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Chapter 20: The Memory Lives

I watched as he entered the house looking exhausted. I bit my lip in an effort to contain my laughter when his cell rang and he hung his head so cutely.

"Yes?"

His tone changed from tired to business-like.

"Of course I remember you…"Syaoron said slipping off his shoes.

I almost laughed as he looked around for someone to take his things as they usually do. His expression read: where is everybody?

I smiled to let out a little happiness and hid behind the turn upstairs. I already heard his footsteps coming up. I had made sure today everyone was gone. Today…it'd be him and me…

"Of course it'll be done…thank you for doing this…yeah…bye"

Syaoron looked up and saw me standing there. I considered running into his arms but I didn't. We stared at each other for long moments before he advanced the rest of the way and tilted my head to his.

I smiled as I also wrapped my arms around his neck softly. Working the kiss to his neck I gently nibbled at his pulse before continuing to his ear. I finally realized how tall he was when I had to strain on tippy toes just to whisper.

"We're going to have a baby…"

I bent back and looked into his eyes as I snaked my arms fully around his neck. I watched the shock rush over him and he looked at me in disbelief. He searched my eyes for lies and shook his head in surprise.

"I love you," He whispered and with a smirk picked me up and threw me on my bed I shared with Xaio Ru when he did come home.

I laughed as he roughly kissed me but slid his hands over my stomach gently.

"I'm glad it's ours" Syaoron whispered and I nodded slightly. Pulling him to the side of me I rested on his shoulder and played with his shirt.

"Boy or girl?" I questioned him

"Whichever you want" He said and held me tightly.

"Boy!" I concluded suddenly.

"Why?" Syaoron asked. I looked up at him and he had an amused grin on his face.

"Because I already gave you a daughter!" I pointed out and he smiled.

"I guess it'll have to be a boy then!"

I nodded and snuggled on his side to nuzzle at his neck.

"Love you," I whispered against his pulse and he laughed before pinning me beneath him. I grinned and looked at him.

"Now…"He said, "my turn"

"But I' already…"

Syaoron looked at me and smiled slowly, "No where in the book ever said that pregnant women's can't perform duties to their men"

"Yes there was!" I said, "On page one!"

"Really?" Syaoron said with a thought and I laughed. He didn't even know if it was true of not!

"You were lying weren't you?" He questioned pining my wrist down on either side of me.

I nodded softly and he evaded…
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He was sound asleep.

After satisfying his appetite he suddenly remembered how he was up all night last night and just came back from work. I smiled and placed a dry kiss on his cheek before turning to see a voice message on my cell.

I picked up my call and held it to my ear as I pressed the message.

"Sakura…I found them!"

End of message

I jumped up and scrambled to fins clothes. She'd had found the again…Xaio Rei and Zang Zi…All I had to do was get my babies…

Dialing Tomoyo's number I waited impatiently tapping my fingers as the phone continued to ring.

"Yea?" Tomoyo's voice finally came through the line.

"Where?" I asked hurriedly

"Where were you?" Tomoyo asked

"Spreading some joy to the one I love" I added and continued my earlier question.

"What news?" Tomoyo asked persisting on the current topic.

"We're having a baby" I said and all of a sudden Tomoyo quieted.

"What? Is it bad timing?" I asked a little worried.

"Yea…" Tomoyo said after a while. " I have a mission that may or may not take more than 6 months so you can't get equipped."

"But…"

"There are no buts in this one…you have to wait until I finish my mission and by then you'll be big so you can't endanger the baby's health"

"But…"

"There are none Sakura…or do you want to risk your child's life for another?"

I took a deep breath and cursed Tomoyo for being so right this time.

"I'll wait…"

"Thank you" Tomoyo whispered and I could tell she was just as frustrated with her mission all of a sudden.

Hanging up I sat down with a sigh and looked at Syaoron peacefully sleeping. He looked like Xaio Rei during these times and it ached my heart that I might never see that little boy again.

"Suki…I promise your son will be safe…" I whispered sending a prayer upwards for her. She suffered more than enough as well and I wanted to believe that she was at peace like my mother and father.

