Chapter 6 - Regrets
Ethan
His eyes fluttered open and, he turned over and looked over his shoulder and notice that Gwen was sleeping soundly "God that dream seem so real"
Ethan was at the church getting married to someone he couldn't see her face because the veil that she wore hid her face. "I now pronounce you husband and wife you may kiss the bride" Father Lonigan said. Ethan proceeded to lift off his wife veil but instead of it being Gwen it was Theresa, he couldn't believe it. He was overjoyed, he was filled with so much happiness that he couldn't contain himself. He kissed Theresa with all the passion that he had inside of him. HE couldn't believe that he was marrying Theresa. He brought Theresa home no not the Crane Mansion and he made sweet love to her all night long
He was disappointed when he woke up to find that it was Gwen in his bed instead of Theresa. He glanced over to the clock and it was 8:00. "Ugh, do I have to get up!"
Ethan slowly crept out of his bed he didn't want to wake her up, he didn't want to have sex with her anymore. The thought of it made him want to vomit. True he loved Gwen but he wasn't in love with her. His heart belonged to Theresa. "If only....." "NO" he scolded himself "You can't say that no matter what that is your child"
Ethan undresses and proceeded to the bathroom, he wanted to wash last night off of him. He was disgusted with himself here he is married to Gwen yet his heart, his soul yearn for another. How can he do that to Gwen but yet how can he do that to himself knowing that he is not in love with her and that he married her because of obligations. It wasn't fair to him or to Gwen.
It's hard to comprehend that a year ago he proposed to Theresa then a few months later all hell broke lose. And everything just went downhill from then on. He couldn't believe that one night of binged drinking would end him up in the predicament that he is in now.
It was sad in a way every little thought he had in his mind wasn't on Gwen and the baby it was on Theresa and Little Ethan. Little Ethan reminded him so much of himself. He was afraid for the boy having to grow up in a loveless life . But Theresa would never do that to her child never she was a better mother than that. Even better than his, sure his mother was no saint she tried her best. But she had kept the biggest secret in the world from the one person she claim to have love more than life itself. Though he had forgiven her for it he will never forget.
He heard Gwen's voice and decided that he better get out of the shower before she decided to come in and join him. He quickly grabbed the towel and wrapped it around himself. As he walking out Gwen was walking in.
"Hey stranger, too bad you left so soon I was going to join you in the shower"
"No I knew you were coming that's why I got out" he thought to himself "Oh I didn't realize Gwen, I am sorry"
"Well you can always come back in if you want?"
"No I am going to get dress and check on Mother"
"O.k.!" Gwen said sounding very disappointed
He hated to have to lie to her like that but what can he do in his heart he knew that he did not want to be with her he was just there because of the baby. He went into his mother room but she was not there so he decided to go downstairs and grabbed breakfast. What he didn't realize was he was walking into a war zone.
"Fox, what is the real reason that you have come back to Harmony?" He heard Julian ask
"Well father if you insist on asking I guess I have to tell you the real reason behind why I have come back, It was brought to my attention through unnamed sources that Theresa is an innocent bystander, she had been accused of things that she had not done!"
"Fox, why do you even care about Theresa, you barely if know the tramp!" Ivy yelled
"It's not about whether or not I know her or care about her the fact of the matter is that Theresa was wronged by you MOTHER by Gwen and her conniving mother and by you Father, and I hold in my hands your fate and your downfall and I am paying you all back for the horrid way all of you guys treated me!"
"Come on Fox tell us the real reason!" Julian asked while sipping on his Brandy
"Fine if it pleases you to not know the truth than I will tell you this, I got kicked out of school and I owe a lot of money, plus I am pretty much tapped out!"
"Fox, what are you going to do with yourself! This is the third school that you have gotten kicked out of within a year!" I hear mother yell
"Mother, why do you care so much it not like it's your money that I am spending your not even married to father anymore!"
"Fox, I don't think you should talk to Mother like that, she bore you into this world, show her some respect!"
"Oh shit, the Choir boy speaks, who are you to tell me what to do, you who are so clueless about the things around, you who are blind to the lies and deception that is in front of your face and no I am not talking about Theresa. But look around you everyone has been lying to you, face the fact Bro, you're so easy to manipulate, to be lied to, you only believe what you want to believe!"
