Kami hated seeing the satisfied smirk on Orochimaru's face. She looked at the ground.

"Yes," said Orochimaru. "I thought we'd see things my way. You can go to your room any time you want to now, and we will begin the healing tomorrow." Orochimaru exited the room.

'I've just betrayed the Leaf Village.. For a person I barely know..'

"Why are you doing this?" Sasuke asked.

"I don't know.." 'Such a stupid reply.' Kami thought miserably. She felt Sasuke's hand touch her arm and she willed herself to turn his way. She felt pathetic.

"Why.. Did you hug me that night?"

Kami didn't know what to say in response to that. 'Why did I hug him?'

"You were having a nightmare.." Kami uttered softly. "And.. I have a true answer to your question from before. I want you to live.. Because I want you to live to kill the man that you hate.."

Sasuke was mildly surprised. 'This has nothing to do with her,' he thought. 'Is she truly that sympathetic towards my past?'

"I don't need your pity."

Kami's eyes flashed with pain for a brief second before she shifted her gaze to her hands that were clasped in her lap. She stood up to leave but felt Sasuke gently grab her arm.

"Stay.. Please.."

Kami turned to face him. "I don't pity you," she told him softly. Her wrist slid out of his grasp as she pulled away and exited the room.

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It was almost midnight, Kami assumed. She lay in her bed, pondering over what Sasuke had told her. She somewhat regretted leaving instead of staying but she didn't want him to get the idea that she was too desperate.

'Why am I even doing this? Because he has the same 'past' as me?' She thought. She wondered if anyone would find her before the next month. She hoped so-if they did she wouldn't have to heal Orochimaru's arms and betray them all.

'I'm not doing this all for Sasuke, anyway' she thought. 'It's not like I have a choice. He'd just torture me until I did say yes. He would heal me over and over again, so that he could torture me more,' she sighed.

'Am I even capable of healing his arms?' Kami thought. She hadn't ever told anyone her secrets other than Sasuke about she being some sort of monster.. She didn't think anyone but Orochimaru knew that she had the healing skills.

'A benefit of being a monster,' she thought grimly. 'What am I?'

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Kami fell to the floor as sweat drenched the back of her shirt. She gritted her teeth and squeezed her eyes shut as she felt the pain within her get worse. 'No, not now..' She pleaded to herself.

She squeezed her eyes shut as she painfully suppressed a scream. 'I can't let him know,' she thought desperately.

She suddenly felt her nails grow longer and sharper and felt a sharp pain above her ears. Her tongue was forced downwards as her teeth grew sharper.

She stood up and sprinted out of the door, and raced down the hall.

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'What was that?' Sasuke thought. He quickly sat upright from his sleeping position on his bed and walked to his door. 'I felt chakra.. A lot of chakra. It didn't feel like Orochimaru's.' He opened the door and his eyes widened as he saw a girl in Kami's clothes. 'That.. Can't be Kami.' He thought. The girl had silvery white hair, sharp claws, and white ears perched almost at the top of her hair. Suddenly, the figure turned and stared at him with piercing golden eyes.

Sasuke stared at the girl's blood-red eyes. They reminded him of something.. She licked her lips and suddenly lunged at him with an amazing speed, catching him off guard. He felt her try to claw at his stomach but he blocked her claws. He suddenly remembered what Kami had told him.

'I'm.. A monster.'

'I can't hurt her,' he thought.

"Kami, it's me-Sasuke!" He said, but received no response that the creature had even heard him. "Kami.." Suddenly, he embraced her and pulled her into a hug. She tried to escape his grasp and he winced as he felt one of her claws slice his arm but then he felt all movement stop.

'Does she remember?' He thought.

"Sasuke.." Said the voice, but it was different.. It sounded.. Strained. She clutched her head in her arms and he saw her eyes flash from red to golden. She suddenly raced down the hall and he followed after her but found that it was hard to keep up with her.

'I can't hurt him' She thought as she desperately ran from him, trying to get as far away from him and the castle as possible. When she jumped through a window, she landed on the grassy floor without a sound and squeezed her eyes shut as she ran towards the forest.

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Kami felt herself losing control again as she felt her eyes flash from golden to red again. She ran faster.

She heard Sasuke's footsteps echoing behind her and gritted her teeth. 'Stupid Sasuke,' she thought angrily. 'If you come near me I'll kill you!'

Fortunately for her, the footsteps slowly faded and she heard only her own. She slowly stopped and allowed her heart beat to regulate as she struggled to maintain control of her body.

She was in the forest.

'Why do I have to be cursed with this!' She thought inwardly, her fists clenching as she shut her eyes.

She had caused and endured so much pain.. All because every month she turned into a monster and had to kill.

She wanted it to stop.

She heaved a sigh of relief as the mad urge to kill was drove from her senses-temporarily. 'What now?' She thought. Sasuke had seen the monster she was. He had seen what she would turn into every month if she stayed with him.

She endangered him.

'All of the villages are cautious of me,' she thought. 'I'll be homeless.'

She wiped a tear that had traveled from her right eye down to her cheek. 'Stop pitying yourself, Kami,' she scolded herself. 'You'll find a way..'

She walked through the forest. 'If only I could find my way back to the village..' she thought, but then realized that she was still in her demon form. The people would see the real her if her appearance illusion faded if she lost control.

She sighed.

She walked through the trees but abruptly stopped as she reached a clearing.

'It's.. Beautiful,' she thought. It was a crystal clear lake in the middle of a garden filled with various flowers, but mostly roses. She walked towards the garden but quickly changed her appearance to her human one, paranoid that someone would see her even here.

"Who made this?" She murmured to herself as she touched the soft, silky petal of a pink rose.

She gently plucked it off of its stem and brought it to her nose as she smelled its scents and sighed. She brought it back down from her nose but let out a sharp gasp as she saw a black cloaked figure a few feet away from her.

"Who are you?" She was surprised to hear that her voice had come out steady, the emotion very different than what she felt on the inside. She took a step backwards as she saw the figure advance towards her.

She gasped again when she felt something solid behind her.

"I can see through your illusion."

Kami felt her heart skip a beat as she heard the man's deep voice. What did this mean? Did this mean that he could see that she was a monster?

Or was he just toying with her?

She stared at the figure that was behind her and wondered why the voice had come directly behind her. She slowly turned around and saw the same figure, but her face paled as she stared into two crimson eyes.

Time seemed to stop as the man and Kami stared at each other, their gaze never breaking. All of Kami's thoughts seemed to vanish as she couldn't think of a word to say, but she was startled when she heard the man say something.

"Tsukiyomi."

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All right, I'm sorry I haven't been updating, and I know the story's been boring so far, but I've finally introduced Itachi! yay!

okay well itachi didnt REALLY use tsukiyomi.. he just made her pass out, and youll see why in the next chapter. please review!