Chapter 3 – Loving Her
Ethan
"I Love you, Theresa!" Oh my god did I just say that to Gwen what was I thinking, I hope she didn't hear me! "I love you too Ethan!" Oh good she didn't hear me; thank god it would have been a disaster if Gwen was to hear me call her Theresa. Theresa is right you know I do still love her with all my heart and soul, but I have obligations to Gwen and our unborn child and that surpasses anything else! True I love Theresa whole-heartily, but I have a duty to Gwen and I cannot go back on that!
Theresa did look amazingly beautiful tonight, I was so jealous that Fox was making a move on Theresa I hope nobody notice that I was a little overprotected. But I couldn't help but get steamed when it came to Fox and women especially if that woman is the woman that I am in love with. If Gwen wasn't pregnant than we would be together but I believe that a child should have a mother and a father so I had to sacrifice the one that I love so that my child can grow up with both of it's parent!
Theresa she was the light of my life granted she has told many lies, she did it because she loves me I understand it now she thought she was protecting me but in the end, it only ended up hurting me, us, our relationship! I guess she didn't understand the ramifications of her actions. Maybe I didn't trust her enough, maybe I didn't trust myself. No matter it is done and over with! I hope Theresa has the good sense to stay away from my PLAYBOY of a half-brother.
For as long as I can remember Fox had always been a bully a bad boy, a rebel without a cause! Since we were little he would always try to punk me and bully me. Though I admit I wish that I would of, should of stood up to him when he would beat me up. Instead I would go and cry to mother because Fox was beating me and then mother would reprimand him. I guess I should have stood up to him. But I was so little then though I was much older than him! Still my brother has been dubbed the Bad Boy, the Player of the Crane family!
True he had many women, sometimes more than once but usually it was only once and he would get bored with them and leave. Fox didn't know the meaning of love, heck it wasn't even in his vocabulary. But he was a true Crane through and through; he takes after his father you know. I guess the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.
I always wondered why I was so different from the others I guess I know the truth now that I was never a Crane by Blood, nope no Crane blood flowing in my veins thanks to that Tabloid article. Mother has never forgiven Theresa for that. I know that deep in my heart that she did not do it. When I find out who did, that is when I will wreak my revenge on them for ruining my life. If the story of my Paternity didn't come out and if the story that framed Theresa never saw the light of day we would be together and Little Ethan would be my child not Julian damn him for taking advantage of an innocent women like Theresa and she went there on good intentions if only she had not lied about sleeping with Julian. No matter that is all in the past now!!!
Fox, oh how I hated him I will make sure that he stays away from Theresa! But I can't let them see that I still love her. How is that going to work out. I heard Gwen stirring in her sleep, here the night of my honeymoon and I am thinking of another women, do my brother and I have something in common. No I will never be like Fox, yet I am married and here I am dreaming, fantasizing, wanting another women.
Stop it Ethan, Stop it right now, you are a married man you love Gwen remember you love Gwen. But do I really love her NO I don't I love Theresa if only there could be a way that we can be together No that is impossible Gwen is having my baby! I just have to keep telling myself that! I love Gwen and she is having my Child. There! I guess eventually I will have to believe it! I feel sleep overtaking my body. No matter I will have to set things straight with Fox in the morning! I lean over and kissed my wife and went to sleep another day another heartache!