Looking In The Past

I Won't Forget

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha. Some of us know otherwise. (Lets out a long breath of air) This is getting old. Can we all not just accept the fact that I don't own him and I wish I did? (Insert smiley that wont show up that shows irritation here)

This chapter is going to be taking place back in the past again, to explain further more things that are happening. And it will make it easier for me, myself, to do things in the present time drama they're having! So lets review on what happened last when they were kids, Inuyasha, Miroku, and Sango were at Kaede's hut.

I Won't Forget

Speaking to Kikyo wasn't hard to do now; they were becoming very close friends. Sango didn't understand this, why she was suddenly a friend with Kikyo and Kikyo was evil before, teasing Kagome and Inuyasha for being together when Kikyo had a crush on Inuyasha. But according to Kagome, Kikyo was fine. So here sat Kikyo with Kagome, on Kagome's bed as the TV was turned on a few feet away but not being watched. "Did he believe you?" Kikyo giggled, she was interested in the whole 'let's pretend I'm mad at him' deal. Kagome nodded to her, masking the pity she had for Sesshomaru inside with her nods and smiles.

"I think he's just a little curious…and suspicious." Kagome mumbled, acting as if he were right there listening even though he wasn't. In her mean mind she would have said, 'He's probably out messing around with other women.' But she understood what he was doing, not really, but she liked to make herself think she did.

Kikyo, on the other hand, was happy with the whole fact. Her not being evil or anything, but she was happy for Kagome that she was finally taking a stand to Sesshomaru or Inuyasha, and she liked the fact that there were mischievous things going on. She was the mischievous kind of girl, herself. So she wanted to help, "Probably true. I know what happened before…when we were all kids. Only I was slightly older than you all…yet I remained looking like I was your age…and Kaede…" she mumbled, not wanting Kagome to hear the rest of what ever she was saying, "Anyway…the point is, I know what happened before."

She waited and paused a moment searching for the correct thing to say, she knew herself that Kikyo knew, too, but she didn't know if she was so sure she wanted her to know. Yea, they were good friends now, but she couldn't trust her before. But people change…She thought, "Mhm. That's correct, would you like to help some with what's going on? I probably already asked you that…things are just a little overwhelming lately with me finding out about him and seeing my long lost friend." She smirked in a way, remembering the times before.

"But don't you remember Inuyasha?" Kikyo was confused, if Kagome loved Sesshomaru or not, if Kagome remembered certain people, if Kagome wanted Inuyasha back, if any of the things that were happening were going to work out fine.

Kagome, once again, didn't know what to say. She slightly remembered Inuyasha from before, but she didn't know all that much. Things from her childhood were beginning to fade away.

Kikyo cleared her throat, "You don't remember, do you?" She clutched her hands together and began rubbing them together, closing her eyes. "I do…"

(This is now in the past, you'll find out later in the story of how it got switched to the past.)

Sango, Inuyasha, and Miroku were walking back from Kaede's hut to Kagome's house, to inform her mother about what had happened. It was going to be a pretty long walk, and they weren't sure really if they should tell her mother. Kaede was right; she hadn't been missing for too long. Then they remembered Kaede and how beautiful she was, she was just a kind lady who wasn't that old of age, or young, she was a gorgeous, as any woman would say. But she was wise and strict as to how things should work. The walk home was quiet, and nobody talked until bushes next to the woods began to shake slightly, "What's that?" Sango stopped walking, asking Inuyasha for he was the 'protector' at the moment.

"Probably just a cat or something, maybe even Myoga and his nosey self following us." Inuyasha ignored the rest of the shaking bushes, figuring it was nothing. No one would want the three children anyway; they weren't very useful anymore now that their best friend had gone missing.

Miroku nodded to him, knowing he wasn't in the mood to go searching or save the day from anything. They were just kids, after all. But the bushes continued to move from side to side, slightly every few minutes. The friends didn't realize this toward the end of their walk, when they approached Kagome's house. This made Inuyasha shake, sending shivers down his spine as he stepped up to the door. Then behind him came Miroku and Sango, waiting for Inuyasha to knock on the big red door. He had his arm raised, but he didn't knock. Instead Sango came from behind him and knocked three times for him, waiting for an answer.

