Author- Luna P aka Nikki
Rating- R for a lemon here and there
Warning- Rape, Yaoi, lemons, assassinations, more yaoi, more lemons, blood and gore with a ton of fluff on the sides n.n
Summary- Schwartz are back, with a vengeance. A new Takatori is holding the reigns and will do anything to destroy Weiss. Will they be able to stay together and fight when everything is falling apart around them? AyaxKen YohjixOmi
Disclaimer- When Aya and Ken realise their feelings for each other and fall head over heels in love with each other I will own it. Until then, nope sorry n.n
Pairing- Aya/RanxKen is the main with hints of YohjixOmi,
WKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWK Chapter eight- Alone my heart breaks…Ran's POV
When I awoke he had not returned, then again I had not expected such a thing. My heart ached for him yet there was nothing I could do to get him back. Still my mind nagged at me that it had only been a day at most since he had left and that he just needed to blow off a bit of steam before he waltzed back in through the door. Smile on his face and glow to his skin. Yes I forced myself to believe that it would only be a matter of time before Hidaka Ken returned, his sanity intact his mind, his body, his soul, his heart, his very being all of it mine and all of mine his.
I sat on the window ledge twirling an acacia mindlessly between my forefinger and thumb. I was running over the events of the past few days in my mind, analysing everything and trying to work out why Ken had acted as he had. Why he had been so strange and senseless, why hadn't he just stayed and allowed me to talk with him? Allowed me to straighten everything out? I was jerked from my thoughts when the door opened and Omi stepped in, I was on my feet and infront of him in an instant.
"Did you find him?" He shook his head in a motion that read 'no' and my hopes were shattered instantly. He sighed, almost as if he were disappointed that he hadn't found him for me. Yes that was just like Omi always thinking about other people, it made me feel guilty that I was asking them to look for him instead of doing it for myself and fixing the mess that I had made.
"He'll be back," It was at this point I wondered whether Omi was trying to convince me or himself. He had seemed so sure of this fact last night but now, not now, now it was as if that belief had been cruelly snatched away from him and from myself. I wanted to believe that Ken would walk through that door any minute now, my head kept protesting that he would but my heart screamed that he wouldn't. It yelled that he wasn't coming back now or ever that something awful had happened to him and that he wasn't mine anymore…I wanted to cry…but Fujimiya Ran doesn't cry.
Not for his sister, not for his parents, not for his friends, his enemies, himself, and not for his lover…because at the end of the day I was a cold hearted bastard that had once sworn that I would bleed every last drop of blood before I allowed myself to shed one tear. My pride my ego my goddamn heart of ice wouldn't let me weep for my lover and it wouldn't let me beg for his return.
"So what is it then?" My voice was cold and harsh, I hadn't meant for that to be the case but it was. I was just too stressed to let anything go at the moment; everything within me burned for the feel of my katana slicing through flesh and muscle. Piercing a heart as charred as that of my own.
"Oh, Manx and Birman are downstairs, they're waiting for you in the meeting room," I sighed and ran a hand through my hair straightening it slightly.
"Have you told them about Ken?"
"No, we thought we'd leave that to you," I nodded
"Thank you, now let's not leave them waiting," I went to walk away but Omi stopped me by outstretching his arm and blocking my path. I stared down at him with an inquisitive look; he refused to meet my gaze instead choosing to stare down at the floor beneath his feet.
"That's not all Ran…they asked for me to go and get Ken, said that they found something out about the antidote you gave him. They said it was urgent," he finally glanced up at me, a look of complete and utter worry replacing his usually genki exterior. My eyes widened and I pushed past him, running down the stairs I passed Mamoe and Aya-chan on my way and received odd looks from the both of them but I didn't care. Had I possibly injected Ken with a poison dressed up to look like an antidote? And now I had no idea where he was or how to help him. If I was in any way responsible for any pain he might be in…then I don't know what I'd do…
When I entered the mission room everything was silent, Yohji was sat on the couch staring at nothing in particular and Manx and Birman were sat to the left of him flipping through file folders. Infact no one even noticed that I had walked in until Omi ran in behind me and shouted my name. Manx raised an eyebrow in confusion when she saw us in the doorway, no doubt wondering why we looked so panicked and confused. Birman and the red head herself stood from their seats and motioned for us to join Yohji on the couch, we did just that, Omi sat beside the blonde and I sat next to him.