Turning on the TV a few minutes later I knew I'd have to sit out for the nine months…Great…

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Nine Months Later

I smiled as the nurse handed me my little boy. He was 6 pounds 5 ounces; supposedly very healthy.

"Omedetou"(Congratulations)

I turned and saw Xaio Ru. I didn't wan to say anything to him and just nodded. Lately he'd been trying extra hard to be nice and screw me over every night making my child a son. Thank god that he didn't find out until I was at least five months along.

"A beautiful son…" he cooed at my son and I had the feeling of wanting to snatch my son from his grip.

"I hope you don't mind darling that I took the time to invite Syaoron to see our prize!"

I knew what he meant already. Translation: I wanted to gloat about my son's birth. It was only to bad he didn't know that this too, was Syaoron's son.

"What should I name him…' Xaio Ru mused out loud and I cleared my throat.

"I've decided to call him Joe"

"Joe?" Xaio Ru looked as if he's being cross for a moment then changed his mind. "Why not…"

I let out a breath I had no idea I was holding. About to take my baby the door opened once more to reveal Tomoyo and Eriol.

Xaio Ru gave me a suspicious look and I ignored it greeting Tomoyo with a hug.

"How's everything?" I asked in more meanings than one.

"Coming along fine…as soon as I can set everything though" Tomoyo laughed lightly and forced herself next to Xaio Ru to coo at the baby..

"How adorable!" Tomoyo said softly touching Joe's cheek, "Almost makes me want to have one too…"

"Well we could…" Eriol started with a grin.

"Almost!" Tomoyo said bringing his attention to the main word of that sentence.

"Well if you…"

"Almost!" Tomoyo repeated more firmly this time and Eriol got the hint to drop that off.

"Well, Seeing as you have visitors I'll just step out with Joe" Xaio Ru said sternly and Eriol shook his head slightly, "No…Then what would I do with these two?"

I smiled lightly at him in amusement. He was trying to protect Joe from Xaio Ru in his own way as Tomoyo describes how he stalks Zang Zi to her classroom back to her room.

"I hope I wasn't intruding…"

My heart quickened as I heard the voice of Joe's father.

"Ahh…Xaiolang!" Xaio Ru smiled a sneer. "Just the person I wanted to show "MY" son to!"

"Was that it?" Syaoron asked raising a disinterested eyebrow in his direction. "I thought it would be rather important to make me postpone my important meeting!"

"It is!" Xaio Ru said in triumph, "it shows that I got balls to produce sons as well!"

Syaoron almost laughed and I would've as well but I contained it well by turning away. It was a shame Joe was Syaoron's as well.

"Congratulations brother but "I" unlike "YOU" have a life other than comparing balls and children!" Syaoron said and handed me some flowers.

"I couldn't get you any cherry blossom since it is fall"

I shook my head and thanked him politely as a sister-in-law should then grip his hand for his approval of our son. He gripped it hard and winked.

"Well!" Tomoyo said breaking up the "touching" moment. "It seems Eriol and I should head out and let you rest!"

"I should as well" Syaoron said and nodded in his brother's direction giving the child only a quick glance.

I must admit he played the man who didn't care role to well. If he had really meant his action it would've really hurt me!

"I suppose that's also my cue to leave!" Xaio Ru said when the nurse came in to reach for the child.

"Goodbye darling" Xaio Ru said and I accepted his kiss on the cheek like an obedient wife. He turned away and held Joe as if there was no tomorrow. I almost felt sorry for that poor fellow!

"Tomorrow I will pick you up at noon and I'll bring Mei Xing. Along"

I nodded in understanding and watched as he left.

"Good night" the nurse said carrying Joe out and I nodded with a quick smile.

Laying down I looked towards my cell phone and picked it up to dial his number.

"How are you?" His voice asked concern

"Fine…" I answered

"I can't believe I didn't get to see my son!"

"But you will everyday after this" I promised and sighed.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing…I just missed you"

"But you're talking to me!"

"But you're not with me!" I added sadly.

