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Chapter 29
The party was rather informal, which suited Cagalli perfectly. She wanted to wear her favorite olive khakis and red t-shirt, though she would likely have done so even if it was a formal dinner. Hey, it was her house. Everyone else was also dressed casually.
Andy brought Murrue. Sai and Kuzzey came, though Sai spent most of his time talking with Meyrin. Kira and Lacus continued to mingle with all the guests, trying to make everyone as comfortable as possible. Dearka and Miriallia discussed going to the PLANTs. It seemed she was gradually warming up to the idea, though she hadn't made a commitment yet. Her parents had serious doubts about this, but Mir didn't dare let Dearka in on that.
Athrun stuck to Cagalli like glue, though Luna followed not far behind. At times Cagalli would talk with Luna about various things in an effort to make them both more comfortable with each other.
The big shocker, however, was the arrival of Shinn and Stellar.
Stellar had an effect on Shinn. His behavior changed slowly and in a subtle way, like she had tamed him. He was less prone to confrontations with Athrun, and even a little better disposed toward Lady Cagalli. Make no mistake, however. After the obligatory greetings and congratulations, Shinn avoided those two like the plague.
Instead, Shinn and Stellar mingled with the other guests. Luna was a bit surprised that he would take so well to Stellar. It only served to confirm her self-doubts. Shinn always treated Luna as a brat's toy: he enjoyed being with her at first but after that he became bored, losing interest in her. Luna never had strong feelings for him, but she still didn't like being treated that way. They had both been so young and inexperienced, which made a serious relationship next to impossible.
It was better this way. Perhaps they could be friends again someday soon.
"So, how are you two getting along?" asked Lacus.
"Shinn has been the perfect gentleman." Stellar claimed his hand for her own. "If I didn't know better, I'd say this wasn't captivity at all."
"Come now, you were released. Don't give us any of that," Kira chided her.
"True," Stellar laughed. "But I am so glad that Shinn is intent on keeping me from escaping."
"Stellar, please." Shinn blushed fire hydrant red, almost matching his eyes.
"Get used to it, Shinn. Girls often like embarrassing their men." Kira poked Lacus in the ribs.
"My goodness. I guess that means you're mine, Shinn Asuka." Stellar beamed. "I am so pleased!"
"If you two get bored with the conversation, there will be plenty of available rooms for you two to make out in." Lacus gave the couple a mischievous grin before going over to talk with Andy and Murrue. Her comments made both blush this time. Maybe this will accelerate their relationship a little.
Shinn left to get himself and Stellar a drink, not knowing that the punch bowl he went to was spiked. With the exception of Andy and Murrue they were all been between the ages of fifteen and seventeen, but soldiers were often given leeway with alcohol. And all here were soldiers, though not necessarily drinkers. To be honest, that particular bowl of punch was for the benefit of Andy and Murrue. It was not necessarily meant for the other guests, though no one objected when everybody tried some.
As he came back, Stellar pondered aloud, "You know, we've lived together for several days and never kissed. I mean really kissed. Not just on the cheeks."
"Is that something you would like to do?" he asked expectantly.
"I don't know," she toyed with him. "It might be interesting."
"That it might." He took a long sip from the punch.
Stellar followed his lead. "Hmm. This punch is a little funny."
"You don't like it?" Shinn thought it was pretty good, though oddly peculiar.
"No, I like it. It's just that I've never had any like this before." She finished her glass as he finished his. "May I have another?"
"Sure. Be right back."
Kira and Lacus were a good distance away, but they could see where this was leading. They also decided against interfering. Let them have their fun, they thought.
"How are you youngsters doing these days?" asked Andy.
"Come now, Andy. We see them all the time," Murrue patted his arm. True to their word, Kira and Lacus spent a lot of time with them. Most of the time they were away from the grounds they spent with Murrue. Andy was often there as well.
Lacus answered, "We are doing quite well, Andy. And you?"
"No complaints. The arm feels great."
"I still wouldn't want to shake hands with you," Murrue patted his arm again.
"I know," Andy smiled.
"So are you two . . ?" asked Kira. He liked asking that. They always gave the same answer.
"None of your business." They said it in unison, like they had practiced it. It became a game they played with Kira and Lacus.
"Do you think those two will be alright?" asked Murrue. She was referring to Shinn and Stellar, of course. "They're a little young to be throwing back like that." They were on their third glass of punch. And they were rather large glasses.
"They'll be fine," Kira brushed it off. "But I think we may have to stop them if they have much more."
Sure enough, three did the trick. Shinn helped Stellar up to go search for a bathroom.
"Shinn, I really have to go." She was only the slightest bit tipsy, and not sick at all. Perhaps all that drug therapy gave her an iron constitution. "This must be one."
Shinn was kind enough to wait outside for her. She didn't keep him waiting long. "All better?" he asked.
"Yep. Let's go." Stellar drug him off trying to find their way back to the party. Instead, they ended up in a drawing room with a large comfy sofa. "Hmm."
"What are you thinking about?"
"If you're that dense then I guess I'll just have to show you." Lacking a genetically enhanced metabolism, Stellar was naturally more out of it than Shinn. Taking the initiative, she dropped all inhibitions and pushed him down onto the couch. Groping, kissing, touching, making out. Within seconds, she had his shirt off and flung it to the corner across the room.
Shinn had just barely managed to unbutton her shirt and take it off before she passed out on top of him. No point in removing her bra now. "Damn. So close." He draped her shirt back over her. It wasn't enough. She would get cold. Pulling over a blanket, he wrapped themselves up in it. As he kissed the top of her head goodnight, she let out a small burp.
Meyrin was the lucky one to find them in the morning. "Shinn," she whispered. "Wake up, Shinn. Time for breakfast."