"Where's Ken?" Birman asked as she handed each of us a case folder, Yohji and Omi just ignored the question, I however was going to ignore the new mission until I found out exactly what they knew about Ken. "Never mind, we'll deal with that later, first and foremost the file I just handed to each of you is the brief for your new mission…" She would have continued but the thud of the file hitting against the wall must have interrupted her train of thought.
"Ran!" Manx gave a warning shout before ordering for me to take my seat and restrain myself. I just shot her a glare before walking over to Birman and staring the other woman down.
"I heard you ran some tests on the antidote I gave Ken and came up with some results that he needed to hear. I need to know what they were and I need to know them now." She stared at me for a while before nodding,
"Fair enough but Ken should be here to hear this as well after all it does involve him more than anyone." I growled and ran a hand through my hair, knocking it out of place, that small gesture reminded me of that night not so long ago when I had freely run my hands through his hair. The silken chocolate locks that were so much softer than anything else I had ever felt in my entire life.
"He's not here, something happened yesterday and he left on Yohji's bike," Birman's eyes widened and she glanced over at Omi and Yohji,
"Is this true?" The two nodded sadly and I snorted in annoyance,
"Why may I ask would I lie about that? Now what did the test results say,"
"And none of you have any idea where Ken is? Why did he leave?" Manx asked, I stared at her suspiciously, even her voice was wavering with worry and that only happened on seldom occasions with the red headed women and only ever when something was very, very, wrong.
"No and something to do with Schwartz, now what did you find out? Do not make me ask again I'm loosing patience quickly." Birman and Manx shared the same look of fear and worry before they perched on the edge of the table opposite the couch. Their eyes fixed on the floor below. Nothing was said for a long time until Manx straightened out her skirt and glanced up locking her gaze with mine.
"The antidote cured the poison there's no doubt about that, it wasn't a placebo and it wasn't a poison in itself either so you don't have to worry about that." A sigh of relief came from both Omi and Yohji however the look on Manx's face told me that a 'but' wasn't that far away.
"But?" I prompted, she sighed and straightened her already straight skirt once again, I noticed that to be a nervous habit and asked again "But?"
"But, there is a component within it designed to interrupt and alter brain waves. There is no way that any of you, not even Ken, could have known that this was happening. Now what this does depends entirely on how the component was constructed, this one was meant to tamper with the nerves in the mind that control and configure emotions meaning that he can't control them anymore. His mind can't process the information linked to the emotions, he can't decipher what's reality from fantasy, can't decide what was created by his subconscious and the things that are actually happening. And most importantly he can't suppress the emotions, he has to act on them because that's all his mind can do with this in his system." Manx explained
"Not only that but any increase in stress would affect him drastically too, essentially he goes insane, temporarily of course but obviously when he got on that bike he still wasn't thinking straight. There's one more thing, I didn't think it was important till you mentioned Schwartz just now another side affect of the antidote is that it weakens his mind, again temporarily, just until it's out of his system completely but until then he is incredibly susceptible to mind manipulation. This is because he's unaware that his mind is being manipulated due to the working of the drug he wouldn't be able to stop Schuldig from entering his mind and he wouldn't be able to push him out either." Birman sighed and glanced over at Manx signalling for her to carry on now.
"None of this would have mattered so much had Ken been here with the rest of you but the fact remains that he's missing and these affects were no mistake, Schwartz used this knowing exactly what they were doing. They planned it which leads me to believe that they have Ken held prisoner somewhere. I do not say this to worry you; I say it because it is the truth and you all deserve to know. On the plus side, with all the trouble Schwartz went through to capture Ken in such a way I doubt they would consider killing him so soon meaning that you have time. Time in which you will use to complete your new mission. We had a tip off on another of Katsuya Iwata aka Takatori Yuuki's whereabouts."
"You're fools," I snarled and shook my head, "this is probably what Schwartz want, us to attack Yuuki only it won't be Yuuki will it? They'll leave Ken there at the mercy of anyone, they'll have us kill him or at least seriously injure him and if we don't they'll have rigged the building to explode and we'll all go down together. They have Ken that means they've got us exactly where they want us, we can't do anything to them anymore because they'll be using Ken as a human shield and I for one will not attack him." Manx snarled and slapped me, my head jerked to the side due to the force behind the attack but I just shook it off.
