Dear Diary,
Well, it's a brand new day. A beautiful Tuesday morning, but not all is beautiful on the Spice bus. Mostly it's Ally who is sitting all alone in her corner, staring at the ceiling. That girl looks so sad. The rest of the girls agree with me, but we don't know what to do. Clifford keeps yelling at us to do our job, and we don't seem to have time to hang out with Ally all that much. I guess Melanie C tried to talk to her yesterday but she told me the response was the same as usual. Withdrawn and evasive. My mom says Ally might have stuff on her mind and may not feel she can share it with us because she may feel left out. After all, the four of us have been in this group for years, and Ally's only been here a month. She's probably worried about the show. Maybe if we helped her through rehearsals. I don't think she's worried about her moves and ability to perform, because she does amazing in rehearsal.
She just got up and locked herself in the bathroom and now she's been in there for nearly half an hour. I saw Victoria try to knock on the door, but Ally only told her she was busy. What could she be doing in the toilet for that long? I hope she's alright, she's a really cool kid. I really want to get to know her better, but we haven't had a lot of time to do that. Hopefully after the show, we'll have some time to mellow out and become the group we're meant to be.
Well, I guess that's it for me today. Ally just came out of the toilet. Vicky is following her back to her corner, I guess she's going to try to talk to her, like the rest of us have been trying. I hope Ally doesn't feel smothered, we just want her to know we care about her, in the midst of all this busyness.
I'll write again later. Funny how we've all become interested in keeping a journal since Ally came aboard. We all love it too! It's a good way to express our feelings.
Emma Bunton