When her mother did answer, Sango smiled widely, "Hello Mrs. Higurashi, how are you?" Kagome's mother was smiling; Sango was so kind and sweet.

"I am fine, thank you, Sango." She reached out for a hug, and then scanned over the three children, looking for her daughter. "Where's Kagome?"

Inuyasha then took a step forward, opening his mouth and expecting something to come out. He took a deep breath before speaking, "She's…gone…"

Next came the awkward silence for a moment, and Kagome's mother's eyes began to fill with tears, hoping that they meant she was gone at another friends house or that this was some joke. She expected to see her adoring daughter jump out from behind one of the trees, giggling and running to hug her mother and saying 'got cha!' or something along the lines that it was a joke. "What do you mean, Inuyasha?" She took and placed her hand onto her cheek, wiping away the sweat that quickly came down from her forehead, she was nervous.

It was Miroku's turn to speak up, he wasn't sure if he should tell her that he had a dream, but it was only right. "Inuyasha had a dream about Kagome, and now it's come true." He coughed, and corrected himself, "Nightmare."

"I don't understand, what happened in this dream?" Mrs. Higurashi waved them inside, and directed them to the living room to sit.

The children sighed, and Inuyasha sat on the floor instead of the couch, preferably. "I had a nightmare that Sesshomaru came and took Kaggy away from us forever. It was her choice to leave with him."

She was confused now, she wasn't so sure with all the names of the people yet, "Sesshomaru- the one that is your…half-brother? Long hair?"

Inuyasha nodded as a response to her. "I think it came true."

Sango was quiet, biting her nails and listening to their conversation. "Kaede told us that we should not worry too much, she hasn't been gone very long."

"How long?" Kagome's mother took a seat in a chair, crossing her legs and slightly rocking.

Inuyasha began murmuring numbers, "A few hours."

Mrs. Higurashi stood up, and began pacing, "Yes, children, that is too long! She's my daughter! Her leaving someone's side all alone by herself or with someone I don't know for a moment is too long! I knew I shouldn't have let you all play outside on your own, I thought it was safe! IT'S NOT! WHERE IS KAGOME?"

"With Sesshomaru, we think." Miroku's words were silent, he acted as if she was stupid and could not get it through her head. He understood, at least, she was a worried mother.

"Aw, Sesshomaru…" Kagome blushed, lowering her head to his last comment. 'Well, I guess I don't need them if I have you.' "That's sweet."

He was turned around facing a different direction by now, so he rolled his eyes and nodded his head, "Yea…I guess." Twitching, he turned around back to her, smiled a fake smile, and turned back to the fire. "Hope you like fish." He murmured and waited for a laugh, once Kagome realized this she giggled.

As Kagome turned her fish around on the stick, she glanced away, sighing. She didn't much like Sesshomaru; he was so different than Inuyasha. But that wasn't the worst thing of them all because she was scared of Sesshomaru. Kagome was scared of her own mate, she sighed thinking of it. This wasn't what her mom had planned out for her, when ever her mom talked to her about it she would sit on her mom's lap and she would tell her that one day she would marry a handsome prince, that would always love her and keep her tended. After giggling about it, then she would tell her that she would have a big wedding with a white dress and family, with gifts and the flower girl would be her younger cousin or other sort of relative.

In fact, it wasn't at all like she had planned. She wasn't even supposed to have a boyfriend at her age! She didn't even know what that meant! "Not much, but I'll learn to like it." It was a late response; she was too much in a gaze off into the woods to give a real reply.

He looked at her, as she was staring off. Sesshomaru could tell she wasn't being very much entertained, but he was getting fed up with her being around. She wasn't very talkative at all, and he was most angry about the fact that she had to be waited on, he needed to tell her everything to do. And most of all, she was a girl. He still didn't like girls, but he was pretending he did.

Why did he want to get back at Inuyasha, anyway? They were so young; they had nothing to be that angry at each other about. But poor Kagome, being tricked into Sesshomaru's world of lies where he would eventually catch her love in his net of lies and keep it forever…treating it like it was nothing, he wasn't the type to have a girlfriend. He's meant to be solo.