"You need to put your personal feelings for Siberian aside, you have a mission and you will complete it, you failed one mission Kritiker will not allow you to fail another. We have suffered too many casualties on our tyrant for justice no one wants for there to be another one but sometimes we don't have another option. The information is in the case file. Do your job and then think about Siberian afterwards." A slow nod, the heart of ice talking, though almost every other fibre in my being was screaming at me to decline and just run out of the building to search for Ken until I had found him. Yet I did not.
Ken's POVStrangely enough the pain that had once overridden my senses had subsided to the point of it being nothing more than a dull throb. I had to admit it when it came to fixing injuries and broken bones Farfarello was a genius. I was aware that I had passed out at one point, not due to the pain just because I needed to. I wasn't entirely sure why I had but at least I felt better now. I shivered, the cold draft in the room finally making its presence known, and curled up into a ball on the floor. Yet that didn't warm me, not even in the slightest.
I wondered if that was why I didn't protest, when the arms snaked around my waist and my body was pulled up against another. Maybe, but maybe it was because I trusted him…as I had trusted Ran that night… look where that had gotten me? Trust was not something I could do anymore, let alone something that I could do well. Still I found that I did not pull away or even attempt something as such. Did that mean? Was this Ran? Had he come to save me from Schwartz? Something in the back of my head kept screaming that it was and he had…I believed it…
Slowly I allowed my eyes to open and stared up to see a pair of violet orbs shimmering in the dismal light. Blood red hair could just about be seen around the pale skin. I had no idea what to say in that instant, no idea how to phrase everything I had wanted to say to him since I had first awoke in the custody of Schwartz. Infact all I truly felt like doing was crying, allowing myself that one moment of weakness in the arms of the man that I loved…still the question kept nagging in the back of my mind, did he love me back? Of course…why else would he be here?
"Ran," I whispered softly my voice seeming to echo forever in the small room, his eyes were different somehow, I didn't know how but they were but then again the fact that his eyes were shimmering a little differently than normal didn't really strike me as anything odd. After all there was barely any light, that was bound to affect the way someone's eyes looked. In the end though I just really didn't care, he was here with me and that was all I wanted. "Gomennasai, I shouldn't have left like that…"
"Shut up, I didn't come here risking life and limb for your pathetic excuses," I stared at him, my mouth open as I whispered a soft 'what?' He chuckled and pushed me into the floor jumping on top of me and straddling my waist, simultaneously knocking the wind out of me and rendering me motionless for a few minutes. He smirked evilly and seized my wrists in his hand smashing my arms against the concrete floor and pinning them there. I cringed at the pain surging through my arms and began to thrash about beneath him in an attempt to free myself that failed.
"No, stop, Ran what are you doing?" He chuckled low in his throat and stole a kiss; my eyes widened as his tongue plunged into my open mouth. The kiss was harsh and sharp unlike the soft and passionate one we had shared previously and all I wanted to do was push him off of me and escape…how could he love me if he acted like this?
"Isn't it obvious? I'm meeting with Sakura later and I can't last that long without some sort of release, you're going to be that release Ken,"
"No, stop it, this isn't like you!" I yelled thrashing again, his strength overwhelmed my own anyway and being injured certainly didn't help matters he just chuckled and grabbed hold of my bottom lip with his teeth, sinking his teeth into the soft skin and biting it harshly. I felt the blood escape the wound and run into his mouth as well as trickling back down into mine.
"I think you'll find it is, you're just a very bad judge of character Kenken." I yelped quietly when he undid my belt, ripping it away from my trousers in one easy move. I fought against him for a while longer, trying to free myself from his grip. He just laughed at my inability to escape from him and stripped me of my trousers.
"Don't," I begged as he flipped me onto my front, my chin and stomach smashing into the cold hard concrete with a loud thud. I vaguely registered the sound of clothes being removed from behind me but I was too disoriented from being thrown against the floor to do anything about it now, not that I could have anyway.