"Hmm?" Shinn was groggy, but it wasn't long before he took stock of the situation. Meyrin was trying hard not to laugh at them, Stellar was still out cold on his chest. She wasn't heavy, but after spending the night with her full weight on him it was getting hard for him to breathe. "Meyrin. Could you do me a huge favor?"
"Sure." Again, she was trying hard not to laugh.
"Would you be so kind as to leave us for a bit? That would be great."
"Fine. Here's your shirt," Meyrin handed it to him. This time she couldn't contain it any more. The burst of laughter caused Stellar to stir on him.
"Mmm," Stellar hugged his neck in utter contentment. "Perfect," she slid up to nibble at his ear. Then she noticed the laughter. Meyrin was on her way out, but Stellar caught a brief glimpse of her. "Oh, God. How embarrassing." Stellar pulled the cover up over her head.
"This was your idea, remember?"
"Yeah. I remember."
"You want to grab some breakfast?"
"Yeah. If my face ever gets close to its natural color again." She lifted the blanket to show just how red her face had gotten.
"It's still a beautiful face."
"Where's my shirt?"
"Right here?"
"Thanks." She managed to get it on while remaining under the cover. "Next time, let's do this someplace where we won't get caught."
He smiled, "Next time?"
"Problem?" She got off him.
"No problem at all. I can't wait 'till we get back to that big empty house of ours."
Two
"Did you two have fun last night?" Lacus had the honors of asking it over breakfast.
Neither Shinn nor Stellar had any comment.
"Well, I hope it was an enjoyable experience." Lacus gave them a kind smile before giving it up. Turning to Mir, she asked "Have you made your decision yet?"
"Yes I have." She had stayed the night, as had all the other guests. Though, not all those at the party attended breakfast.
"Mind telling me what it is?" asked Dearka.
"I suppose I should tell you." Mir paused for a few seconds, knowing Dearka was unconsciously holding his breath waiting for her answer. "I have decided that . . . I shall go with you." She gave him a kiss on the cheek as he let out a sigh of relief.
"Thank you. I promise you won't regret it."
"I had better not," she gave him a stern look before relaxing into a smile.
"This is wonderful news, don't you think?" Lacus took Kira by the hand.
"Yes I do," he agreed. Turning the conversation to Sai and Meyrin, he asked "And how are you two doing?"
Sai answered for them both. "We're just fine, Kira. Just fine."
"Good news." Lacus beamed.
"Where is Murrue?" asked Kuzzey.
Mir answered, "I believe she's sleeping in. And I'm not brave enough to go knock on her door."
Kira chucked. "Yeah, goodness knows how many of us would get it if we disturbed her with you-know-who."
"Well, you-know-who better keep his you-know-what shut before I really get upset." Murrue came through the door.
"Sorry, Murrue. Just gossiping over breakfast," Lacus tried to explain.
"It's alright. But watch yourself Kira. It's none of your business." Murrue gave them a wink to let them know she was joking. Sort of.
Three
"Morning, beautiful."
"Hey," she gave him a kiss. "Can we just stay like this for a couple of days?"
"Suits me just fine." Athrun took a deep breath.
"Too bad I have work to do."
"Yeah. Want me to join you?"
"That'd be great." Snuggling up close, Cagalli pulled the covers up over them. "Just a few more minutes. Please?"
"Sure."
After a few moments, it was time to go. "Okay, bodyguard. Time to guard my body."
"Yes ma'am."
Cagalli's work was rather light today and she had it finished by late morning. After lunch, she left Athrun in her study to work on a few things. She and Lacus had plans. Their first stop was Luna's room.
"Come in." Luna opened the door, hoping it was a certain someone. She didn't show her disappointment when it turned out to be someone else. "Hello Lady Cagalli, Lacus."
"Hi," Lacus waved.
Cagalli moved out front to take the lead. "Lacus and I are going shopping. I'd like you to come as well."
"It would be an honor."
"I would have Athrun come along, but he's still grounded." Cagalli chuckled. Athrun's house arrest was a joke. He didn't really want to leave.
"Okay. I'll need just a few minutes to get ready, then." Luna closed the door slow enough not to be rude.
"We'll wait out here," Lacus smiled. Once the door was closed, she asked "Do you think this is such a good idea?"
"I want to get to know this girl," Cagalli forced a smile. "It's not that I'm doing this to torture either of us. I just hope . . ."
Lacus finished for her, ". . . that you can come out of this friends?"
Cagalli nodded. "And . . . I want to know what makes her tick." She wanted to know what she was up against too, but Lacus already figured that much.
"I'm ready," Luna came out in low rise jeans, a short purple t-shirt that accented her wine-colored hair, and an oversized belt that hung lopsided. It was actually a cute outfit.
Cagalli felt a little self conscious in her olive khakis and red T. Lacus had them all beat, however. She all but insisted on her white dress with purple accents. It was one of Kira's favorites, as it reminded him of their first meeting. She wore it when she was rescued in the Debris Belt, and her subsequent stay on the Archangel. She also wore it often while Kira recuperated under her care in the PLANTs.
"Shall we go?" asked Lacus.
"Sure," Cagalli collected herself.
Shopping was rather uneventful. Luna enjoyed how Cagalli and Lacus tried to push their opposing styles on the other.
Cagalli would say things like, "You know, it wouldn't hurt you to dress down once in a while."
Lacus would respond with her pout face. "Kira is pleased with the way that I dress." It was very true. Kira always wore a smile when he looked at her.
Cagalli knew exactly what she was thinking. "Oh, come on. He's only smiling like an idiot because he's head over heels for you."
"And I intend to keep it that way," Lacus held her head high.
After several such exchanges, Luna was in stitches. Finally they all made their way to a coffee shop where they could sit at an outdoor table.
