Disclaimer: I, of course, do not own Gravitation, Murakami Maki has that honor.

AU My take on what might have happened if Shuichi had not managed to get there in time to save Reiji from Yuki. Manga Vol. 9

WARNING CHAPTER CONTAINS RAPE SCENE, MURDER, GENERAL VIOLENCE AND MAYHEM

Chapter 12

Nearly all the hotels were full and Tohma had not taken any time to make reservations. He already knew which hotel Sakuma, Nakano, and Tatsuha were staying in so he checked there as a last resort. It wasn't the best option since he didn't want to be seen. The hotel did have a single available and he took the room planning on hiding out until the trial.

It didn't take him long to get settled since he hadn't bothered to pack much. This was supposed to be a four star hotel, but the room service menu left a lot to be desired. With a sigh he placed his order and went to take his shower. His food arrived quickly after he was dried and dressed. Pacing the room, he ate the sandwich. There had to be something he could do.

There was one thing he had left, one thing he could still at least try to do, he could try to see Eiri. Shoving a hat on his head, Tohma left the hotel. He knew which jail the writer was being held in and the taxi ride proved to only be a few blocks from the hotel.

When he arrived, he found that he was in luck, today was a visiting day. Tohma Seguchi was not used to having to wait, but in this situation he had no choice but to get into the line silently hoping that he wasn't recognized and flinching back from anyone who got too close to touching him. It took nearly half an hour to reach the bored looking officer seated behind the Plexiglas screen.

"Eiri Yuki," he announced when he was asked which inmate he was here to visit. The bored officer actually glanced up an odd look in his eyes.

"Are you a relative?"

Not understanding what was going on Tohma answered truthfully, "Brother-in-law, yes." No one else was being asked whether they were relatives.

The officer left his seat and went to confer with someone he couldn't see. In a moment another man came to the window and looked him over before speaking, "Mr. Yuki was transferred to Brooklyn General Hospital yesterday. I'm sorry but he is not expected to return here."

"Why? Why is he in the hospital?" Tohma took a step back feeling the shock to his toes.

"I'm sorry sir but we are not allowed to release that information."

Tohma wandered out of the jail in a near daze. Hailing another taxi, he directed the driver back to Brooklyn General.

Tatsuha had fallen asleep clutching Kumagorou. Hiro decided to let him sleep. Closing the door quietly he found K and the two detectives speaking softly in the other room. All conversation stopped when he entered.

"So, what is your brilliant plan now K?" He couldn't keep the irritation out of his voice.

Everyone just stared at him for a moment. It was K who finally let out a sigh and spoke, "They have put out an All Points Bulletin for Sakuma, we are trying to keep Shindou's name out of it. Also, they are following up on a report they received from the detectives that Yuki's attorney hired. They thought they had located Shindou a few days ago at a men's shelter. Maybe he went back there. The only problem is that the place is protected. To get in we need a warrant and we're waiting on a judge for that." K gave him a nervous glance before turning to pace the room again.

"That's not all of it I can tell. What's the rest?"

K stopped his pacing and turned, "Seguchi's men are watching the place too."

Without another word Hiro started out the door.

"Just where do you think you are going Nakano?"

"We found him once K." He turned his back and went out the door. Once in the elevator he had to begin to wonder exactly what he was planning. He didn't know this city and this time Shuichi would not be anywhere in the open. The only difference is that this time he didn't think that Shu would have gone far. He might even still be in the hotel.

As soon as the doors slid open he caught a glimpse of a familiar blond head leaving the hotel. 'Seguchi!' his mind screamed, 'Shit!' The man stuck a hat on his head before leaving but it was definitely Seguchi.

He debated running back up to the room but he was still too angry with K. Instead he pulled out his cell and made a call. The only thing that K wanted to know was if Seguchi had seen him.

Once he had put his phone away he made his way to the café, he really did need to sit and think this through.

"Excuse me?" an American man approached him as soon as he had a seat, "Are you Hiroshi Nakano?"

Turning he gave the man a critical look. The American seemed average in every way, sandy blonde hair, blue eyes, maybe a little taller than him, nothing remarkable at all. The guy didn't seem like a fan and didn't look like a detective either, the clothes were too poor. Curious at what the guy wanted he nodded.

"Is there somewhere we could talk privately, a friend sent me."

Hiro tried to keep the excitement off of his face although his heart was trying to beat its way out of his chest. Nodding again he led the man to the elevator and pressed the button for their suite. As soon as they started up the man pressed the 'Stop' button making sure they stopped before reaching the destination.

"He said that I was to talk only to you. He doesn't trust anyone else."

"Where is he?" Hiro spoke English well enough that he and this guy shouldn't have any difficulties.

"I can't tell you that. He sent me to find out who is here."