"Stop whining it's pathetic and after tonight you won't be needed anymore anyway, Sakura's birthday is next week and I figure I'll be able to last out that long. It was so funny to watch you that night and to see you think that it was actually love I felt for you. Who could love a monster like you?" He chuckled into my ear and pulled my head back to his by my hair as he smashed our lips together once again. I gasped when I felt his length slide into me, tears welling in my eyes as he trust in and out with no regard for me or my well being.
"NO…STOP…PLEASE…IT HURTS!" I screamed as I felt my internal muscles tear and split, felt the blood pour from the wounds and ease the pain yet only slightly. All I could hear was his chuckling as he continued to thrust into me, my screams had subsided into petty sobs and the pain had become numbing. He climaxed with a scream and a chuckle and then slipped out of me. I just continued to lie on the floor, my own blood beginning to pool around me as Ran redressed himself.
"It's more fun when you don't consent, but easier when you do," he muttered and walked over to me grabbing hold of me by the throat and throwing me up against the wall stealing one last kiss before he uttered. "Been fun Ken but I no longer have any need for you, Weiss no longer have any need for you. Schwartz can do as they wish we'll get on just fine without you maybe even better. I'll have to admit that I will miss you though, you're an excellent screw…" he snarled and dropped me back onto the floor, I pulled my knees up to my chest and hugged them close to me for protection but it was too late the damage was already done. "You were never anything to me but hassle Ken," (1)
He didn't love me, never had, that night in the warehouse…he had just used me… Schuldig had been telling the truth all along…Ran loved Sakura not me. Why hadn't I believed Schuldig? Why had I let Ran get close? I knew that it would only end in me getting hurt being betrayed by the one I loved… I gasped and wept into the floor my tears mixing with the blood around me.
The ice had melted, I had fallen and there had been no one to catch me…Schuldig had warned me but I had been too deluded to listen. The last sound I heard was the door opening and the last thing I saw was Ran leaving before I passed out on the concrete once again. My hand unconsciously wrapped around the cross necklace and held it close to my chest, to my heart, as three words fell from my lips…
"God help me…"
Normal POV
Farfarello chuckled deeply as he exited the cell, licking his fingers of the excess blood that had found it's way there during his 'session' with one Hidaka Ken. When the door slammed shut Schuldig sighed heavily and collapsed onto the couch massaging his temples gently. Farfarello just stared at the German before walking over to him and placing a harsh kiss onto the others lips.
"Hm, had fun Farfarello?" Schuldig asked as he removed the packet of cigarettes from the pocket of his jacket and placed one of them to his lips. He had to search for a while for a lighter, finally finding an old one that had slipped down the back of the couch, before he lit it and took a deep drag.
"More than you could imagine, you did well Schu, he never even suspected that it was anyone other than Ran. He's broken now and broken things are always so much more fun to play with," The Irishman chuckled and licked his lips, stealing the cigarette from his lover and licking the very end provocatively before placing it in his mouth and inhaling deeply.
"I did more than fucking well, my mind feels like it was placed in a blender before being poured back into my head through my ears. Remind me not to do that again anytime soon Farfie,"
"You won't need to, he no longer belongs to Weiss or anyone, he's ours now to do with as we wish."
"I suppose I should be thankful without that drug being in his system it would have been a hell of a lot harder and I wouldn't have been able to do anything for at least two days. We'll leave him for now, when he wakes it will only take a little more manipulation before we are the only ones he trusts. We've won Farfie and Weiss have lost dearly, but they don't even know it yet…how tragic." The two stared at each other and smirked as Schuldig leaned over to the white haired man and smashed their lips together. The telepath slowly led the other to his room leaving the cigarette to burn itself into ash in the glass ashtray on the table…
WKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKOk, lemon bad but I was never any good at rape lemons anyway, surprisingly I've written two of them now. Uh, to explain this chapter I've been having a bit of trouble at school lately, two of my friends just turned around and decided I wasn't good enough for them so I've been feeling the betrayal I've been writing about for so long and it's not nice ;; I think a lot of these emotions contributed to this chapter. I'm not seriously depressed or anything just a little hurt. Wow it feels better just to get that out there.
