Chapter 4 – HER always HER
Gwen
Does anyone realize how much I hate Theresa, if they only knew! Yes I know that I won Ethan, that's all he was you know a prize to be won maybe once upon a time before Theresa came into the picture I loved Ethan but now it was all a game a game to win Ethan. I know that deep down in my heart that he loves HER! That his hearts yearns for her!
I saw the way he rushed from our Bed to go and rescue her tonight because she was in trouble. That I knew was coming every time Theresa was in despair Ethan was right there waiting for her, waiting to help her up when she fell. While I was always 2nd to HER. She had what I always wanted, no it wasn't Ethan it was the Crane money, yes I wanted the Crane's billions I wanted to be the almighty Mrs. Crane instead I went ahead and handed that title to Theresa.
What may you ask am I talking about, I am talking about the paternity, framing Theresa and ruining her Wedding I am talking about conspiring with Bruce to set her up with Julian I just didn't think that it would work that well you know! Ethan finding out and leaving her, but what I didn't expect to happen was Little Ethan. I guess no one saw that one coming at all not even Ethan he really wanted it to be his child! Well I guess no one will really know if it is his child. Not like he cared or anything. True both Ethan and Theresa did sleep together on the night of their wedding but she said she was on birth control pills. Well if it does turn out that Little Ethan is Ethan child, he would not think to leave me for I am pregnant with his child.
Weird how things work out for you, I mean a year ago I was alone pining away for Ethan and planning Theresa demise. Now I am Mrs. Ethan Winthrop and I am carrying his child.
I have the one thing that Theresa wishes she had I have Ethan and his child. But she also has the one thing that I want most Ethan's heart his unconditional love, his desire for me. If I get that from Ethan then I would truly win the game! You know everyone is right I am like my mother in every which way possible. True I love Ethan but I think I love him more like a sister would love a brother the only thing that drives me to keep Ethan is Theresa I will not let her win if it kills me I will keep them apart.
Mother is right you know this is all a game and the prize to be won is Ethan and I am half way there, true many can say that I won this battle but there is a war raging and I have to be prepared for it.
If it comes out that Mother and I were the ones that sent the tabloid the truth about Ethan paternity and that I was the voice on the phone that tip off the Tabloid guy, and I was the one that set Theresa up with Julian once I found out she was on her way to Bermuda to convince Julian to take back Ethan. I think I will be lost. There is no going back now there is just going forward. I just hope that all my secrets stay buried forever.
You know some might say that Theresa and I are very alike we are both determine, manipulative, cunning, dishonest and we will stop at nothing to get what we want!
But the difference between Theresa and I is I do everything with class and come out smelling like roses all the while Theresa's is getting the shit end of the stick!
You know life couldn't be better; I have everything that I wanted. I have Ethan and I am having his child. Well almost everything what I don't have is the Crane billions and Ethan's Heart. I guess you win some you lose some. But mother said that she has a plan that will destroy Theresa for good. Then she would be free to marry Julian and then he can reinstate Ethan as a Crane and I will have the Crane billions! I just hope Mother's plan works.
You know I almost slipped today and told Theresa about all the secrets that I had I can't let her work my nerves like that it's not good for me and the baby it's not good for my secrets too. I just have to be extra careful.
Well I think that it is time that we go to bed, I have had a very tiring night, and maybe tomorrow will be better! I guess I will be going to Charity and Miguel's wedding!
Look at Ethan he is sleeping like an Angel!
"Goodnight Sweetheart" as I lean in to kiss him on the forehead. "I love you!"
"I love you to Theresa!"
I can't believe he just said no matter soon my love you will forget Theresa ever exist!