"They should be ready right about now, Kagome." Sesshomaru pulled the fish out of the fire, looking at Kagome as she did the same. Not waiting for it to cool down, he took a large bite out of the fish.

Kagome watched this, not wanting to repeat it. "You're eating like a caveman!" Her eyes widened. He turned to her, and raised an eyebrow.

"Am I supposed to eat differently?" He took another large bite out of it.

"Am I supposed to eat the same?" Kagome was afraid to say that, his face bulged out a little more, but he calmed down. Kagome began eating like he did, to avoid being hurt. I feel like he's kidnapped me…She was about to cry, "Sesshomaru…" she was also afraid to say the next thing, "I miss my mommy and I want to go home."

"Keh…you'll be fine here. I've been living on my own for a while, anyway. Who said you couldn't, too? You'll go to school, don't worry. We'll get money and things from the villagers; it's not easy living on your own, Kagome. But not everyone can be a princess."

Kagome took that as an insult, and then the tears came out from her eyes, she wiped them away on her shoulder, and she continued to eat slowly, with large bites out of the fish. "I'm scared…"

"I understand, children." She sighed. "Please excuse me before I get angry with you, things here aren't very well." Mrs. Higurashi stood up and left the room, going upstairs to tell Kagome's grandfather.

Miroku looked to Inuyasha, who was sitting on the floor Indian style rocking back and forth staring at the wall. He was pitiful, so confused and didn't know who to turn to…Then he turned to Sango, she was acting normal, surprisingly the opposite of Inuyasha. She was smiling and was happy, looking kind of hyper, actually. "Why are you…so…happy?"

"Because. We just told Kagome's mommy! We're so special! We did it! We helped!" Sango was smiling even wider, but then when she realized Kagome was gone and might be gone for good, the smile disappeared and she began to act like Miroku, worried and quiet.

"Mmm…I want to go find her." Inuyasha spoke, finally saying something after the few minutes of silence he gave everyone. Miroku and Sango immediately looked over to him.

"Really?" Miroku's eyes lit up, it was the adventure of the day. Finding Kagome. Not only it was the adventure of the day, but a very important part of their life. If they didn't succeed, then they may never see their poor little friend again.

Sango returned to her hyper mood, "I think I have a way we can start." Inuyasha turned to her, giving her a look asking for the way. "We can type up on the computer something and post them all over the place on the street and through town. Since we don't have anyone to take care of us anymore…we can go without anyone."

Miroku thought about it for a moment, and Inuyasha thought it over. They both nodded in agreement and they ran toward the Higurashi family computer. They didn't know much about computers, but they figured now was the time to figure out. Miroku opened up a Microsoft Word document and began typing.

"MISSING. PLESE HELP US FIND KAGGY. SHE HAS BLACK HAIR AND BLU EYES."

Lines appeared under the words "PLESE" "KAGGY" and "BLU". Miroku right clicked over them, learning from what the paperclip character told them to do. He chose from a list of words and picked what looked right for each of them. Coming out with…

"MISSING. PLEASE HELP US FIND KAGGY. SHE HAS BLACK HAIR AND BLUE EYES."

Sango began to mumble, and then she spoke up, "Don't you think we need a little more information?" Miroku gave Sango a thumb up, while Inuyasha was going closer to the screen looking at how the words appeared.

"MISSING. PLEASE HELP US FIND KAGGY. SHE HAS BLACK HAIR AND BLUE EYES. HER AGE IS 6. SHE IS SHORT ND A CHILED HER NAME IS KAGOME HIGURASHI."

Correcting the typos again…

"MISSING. PLEASE HELP US FIND KAGGY. SHE HAS BLACK HAIR AND BLUE EYES. HER AGE IS 6. SHE IS SHORT AND A CHILD HER NAME IS KAGOME HIGURASHI."

Miroku was satisfied with this, so he went to the top left of the screen and clicked print, making 30 copies. "I think this will help a lot, Sango. Thank you for the idea…and Miroku, you need to learn how to type." Inuyasha smirked, he was happy that they were doing something without anyone's help. Better yet, he was proud of his friends and himself that they might actually find dear Kagome.

Kikyo resumed her normal position, and opened her eyes. She let out a deep breathe of air, acting as if she was just getting used to something. Kagome sighed, "I wish I did, then maybe none of this crap would have ever happened. And I would know what the hell is going on!"