"I will be everyday after this" he teased lightly

"Don't use my line on me!"

"Well at least you got to feel like me when you used that line on me!"

"Let's not fight!" I said wearily, "We spent too long doing just that and playing cat and mouse games!"

"True…I love you…you know that right?"

"I know it" I whispered and sighed

"Tired?"

"Yes…exhausted from all that time pushing our son out!"

"Then go to sleep love!"

"Okay…Goodnight…I Love you"

"And I you!"

The line went dead and I rolled over…although my body was tired my eyes wouldn't close. Tomoyo was ready for me any day now! All I needed to do was regain strength, find the perfect place and end that bastard's life!

Closing my eyes, I was content in regaining strength to be able to see my two kids again…

"Please god… let me be happy…just once…" I whispered and drifted off.

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Three year old Mei Xing hopped around happily as she watched me exercise. It'd been a month since I came home from the hospital with Joe. I had been regaining my shape and ability slowly but after all this time I was finally able to do everything I used to again. I treated it just like the time when I had to take time off to have Zang Zi

.Except…this time Mei Xing was a three year old running around to take care of too! It helped to have servants for once since they constantly watched her for me as I worked out and took care of Joe.

"Take a break"

I turned around to come face to face with Xaio Ru.

"You look they way you did before you had Joe!" Xaio Ru smiled and held me close to him. "That's what I like about you!"

I clenched my teeth together and pulled away to grab little Mei Xing who was running straight to Xaio Ru.

I almost hit him as he sidestepped little Mei Xing and she tripped to skid across the floor. She whimpered and helped her up.

"Don't cry hunny," I said softly, "Mommy will make it all better for you"

"Momma…hurtso!"

I smiled softly and kissed her owies. Like a typical three year old she still combined words to make baby words.

"Hi junior!" Xaio Ru said and I whipped around to see him grab Joe and swing him up into his arms. He had no right to treat Mei Xing like nobody just because she was a daughter he had not wanted!

Mei Xing must've noticed as well since she buried her head into my shoulder in despair.

"It's alright hunny…Just wait till Uncle Syaoron gets home…he always throws you in the air!"

"Yep!" Syaoron said cheerfully. I looked up and noticed how exhausted he looked but he made the effort to pick up Mei Xing and throw her a couple times into the air. Kissing her on the forehead he swung a giggling Mei Xing down.

"Thank you" I whispered to him and he nodded his understanding.

"Sun Ce Dada's home!" I said softly to the little boy in the corner. He had been quietly playing with blocks.

"How are you Son?" Syaoron asked bending down and his son smiled at him holding out a lollipop.

"Who gave it to you?" Syaoron asked taking his son into his lap.

"Aunty!" Sun Ce said with a grin and pointed at me.

"Why?" Syaoron asked with a grin

"Cuz I'm a masta!" Sun Ce said and did a flip with his head on the ground.

"Good job!" Syaoron said and gave his son and affectionate pat on the head.

"Good afternoon Xaiolang!" Xaio Ru said carrying in Joe.

"Playing with my girl again I see…"

Mei Xing had a nice grip on Syaoron leg and she wasn't letting go.

"And so what if I was since her father pays no attention to her." Syaoron informed turning away to dismiss his brother.

"Well I wouldn't care since my Joe is going to be a true Li master"

I saw Syaoron clenched his fist in frustration. He was tired of Xaio Ru gloating HIS son to him. Xaio Ru must've guessed he won the battle since he sneer and left.

"Damn that Bastard!" Syaoron cursed

" Don't overreact!" I said patting his hand gently.

"Why the hell Not! That's MY son he's holding, MY SON! Damn it all!" Syaoron cursed throwing himself into my arms. I looked up and came in contact with a bruising kiss. For the last few days we haven't been able to meet and it was killing him and me!

The door crashed open

I pulled away at the same time Syaoron did and we both saw Xaio Ru standing there with anger written eyes.

"He isn't my son?" Xaio Ru asked calmly and fear seared through my blood as he clenched Joe tighter.

"Answer me! Were you fooling with me?"