"Tell us about yourself, Luna." Lacus always wore that kind smile. It put most people at ease with in seconds. Luna was no exception.
"Well, what do you want to know? I'm afraid we don't have the time or energy to go over my life story since conception." Luna's answer drew a small laugh from Cagalli. It was a response she could see herself using.
"Okay, then. Just tell us about the past couple of years. Skip to the good stuff. What makes Luna Luna."
"When Shinn's family died, he boarded the first flight out of Orb. Meyrin and I met up with him in the PLANTs. His story, along with out own desires to see the war to a quick end, led us to enlist. Thankfully the war was over before we finished our training and the three of us had just been stationed in Carpenteria when Commander Joule selected us for his little party. I graduated in the top five at the academy, as did Shinn."
"Athrun, Yzak, and Dearka were also redcoats," commented Lacus.
"Yes. Their exploits are legendary, even after so short a time." Luna smiled. Athrun had been her hero, the pilot who took down the Strike.
"Didn't you and Shinn have something going on?" Cagalli thought she heard someone mention it.
"Yes. We casually dated. He is very attractive, and a little sweet at times. It was never anything serious. But there was this one guy . . ."
"Tell us about him," begged Cagalli.
"He had long blond hair and piercing blue eyes."
"What happened?" Cagalli knew there was more to the story than just his description.
"He wasn't interested," she admitted.
"What are your goals in life?" asked Lacus. "If I may ask, that is."
Luna took a deep breath before answering. "I wanted to be a pilot, and eventually captain my own ship."
Cagalli cocked an eyebrow. "Do you still want to do that?"
"It was only a pipe dream. I don't think I'm even that great of a pilot."
"Let's find out," Cagalli stood up.
"Huh?" Luna tilted her head to the side, puzzled.
"I'm a pilot too. Let's have a little sparring match."
"Sure." Luna always enjoyed a challenge. "Lead the way."
Four
"How are you, Murrue?"
"I'm just fine, Kira. This is the first time we've been alone since . . ."
"Yeah. You want to talk about it?"
"No. Let's just enjoy the silence a while." Murrue and Kira were taking a stroll through the gardens. Andy had gone on to Morgenroete that morning to get some work done. Murrue had taken the day off.
Kira couldn't help but notice how she seemed sad. Less sad that before, perhaps. But still sad. She was thinking of Mu, of his promise unfulfilled. Kira vividly remember sensing something was wrong at Jachine Diue. What he sensed was the death of Mu. Mu had promised Murrue that he would come back to her with victory in hand. Instead, he died to save her life.
Their walk was anything but silent. A slight breeze rustled through the flowers and shrubs. Birds chirped. Even the sound of water fountains broke the monotony.
"Let's sit." Murrue took a seat on a nearby bench. "Thank you, Kira."
"No need to thank me."
"You and Lacus have really been helpful." Actually, they were looking after her whenever they had the chance.
"You've been a dear friend, Murrue. And we'll always be there for you."
"I know," she smiled.
"You know I'm going to ask."
"Yes. And you know exactly the answer you're going to receive."
"It's none of my business," Kira laughed. "Alright, then tell me this: does he make you the least little bit happy?"
"Yes he does, Kira."
"Then that's all you need to say." Kira put a hand on her shoulder. "I always liked Andy."
"Yes, I know. He is kind and outgoing. And a bit of a jokester. He even has a wonderful sense of humor." Murrue let the teardrops fall unrestrained. "And he reminds me so much of Mu."
"It's okay, Murrue. It's okay." Kira let her cry on his shoulder. "Does Andy know about all this?"
"Yes. He wouldn't dare ask, but I told him anyway. He knows everything."
"Good. How does he feel about it?"
"I'm not sure, but it didn't scare him off."
"That's good. He really cares for you, Murrue." Kira put an arm around her as she continued to cry. "I can tell."
"I believe you, Kira."
"Anything else you need to talk about?"
"No. And thanks." She collected herself, and they continued their walk.
With personal matters out of the way, the discussed daily life issues. Jobs, friends, readjusting to civilian life.
Kira asked, "So, you're enjoying your work at Morgenroete?"
"Yes. It's quite interesting. We're constructing that new battleship for ZAFT. It reminds me a lot of the Archangel."
"Whatever became of the Archangel?" Kira hadn't really thought about it until now.
"It was completely refitted and it's being held in reserve for Cagalli if ever she needs it."
"That's good to know."
"We thought there might be some trouble, so Andy, Erika and I had it loaded and ready to go when you called the other day. The Strike Rouge is on board, as well as a few other suits. It's hidden where only the three of us can get to it." Murrue laughed, "Andy says he's ready to pilot again."
"He did do quite well with his arm last night. He didn't break any of Cagalli's dinnerware. You'll notice how she didn't put out the good stuff, just in case."
"Yeah. He's doing quite well with it now." Her smile shifted to a frown. "But I think he's overdoing it. He pushes so hard sometimes, trying to get back to normal."
"I wouldn't worry about it, Murrue. He's a tough one."
Her smile returned. "You're right."
Chapter 30
"Um, about last night . . ."
"Nothing happened Stellar. You don't need to worry about it." Shinn was walking her home, holding her hand. They were taking the scenic route.
"That's not what I was going to ask."
"What is it then?" They were almost there. He could see his house half a block away.
"I enjoyed it very much." She kissed his cheek. "Did you?"
"Of course I did."
"I was hoping you'd say that." She snuggled up close. "You know, we can't get caught in that big empty house of yours." Actually, the home was quite cozy. Still, it had plenty of space for two. Stellar enjoyed seeing him blush at the thought.
"So it does. I can't wait," he smiled down at her.
"So, about last night . . . how far did we get?"
"You passed out just after you lost your shirt." This time it was Shinn's turn to enjoy her blushing.
"Were you disappointed?"