Not feeling sorry for myself or anything, but this is almost word for word what my former "best friend" said about me. It's a real low blow to deliver to someone so I figured I'd share it with Kenken, I'm so kind n.n
Silverwingedangle- (blink, blink) Ha, ha another priceless review, but pushing my dearly beloved Farfarello out of the window, now that was uncalled for, (tutts) speaking of new video games I just got a new video game, (huggles Chaos Legion) it has two awesome looking guys on it and all I can do is drool over them. It's da best game ever I also just got my Sesshomaru plushie aswell, now I shall wait by the door for my Inu Yasha and Kumagoro plushies. My Postman thinks I'm mad now because I hugged him when he gave me the box neh strange man n.n hope ya review soon
RosefaerietaleRed- I'm glad that you thought the conversation between Nagi and Brad was interesting, it took me absolutely FOREVER to write because I had to make them act like themselves and keeping those two in character is harder than I originally thought n.n but oh well I guess it was worth it in the long run n.n thanks again and I hope that this chapter prompts another review from you n.n
Muchacha- Yay glad to see that I'm still catching attention and getting new readers I'm rooting right there with you Schuldig and Farfarello are my favourite bad guys and Ran and Ken are my favourite good guys so the fic is kind of revolving around the four of them n.n hope that you like and stick with it and that I hear from you again soon n.n
Juumou- Yep we had to have someone being nice to Kenken stop him from feeling too down (looks at above chapter) uhh…he'll bounce back… I think (flips through notes) ha ha…whatever…thanks for the review and I hope that this chapter will be good enough to get another n.n
shikigami-kun- Hm, ah yes the great Yoda (realises she's never seen starwars and has only heard of the thing through adverts things like that) don't look at me like I'm weird n.n I've just never had the time to watch it… but I do watch X/1999 which talks about the future and how it's always changing so I get what you mean. I hope that this chapter was worth the wait hun and I hear from ya again soon n.n
Gillian Sillis- Yay, long review and a lot to read love ya (glomp tackles once again) but I must be serious now and get on with the review reply. You asked why Omi and Yohji were having such a hard time believing that Schwartz were involved, I don't think they truly didn't believe it more like they didn't want to think that Schwartz had captured their friend. They didn't want to admit that it could be because then it would be like they were admitting that it had already happened and there was nothing they could do about it. They're living a lie at the moment and no one wants to admit the truth because then they might feel as though it is their fault, if you know what I mean n.n
By 'Ken has never acted like this before' I meant that him just blowing everyone off and leaving in such a huff wasn't something he did on a regular basis. Then again receiving presents from Schwartz isn't something you do on a regular basis either… oh well. n.n…I figured that when he was with Yuriko he would have called to tell them that he was ok but I can understand the confusion because I never made it clear that was what I believed to have happened, sorry n.n and to be fair none of the other characters actually know that Ken is, or has been, depressed…yet… so to them it appeared he was just shouting and screaming for no reason. However I did explain the reason to his wacky mood swings in this chapter so I think the Weiss guys will be feeling pretty bad right now especially Ran n.n
I know that 'sitting down and waiting' is a real bitch, you want some hot RanxKen action and you can't have that when Ken is being held prisoner by Schwartz but Yohji and Omi had been looking for Ken and hadn't found anything in his usual hangs. What more could they do? Three guys alone, not even Weiss, would be able to search the whole of Tokyo for their AWOL companion. Ken Furniture ok I got it, nah just joking I know what you mean by that. He was always there for him and he always expected him to be so when he was suddenly gone he realised all of the things he used to do and say to him which just makes him miss him even more because he's remembering all of the good times…right?
