Chapter Two

Lucas looked over the letter. He had already read it about ten times. He had written everything he wanted to say to her in it. As much as he was happy to have written everything out, he really wished that he had the chance to say everything to her face to face so she would know he was serious, but that wasn't possible. He was here in Tree Hill and Brooke was in California for at least another month.

Lucas thought about waiting until she came back to tell her anything, but he quickly changed his mind. He didn't want Brooke to think he had changed his mind and no longer wanted to be with her. He knew Brooke and that was probably exactly what she was thinking since they hadn't spoken in over two months and he couldn't risk that. He knew her insecurities would take over and he hated that. He hated that he was the one who made her become so insecure. Everything he had done that hurt her in the past, made her the person she was today, the scared girl that wouldn't open herself up. He couldn't blame her though. What he had done to her was bad and it didn't help that it was with her best friend, another person she trusted, the one person she trusted the most.

Some people would think that what Lucas had done was completely unforgivable and he was one of those people, but somehow Brooke had found it in her heart to forgive him. Somehow she was able to believe that he was truly sorry and give him another chance at friendship. Although he was very happy with them being friends he couldn't help but wonder if somehow Brooke could maybe find it in herself to give him another chance at more than just friendship.

Before Brooke left for California she told him that she was glad he was into Peyton because she just wanted to be friends. Lucas hoped with everything that that was a lie and that she loved and wanted to be with him as much as he loved and wanted to be with her. Lucas wasn't sure though, in the back of his mind he feared that by telling her how he felt he had now lost their new friendship. If Brooke didn't love him or want to be with him and really only wanted to be friends there would be no way that she would want to be around him knowing he loved her. Maybe telling Brooke his feelings had all been a mistake. Maybe he should have just kept it to himself.

Lucas looked down at the letter still in his hands.He turned in his chair to the trashcan. He should just throw this in the trash before he made matters worse by wanting too much.

Lucas got up and walked over to the trashcan and stood in front of it. He looked from the letter to the trashcan several times. If he threw the letter away would he just be making another mistake?

Flashback

Brooke threw open Lucas' bedroom door and walked."Hey Broody, whatcha reading?"she asked as she plopped herself down next to him on the bed.

Lucas adjusted himself so he he was now sitting with his back against the headboard. He held up the book for her to read.

"Human Bondage. Your still reading that book? I would have thought you'd be done by now."

Lucas rolled his eyes at her."Brooke we just went and got it the other day. There's no way I'd already be done with it."he shook his head at her absurdity.

"Well I guess I just thought you were a fast reader. I guess I was wrong."said Brooke with a smile. She looked around the room. She loved this room. It felt so homey.

"You know, normally I am a fast reader, but lately I've been distracted. You see I have this girlfriend who has been taking up a lot of my time."

"Really?"asked Brooke playing along."Tell me about this girlfriend of yours. Is she hot?"

Lucas looked up at her." Definitely."Brooke smiled."She is gorgeous and she has the most beautiful smile I have ever seen."Brooke's smile widened. She loved hearing what Lucas thought about her."And she has the most amazing green eyes. I'm pretty lucky to be with her. I love spending time with her so my reading has been slacking, but I don't mind."

"Well that's good. You know, this girlfriend of yours sounds pretty amazing. I'm surprised she isn't here right now distracting you."Brooke took the book from Lucas' hands and tossed it onto the table next to his bed. She inched her way up to him and now sat straddling his hips. Lucas placed his hands on her lower back, bringing her further into him."I guess I'll just have to fill in for her today."said Brooke as she leaned into Lucas and captured his lips with hers.

After a minute Lucas broke the kiss and looked up at her."I don't know, she has some pretty big shoes to fill."

Brooke smiled down at him."I think I can handle it."

"I know you can."Lucas leaned his head forward and gave Brooke a quick kiss before he got up and flipped them both around. He was now on top with Brooke's back on the bed. Lucas leaned down and kissed her. His tongue traced her bottom lip begging for entrance.