"Tell him to come back but to be careful. Tell him those men were detectives K hired to protect him."

"K?"

"Our manager, our band's manager. But, also tell him that Seguchi is here in this hotel too."

The man smiled and pushed the button to restart the elevator, "I wasn't here," the man told him before disappearing onto the street.

Hiro went ahead and went out to grab something to eat hoping that no one had seen his encounter. He still had a lot to think about. One thing he knew, he was not going to tell K or anyone else about his little meeting just yet. When he finally did return to their suite, he went straight to his room and closed the door. It would be all up to Shu now.

"Hey," a soft voice brought him out of his dreams and a hand combing through his hair made him feel comfortable eventhough he felt like he had been sleeping on a brick. "Shu?" Ryu blinked the sleep out of his eyes trying to remember where he was.

"Can you wake up a little, you need to eat something?" The other singer was sitting on the floor next to him and gave him a hand sitting up. There were a plate of sandwiches and glasses of lemonade sitting in front of them.

He didn't touch the food until Shu started feeding him small bites. The fingers tasted nearly as good as the food and the other singer was giggling and blushing. The entire experience was wonderful. But, once the food was gone all the play ended too and Shu was all seriousness. "Tell me what's wrong Ryu." The concern was clear in his voice and eyes.

Sighing he leaned back onto the small shoulder, "Several months ago the doctors said I had a heart attack. It was day I found out you were missing." He could feel Shu's breath catch at the words. "Now I have pain sometimes, it's called Angina. All I have to do is take one of my pills and the pain goes away quickly."

"Why didn't you tell me before Ryu?" Shu had started to fidget behind him and the agitation was clear in his voice.

He gave a small chuckle, "Since it happened after you left, I didn't really have a chance." He turned to gaze into the violet eyes and to steal a small kiss.

"I meant your feelings, why didn't you ever tell me before?"

"And what? You'd say 'sorry Sakuma-san I didn't know. Just give me a second to tell Yuki goodbye get my stuff packed.' No Shu, you and I both know what would have happened."

"You're right," Shu sighed, "the time wasn't right."

"You do have to pick your moments." Suddenly feeling much better he sprang to his feet. "So, what is there to do here?"

Shu gave a laugh and looked around. The place was nearly packed with boxes, "Let's see."

They spent the next few minutes tearing through the boxes and making a mess. Most were full of old smelly clothing. Ryu did manage to find a stack of old, battered comic books. Hands full he turned to find Shu staring at him strangely. Dropping the books he took a step forward only to have his love cover his face with his hands and dash behind another stack of boxes. Quietly following he found the other man on the floor sobbing softly. "Is it me Shu?"

The sniffles continued for a few minutes before red eyes lifted, "Yes and no. Please don't think I'm comparing you to Yuki, but if it were him instead of you here now, we would be having sex."

"Is that what you want?" because if that was the case, he was more than willing, but he was sure that wasn't what Shu was getting at. "There is more to a relationship than sex."

"There wasn't much else we did do together, you know, even after Yuki made the relationship public." Ryuichi wasn't about to say anything against Yuki right now, he was still a problem that Shu was going to need to work through on his own. "There were times I wanted to do other things, sometimes we would even start, but it always ended up the same way." Shu's eyes dropped, "Last night was my first time. I had never done that before."

Ryu felt shock clear to his toes. How could he not have noticed? His brain had been so passion fogged and Shu had seemed so in command. But, he should have guessed with the way that Yuki was that he would always need to be seme. He knew that his gasp was loud enough to be heard.

"You're surprised?"

"You did it very well Shu-chan," he ran a hand down a leather clad arm, "I like it both ways and I want you both. But, I am willing to wait until you're ready."

They sat together in silence for a while, he could tell that Shu was thinking and was content just to let him work things through.

"Thank you Ryu." He barely heard the whisper, "Thank you for listening and just being you."

The sound of pounding on the front door downstairs sent them both scrambling to a back corner of the attic to hide behind stacks of boxes. Shu motioned from him to be quiet and to stay where he was before creeping around to peek out the window.

"Police Ryu! There are police everywhere."

The greasy mess didn't taste as bad as it looked and Yuki managed to choke most of it down. The nurse that came in after his tray gave him an amazed look. "You need to take your medication now." She handed him a pill and stood to watch until he swallowed it. With another amazed smile she took the tray and left.

Within minutes his doctor was in the room. "It's good to see you're finally deciding to cooperate Mr. Yuki."

He gave the man a glance and a grimace, "I wouldn't exactly call it cooperation, let's just say I'm…thinking things over."

"I also see that you can speak English perfectly well when you want."

Yuki couldn't hold back his chuckle. "Has my sister left?"

"Early this morning. They seemed to be in a hurry."

