Author- Luna P aka Nikki
Rating- R for a lemon here and there
Warning- Rape, Yaoi, lemons, assassinations, more yaoi, more lemons, blood and gore with a ton of fluff on the sides n.n
Summary- Schwartz are back, with a vengeance. A new Takatori is holding the reigns and will do anything to destroy Weiss. Will they be able to stay together and fight when everything is falling apart around them? AyaxKen YohjixOmi
Disclaimer- When Aya and Ken realise their feelings for each other and fall head over heels in love with each other I will own it. Until then, nope sorry n.n
Pairing- Aya/RanxKen is the main with hints of YohjixOmi,
WKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWKWK Chapter fourteen- blind game again Kamui's POVEven at the dinner table he sat with his work, elbow resting eloquently on the table his hand holding his head as if it were too heavy for his neck alone to support. White hair falling to the left and swirling around the arm supporting his head. A pile of papers lay in his hand, food casually pushed aside, not even touched, yet even though he was so engrossed in his work every once in a while I would catch him glancing up at his younger brother as if to make sure that the younger was still there and in one piece. I couldn't shake the thought that, that reminded me of someone.
White hair seemingly turned red and I had to blink to check that it was just my imagination upon reopening my eyes I noticed that his hair was infact white, why had I seen it as red though? As if sensing my discomfort and confusion Yuuki lifted his head and removed the small rectangular glasses from where they had been perched on the bridge of his nose.
"Something wrong?" He asked, voice soft and sleek there was something interesting about his voice like that, no longer the authoritative and wise beyond his years tone he used when referring to Schwartz but kind and childlike, the correct voice for a teenage boy on the cusp of manhood. Blue eyes replaced brown as they studied me, a soft laugh entering my mind though no one was laughing. I sighed and gently rubbed by temple, a name on the tip of my tongue, fighting to be freed from the back of my mind…what was it…
"Haru, go on upstairs," Yuuki ordered his younger brother with a smile as he stood from his seat and wandered over to where I was sat. I registered that he seated himself in the chair beside my own, folding his arms across his chest as he watched me. Maybe wondering, maybe knowing something I did not, or waiting for this moment to pass before he began speaking again. Yet after a second he sighed and stood up walking over to the other side of the table, where he had previously been seated, replaced the reading glasses and continued with the work he had been doing. I watched him then; as if he was a mystery unfolding itself to me, so many layers each more complicated than the last, one question that could help me understand them all. Who was Takatori Yuuki?
I could tell from here that he was struggling to keep himself awake, once in a while his eyelids would drift down over soft brown eyes and stay that way for a fraction of a second longer than a blink. His mind telling him that that was all he needed. Always working…that name struggled for freedom again but it couldn't escape and so just sank back into the darkness I shook the thoughts from my mind and made a bridge with my hands, gently resting my chin atop of them.
"You should eat something," his head lifted from the papers, eyes locking with my own and a smile tugging at his lips before he returned his gaze to the papers within his grasp.
"Perhaps, you seem to have something important on your mind Kamui, wish to discuss with me what that is?" The younger asked me, as his eyes roamed over the papers, with an exasperated sigh he set them down and with the pen in his right hand crossed something out and re-wrote it beside where the word had just been. "No matter how much you look there will always be flaws," his voice was hushed, a mumble and I couldn't help but think that phrase had a double meaning to it.
"I was wondering, if you only hand twenty-four hours left to live what would you do with them?" A soft chuckle emanated from silken lips but he did not look up at me to answer merely continued to read the paper in his hands as if it were the only thing in the room with him.
"The obvious, I would finish my work and make sure that Haru would be ok, that he had a place to stay, people to love him who wouldn't even dream of harming him. To make sure that he always had enough money to do what he liked, to give him the childhood and excellent quality of life that he deserves. As long as he is happy and well I have achieved what I always wished to in my life." There was silence from me after that as my mind absorbed the words and smiled whispering 'hey that sounds like something…would say…' but the name was lost in the hush and I did not wish to search for it. Just a memory that had been unimportant and thus was lost within the chaos of my mind.
"What about you? Don't you deserve to be happy? Don't you deserve to have the childhood you lost years ago? Someone to care for you? Hell a good nights fucking sleep once in a blue moon? Don't you deserve to live?" He shrugged one word falling from his lips as he dropped one paper to the table and reached for another.
