lines into his features. His jaw clenched; his brow furrowed; his lips pursed. Rogue could see the intense anger coursing through him. Surprisingly, she sensed no despondency over the situation. Maybe he had already realized everything she had just told him. Logan continued through clenched teeth.
"What are you trying to say?"
"Logan, I've made my choice. No matter what happens, my heart lies with Remy."
The emotions tensing his rugged features eased away. He looked as though he had more to say, but in the end, decided to keep his mouth shut. How could he compete with a vegetable? There was no guarantee the man would wake up and even if he did if he would ever be the same, yet she chose to spend her life with the sweet talker in the bed than with him. Logan recognized a long time ago that Rogue was only with him because of Remy. And though he hadn't really admitted it yet, he was only with her because of Jean. This was not a war he was willing to fight.
Turning, Logan left the ICM just as Hank came to the doorway. The blue doctor was concerned the fighting might disturb his patient. As Logan brushed past him and out of the Med Lab, he realized the escalating display of emotions was over. Watching Rogue turn her attention back to the man in the bed, Hank decided to let the young woman alone to her thoughts. In this rare occasion, it was not his place to intervene. Besides, he really didn't have the opportunity since as soon as Logan left Kurt entered.
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R/R: Once again, thank you to everyone who's taking a peek. I hope that those who were disappointed with the end of Cruel Twist of Fate are now satisfied since Rogue's rid herself of Logan. And to my Fix Feeders:
giggety giggety goo: LOL! Love your screen name. Quagmire reference? Anyway, sorry to confuse you. There were flashbacks in the first part of this fic, so I continued the flow in this one. Don't worry though, there's only one more left, so I'll try to make it a little clearer next time. Also didn't mean to write Hank so formal. It just seemed like something he would say. No, it wasn't that hard to write him, just had to do a little research. And I'm happy to hear that you liked the Astral Plane. So glad you're enjoying the fic. :) Thanks for Feeding the Fix!
WolvGambit Le Diable Blanc: I'm happy to see you thought that chapter was interesting:) Thanks for Feeding the Fix!
Prexistence: Sorry. I've been kinda mean with this one. Okay, really mean. And see, there was one surprise this chapter that if you knew, you'd be expecting it and it wouldn't have been as good! Yep, they're happy in the flashback. Too bad it doesn't last. But hey, life's not a flashback. It's not always peachy keen. (And by the way, I've given you a ton of A/N clues this time around.) For once, there was no real cliffy, so you'll be somewhat at ease until the next post. :) I know, that won't happen until the end, huh? Thanks for Feeding the Fix!
MJK: Aww, thank you. I thought Remy would find a way to break down Rogue objections through actions as opposed to just talking about it. Okay, did this chapter answer a couple of the 'them breaking up' questions? If not, there's more to come about it. Hmm, no actual break up you say? Hmmm, I don't know. Guess you'll just have to keep reading to find out. :) Thanks for Feeding the Fix!
ishandahalf: I'm so glad you enjoyed the happy interlude. And yep, you should be worried because of my buttering up with cuteness. I know, I'm mean. LOL. Shirtless, wet Remy…Sorry, you had me drifting off to fantasy land also. :) Well, he's shirtless in this scene, too, just a little mangled is all. Yeah, shirtless, wet Remy's better. Thanks for Feeding the Fix!
