Title: Time Won't Heal Her Wounds

Summary: Felicity during the days of Gus' death.

Notes: I don't own "Tomorrow is a Long Time", Bob Dylan does. I don't own Felicity or Gus or Felicity's parents either. In short, I own nothing.

I highly recommend reading the lyrics or even better, listening to the song from Nickel Creek's new album, "Why Should The Fire Die?" before (or during) reading this story.

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I've never ached so much in my life as I do now. The pain is a never-ending burden in my soul, attacking it and taking it for its own.

For a week, I stayed to my room but I couldn't sleep since his face kept crossing into my dreams. I want to sleep, I needed to, but I couldn't.

If he was waiting for me in the morning like he always did, then I would be able to sleep, but I will never be able to close my eyes without seeing him there ever again.

I gave up on sleep.

I can't see myself anymore when I look in the mirror. The person, who looks back, doesn't resemble me in the least. I refuse to speak for fear of crying out in the deep pain that I find myself in. I hear nothing anymore, but when my name is called, I hear his voice and turn, expecting the unthinkable – that he would be there, grin on his face and wondering why I refuse to turn around.

If he were here to hold me and tell me that he loved me, I would speak and listen again.

I gave up on talking and listening.

My father tells me that it's time to move on, but all I can do is remember the feel of his arms around me, and his "plain" speech. My mother wants me to leave my room so I go to the lighthouse and watch the shoreline. The sunset is a beautiful thing and so are the waves crashing against the shore but none of these I enjoy anymore. I can only think of Gus and his eyes.

If he were here I would breathe in the sea gladly instead of cursing it like I am now.

I need to stop going to the lighthouse, they tell me, but I can't, that's one thing I can't give up.

I throw my bundle of flowers into the shoreline, "Return to me, Gus," I whisper, "Return to me."

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