"Perhaps," I was beside him in a second my hand on his, stopping him from retrieving the paper he wished to study. He scowled slightly at the intrusion of my hand on his, but slowly his expression softened and he turned his eyes to glance up at mine questioningly. "How very peculiar of you Kamui, you are Schwartz, yet you care for my well being, I suppose some things cannot be hidden even with the right tools." I raised an eyebrow at that but ignored it completely, more interested in getting my point across.
"You blame yourself don't you?" He eyes regarded me silently trying to work out what I had meant by the question. "You blame yourself for your mother not being here, for her ignoring her pregnancy and for Haru being born prematurely into this world. You blamed yourself for him crying himself to sleep at night, for the children teasing him at school. He told me he asked you once where he was, I'm asking you now, where are you?" He didn't hesitate with the answer just smiled weakly and tore his gaze from mine. Deciding the floor was of far more importance.
"I am in limbo, my mother once told me that I was a child not longed for this world, one that perhaps should have died in her womb, but that I had such a spark and a will to live that I refused to be torn from this world. The midwife had told her that she had never seen a child with white hair before, she said that it was a symbol of purity. Somehow I don't agree, I remember once when I was young my mother came into my room to read to me." He paused but I did not interrupt, for some reason I really wanted to get to know Yuuki for the person he was. Not as my Boss or as Haru's brother or Takatori's son, not for the mystery he was but for him.
"I asked her why the children at school made fun at me because of the colour of my hair, calling me a demon or a devil. She smiled and sat beside me running her hand through my hair and saying that she believed me to be an Angel. That I had once been a being of light in the heavens above but that some how I had become tainted and fell from grace. She said that due to how pure and innocent I had been, I had been shown leniency and instead of falling to hell I was sent here, until I had learnt my lesson and chose to leave this mortal coil where I would return to heaven and resume the position that I had lost." He was completely different in that moment, no longer stoic and consumed by a desire to work. A child remembering a painful past and needing comfort.
"Haru once joked that I was a machine, the way I always worked, only eating one day a week and sleeping one day a month. He said that I couldn't be human if I acted like that, a child's joke but I'll admit that it hurt. You see Kamui, I am here in this place, this world, whatever that might be to you, to me it is nothing, it doesn't exist in my mind. So your question holds no value, the question you should be asking me is, what am I?" I sighed and moved forward, kneeling before the younger and lifting his face to meet my eyes, gently stroking the side of his face with my thumb.
"Hm, that's an easy question, you're not a demon, or a machine, nor are you an Angel, you are simply a human being." He stared at me in confusion his eyes begging for me to elaborate, I smirked and moved my thumb to the base of his eyes trailing an invisible path down the pale skin until I reached his jaw. "You don't wash your face well enough for the tears tracks to disappear, you cry at night when no ones there to see you, don't you? You allow yourself one moment to break down and let it all out, one moment to show emotion, therefore I come to the conclusion that you are most definitely a human being."
"You confuse me," I smirked and sat down in the chair next to his, pushing the papers away and motioning for the maid to bring another plate of food.
"Then we confuse each other now how about you eat something, and maybe after that I can find a way to convince you to sleep if only for an hour or so." Brown eyes stared at me, only confusion registered within the depths was it me or did this kid constantly seem like he was fighting within himself? What force had torn him down and left him so insecure of everyone…I couldn't shake the feeling that everything Nagi had discovered about Yuuki wasn't all there was to discover.
"I can't, I have work to do,"
"You know what I think, I think you're just making work for yourself, take a rest kid, when I was your age I never worked this hard and even though I was an only child, with the craziest friends ever. I know that your brother doesn't want you to sacrifice your happiness for his he doesn't want the world from you Yuuki, he just wants to spend time with you and see you happy." Yuuki smiled softly and casually ran a hand through his hair ruining his pristine and perfectly neat style. I had never before seen the boy even slightly dishevelled but I knew that I liked it. It was they way a teenager should be.
"He wants that now, as a child who craves attention, I love him dearly and would give him anything he wished for but I know that when he is older he will want to have every opportunity open to him. He will want the world then and if I will be unable to give it to him because I had not gone after it soon enough. It would be my fault then that he wasn't happy and he would blame me," I just chuckled slightly and picked him up sitting him on my lap. He gasped at the intrusion of space and tried to break away.
