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Chapter 4: The mission

I reached under my pillow for my knife and glanced towards the door secretly and saw Xaio Rei standing there surprised at my quick thinking. With a sigh of relief I pasted a smile on my face and gestured my nephew over.

"What is it dear?" I asked softly as he climbed under the covers and laid his head down on my lap immediately.

"Well…I was afraid you were just a dream and had left me with that horrible mother to be lady" Xaio Rei whispered.

I smiled slightly at his caution. "Why are you whispering dear? There's no one here but you and I" I pushed his brown hair back and felt a jolt of pain at the thought that this could've been my son.

"You never know when they'll pop out and get you so…I always be careful"

With a small sigh I pulled him up to me and tucked him in next to me when I glanced at the clock that read two in the morning.

"Baby…you'll never have to worry again because I'll always be here for you…don't you fear I'll leave you…"

"But I do…" Xaio Rei looked into my emerald eyes with his amber eyes that held fear and hurt.

I hugged him closely to me and wished his pain away and thanked god that Zang Zi have never doubted my coming and going…

"You're okay now, you can sleep with me tonight and I promise I won't disappear" I stroked his forehead gently and recited a poem Zang Zi loved and I hope he would love to…

This poem belongs to my brother so it's copyrighted

A world without you

Is no world at all

A world without you

Is a place of loneliness

My love was true

But I didn't get a kiss

You didn't want my love

So I tried to deny

And like the stars above

I can't ever say goodbye

The moon has the sun

All things have another

I have none

I'm she who has no lover

I did everything for you…

The one I couldn't have…

I looked and he was fast asleep clutching gently to me…I didn't mind I looked at his serene face and fell asleep happy that I had helped.

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"get up sleepy head" I said brushing his hair back gently.

"No…" Xaio Rei mumbled

"well…I guess you can stay with Zhou Wei…"

Blinking a few times I noticed he was out and headed towards the bathroom.

"YOU MEAN" he yelled back

I chuckled and fixed the bed. I had awoken at five thirty and finished my simple make-up. What it consisted on? Well I'll tell you, nothing but some lip gloss and a simple eye shadow with mascara. I definitely wasn't about to look like a clown like most women who spent half their morning and their life applying make-up.

Heading down I went scavenging through the food supply for anything to cook. I decided upon a morning meal of sausage, rice and pancakes.

Within minutes it smelled like home as I heard Xaio Rei head down in a panic that I had left sending him to school with Zhou Wei.

With a glance he immediately relaxed and sat down as I place a warm breakfast in front of him.

"yum…Mom always made toast"

"Oh" I was taken aback "Would you prefer that?"

"NO" Xaio Rei said "I was just saying that! I mean mom couldn't make anything else so dad usually cooks but Usually dad's up…"

talking of that Devil he walked in that very minute looking very smart in a forest green sweater and green pajama pants.

"Oh" was all that devil could say as he saw his son eating happily.

"Breakfast?" I offered holding up extra and I could see him give me a weird look before nodding suspiciously.

"you cook?" Syaoron asked.

'Yeah, who doesn't?" I asked spooning out some for him and me. I indicated Zhou Wei by pointing upstairs and Syaoron shook his head to not set a plate for her. Setting down the plate I looked at him.

"Suki" he finally answered and for the first time since I came we both laughed heartily as we reminisced the fact that Suki did nothing better than prep herself up.

I noticed Xaio Rei look at me with wonderment as I placed an arm around him.

He smiled as he bent his head to eat again and I knew this was the life I had dreamed to have before…

My smile dissipated and I concentrated on eating and talking to Xaio Rei as I encouraged him to tell more to his father and me

"I got to get to school" Xaio Rei informed me rather sadly.

"school's fun so why the long face?"

"School is fun it's just…"

I followed his gaze to Syaoron and he glanced at us both. Getting the drift he sighed.

"let me get dressed and I'll send you this one time…"

"No" I said rather abruptly "I'll send him"

'really/" Xaio Rei brighten.