"A little," he lied.
"Only a little?"
"Okay, a lot." Shinn sighed, "But we've got plenty of time for that, right?"
She rewarded him with a hug. "I never want to leave."
"Good, 'cause I never want you to go."
"Don't let me go, Shinn. Hold on to me tightly." She began trembling in his embrace.
"You're hurting again, aren't you."
"Yes. It's not as painful as it was at first." She squeezed hard, clenching her fists to ruffle the back of his shirt. "Is this withdrawal?"
"Could be. I wish I knew. Nothing seems to help." This happened often since the video game incident, but no amount of pain killers made a dent in it.
"You help," she whimpered. "Holding me helps."
"Come on. Let's get you inside." Shinn lifted her into his arms. She hugged his neck as they made their way to her room; formerly his parent's room.
"Don't go," she pleaded. "Stay a while."
"Okay." He held her tight, letting her sleep on his chest again. After a while, he nodded off as well only to be awoken by a nibbling at his ear. "Perfect," he whispered.
"Shinn, thank you so much for taking care of me."
"Perhaps we should take you to see a doctor."
"Only if you'll come with me." She was more than a little frightened at the prospect.
"Okay. We can get someone Cagalli trusts. You're going to be fine."
"Shinn, can I ask you something?"
"Sure."
"It's personal." Stellar bit her lip in a way that almost gave Shinn a nose bleed.
"Ask."
"Do you . . . love me?"
He hadn't really thought about it, but that didn't mean he could come up with an answer quickly. "Yes."
"Good. 'Cause I love you." Stellar put an ear to his chest and listened to his heart for several minutes, matching her breathing to his. "I'm cold," she began to tremble again.
"You want to go to bed?"
"Uh huh," she whimpered. Stellar got up to go put on her pajamas in the bathroom, which didn't take long. After Shinn tucked her in, she asked "Stay with me?"
"Sure." Shinn went to go put on his sleeping clothes as well. "I'll call Cagalli first thing in the morning, okay?"
"Yeah."
"Are you going to be alright until then?"
"Yeah. I feel better already." Stellar snuggled up to him underneath the covers. "A lot better."
"I'm glad," he smiled.
"Me too," she kissed him. "You know, we won't get caught here. It's just us."
"You tricked me, didn't you."
"Not really. It did hurt a few minutes ago, but just a little."
Two
"Hey ladies. I was just about to send out a search party for you girls." Kira was waiting for them at the door to immediately take charge of Lacus's bags.
Athrun was there too. "That must have been some shopping trip." Both Cagalli and Luna covered him with their bags.
"We took a detour over to Morgenroete," Cagalli informed him.
"Really?" asked Kira.
Lacus answered, "Yes. Cagalli and Luna thought it might be fun to spar a few rounds in a mobile suit simulator. It was quite exciting."
"She's pretty good," Cagalli admitted.
"You are too kind," Luna admitted.
"I managed to hold my own against her for a while, but I eventually won," Cagalli grinned. "Though I wonder if she let me win."
"Is anyone else hungry?" Luna wanted to change the subject before someone directly asked her. She actually did let Cagalli win in the end, but if Athrun asked she didn't know if she could keep her poker face.
"I'm starving," Kira admitted. "It looks like it'll be just us five tonight."
"Great. I'll go see to it." Cagalli left them in the foyer.
Kira went off with Lacus asking, "So what all did you buy me?" He knew full well that there was little, if anything, in there for him.
Athrun turned to Luna. "How was it really?"
"It was fun. Cagalli and I are trying hard to be friends."
"That's good to hear."
"Enjoy your day all alone?"
"Nope. Too lonely." Athrun laughed, "Though it was quite peaceful."
"I'm glad you at least got to rest." She took him by the arm. "Come on. We'd better put these things up."
He was taken off upstairs to her room first, then to Athrun's. Luna didn't feel comfortable going into Cagalli's room and she felt like this would be the best place to leave Cagalli's things.
"This is for you," Luna held out a box. It was four inches square and two high, wrapped in red paper with a yellow ribbon.
"What is it?"
"The easiest way to find out is to open it."
He did. "A watch?" It was gold.
"Yes. It's like the one my father used to have."
"You never talk about your family."
"That's because Meyrin is all I have left."
"Sorry."
Luna just smiled. "Don't be. Turn it over."
The inscription underneath was in a thin cursive script. It read: To someone very special.
"Do you like it?" she asked.
"Yes. Very much. Thanks." He tried it on. It was a perfect fit.
"I thought long and hard about what to put."
"It's perfect."
"You are very special, Athrun."
"Thanks. You too." Athrun gave her a tight hug.
"Ahem." It was Cagalli. "I hate to interrupt, but dinner is ready."
"Right," Athrun smiled.
Three
Lacus found him staring up at the stars outside. He left shortly after dinner without telling anyone. "Kira?"
No response.
Lacus decided to ask again, "Kira?"
"Kira?"
Fllay.
"How have you been Kira?"
I've been well.
"You don't miss me as much anymore." She seemed kind of sad about it.
No. But I still think of you often.
She smiled as her red hair swirled around her head and over her shoulders. Coming closer to hug his neck, it now flowed past his ears. "I know. You are happy, and I am happy as well."
Fllay . . .
"Kira . . ." A kiss, a shower of light, and . . . she was gone.
"Kira, snap out of it." Placing her hand on the small of his back did the trick. The tension melted. He began blinking again.
"Hmm? Lacus?"
"Kira, is everything alright?"
"No, now it's perfect. Thank you." Kira embraced her under the stars. Bathed in moonlight, her pink hair shimmered.
"You know, I miss them too sometimes. My father . . ." she buried her face in his shirt, her tears seeping through the fabric.