Brooke slowly opened her mouth and allowed Lucas to enter. Their tongues began to caress each others. Brooke wrapped her arms around Lucas' neck bringing him closer to her. She moaned as he pressed himself into her. At that moment she wished with everything that they weren't fully clothed.

Brooke unwrapped her arms from Lucas' neck and trailed her hands down his back and pushed his lower body further into hers. She loved the feel of Lucas pressed against her.

Lucas quickly broke their kiss and removed his hand from under her shirt. During their make out his hand had found his new favorite spot under her shirt."Brooke stop."she looked up at him and feigned ignorance."You know exactly what I'm talking about. I know what your doing, but we can't."Brooke's bottom lip jutted out and she pouted. She looked cute."It's not that I don't want to because believe me I do, it's just that Keith is in the living room, so we can't."

Brooke nodded in understanding."Okay. I'm a little disappointed, but I understand. We wouldn't want uncle Keith to walk in and get a free show, now would we?"

Lucas shook his head."No, we wouldn't. That definitely wouldn't be a good thing. So what are we gonna do instead?"

"Nothing."

"Nothing?"

"Yeah, here."Brooke picked up his book that she placed on his side table and handed it to Lucas."You read. I hear you've been distracted lately."she pushed Lucas off of her.

"Okay, well, while I'm reading what are you going to do?"asked Lucas positioning himself until he was comfortable.

"Nothing."said Brooke placing her head on his chest and her arm around his waist."I'm just going to lie here and rest, if that's okay with you?"

Lucas wrapped his arm around her."It's better then okay."Lucas used his free hand to find his place in the book and he began to read.

"I love this."

Lucas rolled his eyes. He knew there was no way Brooke was going to lie down and do nothing while he read. He knew she would get bored within minutes."You love what?"

"This. I love being here with you and not having to do anything. I know you don't expect things from me and it's nice. I love that I have fun with you even when we're not doing anything. I just love being here with you."she wrapped her arm around his waist tighter and let out a sigh. She was happy. For the first time in her life she was with someone who made her truly happy.

Lucas looked down at her."Me too. I love having you here in my arms."he leaned down and kissed the top of her head before going back to his book. Brooke then closed her eyes.

End of Flashback

Lucas had not thought about that night in a long time. It was all the little things that he loved about when they were together.That night they ended up staying that way, with their arms around each other for hours. Brooke had fallen asleep and he had continued to read. He loved having her in his arm and he now missed that more then ever.

Lucas once again looked at the letter he held in his hands and then to the trashcan. Yes, throwing it away would definitely be a mistake. He already hated the fact that he chickened out on telling Brooke how he felt the night before she left. He knew he'd end up hating himself if he threw this letter away and yet again chickened out. If this letter could bring him more times like the one he just remembered, then he had to give it to Brooke and take that chance. He was willing to do anything if it meant he had a possibility of having her in his arms like that again.

Lucas walked back to his desk with his mind made up. He was sending Brooke this letter. He was willing to risk everything for the possibility of being with her again. He sat down and chose a pink envelope of his mothers to put it in. Brooke loved the color pink and he knew it would catch her eye. Lucas folded the letter and placed it inside the envelope and sealed . After addressing the envelope with the address he had gotten from Peyton, he got up and grabbed his keys. Lucas headed out the door and to the post office. Everything was riding on this letter and the quicker he mailed it, the quicker Brooke got it and then she would at least know he still loved her.

Here is the latest chapter of this four part story. I hope you enjoyed it. Thank you all for wanting to read more of this story. Hearing everything you all had to say is what made me want to write more for this. I was going to have this chapter be of Brooke getting the letter but I thought knowing what Lucas was feeling about the letter was also important. Please let me know what you think. Please read and review. Thanks.

Coming Up:

Brooke receives the letter.