"Of course get ready and I'll pull my jacket and shoes on as soon as I finish these dishes."

Xaio Rei nodded happily bowed stiffly to his father and raced out as soon as he turned the corner.

"such formality for you" I said to Syaoron who dropped the dishes into the sink.

"My mother insisted and Suki insisted he please his grandmother since she didn't"

I raised an eyebrow at him.

"Didn't I tell you that Zhou Wei was my intended but I married Suki instead?"

"you failed to mention that small detail" I said emotionlessly.

I heard him breathe a sigh and turn to leave the kitchen

"Thanks Sakura…I'm really glad you came back…"

Perhaps that's all I needed from him, because that sure as hell brighten my day and even dropping Xaio Rei off and meeting Yume wasn't so bad.

Who is Yume? Let me tell you of my trip with Xaio Rei first…

It was a beautiful spring morning as Xaio Rei walked gentlemanly next to me. I felt important to have such a boy stand there next to me!

It was perfect as I talked to him as if I was royalty being escorted by her best man! Then when we entered the schoolyard I notice people didn't dress as I did. I was dressed in a tailored black skirt and a smart black jacket over my beige turtleneck. You ask of my hair? It was in a simple French twist.

I looked rich! To them but to me… Well I was a normal woman.

"Xaio Rei! I thought you're mama was dead!" a little girl said sneering at him.

She had broken the silence that had descended upon all the students and their parents when I had walked into the schoolyard with Xaio Rei.

I saw Xaio Rei turn red in embarrassment and knew he was raise not to speak badly of the opposite sex not that his father "didn't" do that .

I noticed the Girl looked strangely familiar and it hit me when her snotty mother walked up.

"well Suki…nice to see you still walking!"

"Yume Shingo! The big slut on the whole block this side of Tokyo? What are you doing in society?"

"Sakura?" She said surprisingly. She finally had gotten a better look. "well no wonder you dressed better than Suki did! Well it's about time the schoolteacher Sakura got back to teach!"

"actually I'm here to settle things' Sakura smiled her chilling smile and saw Yume readjust her stance.

My best skill…to run doubt of their standing with me, it was my profession, it was who I was but then again I couldn't very well say that.

"Things?" Yume laughed a little shockingly "What things? You're sister's death? That was so yesterday!"

"Yesterday? I know…your death on the other hand" I picked up my hand and looked at my nails.

Yume backed away a little. "You bluff!"

"Yume…" I looked up with my "piercing" emerald eyes. "Yu should know me better…I never joke" I placed my hand back on Xaio Rei's shoulder and placed a smile on my face.

"You know I wouldn't be so haughty"

"I'd say the same for you" I said back stepping up to her as she stepped back in fright.

"You stay away from me!" She screeched and made sure everyone had her attention "I'll scream and with these witnesses! You can't hurt me" she held a mighty smile on her lips and I smiled just as sinister as my deadly smile could get and crouched looking like I was ready to harass her at any given moment.

With a yelp she pulled her and her daughter away form Xaio Rei and me. What I actually did? Bent down and kissed Xaio Rei goodbye actually…funny huh? How intimidating looks can get!

Heh!

"Bye!" Xaio Rei waved and I waved back…I loved this little boy with my whole heart already…he was in my life as much as Zang Zi and I'd make sure everyone would know that…But then…there were some things I needed to deal with first… like the man of the "house".

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"Well Syaoron…let's talk…"

Syaoron lifted an eyebrow slightly and titled his head to me. "What happened to Li?"

"Don't push your luck," I stated as I slid into the chair next to him and graced him with my emotionless eyes.

"I wasn't pushing it," he said softly straightening him self up.

"So tell me… Why is it that your son doesn't truly trust you?"

"I don't know actually"

I glanced at him. He looked at his hands and seemed to be also depressed.

"Why don't you?"