"Yeah. We don't show it often, but we all miss our loved ones that are gone." Kira held her, smelling her hair. It always had the soft scent of a flower he couldn't remember the name of.
"You still feel guilty because you couldn't protect them."
"A little, yeah." Kira took a deep breath. "And I also think of those I've killed."
"Kira . . ."
"I'm okay when you're with me."
"I'm glad." Lacus separated from him, pushing off his chest. "Let's go to bed."
"Yeah," Kira kissed her on the nose. "Sounds good."
Chapter 31
"Thanks for doing this."
"No problem Shinn, though I'm a little surprised you would come to me." Cagalli thought this was weird as all get out, but what the heck. Stellar looked like she was cracking up. Cagalli was glad to help, arranging this little medical exam at Morgenroete.
"I only asked because we needed to be discrete." He was only a little gruff. Compared to Athrun's description of his earlier behavior, this was almost being nice.
"You have nothing to worry about. Chief Simmons is one of our most trusted people," Cagalli reassured him. Then she left Shinn and Luna to await the verdict.
Shinn peeked through the window slit in the door, only to have Erika Simmons cover it up. Stellar looked like a frightened rabbit about to face a tiger. He couldn't help but feel he should be in there with her. Then again, if Erika had to give a more personal examination then both Shinn and Stellar would be very uncomfortable. He decided to wait in a chair next to Luna.
"She'll be alright, Shinn." Luna put a hand on his arm, then thought better of it. After a few moments of silence, she asked "How have you been?"
"Worried. Very worried."
"About her?" Luna showed genuine concern, but not for Stellar.
"Yes. I would do anything to make this better." Shinn clenched and unclenched his fists.
"You care for her a lot." Luna smiled. I thought you cared for me that way once, but I guess I was wrong.
"Yeah. Thanks Luna. You were always such an understanding friend." Shinn smiled at her for the first time in a long time.
"I am glad you still think of me as a friend."
"The best I ever had," he put an arm around her neck. "How you been these days?"
"Good. I am now Lady Cagalli's bodyguard's secretary," she laughed.
"Still chasing after Athrun?" He felt Luna stiffen. "What? You don't think I couldn't tell? You've had it bad for him since day one."
"So I have," she smiled at him.
"You didn't . . ." Shinn watched her eyes. She could hold a good poker face, but rarely against him. "You did!"
"Yes. I did." Luna's smile turned a little sad.
"Does Cagalli know?"
"Yes, she knows." Luna placed her head on his shoulder, letting a few droplets run down her cheek to fall on his shirt.
"How was it? Was it worth it?"
"It was."
"At least you and Cagalli seem to be getting along. I don't know how, though. She seems like the insanely jealous type to me."
"She is, but her love for Athrun overpowers all else. And she's been really busy too. Maybe that helped her to put it all out of her mind. She was even willing to offer me the position as Athrun's secretary."
"It was her idea? Wow. You better watch yourself, Luna. Things may be going well now, but this is going to blow up in your face one day."
"I know, Shinn. But how can I help myself?"
"You are stronger than that, Luna."
"Not when it comes to him." She sat with him in silence for a while, her head still on his shoulder. "Am I really still your friend?"
"My best friend, though I know I'm a jerk most of the time." It's true. He was often so screwed up that any time they tried to talk it would end up in a fight. But he had matured a little these past few weeks. Perhaps it was because he was really falling in love, and beginning to realize just how fragile this happiness is.
"Thank you. That means a lot to me."
Both rose to their feet as Erika came out to give them the news. "I don't know exactly what they did to her, but she shows signs of extreme chemical dependence. That's part of her problem."
"Is there anything you can do for her?" asked Shinn.
Erika shook her head. "Just make her as comfortable as possible. It should pass within a few months. Until then, don't let her do anything that remotely resembles her mobile suit training. Assuming you know what all that entailed."
Shinn grimaced at the memory of Stellar's first reaction. It was just a video game, but he thought she was going to freak out.
Always handy with the explanations, Erika continued "You see, the mental alterations have trained her fragile mind to exert at a level only possible with those drugs. She will always be stronger, faster and more responsive than any Natural, but not on the same level for which she was originally designed. Not without the drugs, anyway. With them out of her system, not only does she go through withdrawal but anything that triggers her subconscious fighting instinct places extreme stress on her cardiovascular system."
Shinn thought he got it. "So, she's going to have a heart attack if I don't watch her carefully."
Erika shook her head, "I'm afraid it's worse than that. Judging by my examination, it's more likely that her heart will explode under the strain."
"That is not encouraging news, doctor." Stellar joined them, buttoning the last button on her shirt. "You should work on your bedside manner."
Erika smiled. "It's a good thing I don't deal with patients, then. Just mobile suits. But like I said, with great care you might be fine given enough time." With that, she left in the direction Cagalli had taken.
"Shinn," Stellar whimpered. "I don't want to die."
He flew to wrap her in his arms. "I'll take care of you."
"And I'll help in any way I can," Luna offered.
Stellar was a little surprised at the offer. "Ms. Lunamaria?"
"Just Luna," she smiled. "Shinn and I have been good friends a long time."
"Okay." Stellar accepted the hand Luna offered, though she still managed to cling to Shinn. It's like she thought her savior and guardian would disappear if she let go for a moment. To tell the truth, she had nightmares about it almost every night.
"Let's all go have lunch together," Luna suggested.
"You sure you don't have better things to do?" asked Shinn.
"I'm sure. Bodyguard's don't really need secretaries."
Two
"Looks like you'll be having lunch with me today. Disappointed?" Knowing he often had lunch with Luna in his room, this is where she chose to eat with him today.
"Not a bit." Actually, Athrun was looking forward to having some time alone with Cagalli. He told her so.
"Don't you miss your mistress?" Cagalli cocked an eye. "Never mind. I don't want to go there."