"What if, Inuyasha cared about you more than Sesshomaru did?" Kikyo was curious; she knew her and Sesshomaru didn't belong together. It didn't even look right to her, but it seemed to look right to them.

Kagome didn't take that thought into her thinking process, she hurt too much inside to think about anything of the matter of caring. But then she thought that it was probably true, if Sesshomaru cared about her that much then he wouldn't run off and cheat on her like that, taking his date to the fanciest restaurant- that he never took her to. This sent many chills down Kagome's spine; it made her feel like trash to Sesshomaru. But then she glanced down at her hand, the ring she was wearing. Sesshomaru gave that to her, the night he proposed to her under the stars sitting on the balcony at Kagome's friend's house, Ayail.

She smiled, thinking of her friend Ayail. Ayail was so sweet to Kagome, such a simple smile but a heart that seemed to expand everyday. There were plenty of things wrong with her, her jealousy, how she can't maintain a job for a month, and how she can never manage to keep one guy. It wasn't her fault she was a beauty!

"Mm…I guess you have a point, but I really don't want to think about how the outcome is going to be of all this mess. How are we going to get all four of us in the same place at once? It seems all too confusing, perhaps maybe we should just forget it and Sango can be with Sesshomaru and I'll be with Inuyasha. There's no chance I'm sticking with that cheating scum!" Her heart ached slightly; she never before called her own dear Sesshy scum. The worst thing she had ever called him before was sick crap. But then she was only joking.

Her response to Kagome was quick, but the silence after it made both Kagome and Kikyo sadden and loose the simple smiles planted on their faces. "Don't you think Inuyasha will be hurt, seeing you hurt? And go after him? They're half-brothers!"

Now Kagome was worried, she really didn't want that to happen. But why? I just wish I had never let any of this happen, what happened when we were little anyway? By the time I had forgotten, Sesshomaru said he would tell me how we got together later, and he never did. Does he even remember- himself? She shook, standing up. "I should be going now, Kikyo. Thank you for your time and consideration." Kagome smiled and gave Kikyo a quick hug and they both stood up, leaving Kagome's apartment and went separate ways.

Inuyasha sat at the store in the mall, waiting to see if Kagome would come. It was at this time the other day that she came in to look at the shoes, so Inuyasha was parked sitting on a bench in front of the store. He watched at people came in and out, most of them not buying anything due to the store's high prices. Anyone who came out with a pair of shoes seemed to be stuck-up snobs with lots of money to Inuyasha. As he eyed the many people- mostly women- that came out, he noticed that there was that one same man that tried to steal Kagome's purse back in the store. He watched the man, as he walked throughout the store back and forth, talking to men and women, as they were disappointed with the feeling or price of the shoes. Though none of them seemed interested in his offers, sending him odd and scared looks. When the man turned in Inuyasha direction, he immediately recognized him and lowered his head and began walking out of the store, hoping he wouldn't remember.

He found this annoying, so he stood up from the bench and lurked behind the man slowly; planning to attack him once he got outside. This didn't work out because as Inuyasha followed him, the man realized that there was someone behind him. From a good observation from the corner of his eye, it was Inuyasha. He began running and when he got on the escalator Inuyasha caught up to him, because there were lots of people traveling down to the 2nd level of the mall of the three levels. Inuyasha figured he had the stranger, and he couldn't get away. But when they got to the second level he was off running again, this time after the elevator. He waved to Inuyasha as it traveled downward, because Inuyasha missed entering by a second. Instead, Inuyasha took the quicker way, jumping down to the first level. A normal man wouldn't be able to do this, of course, but this is Inuyasha we're talking about.

As the man came close to the automatic doors leading to the outside of Tokyo, near the fancy restaurants where Inuyasha spent his fantastic night with Kagome. The man turned around, and began screaming, "HELP! HELP! THIS WEIRD EARS MAN IS GOING TO MURDER ME!" A nearby cop took attention to this, and ran after Inuyasha. The stranger took off running in a different direction, and the cop had Inuyasha in handcuffs behind his back. Inuyasha took this as a surprise, and he didn't resist because he didn't want to get into any more trouble. Instead he took his fight in words, "You're making a mistake, officer. This man tried to steal Kagome's purse!" The officer just looked at him and shook his head, pointing to the police car. Inuyasha sighed and entered the car as it drove off to the station.

