Rokubungi Legacies Chapter 5: Third Impact: 1, an evangelion fanfic

Disclaimer on chapter 1. Also, I do not own the Macross/SRT reference in here. Banpresto owns SRT, forgot who owns Macross, but whoever it was, they rock.

A/N: The first of the Third Impact stories! How much darkness can I fill it up with? Is it A: Not much, B: Adequate, or C: Overloaded?

Find out by reading!

Shinji stared at the red halo and black moon that now orbits the Earth. The remains of Tokyo-3 is now a giant crater, another giant crater that is bigger than the last, and small giant craters and piles of rubble all over the place. He was on the beach, he realized, as his hands squeezed the soft, dry sand. The strange thing was, he couldn't hear the children, the love-struck teens, or the tired adults cheering and playing. All he could hear was the wind, and his own breathing.

"I... Failed?" His vocal cords failed him, but his mind did not. "So, in the end, I'm still the Useless Shinji nobody would ever want? Heh, figures." He smiled to himself, and heard a wave crash against the lonely sandy shore. Instinctively, he tilted his head to the right. A familiar shape stood over the orange ocean.

"Rei! REI! Please, help me Rei!" He tried to scream, but his lips wouldn't move. His tongues wouldn't budge. He wanted to project his voice to the blue haired girl, but nothing came. "I... I don't want to be alone... Asuka rejected me..." He turned his head back to the red orbiting halo.

"Don't leave me. I... I was scared of you. You... Your clones... They scared me. But in the end, you were there for me. Not Asuka, not Misato, but you, Rei." The last boy on earth turned his head back to where he saw Rei. "I... I can't even talk... REI! REI! Don't leave me too! PLEASE! NO!" The boy tried to reach for the girl that was his mother, but could not lift his hand.

"Is this... My punishment? For failing? Why do I care anyways, nobody cared. Nobody loved me. Everybody who did died. Heh, why did I bother?" The hysterical boy mused to himself as his eyelids got heavier. "It's alright though... Nobody is here to hurt me anymore..." His eyes welled up with salty tears, and nobody knew how long he slept.

The brown haired boy opened his eyes, and found the halo still there, but it seemed closer.

"Is it just my imagination? Must be. It must be getting to me." He thought to himself, a sadistic grin on his face. "I killed everybody. Why do I feel sad? Why should I feel sad? Nobody felt sorry for me. Nobody cared for me." He mused to himself, as he pushed his weary body into a sitting position.

"I can... Move?" The boy felt every muscle in his body ache, but in a soothing way. He felt as if he became alive again. "So God wants me to live for my sins, does he? For killing everybody? Just fine with me. Nobody will hurt me ever again. Nobody..." He widened his grin. "Nobody... Nobody... Nobody can... Nobody can hurt me... I'll kill them. I'll kill them like I killed the rest of humanity. I'll... I'll kill them..." The crazed berserker shifted his eyes to his left, knowing he will not find anything to the right but oceans and the memory of the the last person to understand him.

What greeted his sight was the one person that he wanted to kill the most. A certain red head he loved and hated at the same time. "You... You rejected me. I needed you... Why? Why did you reject me? You didn't care. All you cared about is yourself. People like you... People like you should die, right? Right? Asuka... Sleep! Sleep in your dreams of being the great Sohryu Asuka Langley!" He wrapped his hands around her throat, and squeezed with his rejuvenated body.

"Maybe how you lived was the right way to live. To care for only yourself. We are alike, aren't we? But how we dealt with ourselves was different. I admired you, but you insulted me. I hated you, but you kept pulling me back. I loved you, but you blocked my reach. Why did you torture me like this?" The boy's face turned into a frown, then into a rage-filled face of a beast. His arms shaking with the force he put into them, and all sorts of crazed scenarios going through his demented mind.

"Disappear, disappear Asuka. You hate me, don't you? You wouldn't like this world. This world is my world now. You should go back to sleeping. You should sleep in the Third Impact. Sleep with everybody else. Sleep with Kaji, with your mother." He pushed his hands to their limits, determined to kill Asuka.

Asuka awakened from her daze. "Why, Shinji?" She thought to herself. "Baka-Shinji..."

She lifted her hand, and caressed his cheek. The grip on her throat loosened, and loosened, until finally the hands rested on either side of her head.

"Why? Why did I stop? I hate you... I hate you... I don't love you..." The tamed beast cried. He cried not tears of sadness, or joy. He cried tears of frustration, as he ran. He ran far from the girl he loved and hated.

"I hate you... I hate you... No... I love you... Do I? I do, don't I? Heh... I'll kill... I'll kill everybody..." His vocal cords finally working, he repeated his mantra to himself. Looking down at the ground, he found something that caught his attention. A JSSDF issue combat knife, and a surprisingly undamaged pistol. He shot the pool of LCL that he found with the weapons three times, and spat in it. "Pathetic, killing defenseless people."