"Calm down, I'm not going to hurt you I just wanted to check something," I whispered but still he did not settle, he seemed to have a general discomfort of people touching him or getting too close, the weakness Nagi had once told me about. People scared him, sure he put on this tough guy act but that was to keep people away, deep down he was frightened of them. What had happened to him? I lifted him again and repositioned him on my lap so that he was facing me, his eyes were wide, pupils dilated his breathing uneven, heart pounding, he was completely and utterly terrified. With a sigh I gently stroked the side of his face, tears were beginning to form on the bottom lashes and it melted my heart to see him so scared. The touch seemed to calm him and so I continued, running my spare hand through his hair and down his back. When his breathing had evened out slightly I began to speak.
"Ssh, I just wanted to see how heavy you were, which isn't very, how much do you weight Yuuki, Haru felt heavier to me and he's what half your age. It's not healthy to be this light. God why hasn't anyone else ever come to help you, to save you, to be your hero? Hm, maybe because that destiny alone belonged to me." He started to cry then, just broke down and wept into his hands.
"Y…you…you won't care for me so much once you've heard the truth," I sighed and gently pulled his hands away from his face, I softly pulled him to me allowing his head to rest against my chest. I heard someone coming down the stairs and glanced up to see Haru stood on the bottom step, his eyes widened when he saw his brother. He began to run forward but I stopped him with a shake of my head,
"But…Aniki is upset…aniki's never upset…" the kid pleaded with me, I shook my head once again and gave and small glare to show him that I meant what I was about to say and that I knew what I was doing.
"He'll be fine, please kid, return to your room, I'll take care of him," he gave a slow nod and retreated the way he had come, doing as he was told even though I could tell that he wanted to stay. But Yuuki wouldn't have wanted his younger brother to see him like this. So weak and vulnerable, that was not the image he wanted to portray to his little brother. Once I was certain that Haru was out of sight and ear shot I returned my full attention to Yuuki.
"Yuuki, why do you think I wouldn't care about you if I found about this truth?" I asked softly, running my hand through his hair. He sniffed sweetly and pulled away from my chest, eyes sparkling with unshed tears. He must have been biting his lip to suppress the sobs because his bottom lip was bleeding. He looked absolutely adorable in that moment but I knew that if anyone else saw this side of him they would use it against him I couldn't allow for that to happen.
"Because…because…I don't know, I don't even know why you care about me now." I smiled; I really liked this side of Yuuki, so sweet, so childlike. The maid came into the room with the food and practically dropped it upon seeing us. If she saw that Yuuki was upset I'd have to kill her, couldn't risk her blabbing about it to someone. Thankfully she stayed in the doorway; I really didn't want to have to kill someone right now. At present I just wanted to help Yuuki. I smirked and gently pushed Yuuki so that his head was buried in my shirt once again, hiding his face from view, I then placed my chin atop his head and began to stroke his hair. Shooting the maid a small smirk.
"Place the food on the table, then go and inform the other servants that you have all been given the day off, you will not be needed for the remainder of today." She did as she was told, put the food down and left the room, never looking back once; good for her she would walk out of here alive. When I was sure she was gone I lifted Yuuki's chin so that our eyes met and gently wiped away the blood on his lip. "Hm, hm, the reason I care about you is a very simple one Yuuki, you're special, you're beautiful and most importantly you need to be cared for, now, lets get some food in you before you waste away. I always thought your clothes were way too big for you."
"I don't have time," He pleaded, I smiled and lightly poked his nose, he raised an eyebrow at the gesture causing me to chuckle,
"Make time, or else I'll burn down your office, nah that would just mean you'd have to work extra hard to re-do everything," I thought for a minute and then chuckled softly, "second thoughts I'd pin you to the table and force feed you, using my mouth if necessary." His eyes widened and he blushed a deep shade of crimson turning his head away quickly. "So does that mean you'll eat something?" He nodded and I grabbed the plate holding it infront of him, "I think I'll stay here tonight make sure you get a little TLC Schu and Farf will understand."
"You're going to tell them about…everything?" I smiled and shook my head using my free hand to gently caress his cheek. He leant into the touch and gave a small sound that resembled that of a content purr. My smile faded, he must have been starved for attention, he'd been alone for so long after all and as far as I could tell the only person he had let get close was his brother.
"No of course not, that's between us, and I won't let Schuldig steal it from my head either, your secrets are safe with me, you're safe with me. Food?" He nodded and wiped his eyes with the back of his hand, he looked so adorable when he did that it was almost unbelievable. "Not too much though, you're not used to eating and I don't want to make you ill, after this though you're going to bed, and you're going to sleep for at least twelve hours."