I tried to regain control but the fact that my son was in his grasp scared the hell out of me!"

"Were you screwing that man? Is this the product of you two screwing around?"

I looked at Syaoron whose face had hardened and he took a step forward.

"It is!" he said firmly, "I'm tired of you claiming my son as yours…so now that you know…are you happy!"

"Happy? How can I be when all the children my brother ever had were sons while mine are nothing but girls!"

"What do you mean nothing but girls?" Syaoron scowled, "you only have one!"

"F That!" Xaio Ru said, "I tried with three other women and they were all girls!"

My eyes widened. Was this about his insecurity of getting no sons?

"Damn you and the bitch to hell!" Xaio Ru sneered and threw Joe.

I could do nothing…Kinomoto Sakura…Agent X, who never lost her cool…had just lost her cool! I screamed.

Closing my eyes I opened then to a heavy thud. Syaoron had slid and caught Joe just barely in time. He had hit the ground instead.

"You shall pay for this!" He sneered at me, "I told you to be good…now I'm afraid you're daughter will be the first to go tomorrow morning followed by Xaio Rei as a punishment to Xaiolang!"

With that he stormed out of the house and I collapsed to the floor. Joe was whimpering as I held him close when Syaoron handed him to me.

"Momma…" Mei Xing said uncertainly and I opened my arms with a weary smile.

Syaoron wrapped one arm around me and grabbed a stunned Sun Ce in the other. Together the five of us huddled close as a family.

"I love you…" Syaoron whispered and I nodded. Looking up at him I leaned closer to him.

"Syaoron…I want you to keep track of all our kids tonight…"

"But I have no idea where Xaio Rei and …"

"Leave that to me!" I insisted, "Just stay with Mei Xing, Sun Ce and Joe tonight please!"

Syaoron hesitated and I knew he was doubtful of where I was going.

"I'm a big girl remember?" I added softly and when I finally heard him sigh I knew I had won.

Getting up I nodded to him hugged Sun Ce and Mei Xing goodbye and headed upstairs to prepare…it was tonight or never…He had to die before he killed Zang Zi tomorrow.

Picking up my cell I dialed.

"Moyo…Tonight!" I said and hung up when I did that she should know I meant business! With a deep breath I grabbed a few things I would need and left out the window secretly.

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"What kind of phone call was that?" Tomoyo questioned ma as I adjusted my watch and slipped on my black outfit.

"A business one" I said rather abruptly and continued stocking different assassination weapons to various places.

"Why do you need the gas bombs?"

"Because I might need to knock him out…he's pretty clever!"

"Of course he must be since he was always a step above us…it must really gave sunk his ship when he found out Joe wasn't his huh?"

"I think it did more than that!" I concluded reaching for a sniper gun.

"Wow, you're going all out!"

"You know it!" I strapped in the last things and looked at her with worry this time, "You sure Eriol has an eye on Xaio Rei and Zang Zi?"

"Positive!" Tomoyo smiled gently, "you concentrate on your mission tonight…after all you are X!"

I nodded in understanding and Tomoyo hugged me unexpectedly

"What is it?" I asked cautiously and she laughed, "Welcome back X!"

I returned her smile and took a breath.

"Good luck!" she whispered and headed out to give me room

I took that good luck to heart.

"Besides!" Tomoyo yelled with a grin, "that's a hella good body for someone who spat three kids!"

I held up my middle finger. I knew she was saying it as a compliment and a good joke to lighten the mood though. Although I hate to admit it…that did the trick and I really relaxed.

Here went nothing! I followed him into the whorehouse. Hey! At least he'd die in bliss!

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Watching his movements from the shadow I could tell he was still pissed and as he took one of the whores upstairs I knew he just wanted to vent his frustration on her.

Following them steadily I climbed the stairs as well and looked around as if I was someone else looking for someone else.