The policeman picked up his communicator and talked into it with a loud clear voice, "This is agent Kamiyo, I caught a man…with strange ears and extremely long hair…trying to murder or steal from a citizen. I'll be dropping him off at Sesshomaru's…I have to get back to the streets around the mall." Inuyasha grunted, he'd have to be busted out by his half-brother. He couldn't understand the other officer's response; it was blocked out by static. He pulled into Sesshomaru's office, where he saw many people coming in and out, along with other detectives. Agent Kamiyo got out of the car and opened Inuyasha's door, escorting him inside and then sitting him down at Sesshomaru's desk. He took the handcuffs off of Inuyasha and spoke once more before leaving, "You two look an awful lot alike."

Murmuring, Inuyasha watched as he walked away. "Yea…"

Sesshomaru waited until Kamiyo was gone out of the building before he spoke, "Why are you here?"

"I was catching a guy that tried to steal-."

Sesshomaru interrupted him, "That's a cops job. And it's my job to figure out if the closer details to it. You aren't a cop are you? No, you aren't. So just leave, half-brother."

Inuyasha rolled his eyes, and stood up ready to exit. But he stopped in his tracks, going back to Sesshomaru's desk and sat himself down. "Nah, I'd rather stay here and discuss why you're CHEATING on Kagome."

He choked, "What are you talking about?"

"Still playing innocent?" He turned his head away, "Keh…"

Sesshomaru stood up, enraged, "Fine, Inuyasha. You have me now. Yea, I'm cheating on Kagome. But do you think it's hard when another woman comes along and you can't resist yourself but to be kind and even when you think you have a chance?"

"I think you should treat Kagome like she's Kagome! You can't just throw her around like a fucking piece of trash. I haven't been with ANY woman since the day she disappeared because I wanted to find her; I was determined to see Kagome again. And now when I see her again she's being treated like shit from you!"

"Wait a minute…" Sesshomaru lifted up his hand, pointing at him, getting ready to say 'you saw her?' But it was too late, Inuyasha was already on his way out the door, "And one more thing, SESSHY. Stay away from Sango, Miroku needs her!"

Sesshomaru was lost. He didn't understand what was going on, how did Inuyasha know? And he still hadn't gotten to meet this, Miroku guy. Sango told him that they were friends…

Inuyasha was walking out of the station; he wasn't sure where he was headed. He was broken from being able to see how Sesshomaru was, going on with his life as if it was casual to cheat on Kagome. He was angry, he didn't think Kagome felt for him at all and that she was too into Sesshomaru. That if it came down to a fight over her, he would loose. He would loose Kagome again, and he didn't want that. He needed her, without her he was worthless. Just searching for her, no luck until one horrible day when she's being robbed. It was a great day for him though, but did it matter to her? He wasn't sure now, to think whether or not Kagome was just going out with him for pity or if she knew Sesshomaru was cheating on her, wanting revenge, or some other sort that he couldn't think of. He kicked the rocks off of the sidewalk in his path, knocking them against Taxis that went by every now and then.

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I'm not sure if I can do this anymore, Diana said in her story that some people are saying that you can't do the review reply thing. So, before I get into lots of trouble, I'll do it this one last time until someone tells me with a definite answer if I can or not. And if it takes chapters to get an answer, I'll post replies to the separate chapters after the chapter. Yea that's really confusing but…you'll understand once you see.

Fanficluv7Inu: Aw, thank you! Good thing there's no death involved in this. Thank you thank you thank you for reviewing! It's so encouraging to see more reviews from people who don't normally review.

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DarkMale: Ah, of course…if you analyze it enough then you can realize how much this story is predictable! Mhm, and I had the beginning to this chapter where it began with Rin and Sesshomaru, him asking her questions, but then…I deleted it and started with this! They will be switching from the past to present in the next few chapters.

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A kiss on her crimson lips
And she fights back the tears
With death just a moment away,
She preys to stay
I'll love you forever,
I promise

8.16.05

Well it's 1:30 AM, so it is the 16th!