"But…that's half a day…" I smirked
"Also known as night, God you're so smart in every thing but when it comes to taking care of yourself you haven't got the first clue what to do."
Ran's POVThe cemetery was silent as I walked through the gates, it was getting late in the day, the sun was setting on the horizon and there was an unmistakable nightly chill to the air. A slight mist seemed to hang in the air, distorting my view like this mess with Schwartz was distorting my mind. I couldn't think clearly anymore, one moment I was sure that Ken wasn't dead, that he was out there with them, but then a few hours later I'd think that that was impossible and it was juts wishful thinking. That I hadn't seen him that day, I'd be sure that I'd imagined it…
Next thing I knew I was deciding that those thoughts were not my own and that Schuldig was in my head trying to throw me off. I just didn't know anymore, I couldn't think anymore, I didn't know what was going on. The sky could be purple now for all I knew, the grass could be orange and I wouldn't know any different. The world I knew and belonged to was falling down around me and I could do nothing to stop it. I, Fujimiya Ran, who knew everything, the man who held the answers to everything, the proud leader of Weiss, didn't know where to turn. I was alone, I was empty, I was cold and bitter at loosing something that I'd cared for so deeply.
I stared down at the stone infront of me with a heavy heart; no body lay beneath the six feet of dirt, that neither meant that he was alive or dead. Sometimes I just wished that there would be a simple answer to everything but I knew that there never was. A breeze snaked its way past me blowing my trenchcoat backwards. I could tell immediately that it was not a normal breeze, yet I did not move. If it was who I believed it to be, let him strike me down and leave me in peace…
"Are you not going to try and attack me Abyssinian?" The voice asked, not in a taunting manner but nor was it an actual question. It was like he knew the answer but was trying to break the silence with some sort of deranged chitchat. I refused to comply with such stupidity. "No interested in talking? Hm, neither am I," he explained as he stepped beside me.
"So why are you here Nagi? Trying to kill me? Are the rest of Schwartz hidden in the bushes waiting to strike out? Or could you be trying to earn some extra money by taking me out on your own? Come on I don't have all day," He chuckled quietly and glanced over at me.
"No, I'm not here a Prodigy, I'm here as Naoe Nagi,"
"I didn't know there was a difference,"
"Oh there is, one works for Schwartz the other has been led into circumstances where by he's decided to help you." He explained and held out a file to his right, just infront of me. "You know that this is not right," he explained motioning to the head stone belonging to Ken.
"Does that mean that he is still alive?" He shrugged and smiled softly; he now had my full attention.
"What does your heart tell you?" I gave a small smirk, under different circumstances I think I could have liked this kid. "If he is though, it's a given that he will not be the Ken you knew, he would have been altered, re-programmed if you will. If that were the case you would have to find a way to undo what had been done. The only way you could do that though, would be to know everything there was to know about Hidaka Ken, you know all there is to know about who Siberian is but what about Ken, what about his past."
"I know something of it," I growled out clenching my hands into fists at the memory.
"In this file, there is everything, I tracked down the case file at the police department that had dealt with the case. There is always a back up when you re-program something, a way to undo it should it not work out. You just have to find the code. Read it, who knows it might help. I'll be on my way now, goodbye Fujimiya Ran," he said with a soft bow as he pushed the file into my hands and began to walk off in the direction he had come. I held the file and stared down at it in confusion.
"Nagi!" I called after him; he stopped and turned to face me, tilting his head to the left in confusion. "Why? Why tell me all of this? Why help me we're enemies," he smirked again and ran a hand through his hair.
"Only under these circumstances and I like Ken, there's always been something about him. He's always kind and helpful, treated me like a human being instead of a genius or a freak. He saw the human being and broke down the wall around me. Something is telling me that he did the same for you. Good luck Ran," and with that said he disappeared into the darkness. I sighed and stared down at the folder in my hand. Could I trust him?
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What? I know, I didn't like the first draft I did of this so I stayed up until half two in the morning getting the second draft done. Again I wanted some insight in to Yuuki with some fluff. Even I was surprised when the fluff turned out to be with Yuuki and Ken or Kamui well I'm very sleepy so I'm going to bed now. Please leave me a review and tell me what you thought it would be much appreciated n.n sorry the plots slowing down again but it will all kick off very soon I promise thank you to all reviewers so far and please review and tell me what you thought n.n
One minute just to say again a HUGE thank you to Gillie who helped me to name Yuuki's little brother when I was stuck, thanks hun n.n