The young Ikari walked like a zombie down the street, away from the beach, into the series of craters that used to be Tokyo-3, where he know he would find more remains of the JSSDF weaponry, and the remains of their bodies.

"Nobody cares... I'll kill... I kill everybody..."

Asuka laid, staring at the halo and black moon that now orbits the Earth.

"What's wrong with the idiot?" She said to herself. "And why am I bandaged like this?"

The memories of the battle flooded back to her. The Eva series, the brutal slaughter of her Unit-02, and the splitting of her arm.

"I lost... So Invincible Shinji saved me again." Asuka murmured to herself. She scanned her surroundings. "They're here..." She thought to herself. "Mama... Why...? Are you still watching over me?"

She got up, strangely feeling no pain from her arm or her eyes.

"I... I'll live, mama... Please don't stop watching over me." She whispered to herself, and she walked towards where Shinji had disappeared to. "Baka-Shinji, what are you trying to do?"

Shinji took his time in rummaging through the city, unleashing his anger on whatever LCL remains of JSSDF soldiers he came across. All the guns and ammo he came across were depleted by his wrath. Unfortunately for Asuka, she saw the demonic, demented face of Shinji as he emptied the last of his shotgun into the ground.

"Shinji...?" Asuka said, unsure of herself. She was afraid. Afraid of this demon in front of her. It wasn't the Shinji she knew, it wasn't the Shinji she hated, and it wasn't the Shinji who always saved her.

"Asuka... Why...? I let you live... Do you want to return to Kaji after all?" The insane Third Child asked, tossing his shotgun away, pulling out the combat knife he picked up some time ago. "You should be dead... Like everybody I killed..." He sobbed, as he raised his knife, stunning the usually arrogant red haired demoness. "I could've saved them, Asuka. But nobody cared about me. Nobody. They all blamed me. They all hated me. You hated me, Misato used me, my father didn't know I even existed." A sad smile appeared on his face. Tears flowed freely down his cheeks.

"Why don't you join them? Join them along with Kaji?" He stepped closer to the girl. "Kaworu loved me, Asuka. He loved me, but I killed him. My mom loved me, but my Eva swallowed her. Everybody who loved me ended up dead by something of mine." Shinji's smile disappeared. "You never cared. Why should you be the one to live with me? Why not mother? Why not Kaworu? I loved them, Asuka, and they returned my love." Shinji muttered through gritted teeth. "Why don't you die? Die and join the rest of them? It will be my gift, to be free of me once and for all. You hate me, don't you?"

For the first time in her life, the great Sohryu Asuka Langley felt true fear, a fear that not even the fifteenth could bestow upon her. She was standing in front of a boy whom she had driven to the edges, a wimpy boy who always apologized. Pushed over the edge, he is now the embodiment of insanity.

"Yes, you do. You won't even talk to me. I'm worthless. I should be alone, so nobody else can be hurt." He continued, as if he couldn't stop. He took another step towards the girl who he had been rejected by. "I'll kill you, and you will be a part of the halo above us. You will join Rei-no, Lilith in her egg, her black moon. Lilims are born of Lilith, it's only natural we return to her as well."

Asuka trembled, concentrated on running away, or at least saying something. She found herself unable to move under the insane boy's gaze.

"You know, Kaworu said... We're not true descendants of god. Unlike Angels, we're born of Lilith, and are the false inheritors of the Black Moon." Shinji laughed, and took yet another step. "He wanted to return to his father, Adam, at the cost of his identity, his life. To merge with him and deliver him his soul. Don't you want to do the same with our mother? Don't you feel compelled?"

Unable to take it anymore, Asuka finally let out a ear-piercing shriek in an attempt to regain control.

"What is WRONG with you, Third Child!" She screamed into the startled, rambling boy's face. "All you've been doing is rambling about how you killed people and this Kaworu guy! What are you? Stupid?" She looked at the startled boy, who had not changed position since her shriek. "And if you love this Kaworu guy, are you homosexual or what? Why don't you kill yourself to be with your boyfriend!" She screamed, and found a knife soaring half an inch from her face.

"Shut up! I'm not worthy... I killed Kaworu... Kaworu..." Shinji began curling into a ball, on the ground. "Kaworu... You betrayed me... Like father..." Shinji pulled his knee closer to himself. "My SDAT! I... I have to... I have to find my SDAT..." He murmured to himself, shaking violently.

Seeing the psychologically screwed up co-worker in front of her, Asuka felt compelled to walk up to him, yank his hair back and give him a slap. She did what she was compelled to do.

Rubbing his cheek, Shinji simply repeated something Kaworu had said. "A song is good. A song brings us joy. A song is the highest culture that Lilims have created. Don't you think so?" A sad smile appeared on his face.

"What is WRONG with you! Stop rambling!" Asuka screamed at her broken roommate. "Snap out of it, baka-Shinji!"