Aww, I made you cry? I'm sorry (huggles Gillie) I don't like to make people cry (smirks maliciously) or do I? I figured that when something like that happens we all tell ourselves lies just to get to sleep, we might not necessarily know that they are lies but I thought that Ran would. He's very perceptive and smart and understood that he wouldn't sleep unless he knew that everything was ok, which it wasn't, so he lied to create a false sense of security even though, deep down, he knew that that was all it really was. I too would like to make that a reality for Ran, to have his Kenken back, but I'm too nasty to let it be soo easy if Ran wants his koi back he'll have to work for it. Mwahahaha n.n
Can I just say one thing? Farfie germs? (laughs hysterically) what the hell is that about? (giggles and then glomps you again for the good laugh, suddenly becomes overly serious) Hold on a second Farfie germs? Are you trying to tell me that my Farfie is a germ ridden flee bag…(gasps) how do you know how clean Farfie's tongue is? (raises eyebrow) is there something going on between the two of you that I don't know about? Ha, ha sorry about that little outburst I'm just hyper at the moment and had to make a joke…no matter how bad it was (pouts) I'm actually a very funny person just ask my Kumagoro plushie (KP: Silent) Hm damn plushie… eh… carrying on…
I'm glad you liked my 'Farfie lines' to create them I had to watch the episode 'Schuld' for the millionth time and had to dive into his character. I basically had to become him, only without the cutting and the killing of Priests and Nuns n.n and the eyepatch and white hair n.n technically I just had to get into his thought pattern…which was scary…don't ever go there n.n
I agree with you when you say that you thought Ken really was scared. Truth be told I don't think his heart had ever been pounding so fast but he was hardly going to admit that to them and give them the satisfaction that they had managed to affect him by doing nothing more than being is his presence. He's too much of a hot head for that n.n got to love him though n.n I'm glad you liked the part with Farfie's knife personally I LOVE Farfarello. He is one of my favourite characters of all times so for me to try and make him sexual and desirable is not very hard because to me he's like that all the time n.n
Do you think Ken's suffered enough yet of would you like a ton more angst? I know what I want but it's polite to ask the reviewers what they would like don't ya think n.n And see you're always soo spot on, they did show Ken false images of Ran only not as a happy guy, they showed him as being malicious and cruel something which Ken probably wouldn't have believed to have been true had he not had this mind altering drug in his system. Ah Schwartz is playing a wicked game with the kittens and I think the question on everyone's lips is going to be 'how will it end' well…I'll let ya in on a secret, it won't be all doom and gloom n.n but it won't be extraordinarily happy either.
You're right to have your doubts on Weiss striking Ken down, Yohji and Omi probably would and if Ran had NO OTHER option he most likely would too but only because he would know that being controlled and manipulated by Schwartz is not something that Ken would want. That doesn't mean however that Yuuki didn't know this, maybe he's just using everything to his advantage, he's a smart kid and he has a plan of his own that may differ from that Schwartz's. Just saying not everything is what it appears to be n.n
When I said that Yuuki's brother isn't a Takatori I didn't mean that in a biological way, he is biologically part of the Takatori family and Reiji Takatori's son. However he has never met any of the Takatori's his last name isn't Takatori because Yuuki refused to call him as such. Thus he does not know that he is one and if you don't know that something exists then you cannot belong to it. Does that make sense? If not just say and I'll try and explain it in a clearer and more sane way n.n
Ok everything you're saying is going in the right direction but Weiss will NOT be assigned to protect Yuuki, however Yuuki 'acting' is a very nice idea and I think it would be good for you to keep that in mind (winks) if you know what I mean n.n. I agree with you when you compare Weiss to a Phoenix no matter what happens or how bad things get they always pull through and save the day n.n Yay go Weiss! (Waves 'Go Weiss' flag happily)
Oh I'm sorry, I never thought about the wolves and they're my favourite animal (runs off to the woods to go save the wolves from Sakura's cooties) hm you don't think Schu and Farfie truly love Kenny? If you think about it though would they have found a gentler way to stop the bike? It could just be their style… but… I must agree and say that I don't think they love him either n.n
My friends? The one girl I've been friends with since the first year of primary school so it would be a shame to loose her as a friend because she was my best friend, the other one I met around the second year in high school. But although I think it would be a shame to loose such a long term friendship at the same time it's because it was a long term friendship that things got out of hand. If we wouldn't have been so close then the betrayal wouldn't have been as strong therefore I could have forgiven them with greater ease. I thank you for your words of wisdom though and I just have to apologise for burdening you with my problems, after all you're just here to read the fanfiction and not to listen to me rabbit on about things such as petty fights. Thanks hun and I'm sorry n.n
The review was perfect hunny and I thank you for every last word (smiles happily) hope this chappie prompts another and you're right about the glomp tackle from behind (giggles and glomp tackles n.n)
Sends love right back at ya and call me Nikki, Luna P sounds soo formal and I call you Gillie so it's only fair n.n