Biding my time I noticed they entered a room farther down the right hall. I felt happiness sink in as my sources had told me he'd go to that girl. My escape plan was through her window and if he had taken another girl I would've had to think up a different route out! Following them as soon as the door shut I heard the screams of the girl and felt sorry for her. But to sell her body was her job…

Talking of jobs I had one to complete. Taking my time to wait I saw the girl come out limping out an hour later. Hearing him get up and hearing the rustle of clothes I knew he was ready to get out. Sending a quick prayer up I opened the door and entered.

"Sakura?" He questioned

And I raised the gun up and pulled my mask on, "Die Bastard!"

I pulled the trigger…

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He hit it out of my hand and I cursed aloud. His fist then connected with my jaw and I took it like a woman kneeing him in the groin

"Bitch!" He uttered and I stood pulling a dagger out swiftly.

He kicked at it and I stupidly let it fall out of my grasp. He recovered quickly and I was now sure that he probably faked the whole experience to get me to let down my guard.

"Fuck!" I said softly and I felt him land on top of me. Struggling to breathe, I pushed his hand away from my throat.

He laughed an insane laugh.

"I will kill you" Xaio Ru said and raised my dagger to me. Taking a moment concentration I lifted my feet to kick the back of his neck as he was straddled on top of me.

I had kicked hard enough for he groaned and rubbed his neck. That split second was all I needed to grab my spare dagger and I raised it slicing quickly at his throat but his fingers dug into the blade as he tried to protect his throat.

He screamed and I did nothing as I threw the blade across the room and picked up my gun pointing it directly to his head. I breathed hard as I stared at him with hatred and no mercy… just as he had shown none to my sister whom he killed cold-bloodily…I'd been waiting for this moment for a VERY long time!

"Don't do it!" He said roughly.

" I'm sure that's what you're mother said as well Fucker!" I said softly and pulled the trigger. It silently entered his head and I put it away. I heard people coming and I jumped out the window into the clear night.

I saw Tomoyo waiting for me and I smiled as I puller off my mask.

"Mission Complete!" I yelled and she smiled.

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It was a happy day when Xaio Ru body was taken to us and we buried him far from the family cemetery. It was not a day to mourn as I was expecting my two children home today as well.

"MOM!"

I turned and saw Zang ZI and Xaio Rei both rushing towards me. I did nothing but open my arms to welcome them into my embrace.

"I missed both of you!" I whispered

"Me too!" they both said then before I knew that they were in my arms they had disappeared again. I turned to see them pushing each other for their father's attention.

I smiled and took Joe from his arms as he tried to listen to what both had to say. If his vision and attention passed to Xaio Rei for a moment he knew he was in trouble by Zang Zi when she sent him the Death glare!

With a small smile I lined up Sun Ce, Mei Xing and Joe.

"Zang Zi, Xaio Rei…meet your brothers and sister!"

"I could already tell they got along!" I told Syaoron later as we watched TV with Zang Zi and Xaio Rei.

"I know" he whispered and nuzzled next to me.

"Momma…I tired" Mei Xing yawned and I nodded to Syaoron who gave me a questioning glance at Sun Ce whose wide eyes were on the TV screen.

"Bed time!" We announced to the younger two.

Mei Xing nodded but as Syaoron dragged off Sin Ce his eyes still didn't leave the screen until his father carried him upstairs.

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I smiled softly as I watched Syaoron close the door to Sun Ce's room softly.

"He's sleeping?"

Syaoron nodded and I kissed him lightly. Let's check on our youngest!" I said

"Then?" Syaoron whispered

"Put Zang Zi and Xaio rei to bed…" I added. I knew what he had in mind but I wasn't about to admit it.

"then/"

"Go to sleep"

I finished heading to the nursery.

"Sak…"

"I know…" I smiled, "I couldn't forget that!" With that I kissed him and opened the door.

"Huh?" Syaoron uttered

I turned around to see no baby in the crib.

"Wha?" I said worriedly.

He was gone.

Searching, I found a note and instantly picked it up. Crumpling it I ran out of the room

'That bitch' was all I could think about…

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A/N: alright everybody…the next chapter is the end of Everything for the one I cant have… so tell me what you think might happen…after all it's EVERYTHING FOR THE ONE IO CAN'T HAVE!

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