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I'm halfway done with it but I just can't get the whole in to make it worthwhile! But since I got the idea for this chapter I can do this one first and finish up on the other one!

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Chapter Two: Leaving Behind my Scars

I couldn't keep it within me so the night before I took off I slipped to Syaoron's house and talked to him. It should have taken a load off my brain but it only added more thinking back on it…

"Syaoron….Aishiteru…" I whispered. The silence was just killing me: he didn't answer me. I closed my eyes tight and knew he didn't feel the same…I turned to leave and that's when I felt the hands wrap around me to pull me against him. I snapped my head up realizing that his arms were wrapped around ME.

"Aishiteru Suki…."

My world froze over again…Was he drunk? Did he not know the person he held was Sakura! Not Suki? I pushed away and headed out, knowing by now he would never feel the same he liked the outspoken type not me, I was to nice, to quiet, to respectful, not his type…

Perhaps it was hate for my sister that made me do what I did that night, maybe it was revenge but I know one thing. I didn't regret any of it. Perhaps I took advantage of it but it happened.

I kissed him softly and widened my eyes as he took over bringing new sensations into my body, driving me to the point of release, yet never to the end. I let his hands roam and greedily I let my roam around his as well. He gripped and Groaned and I followed. I touched him tenderly like in my dreams and he whispered sweet words like did in my dreams. It was perfect…it felt so right as he slid into the right position and told me it wouldn't hurt for long. I gripped him hard as he plowed in over and over and I had no guilt as I watched him labor above me. I felt no pain as I watched his face concentrate and shamelessly held him to pound in harder. I felt nothing but love and pleasure till I milked his very last essence into me.

It was later when I touched his head against my shoulder that I felt the tears come. He slept peacefully that night as I sneaked out of his house back to mine. I didn't stop crying till I reached my own bedroom and fell asleep. I guess I could've made a mistake that night in sleeping with him, but I couldn't find it in myself to find shame and confess to Suki…I just couldn't…

Wiping the smile I pasted on my face off I never looked back at them.

I guess he didn't remember what happen last night…but it didn't bug me, I'd have o treasure that memory so no use getting everyone mad about our little secret. Even if he thought it was Suki. They may have waved until I disappeared but I never looked back…I couldn't…it hurt and I had enough tears held in my eyes to water a garden…how I knew? Well when the tears fell unwillingly they wouldn't stop!

I couldn't bear to look at them anymore…they held each other and Suki held him where I should've been… in his arms. How could I even face the fact that once I finished college and for the rest of my life he'd hold me for the briefest five seconds and welcome me as a SISTER-in law? Perhaps I had thought, it was better to run away, to throw away the heart my mother gave me, and become what I thought was best for a situation I wanted to forget… I wanted to forget my identity… I would become as assassin…a cold hearted assassin.

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"Good job Agent X"

I nodded grimly to headquarters; it was a hard mission that only I could've done… got in innocently and left without a scratch. They had always told me my face looked to innocent, but that's my best skill. That was the thing I possessed that made them rethink twice if they should hire me and I proved every single one of them how easy it was for me to use this innocent face to my advantage. That's why I was number one top assassin, asked for all around the world for dirty jobs, because only I could get out without getting dirty with it.

"Take a good one!" My best trainer said waving me off. After all these years they knew that I worked hard to be number one and to forget my past, my identity, but that didn't stop them from hounding me away from work all the time!

With the briefest smile to him I noticed he stopped in his tracks.

"Sak….That's a great smile…you should smile more often.

I in turn stopped. "That's alright" I replied a little harshly and I saw him leave. I cursed aloud. I had spent years trying to rid that smile and turn it into the icy one or the cute innocent killer smile. Giving myself time to cool I sped out into my supra. Driving always made me a little happier.

When I reached home I suddenly saw a picture of Suki, Syaoron, and I.

Usually I ignore the photo, well at least for the last five years I haven't. I mean I didn't even attend their wedding or the birth of their son Xaio Rei… but I had my own problems, like my Daughter Zang Zi and my house, my job. I can't spend my time worrying about something like that. Sometimes I still even miss Syaoron and hope to see him one day again.

Sad isn't it? But it wasn't to me, I had lost my world the day I graduated, and what a day that would taint my whole life… I spent the my whole life trying to forget that instant and those faces, blurred them out half my life, but nothing prepared me for that letter…

After reading it over again and again I came to the same conclusion. I'd better go back…back to my past. Anyways the pieces they smashed had hardened and I knew I couldn't let it hurt me anymore so I decided to take this mission upon myself.

The letter was a brief one about how much they missed me but I don't care! Well…not really the only thing I could do was arrange for my friend Sadako to watch Zang Zi and sell the house. I called headquarters to transfer my papers back to Tokyo and told them I couldn't run mission till I finished the one I accepted just now. Everything was set by morning. I was good at that; I was always quick and efficient. Kissing my Daughter goodbye I told her to join me in a few days.

"I'll miss ya" five-year-old Zang Zi said smartly. She picked up her book again and started reading. Most five-year-olds struggle but Zang Zi just read as if it was natural and did sums in her head like a wiz. She knew her times table up to six before tripping and counting her fingers, read pre-teen books like a picture book and talked as if she was eight.

So when I left I missed her most but the mission you ask? What was this mission?

Well the mission was very simple actually, my profession…

"To find and Kill my sister's killer."

That's it. Yes…my sister was murdered. It was a by the way on the bottom as if they were trying to break it to me! Me of all people whom not only seen to many bodies but did the killing! Then again…none of them knew…that was my profession…they thought I'm a teacher as I said I'd be five years back…oh, if they only knew…Not only that but I also researched all last night into the background of Suki and her family.

What I found?

Suki she was a full time mother to her son Xaio Rei and a full time wife to Syaoron. So typical, she sucked at school anyways.

Syaoron Man of the house. Makes money and only is home at night.

My job

Investigate this incident without anyone knowing and taking care of the five year old boy my sister left to no one since our mother died two years back. All right… also a funeral I didn't attend so condemn me but I couldn't go back with so many loose ties where I lived.

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"Welcome back!" a few of my old friends said and I put my innocent smile on for their benefit and like a pro got their claws off and headed straight to Syaoron's house.

Passing the lake I adverted my gaze to another direction and blocked the flow of memories with concrete and the mind of a girl on a mission. I rang the doorbell and held my breath. For the first time in Five years, without answering them much I had come, for Suki…I don't why but I came and here I was about to face my crush, my sister's husband…

The door opened and I held my breath…

A young lady about my age opened the door to a wailing Xaio Rei… You ask how I know. Well he looked like his dad of course!

"This bastard!" I whispered. He wasted no time in replacing my sister huh.

You ask how I know that! Well… simple, she…in nightgown…him…in pajama pants…Xaio Rei, wailing that she can't be mommy!

Instead of exploding I covered the shock with my motionless mask and looked up with a innocent smile.

"Hello Syaoron…"

What he said next was unforgivable to me still. I hate to admit it but that knife he stuck in was becoming real again…

"Suki?"

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