Actually, he did miss Luna a bit. They hadn't spent time together in a long while, but he'd rather spend time with Cagalli at the moment. "Can't I just enjoy this time with you?"
"Yes. Sorry."
"Nothing to be sorry about."
"Luna and I are getting along well," she informed him.
"That's good."
"I thought you would be pleased," Cagalli forced a smile. They ate in silence. Uncomfortable silence.
"Cagalli . . ."
"Yes, Athrun?"
"I love you, Cagalli."
"And I you." Again she smiled, though it was less forced this time.
"I don't feel comfortable unless you're hitting me."
Cagalli sighed. "You know what would make me feel better?"
"What? I'll do anything," Athrun pleaded.
"I'd like a foot rub, a back massage, and maybe . . . some other things."
"I hear and obey." That earned him a punch in the arm. "Thank you," he gave her a kiss on the cheek.
"Get to work." She lay on his bed, awaiting her loyal bodyguard.
"Yes ma'am."
Gradually, her tension faded. She fell asleep in the middle of the back rub. Athrun decided to hold her as she slept, hoping he wasn't being too presumptuous.
She was wearing those olive khakis and that red t-shirt that she felt so comfortable in. Though Lacus and others suggested she dress up to impress her man, he loved to see her like this. He often wondered why he never told her that. Perhaps because she would quit trying to catch his attention, though she never really needed to. She had it from day one.
I don't deserve to live. I'm such a horrible person for putting you through this. And you'll always hold it against me. He often thought that, knowing it was perfectly true. Women never forget anything, and they never forgive things like this. I must end it with Luna. Cagalli is too important.
"Athrun?" she stirred. "Jerk," she whispered.
"I know, Cagalli." He brushed back her hair to see she was crying. "I know."
"But I love you," she sobbed. "That's what makes this so hard."
"I won't leave you, Cagalli." Athrun held her as she cried. "I could never leave you."
"Oh God, Athrun." Cagalli's brown eyes locked with his green. "You better not."
She cried herself to sleep, and after a while Athrun joined her in dreamland.
Three
I'm always the third wheel, she thought to herself. When will I ever get it together?
Luna took the long way home. She had an enjoyable lunch and afternoon with Shinn and Stellar. They were so happy together, even when picking and play-fighting. But as happy as she was for them, their joy only served to remind her that she didn't have someone to call her own.
I love Athrun so much, but I get the feeling he would be better off if I just left. I'm sure Cagalli wouldn't mind seeing me leave, Luna just shook her head.
Of course, she didn't want to go. But then again, she had never been subservient to anyone before Cagalli. Luna was strong-willed, filled with her own hopes and aspirations. Ace pilot. No, elite pilot. One of the best in the ranks of ZAFT.
"Hey, Luna."
Lunamaria was so lost in thought that she didn't even notice Meyrin until almost running her down. "Oh, hi Meyrin."
"Where have you been all afternoon?"
"I was with Shinn and Stellar. I kept them company a while after their trip over to Morgenroete."
"I see," Meyrin frowned.
"No, I'm not chasing another taken guy." Luna sat on a conveniently located sidewalk bench. "And I think it's time I stopped chasing Athrun."
"That's good news," Meyrin smiled, joining her sister on the bench. "I was hoping this was just a phase."
"I do love him, you know."
"I know," Meyrin put an arm around her older sister. "I have to ask. Was he worth it?" Luna turned so red that Meyrin couldn't help but laugh.
"That's kind of personal."
"He was, wasn't he?" Meyrin enjoyed teasing her older sister. "I'll bet he was fantastic."
"Meyrin," Luna groaned.
"I'm a little jealous. He is very cute."
Luna was eager to change the subject. "How are you getting along with Sai?"
"He's a great guy. A slow mover, but that's alright. At least for now."
"Hmm?"
"We'll probably be shipping out when the Minerva is finished. Our captain is set to arrive next week, I think."
"Then you won't have much time."
Meyrin sighed, "Two weeks at the most."
"Have you talked with Sai about this?"
"Yes. He knows I'll be leaving. I don't get the feeling he's going to be waiting around for me to return, though."
"Maybe not."
"His girlfriend died at Jachine Diue," Meyrin informed her sister. "Well, she wasn't his girlfriend at the time, but I know it's in the back of his mind when he thinks of me leaving."
"You think he's trying not to get too attached to you. Is that it?"
"Yep." Meyrin wore a sad smile. "I can understand. Falling in love with someone who may never come back. It must be hard."
"I wonder if it's as hard as falling for someone who's already taken."
"Maybe so." Meyrin stood up. "Okay, enough of this. Let's go back home." As they entered the door to the Athha palace, Meyrin remembered something she meant to ask earlier. "How is Shinn these days?"
"Worried about his girlfriend. She's very ill."
"That's quite sad. Is it serious?"
Luna nodded. "Very. He's scared she'll die on him. It'll be like losing his family all over again. Maybe worse."
Four
"Hello, sunshine."
"Don't give me that." Cagalli covered her face. She didn't want to look at him, though she didn't try to leave his embrace.
"I'm going to end it with Luna." That caught her attention.
"Why?"
"I chose you from the beginning, but I . . . I guess I just didn't want her to hurt herself. And this is too much. I know I can't be forgiven, but I want to at least try to make it right between us."
"Athrun . . ." She looked up into his eyes questioningly.
"You can't honestly tell me that you want this to continue." Athrun took a deep breath. "I know I don't want it to continue."
"Okay." Cagalli settled down onto his chest. "But you have to tell her."
"I will. Tonight after dinner."
"You're right, Athrun. I can't forgive you." She hugged him as tight as she could, afraid to let go. "But I still love you."
"Can I still marry you?"
"Yes."
"That's good."
