Lost

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Summary: See chapter 1

A/N: Thanks for all the great reviews!

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My Baby

Olivia sat on the table in the examining room in a paper gown. She was waiting for the doctor to come in. She was staring at her bare feet when there was a knock on the door.

"Come in." Olivia called.

"Hey." Elliot greeted, entering the room. "The doctor said that she would be with you in a sec." He said. "You okay?"

"This is all a little strange." Olivia breathed. "I mean, I've only been pregnant for, what 24 hours, and now I'm sitting her, waiting to figure out if the baby I'm carrying is a girl or boy."

"It's all kinda sudden, huh?" Elliot asked. He was trying to put himself in Olivia's position, but it was hard.

"Hello Mommy and Daddy. " A friendly looking woman said from the door way. "How are we doing?" She asked.

"Well, Liv's been having some morning sickness, but other than that, we're good." Elliot smiled to the doctor. He didn't feel she needed to know about Olivia's amnesia. If other people knew, that made it real.

"So, let's get to it. You guys want to know the sex of the baby, correct?" The doctor asked, walking over to her equipment, and setting it all up.

"Yes." Elliot answered.

"Come on Olivia, you know the routine." The doctor instructed. "I have to do a quick exam first, so lay back, feet up."

Olivia did as she was told, and allowed the doctor to do the exam.

"Alright, everything looks good. Let's do the sonogram now." The doctor smiled. "You can put your feet down now Olivia." The doctor put the cold gel on Olivia's stomach, and turned the machine on. As she was looking for the baby she added, "Everything okay today Olivia? You're never this quiet."

"Oh, yeah. I'm fine." Olivia smiled, not taking her eyes off the monitor. "Just, not really feeling myself is all."

"Well, sometimes that can happen during a pregnancy." The doctor smiled, not catching onto Olivia's joke. "There's our baby." She smiled. "It looks healthy. Let's see now…" She began, studying the monitor. "Well, Mom and Dad, it looks like you'll be adding another little girl to the family. Congratulations." She smiled. "Lemme print you out a picture so that you can update your frames."

The doctor pressed a button, which made a printer in the corner of the room spit out the image on the monitor.

"Here ya go." The doctor said, handing the photo to Olivia. "Now I want you back here in another three weeks. You can make the appointment with the receptionist when you leave." She said, exiting the room and leaving Elliot and Olivia alone with their photo.

"She's so beautiful." Olivia cooed. "She is only thing that I know just as much about as you do." She smiled.

Elliot just rested a hand on Olivia's shoulder so that he too could see the picture.

"Thank you." She smiled, looking up into Elliot's eyes.

"For what?" he asked, walking around the table so that he could face Olivia.

"For this." Olivia said, indicating the picture in her hand. "For this baby that's growing inside me. When I saw her, I felt happy, and complete for the first time since I woke up. You gave that to me; even if I can't remember it happening. I love her Elliot.I could never thank you enough for that." She smiled.

"And I could never thank you enough for carrying her." Elliot smiled back.

"You love me a lot, don't you?" Olivia asked, reading the love in his eyes.

"Yeah, I do." Elliot answered honestly.

"This hurts you just as much as it hurts me, doesn't it?" She asked in a whisper.

"Hey, no, now I'm doing just fine with all of this. Don't worry about that." Elliot answered, straightening up.

"I took off your rings, and forgot about the day you married me. I look at your kids like their total strangers. I haven't let you hold me since I woke up, and I keep pushing you away every time you try to get close to me." Olivia said with a matter of fact tone to her voice. She had gotten off of the table and went behind a screen to change back into her cloths. "You expect me to believe that that doesn't hurt you?" She asked as she emerged fully dressed.

"Liv, I said that I'm fine." Elliot answered sternly facing her.

"You're lying El. I can see it in your eyes." She answered going to leave the room.

"What can you see in my eyes?" He asked, stopping her in her tracks.

Olivia walked over to Elliot. "The hurt I've caused you. The hope that I'll turn around and you'll look into my eyes and see whatever you saw before this whole thing. The fear that you won't. And the love that you wish I would return." Olivia whispered, walking closer to Elliot.

"How do you remember what that looks like?" Elliot whispered back, trying to catch her in a lie. At this point Olivia was standing so close that he could feel her breath on him.

"I guess some things you just don't forget." Olivia whispered. She searched his eyes for a moment. She wasn't sure why, but when she looked into them she felt safe. Something just felt right.

She closed her eyes, and leaned into Elliot. Elliot did the same, and finally, Olivia allowed Elliot to kiss her. She wrapped her arms around his neck, and he held her tightly around the waist.

Olivia kissed Elliot with all the passion that she could find. This man had been so good to her in the past few days. She was lost, and he was doing everything he could to help find her again. He made her feel not so alone, and that in itself was reason enough for her to be kissing him.

Elliot was about to deepen their kiss when they were both startled by a knock at the door. They jumped apart as the doctor walked in.

"If you two are ready, you can go." She said, wondering why the two, who were usually so pressed for time were still in the room.

"Thank you doctor." Olivia said with a kind smile as she hurried out of the room. "Elliot, why don't you make the appointment, I'm kinda tired, and want to wait in the car." She asked over her shoulder to Elliot as she rushed out of the building.

After making the appointment Elliot joined Olivia in the car.

"I'm sorry Elliot, I shouldn't have done that." She apologized as he climbed into the driver's seat.

"Liv, it's fine, don't worry about it." Elliot answered. She was, after all, still his wife, and was allowed to kiss him if she wanted to.

"I shouldn't lead you on like that though." Olivia continued as Elliot pulled into city traffic.

"It's okay Olivia. If you want, we can pretend it never happened." He said, hoping that she would tell him that this was not something she wanted to forget.

"Whatever you want to do." Olivia breathed. "I'm tried; I don't want to talk about it." She said as an excuse.

"The doctor did say that you may be groggy for the next few days." Elliot said, a little concerned. He looked over to Olivia and added, "Why don't you close your eyes now, and you can sleep in the crib when we get back to the precinct."

Olivia looked at him strangely. "I'm, what did the doctor say, 36 years old? You don't really expect me to sleep in a crib do you?" She asked, sounding a little ticked off.

"No." Elliot said, not being able to contain his laughter. "The crib is just a nickname for a room in the precinct where all the bunks are. We stay there when we have to work long on a case, and need to sleep, but can't go home." He explained.

"Oh." Olivia smiled at her own misunderstanding. "Okay. I'll sleep there." She said as she closed her eyes and rested her head on the back of the seat.

She was so confused. To this very moment she had no idea who Elliot was. She knew nothing about his past, or their relationship; had no idea what his family or childhood was like; and couldn't remember a thing about their marriage.

The only thing she did know about this man was that he was a cop, and married to her; and that he obviously loved her. So why did it feel so right to kiss this stranger? When their lips met, something sparked inside of her. When she looked into his eyes, it felt like she had gotten lost in them a million times before, but she couldn't remember a single one. When he wrapped his arms around her, it felt like she was finally where she belonged; like she had returned to the safest place she knew, but she had never known those arms before. His lips seemed so familiar, yet so alien at the same time.

Olivia's head felt like it was spinning, and all she wanted to do now, was go to sleep.

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