"Well…since Suki didn't work and couldn't really cook, I just never had and father to son kind of activity"

"Workaholic dad? Just like mine till the day he died…"

"Yeah I guess you could say that…"

"And what else can I assume?" I asked a smirk on my face.

He smiled that smile that took me on a ride more than eight years ago…

"Nothing else" he replied "it's hard to deal with Xaio Rei and Zhou Wei but now you two…I'm only one man"

"Hey!" I looked at him seriously "I don't need you to look after me…as far as I'm concerned…I'm looking after you!"

"Hey…"

"Don't assume things about me Syaoron…I'm not the teenage girl that left you five years ago"

"Could've fooled me Sakura…But I knew as soon as you entered my house yesterday afternoon that you had changed dramatically"

"Oh"

That was all that I could've uttered. He noticed…but he didn't say anything…then again…I was ranting as soon as I entered the house…

"Yeah…so?" he asked, "Done questioning? What are the police?"

I laughed. Those police were dumb sometimes and needed FBI's to drill people but then again I don't think he would've understood if I said that…instead I answered.

"Actually I was just getting started…"

Without meaning to I had given him a very seductive glare I kept for opponents I needed to get close to.

"Oh…"Syaoron said looking at my gaze then I felt the chill as he in turn gave me the look up and down.

I got up to hide the surprised look on my face and told him simply… "I've learned that emotions don't help much Syaoron…In this world so I no longer carry so much…"

"I see" He said and I glanced over to see he had again concentrated his gaze at his hands.

"Syaoron…who is Xaio…"

I stopped…this wasn't a question I should just ask him I mean…my missions are personal…and if by chance the last name did mean they were related that would mean I would have to find out for myself.

"I got to run…" I mumbled and got up.

"What was the question?" he asked puzzled by my change.

"Nothing of an important matter…I'm sorry to have bothered you on such short notice…I should know better than to bug you before you need to go to work."

"It's really nothing"

"But you're a CEO for Li Corp aren't you?"

"You know?" Syaoron asked incredulous

I rolled my eyes slightly "Just because I don't live with you doesn't mean I don't get news in Taiwan"

"Oh…"

"Well…if that's all I need to go and finish some loose ends…"
"All right" Syaoron sighed and let me go as he started to gather his papers again.

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I sighed again. Nothing…nothing on him…the only info that there was in the secret base was that he had a hidden file and that would take days to find out who he was…Xaiolang Li…who is he?

Troubled I logged off and heads to the door. It was time to go and get Xaio Rei and I was always a very punctual person. Juggling things never got in the way of family for me…

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I waved at Xaio Rei who seemed surprised to see me.

"What?" I questioned teasingly at him "Didn't expect me?"

"No" Xaio Rei answered truthfully. After last night he didn't dare try to lie, as he knew I was very good in finding them out now…

"Why not?" I asked facing him and walking at the same time.

"Well…ma was never on time or dad…I expected to wait at lease an hour or an hour and a half…"

I frowned "that's way to long for a little Boy like you…"

'Oh" Xaio Rei became silent and lost in thoughts…

I too sighed. These were the worst parents I have ever known so far…Xaio Rei needed more attention and I put a mental not in my head to do just that for him.

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That night we took a walk. Xaio Rei and I went to the lake…It brought back so many memories and I let them partial fade in…but not ever enough to gain the whole picture that I tried to put behind me… I watched Xaio Rei carefully as he played near the water edge… I was afraid to look into the water… I couldn't help thinking about what Grandpa Kinomoto told me…the myth hurt me a long time ago and I was paranoid to trust it again…

Xaio Rei giggled and called me a chicken for not wanting to step near the water and I had to prove him wrong so I put a smile on my face and walked over to him. He smirked his father's famous smirk back at me and we both looked into the water…

Xaio Rei screamed…

I tried to turn but I felt his little body next to me as we fell into the water… I caught his arms and stubbornly refused to let go to gravity… I held him near and swan back to the surface and searched for the culprit…Nowhere in sight as I expected…Somehow someone knew that I used to be unable to swim…Thank god I learned for my job…Looking down I saw Xaio Rei shivering in fear…I hoped to god he wasn't going to fear water after this.

