DarkTaoAngel: I don't own Shaman King; but I do own this, and every other, chapter of 'I Still Love You.' Enjoy!
Goodbye
Pirika's POV
Why does he have to be so insensitive? I mean, could have been nicer about it. But, something tells me it's not all his fault. So why did I just yell at him back there? Even I don't know. But, now how am I going to get him back? He probably hates me now. I should say I am sorry, but I don't want to upset him further. Why am I such am idiot?
Ren had been very ill for several days now. He didn't tell anyone though, but he still had to stay at Yoh's house because Faust had insisted on a few extra days. Truth was, Ren knew how sick he was. It was a miracle that he had survived the Spirit Hunter's attacks. He was still confined to his room, and awaiting word from Faust of how his condition was.
Faust: Still no word yet. Why did you want to know so quickly?
Ren: So I can go kick some sense into Pirika, that's why.
Faust: Well in that case, I will have to have a few more days to find out what was in that attack. It could have been fatal. Look what the very same attack did to Horo….
Ren: I know, I know! You don't need to remind me.
Faust: I'm sorry; I didn't mean it that way.
Ren: It's all right; I know you didn't mean it.
As Faust left the room, Ren could tell something was wrong. The only times Faust neglects to tell someone what is wrong, is when it isn't good news. Ren knew that something was going to happen to him. He was feeling excruciating pain often, with no sign of relief. He didn't want to die, but if he did, he knew he had to make up to Pirika before then. Problem was, she never visited him anymore, and he couldn't stand up because of the pain.
He tried to get her attention as she walked by to get Anna, but she just shook her head and walked right by. And to make things worse, if she did talk to him, she yelled. He couldn't understand why, but he knew she didn't really hate him like she pretended.
When Faust's report came back, it wasn't good news. It seemed that if he couldn't find a cure soon, Ren would die. Everyone heard the news, including Pirika, and they were all shocked. They asked if it was likely that Faust find a cure. He said no. Everyone cried for Ren, as Faust tried to help him. Ren had known all along that this day would come, but death can never be prepared for.
Pirika cried every night because of Ren. She wished he didn't hate her, because she wanted to be with him now. She still loved him, even if she didn't show it, or if he didn't love her back. She walked by his door quite a lot; just so she could see him. Then she shook her head because she didn't want to make it obvious that she was watching him. But she did love him still.
When the day came, no one was prepared. Everyone cried all day, especially Pirika. Faust had done all he could, but to no success. Everyone visited Ren over the course of the day, and finally it was Pirika's turn.
She walked in quietly, to see him groaning on the bed. She sat down beside him. He was shocked to see her, but he wanted her to be with him, because he loved her.
Pirika didn't know what to say to him after so long, but he didn't seem to mind. Ren smiled as Pirika sat down beside him. None of them said anything, because words weren't the right things at the moment. They just stared at each other, hiding their feelings the whole time as they sat in the semi-darkness for what seemed like hours, but what was only minutes.
When over an hour had passed, Ren knew that it was time. He groaned and told Pirika that he was sorry. She looked at him and suddenly she started to cry harder than she ever had.
As Ren was drifting away, she heard him say one last thing; "I sill love you." Then he became motionless. Pirika started crying even harder, but somehow she knew it was all going to be okay, because she still loved him, too.
DarkTaoAngel: So, how was it? It was so hard to write, because it's sooooo sad. Sorry for making it so darn sad, and for killing Ren.