Dear Diary

Well this is my first entry since I started this diary. I got the idea from Ally, boy that kid likes to write. I'm actually writing because of her. She's such an awesome 17-year-old girl. She's really giving the Spice Girls a great new image, but that's not why I like her. I think she's really fun to be around, and it's interesting being mates with a teenager. She makes me feel so old sometimes, but it's cool.

Though today I noticed she's acting a little strangely. I guess no stranger than normal but even Emma noticed. We talked about it, and Ally seems to be really sad. She keeps telling us she's tired, which I wouldn't blame her for since we never sleep, but I don't know, it seems like there's more to the story than just that. Maybe she's stressed out about the show, but if she is, she's doing a good job of covering it up. After all, she tells us she's excited and she can't wait.

And her smile during our photo shoot we just got back from seemed forced. It didn't seem like that natural smile she used to have when she first joined us a month ago. I'm noticing she talks to us, but when it comes to sharing our feelings with each other, she clams up while the rest of us vent, or express some kind of feeling. I think it would be good for her to get it out. It's normal to be stressed, we're in show business, what do you expect, but it really does help to talk about it with people who understand. We understand more than anybody else, I mean after all, we've been doing this for years now. We understand the stress. Maybe it's just the shock of jumping into show business. She's only been with us a month. I remember when I first started. It was the worst few months of my life. Maybe that's what's wrong with her. I think I'll try to talk to her. Maybe I'll pull her aside after the publicity party we're headed to and talk to her privately. Maybe she just doesn't feel comfortable with all of us at once. Maybe it'd be good for her to have one of us approach her at a time.

The bus just stopped, we must be at the party. I still haven't changed and Clifford will go bazark if I slow down our "schedule." I swear that man is too uptight.

Away I go, until next time,

Melanie Chisholm