It was hard keeping us both aloof the water and trying to grab the dock...It was then that I looked into the water and the same amber eyes I spotted when I was six. I splashed it to disappear but it only distorted the image…looking up I saw Syaoron reach for Xaio Rei and me…

"He can't swim…" Syaoron stated emotionlessly at me.

"I know that…"I said stubbornly "we weren't going for a swim…how did you know we were here?"

"Same place you always go Sakura…I know you remember"

I clenched my teeth together "you're wrong…you don't know me…not anymore…or maybe not ever…"

"What were you two doing if not swimming then?"

I didn't answer…

"Sakura…"

"Someone tried to drown us okay! But I couldn't see who…"

Syaoron eyes lit with fury and he helped me up then carried Xaio Rei. If something like this didn't happen I would have been happt to find his arms wrapped around my waist and the other hand carrying Xaio Rei…but I was already reviewing everything that had happened so far in my mind… Four years of experience told me these events connected in a way and I was determined to find out how they all connected.

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I laid down with a sleeping Xaio Rei and stared at his peaceful face…I had just called headquarters to find me more on Madam S. and they knew a gut feeling from me never was wrong and they informed me I'd get an answer soon.

I knew I had no chance in locating Madam S. in Tokyo…I mean with a huge population she could move when I move and that would be to dangerous…To leave Syaoron and Xaio Rei open was not an option. I sighed.

Usually I didn't have burdens on me so it was easier to move around but now…it was too hard…I was unable to sleep so I got up...I knew for a fact Syaoron was up and I needed to talk to him…If he hid anything from me he hadn't yet got any suspicion from me so I had to know more of when I was gone…

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I saw him lean a hand against his forehead and I smiled slightly…not at him but a t a dream I once had of watching him as my husband doing this everyday…me cooking and all that stuff…that dream had shattered and blown with the dust but never him…he remained forever stoned in my heart for someday…

He glanced up at the creak of the door and I walked in casually.

"Long night?" I asked first to start a conversation.

"No…just up actually"

"Oh?" why?" I raised an eyebrow slightly and scanned his desk for anything suspicious.

"The incident…and Suki's Death…"

"Oh…"

"I never told you how she died huh?"

"No" I said emotionlessly and hoped it wasn't how my gut had already told me after today's incident.

"Se drowned"

I had no expression as he searched my face but my heart told me

'The gut is never wrong…"

"You're very lucky you learned how to swim…I mean I could've got there to late to even see you two and never you two were…"

He covered his face in stress.

I went around his desk and don't ask me why I did this but I did put my arms around him and hugged him. I even took it a step farther and kissed his forehead with a tiny…Micro kiss okay…

You don't believe me huh?

That's alright…I don't believe myself at the moment…

"It'll be okay…" I said softly and sat next to him as he looked at me. We were at eye level and I looked into his hurt amber eyes…I could swear I almost felt the concrete break but I hid my emotion well as I smiled a little and took his hand in mine. "It'll be okay… Whoever tried that now knows they can't drown me…"

"You may it sound like a joke!" Syaoron said wistfully.

"Yeah so? Whoever the jerk is won't be trying that anytime soon…so why don't you get some sleep and I'll shut this window.

"No…leave it open...I need a few more minutes of fresh air"

He stuck his head out and faced me "So why are you up"

I shrugged " same thing…"

"Oh…"

I smiled "That you're favorite word?"

"I don't know…only for you it seems" he grinned.

I turned away but that flash of silver made me dive for him and push us to the ground. I landed on top of him and

I didn't feel his body….

OKAY I DID!!!

But back to what I was saying…

A glass bottle shattered on his desk. I looked at him and he looked at me.

"Thanks Sakura…You saved me.."