"Why don't you leave me alone? Find some food and water for yourself?" Shinji whispered, standing up.

"Baka-Shinji, you're coming with me like it or not!" She dragged her soulless companion through the ruins of Tokyo-3, in hopes of finding either JSSDF rations or some actual food not vaporized by N2 mines.

"Asuka, why?" Shinji asked, bewildered by her offer.

"Because, we're the last two people on Earth, and I need a housebroken male to do my work!" She replied, with an angry tone.

"Asuka... Why? Don't you want to return to Kaji?" Shinji continued interrogating the girl.

"Ok, let me make my point clear." Asuka said, dropping Shinji's arm and turning to face him. "I, WANT, TO, LIVE. Even if it's with an idiot like you. Snap out of your little self-pity insanity! Everybody is already dead, but we're alive. We should live it out for the rest of them! Now, you can go kill dead people in self-pity once I'm dead, but I need you when I'm still alive, ok?" Asuka explained, in her usual arrogant tone, despite all her fears for the boy before her. "And mother... Mother wanted me to live..."

"Asuka, would you like to hear it?" Shinji smiled, this time no longer sad. More glad that somebody finally accepted him.

"What, your rambling? No thanks." She said, snobbishly as she began dragging Shinji through the ruins of the city once more.

"No, his song. The song Kaworu left me before he died." Shinji answered in a calm, happy tone.

"God, Third Child, I don't know how good you are at the Karaoke bar, but I'd rather not hear you screw up a song." Her words went to deaf ears, however, as Shinji had already begun.

Ima anata no koe ga kikoeru,
"Koko ni oide" to.
Samishisa ni, make souna watashi ni.
Ima anata no sugata ga mieru,
Aruite kuru...
Me wo tojite matte iru watashi ni.

Asuka couldn't help but find how Shinji seemed to have a completely different voice as he sang. She couldn't help but feel his insanity was just a distant dream, and this was the wimpy Shinji she had always known him to be.

Kinou made, namida de kumotteta.
Kokora wa, ima.

Shinji's content smile as he sang spoke more than the song itself. His tears of joy shouted to the world how happy he was, to have this great gift from the first person to love him, Kaworu.

Oboete imasu ka? Me to me ga atta toki wo?
Oboete imasu ka? Te to te ga fureatta toki?
Sore wa hajimete no, ai no tabidachi deshita.
I love you so.

Asuka felt a warm feeling inside of her, wishing Shinji had been singing it to her rather than Kaworu. "NO! Damn it, he isn't the only one going insane!"

Ima anata no shisen kanjiru,
Hanaretetemo.
Karada-juu ga, atatakaku naru no.
Ima anata no ai shinjimasu
Douzo watashi wo,
Tooku kara mimamotte kudasai.

Asuka was tired, so she sat on a relatively flat piece of rock, beside the still-singing boy.

Kinou made, namida de kumotteta.
Kokora wa, ima.

Asuka, unconsciously leaned on the boy she denied her feelings for, feeling the warmth of his body and the dampness of his sweat-soaked clothes.

Oboete imasu ka? Me to me ga atta toki wo?
Oboete imasu ka? Te to te ga fureatta toki?
Sore wa hajimete no, ai no tabidachi deshita.
I love you so.

The girl fell asleep from the soft voice the boy used to sing. The boy simply continued as if she wasn't there.

Mou hitoribotchi, ja nai
anata ga iru kara...

Oboete imasu ka? Me to me ga atta toki wo?
Oboete imasu ka? Te to te ga fureatta toki?
Sore wa hajimete no, ai no tabidachi deshita.
I love you so.

Mou hitoribotchi, ja nai
anata ga iru kara...

"Kaworu, wherever you are now, I hope you heard it... The song you sang for me..."

A/N: Shorter chapter than the rest, I know. This is another reference to Super Robot Taisen Alpha. In the game, instead of humming Ode to Joy, he sang 'Ai Oboete Imasu Ka', or 'Do You Remember Love?'. Personally, I think that was a much better interpretation of his love for music, since he was willing to give Shinji his love, and DYRL is a love song of an ancient culture.

God I feel stupid. I spent an hour to copy the lyrics from listening to the song over and over, pausing once every verse. Then I thought 'maybe the readers want a translation!' and I suck at Japanese. So guess what? I searched on the Internet. Then I realized: "WHY THE FL00K DID I NOT SEARCH ON THE INTERNET FOR THE LYRICS!"

I think I might have overdid Shinji's insanity a bit. Ok, a lot. But I think him becoming insane after the Third Impact and all those things on his mind made sense. The part about Asuka wanting to help him? She knows her mother is watching over her, so she wanted to live. But obviously, when you're heavily bandaged and relied on a housebroken male for the duration of your piloting career, you're gonna need him back. Well, constructive criticism please! Thank you, thank you! No omake this time!