Lana was seriously freaking out. She frantically tried to remember
the last time she got her period, and it was harder than it sounds.
Stuff like that hadn't even crossed her mind; there was just so many
other more important things that she had been thinking about: first
Clark had been fighting with Lionel, then Clark's body started
failing him because of Lionel, which lead to Clark being shot and
almost dying, then it was the trail and the verdict and Clark getting
all upset and...
She was pregnant... because no matter how much
she racked her brain, the last time she remembered getting her period
was over 2 months ago.
Maybe because I was just under a lot of
stress, that it messed my body up, and that is why I missed it, Lana
thought, desperately hoping she was right. She couldn't have a
baby... yesterday had been the last day of her Junior year. She was
only 17... how could she have a baby? No, she wasn't pregnant, she
couldn't be. Besides Clark had always used protection... except for
the first time.
No... this was bad... really bad... but the first
time they had slept together was almost 3 months ago... if she was
pregnant... how could she not have known for so long? Lana felt so
nervous and sick, she threw up.
But that scared her even more, was
she throwing up from nervousness or morning sickness? Lana felt like
she couldn't breathe.
If her parents found out they would be so
upset. She was painfully aware of how they looked at sex out of
wedlock as sinful.
No... this was horrible... it shouldn't be
happening. How would Clark react? Lana had never ever heard him say
he wanted kids. For all she knew he didn't even like kids. He was
going to be just as upset as her parents, she knew it. Of course he
didn't want a baby.
"Are
you okay" Clark asked Lana, while they were in the middle of
their date. He didn't understand her; she was so quiet and nervous.
It was the complete opposite from the other night, it was so natural
then. What changed? She wasn't even answering him now, had she even
heard him"Lana"
"Yeah" Lana looked up at
him, and saw that by his face he had asked something"Oh, um...
sorry, what did you say"
"I asked if you are okay."
Lana had confirmed Clark's sense that there was something bothering
her by her mannerisms.
"Um... yeah." Lana was scared to
tell him, yet she needed to so bad. After she had taken the pregnancy
test yesterday and it came up positive, she felt like her world was
crashing. She needed Clark to be there for her, and she planned on
telling him tonight, but he had planned everything and... she felt
guilty. She definitely wasn't going to tell him in a restaurant.
"Lana, what's bugging you" Clark took her hand"I
can't tell something is really bothering you."
Lana started
to cry... this was too much for her.
"Lana, it's okay."
Clark wasn't sure what he was saying was okay"We can leave if
you want to."
Lana just nodded, knowing if she spoke, she'd
break down more.
Clark paid the check, and lead Lana to the car;
he had his arms around her shoulder, holding her close to him"Baby,
what's wrong"
Lana couldn't answer him"Can we just go
home" She said as more tears slid down her cheeks.
"Sure."
Clark was baffled by how upset Lana
was.
Clark
sat down on a couch in the mansion, next to Lana. He was nervous;
Lana had said she wanted to talk to him about something, and he
assumed that was the reason she was so upset. What was it?
"Lana,
calm down, baby." Clark rubbed her arm"It's okay, I'm
here for you."
Lana was still crying, and winced when he
called her baby..., but she composed herself enough to talk"Clark...ever since everything has been happening... I've been
so distracted and worried for you and..."
Clark felt guilty,
she was upset because of him"I'm sorry." He wasn't sure
for what yet, but he was sorry that he had made the girl he loved
cry.
"No... it's not you... I'm... I'm pregnant, Clark."
Lana had to just say it. She was so scared of how Clark would
react.
"What" Clark was shocked"No, you can't...
we haven't even... in a month." Clark didn't see how it was
possible"and we always used protection."
"Not the
first time." She looked at him with scared eyes.
"But
that was..." Clark was doing the math in his head.
"Almost
3 months ago..." Lana cried.
"Wait... you're 3 months
pregnant" Clark was stunned, he never even thought of
that.
Lana nodded as she began to cry again.
Clark was
extremely upset by the news that had just been dropped on him. He
never even thought it was possible for him to get a human pregnant.
Clark had made a promise to himself a long time ago. He vowed
never to have kids; he realized that it would ruin their lives. He
saw what money and power did to kids, and he wasn't going to put any
child threw what he had to grow up with.
"What do you want
to do" Clark asked Lana, wanting her opinion before he said
anything.
"What do you mean" Lana cried.
"Do
you want to keep it" Clark clarified.
Lana never even
considered having an abortion. Even if she didn't think it was wrong,
she didn't want to kill her baby"Yes." Lana felt even
more distressed by Clark's question, because it showed he didn't want
it, even if he tried to hide it.
Clark sighed internally. She
wanted it, he should have known. He would do whatever she wanted,
because he loved her, and he would support her"Okay." But
he felt so wrong in agreeing with her. He didn't want a baby; it was
going to be raised in such pain, and have to go threw so much, or his
baby would turn out like Clark almost had... how Lionel had.
"Clark... this is bad..." Lana felt a tinge of comfort
knowing she wasn't alone in this anymore.
"No, don't worry
Lana. It will work out, it will be fine." He hugged her, not
even believing his own words. Clark still secretly hoped within
himself that Lana would change her mind, if not to terminate the
pregnancy, then to give the baby up for adoption. Clark felt guilty,
because he was the one worried, when Lana must be a thousand times
more scared, but he couldn't help it. Keeping this baby was just so
wrong and cruel.
2 weeks later
"Clark, you don't understand. My parents are
going to be so upset, I can't tell them." Lana felt sick at just
the thought of it.
"Then I will tell them." Clark
stepped up, knowing how scared Lana was.
"No... it has to be
me." Lana fought the urge to take the easy way out, and have
Clark tell them.
"No, I'm going with you." Clark
insisted, and Lana was so thankful.
"I don't want to tell
them, Clark..." Lana just couldn't do it, and the longer she
waited the more upset they would be, and the worse her anxiety
became.
"Lana, you have to. You are almost 4 months
pregnant." Clark reasoned with her.
"I know but..."
Lana desperately needed a reason to delay it longer.
"It
won't be that bad." Clark tried to be optimistic.
Lana
sighed. Clark didn't understand; how could he? His father had
absolutely no morals, and had instilled that concept into Clark. If
he wasn't in jail, Lionel wouldn't have been upset at all that Clark
had been sexually active, he'd only be mad that it might be a public
scandal that would hurt his business. Clark just didn't understand
how her parents would react. Her dad would be furious and her mom
would be so disappointed. This would really hurt them.
But he was
right, she had to tell them. If someone found out before them and
they didn't hear it from her, they would be even more offended. Clark
had promised not to tell anyone, not even Lex until she had told her
parents, but still...
"Will you come with me tonight"
Lana felt immense fear at just saying it.
"Of course."
Clark kissed her.
TBC...