"Just from a concussion at the most…" I looked out the window and sure enough no one was there…

I closed the window quickly and he and I cleaned the glass.

"What a night" he said softly.

"Yea" I looked into his eyes and without me knowing I had stepped into his arms and held him there. He too seemed content as he leaned his head on my head and held me tight as well. I wanted to kiss him but I restrained myself and opened the study door.

"See ya tomorrow morning…"

"Yeah" he said and pushed a hand through his hair.

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That was to close...my seals were slowly coming out and that scared the freak out of me…

I'd better get some sleep though and I crawled in bed hoping to not reminisce his body but that OBVIOUSLY didn't work!

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"I don't like her here!" Zhou Wei said during breakfast. "Syaoron…get rid of her…she's done nothing but put us in danger and mess us up!"

Finally fed up he slammed his coffee down and looked at her square in the face "You will not order sakura to leave!"

I couldn't stand not standing up for myself so I spoke…it was stupid but hey…

"If it would make you all happier I would be glad to leave at your word" I looked at Syaoron and knew he too was a stunned as Zhou Wei.

He drank the remainder of his coffee and headed to his study. He stopped at the door and looked at me then Zhou Wei. "Whatever Xaio Rei wishes…"

Xaio Rei happily ordered me to stay and Zhou Wei stormed out

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It was ten at night of a Sunday that I called Zang Zi to see if she was ever going to come. She had happily informed me of how much she missed me and that she'd join me in another week as soon as the house closes. I told her goodnight and hung up to listen to Xaio Rei's even breathing beside me. After the incident…he refused to sleep alone thinking I was sent here to protect him. He got that half right! T was hard to believe I had already been here for a week already and already the incidents were more than enough. I was more use to being the hunter than the hunted so I needed to learn the movements of this enemy quick and the thinking this enemy had to this murder.

Knowing sleep would make me feel better I reluctantly closed my eyes and let myself drift off…

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It was my cell that woke me and I checked the name to be Headquarters number. Although it was 3 am I didn't care…I wanted to find more connection before the person attempted anymore incidents…

"Find anything?" I whispered

"No, only a recent letter telling you to hurry and kill Xaiolang Li"

I sighed hopelessly "If you find anything else call me because someone is targeting my family as well and I need to stay alert"

"Got ya and X?"

"Yeah?"

"Be careful…this may be your most dangerous mission since it contains your family"

"I know…"

"Good luck"

"All right" I hung up and knew this was gong to be very hard to do…

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I believe it was around six thirty when I saw that disturbing scene. I had walked into Syaoron's room to ask him what he'd like for Breakfast and instead I found Zhou Wei and him tearing at each other…let's not bring up details since…I'd rather not…

All right…you caught me red-handed…I had decided to ask him and asked Zhou Wei to leave the room. She left huffing but I didn't car. I watched him compose himself and sit.

"What is it?" he asked shaking.

"I wanted to ask you something…"

"Oh? Breakfast can be anything"

I smacked his check lightly "that was only a diversion that stepped into my head"

"Oh?" Syaoron stood next to me "So are you saying you were planning on coming in here with different motives?"

I pushed his chest away lightly as he advanced and kissed his cheek lightly.

"I just wanted to know if you knew a Xaiolang Li?"

He looked at me suspiciously "Why?"

"No reason" I said suddenly and glanced away "Just wondering since I saw the name around…"

"Around where?" he asked moving closer again.

Syaoron looked at me and I knew he was attracted to me…but I didn't want to be just that...I wanted to be so much more to him…so I ignored it…

"Just curious…" I touched his chest lightly and knew I was too! Playing the game…but hey! Anything to finish this mini mission…well almost anything…

He leaned over "why?"

I said the first thing that popped into my head…

"Because I like him…"

Syaoron smiled "Oh really? And you don't even know who he is?"

"No idea actually" I admitted and knew he'd tell me now.

"Simple…Xaiolang Li is ME!"

My mouth dropped…It couldn't be…

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