"But I'm going to be a terrible wife," she warned him.
"No you won't. You're going to be you, and that's all I ever wanted."
"That's not what I meant."
"Oh, you're going to be even more mean? Is that possible?" His sarcasm earned him a hard punch to the breastbone. And a kiss. "Thanks."
"You're not welcome." Cagalli began to tear up again. "Will I ever be able to trust you again?"
"Yes." I honestly hope so.
"It'll take time," she admitted.
A knock at the door interrupted their reconciliation.
"Come in." Athrun didn't get up, and prevented Cagalli from getting up as well.
It was Luna. "Can we talk a moment?" she asked sheepishly.
"Sure," Cagalli got up this time. "I was just leaving."
"You don't have to go," Luna put up a hand. "I wanted to talk with you as well."
"Okay," Cagalli took a seat in a nearby chair as Luna sat on the foot of the bed, just out of reach from Athrun.
"I wanted to talk to you too," Athrun admitted.
"Wouldn't it be funny if we were wanting to say the same thing," Luna laughed. She looked away before she had the chance to cry. His emerald eyes were too much for her. "It's over. We should have just remained friends."
"Now that is funny. We really were wanting to say the same thing," Athrun gave her a sad smile. She didn't notice.
"Let's try to be friends again," she offered a hand.
Athrun accepted. "You're shipping out soon, aren't you?"
"Yes. Less than two weeks, I think."
"Promise me one thing."
"Sure. What?"
"Take good care of yourself."
"I will, Athrun. And thank you for everything, Lady Cagalli." Luna held out the jewelry box Cagalli had given her before Yuna's ball.
"Keep it," Cagalli closed Luna's hand around the box. "It was a gift."
"Thank you. I'll always treasure it." Luna held the box close to her chest.
"You and your sister will always have a home here in Orb." Cagalli offered a hand of her own. Her expression indicated something like You're not necessarily welcome to stay in my house, though.
Luna accepted the offered hand. "Thanks. I appreciate that."
Chapter 32
"Shinn?"
"Hmm?"
"A little help please."
"What is it?" He was lying on the bed watching TV in the master bedroom, now his and Stellar's. She insisted he stay with her at nearly all times. At the moment, Stellar was in the bathroom.
"I can't find my bathrobe and my clothes are in there. Can you bring me something?"
"Um . . ." The mere though of her lack of clothing turned him bright red. And the thought of digging through her underwear drawer didn't help matters any.
"Pretty please?"
"Alright." He went to the bathroom he used to share with his little sister to retrieve his bathrobe. Holding a hand over his eyes, he passed the robe through the cracked door.
"Thanks." Stellar pushed his hand back through the door and closed it quickly. So quickly that she nearly took off her own hand in the process.
Now she would dry her hair. He memorized her routine from the sounds he heard. After these several days, he had her patterns down pat. Next she would brush her teeth, then come for her pajamas, then crawl into bed. But this night, like last night, he would be in bed too.
Cutting off the hairdryer, she reminded him "You know, it's your turn to do the laundry."
"I'll get right on it," he threatened.
"No," she ordered before he could get up. "Tomorrow."
Shinn smiled. He knew she didn't want him to go. "Tomorrow then."
"And don't forget the fabric softener this time." Stellar stuck her head out the door to show him a mock scowl. "Delicate girls need soft and cuddly towels to dry off with."
"Yes, honey."
"Honey?" Stellar stuck her head out the bathroom door again, this time with a more serious scowl.
"Sorry, dear."
"Dear?"
"Okay, then what do you want me to call you?" Shinn looked away from the TV to see her expression soften.
"I haven't really thought about it." She closed the door to brush her teeth. Then she came to gather her pajamas. "I guess you should call me angel."
"Angel?" He watched as the door closed again.
"What's wrong with angel?"
"Nothing angel."
Stellar opened the door again running for him at full speed.
Shinn caught her just in time to keep her from flying over him and into the wall, but the force of her leap made them both slide off the bed and into the floor. "Ow."
"Ha!" Stellar gave him a kiss. "You could call me princess."
"How about sweet pea?"
"I never liked peas," Stellar made a face. She looked like a toddler, sticking her tongue out at the sight of a baby food jar of strained peas.
"Lover?"
"But we're not lovers yet." Stellar bit her lip in a way that, she knew, drove Shinn's hormones wild. "Not quite yet."
"Okay, I'll just call you angel then." Shinn was rewarded by a passionate kiss. And the removal of his shirt. "I hope you threw that where I can find it tomorrow. Laundry, remember?"
Stellar rolled off of him laughing as hard as she knew how. "Shinn?"
"I love you, Stellar. Have I told you that today?" He honestly couldn't remember, though he was sure he told her that for the first time last night.
"Not today. But I love you too." Stellar gave Shinn the privilege of carrying her to the bed and tucking the both of them into bed. She also gave him the honor of flinging a couple of articles of her clothing into various corners of the room, all the while she giggled.
He suddenly felt her trembling. "What's wrong?" Wrapping her tightly in his arms, he let her tears rain down on his shoulder. "I won't let go."
"It'll pass soon." She clung as tightly as she could. "Then we can pick up where we left off."
"Alright, angel."
"That's what I want to name our daughter," she whimpered. "Angel."
Shinn thought this was a little fast, but he didn't mind. At times like these he wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of his life with this girl. "It's a good name."
"I think I'm alright now." Stellar was breathing heavily, like every breath was a strain. "Yeah."
"Take a few minutes to relax." He let her lie flat on her back while he stroked he hair. "Daughter, huh?"
"Yes. I want a daughter."
"Will you be disappointed if it's a son?"
"No," she shook her head. Giving him a mischievous grin, she said "If it's a son, then we'll just have to keep trying until we get a daughter."