He allowed his eyes to close. His dream had been disturbing and now both Shuichi and Mika were running from Seguchi. Had he been wrong? All of the years he had believed that Seguchi was his savior. It was still too much, he needed to think some more.

"Are you ready to tell the truth now?"

Lost in his own thoughts he had forgotten the doctor's presence and the question startled him. Just what is the truth? He opened his eyes to see the doctor standing over the bed.

"You don't have to file any charges if you don't want. But, I do want to test for STDs, you and them both."

"Yes," he finally let out with a sigh, "I was raped and beaten. But, I don't know who all were involved; there was at least one guard. And, would you please send for my attorney? I think I'm finally tired of being a victim."

The pain medication was already kicking in and as soon as the doctor left the room he allowed his eyes to close. The dream started almost immediately.

Dream Flashback

Story clutched tightly in nervous fingers he made his way up the stairs. The door to Yuki-sensei's apartment was open slightly causing him to smile. Yuki was waiting on him. Hesitantly he pushed the door open. The apartment was dark and quiet.

"Sensei?" He nervously called into the room.

"Overth ere, Eiri-kun." The voice was slightly slurred.

When his eyes adjusted to the low light he could just see Yuki's head over the back of the chair. His sensei sounded…drunk?

Eiri couldn't control the trembling in his hands; the papers his story was written on were crackling under the pressure.

"Come ere Eiri-kun." Yuki stood to face him. At the sight of his sensei he let his story flutter to the floor. This wasn't what he pictured at all.

Yuki approached and leaned down to scoop up his story. But, he didn't come fully to his feet. He was still on his knees with his face at waist level. Eiri could feel warm breath misting over him. The look in Yuki's eyes was primal and he felt sudden fear. Before he could move or speak, Yuki rose to push him against the wall.

"Is this what you want Eiri-kun, isn't this why you're really here?" Yuki's mouth began to lower.

"Kitazawa!" The sudden shout at the door caused both him and Yuki to jump. "You got our money?" Two rough looking men entered the open doorway. "Well, well," there was laughter in the bigger man's voice, "What have we here?"

"He's pretty Yuki," the smaller of the men laughed, "I'd consider a trade." The man had already started to unzip his pants.

"Yuki?" he questioned and could hear the fear in his own voice. But, his sensei just smirked and walked away. He watched as his beloved sensei took a ten dollar bill from one of the men and heard the comment, "For going first."

Held against the wall, he could only watch as the bigger man pulled a gun out of his waistband and placed it on the table by the door. Too scared to move or to even scream, he was roughly turned and once again pressed to the wall, this time face first. He could only whimper as his pants were pulled down. The wall was covered with wallpaper and there was a small tear in the paper, he couldn't seem to take his eyes off of the tear.

The pain of penetration was excruciating, when he finally felt a scream coming his mouth was covered by a rough hand. He knew what was happening to him but that didn't make it any easier. It seemed to take forever until the first man pulled back out; Eiri nearly collapsed with relief thinking it was over. That is until the second man entered him. He could hear Yuki's laughter in the background.

"WHAT THE HELL!"

The sudden yell caused the second man to pull out and release him. He could only sink to his knees in gratitude. He turned astonished eyes to look upon his savior. Seguchi was standing in the doorway holding a gun.

The first bullet nearly took the head off of the man standing over him and he felt blood spray across his face. The second bullet hit the bigger man in the chest and he fell like a stone.

"We had a deal Kitazawa!" Seguchi was not advancing on his sensei, "He wasn't to be touched!"

Yuki had backed against the opposite wall, "It was all about the money Seguchi, you knew that. They paid me too. Maybe your precious little Eiri should know that you were planning on doing the same thing."

"Shut Up!" Eiri heard the gun fire again and could only watch in horror as his sensei's body fell. Seguchi's eyes turned to meet his. "Get dressed Eiri-kun," was all he said.

Eiri scrambled around the floor pulling his clothes on as he went. He still didn't have the strength to stand. Once he was dressed Seguchi approached. "Hold out your hands Eiri-kun." The still hot weapon was placed on his palms and he instinctively gripped the handle.

"I know you didn't mean to do it Eiri-kun," Seguchi's calm and reassuring voice was echoing in his head.

"Seguchi-san?" he turned confused eyes to his mentor.

"You were raped by three armed men Eiri-kun. No one is going to blame you for killing them."

End Dream Flashback

Yuki awoke with tears standing in his eyes. 'Mika was right!' he thought as he wiped the tears away. Seguchi had done everything and not to protect or help him, it was so that he could own him.

He raised his eyes at the sound of the door opening and wasn't surprised to see a platinum blonde head peeking in.

"Eiri-san, what happened?" the false concern in the voice nearly choked him.

"I've remembered Seguchi, everything."

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