He asked, "All better now?" She was breathing normally, smiling. Happy.
"Yes. Now where were we? Oh, I remember."
Two
"Dearka?" She found him on the back porch. He came over to her parent's house for dinner.
"Hmm?" He didn't turn around.
"You disappeared. Is everything alright?"
"Your parents don't like this."
"Honestly, no." Miriallia placed a gentle hand on his shoulder as he leaned over the railing. The Haws had a small garden underneath. The many of the flowers were no longer in bloom. "But at least they didn't object."
"No. That's something to be thankful for."
"They really do like you. It's just . . ."
"You don't need to explain. I would feel the same way if it were my daughter." Dearka sighed. He was trying to take her away from her family. And if the war broke out again, there would be no guarantee that they would ever see her again. The PLANTs were about as safe as the Earth, but in a prolonged conflict there would be no travel. No communication. They wouldn't even be able to write emails or letters. Nothing.
"They know that this is what I want."
"I'm glad," he turned to hug her. "I'm so glad."
"It's not going to be easy, you know. Not for either of us."
"I know. After watching the relationships of our friends go through their ups and downs, I'm sure we'll have some of our own." Dearka laughed, "Just think of our first few conversations."
Mir couldn't help but laugh too. "Yeah. If that's any indication, we'll have plenty of hard times ahead."
"I promise to do my best."
"Me too, Dearka. Me too." She stood on her tip toes to kiss him.
"Where are your parents?" As nice as the Haws had been to him lately, he didn't want to mess it up by having her parents see them kiss.
"They've gone to bed. It's just us."
"It's so beautiful here in Onogoro."
"Yeah, it is."
"We'll have to settle down here some day."
"I agree." After a few moments she asked the big question. "When do we leave?"
"I won't know that until I hear from Yzak. I'll try to get in touch with him tomorrow."
Three
"Thank you for another lovely evening." Meyrin had the pleasure of being walked home, yet again, by Sai. At the moment they were just inside the foyer of the Athha palace.
"You're quite welcome." Sai inched closer, to see if she was willing.
She tilted forward an inch to indicate she was. So Sai gave her a brief kiss.
"Thank you, Sai. Would you care to stay for a while?"
His answer was interrupted by a whistle. "Way to go Sai!" It was Kira, accompanied by Lacus. Lacus gave her man a sharp elbow strike to the ribs to indicate he shouldn't have done that.
"Sorry," Lacus apologized on Kira's behalf. "We'll be on our way now." Taking Kira by the ear, she proceeded upstairs. She looked like an angry mother taking her child off for serious punishment.
The scene between Kira and Lacus was so comical that Sai forgot his momentary embarrassment.
Meyrin repeated her request.
"Sure," he said. "I'd love to." It was a very long drive back to Kaguya anyway.
"I am very happy." Meyrin looped her arm through his, taking him into the nearest drawing room where they could talk in private.
"I guess you'll be shipping out soon."
"That's right," Meyrin smiled. She had him in a love seat where he couldn't escape. Not that he wanted to.
"How long will you be gone?"
"I'm obligated to serve at least one tour. Six months, perhaps. Maybe more."
"And then?"
"Look, Sai. I know what you're thinking."
"You do?"
Meyrin hesitated. She knew what she wished he was thinking, but . . . it was another question altogether what he was really thinking. "Well . . ."
He decided to save her the trouble of guessing, and the embarrassment of possibly guessing wrong. "I'm thinking that just as we're getting close, you're going to have to leave. And you might not come back."
"I'm going to live through this. I'm a survivor." She tried to put on a tough face for him.
He just smiled. "I believe you, but that doesn't mean that you'll ever be able to come back here. What then?"
"I . . . don't have an answer for that."
Sai took a deep breath. "What happens next? Do we keep going, risking it all for the fleeting hope of future happiness?"
"I would like to, yes."
"So would I," Sai took her hand. "I'll wait for you, though I don't know how long."
"Thank you, Sai. That means a lot to me."
Four
"Sorry about that," Kira gave Lacus a weak smile.
"No you're not," Lacus beamed. "You planned it all."
"So I did." Kira's smile broadened.
"Well, I think you succeeded in taking their minds off of it for a few minutes."
"Good." Kira stretched, in an entirely fake manner. "Well, time for bed."
Lacus laughed, "That was so fake."
He gave her a hurt look.
"No need to fib about it either, Kira. I would like to make out as well." Lacus stood on her tip toes to give him a kiss. "There's just one thing I want to know first."
"Anything."
"Do I make you as happy as Fllay once did?" All this trouble caused by the love triangle between Cagalli, Athrun and Luna only served to remind her that she was in a triangle of her own. Though dead, she knew Kira still thought of Fllay.
Kira allayed her fears, "More." It's true. The few times in the past several years when he had found happiness was in the presence of Lacus.
"I am pleased," Lacus beamed.
Five
"It's good that we can enjoy this again." Athrun let out a sigh of contentment.
"Get to work, Zala."
"Yes ma'am." He resumed rubbing her shoulders. They were in the tub, relaxing.
"Ahhh." Cagalli melted. Absolutely melted. "Keep doing that."
"I'm glad to be of service."
"I suppose I should reward my loyal servant." Cagalli looked over her shoulder to give him a smirk. She held that pose just long enough to make Athrun think he was going to get that tonight. "But I guess bathing with me is reward enough."
"You are a cruel woman, Cagalli Yula Athha." Athrun just smiled. This really was more than reward enough.
"Get used to it," she laughed. "And we just might do that later. Maybe."
"As long as you leave me a little hope," Athrun laughed with her.
End Part Eight
A/N
At least I got the "End Part X" right on this one.
And I told you AxC fans that things might just work out. Aren't you happy? (You'll notice that the plot description always said AxC not AxLuna)
A/N End