"What are you talking about Fox, tell me now!"
"I am talking about the real culprit who sent the email to the tabloid, I cannot say more but if I were you I would follow the clues that is in front of your face"
Fox and I were arguing back and forth and then she walked in like an angel that just fell from heaven I glance away when she noticed that I was staring to hard.
Fox walked pass me and said "Don't look to hard Ethan Gwen is here she might notice that you are still in love with Theresa"
Could it be that obvious that I was still in love with Theresa, no I was hiding it real well.
"Good morning Step-Mommy did you sleep well last night after our little run in?"
God look at him he makes me sick I wanted to punch him out when he walked over there and started talking to Theresa.
"Yes Fox, I slept fine thank you for asking!"
"So Theresa!" I heard my Mother ask Theresa
"What is it Poison Ivy?"
"How dare you call me that?"
"I can call you anything I want you are the one that is living in my home, if you don't like it then I suggest that you pack your bags and leave, I can have the staff help you!"
"Why you little............"
"Little what Ivy, huh what racist comment were you going to make? I am fed up with you and Rebecca prancing around here like you shit don't stink, making outrageous accusations at me and calling me racist names, YOU WILL RESPECT ME IN MY HOUSE!"
"There are secrets in this house and I intend to find out what they are, if it kills me!" "So the 3 of you better watch yourself!"
"What, What are you going to do, there are no secrets between us none what so ever, tell her Pookie!" I heard Rebecca whine on and on to Julian
"Rebecca put a can in it already!"
God all this fighting was beginning to give me a migraine I am glad Theresa decided to leave.
As she walked out the door I made sure that Gwen was occupied so that she did not know I was following Theresa sure enough Gwen was with her Mother, What are those two up to. No matter, the only thought on my mind was to get the Theresa.
I tried to follow her but Fox beat me to the punch he was already out there with her so I decided to eavesdrop on their conversation.
"You know you handle yourself very well in there" I heard Fox ask her
"Thank you Fox"
"You know what I told Ethan was directed to you it was meant for you, you have to follow the clues Theresa its there for you right in your face you just have to look harder"
"Fox what are you talking about?"
"I am talking about the people who plotted you demise your downfall, they are close to you, you just have to find the evidence, or everything you know in your heart will just be your word against them, look I have said too much I have to go"
"Wait Fox, I don't understand!"
"Dig deep Theresa the truth is there you are just blinded by the love for Ethan to see it, go search for you clues collect them and confront your accusers"
"Fox, Can I ask you a question?"
"Sure, What is it?"
"Why are you telling me this?"
"Because I feel that Theresa you deserve better, you deserve the truth, you deserve to redeem yourself, most of all you deserve peace. I have seen how they treat you! Like they could do no wrong and you are the only one that is manipulative, a liar and dishonest! They are hypocritical Theresa just look for the clues you will find them and when you do I will be there right behind you watching the bomb explode!" He gently leans in to kiss me but I backed off
"Look I couldn't get you off my mind all night Theresa, I wanted to see if we had a chance and if we didn't then I wanted to be your allied in the fight against Mother, Rebecca and Gwen."
"Fox let's just start off as Friends first?" "DEAL?" as I extended my hand towards him and he kissed it.
"Friends"
Thank god Theresa did not kiss him I think I would be crushed if she did, I still have a chance wait I am married to Gwen how am I going to pull this one off I want Theresa so bad.
"Ethan.............." I heard a voice say, I turned around it was Gwen
"What are you doing?"
"Nothing Gwen I just needed to get out of there for a minute"
"Yea me too, can you believe the Gall that Theresa has!"
"But Gwen Theresa has a valid point this is her house!"
"Why..........? Why are you always protecting her? Standing up for her?!"
"Will I ever be good enough for you?" I felt bad Gwen was crying I didn't want to make her cry I slowly grabbed her close to me and hugged her but my mind was screaming for Theresa.
"Come on Gwen let's get out of here, I think we have a wedding to go to"
"Do you actually want to go to Miguel and Charity's Wedding"
"Yes they did give us an invitation"
"Well can I have a little of this..........." As I felt Gwen grabbed on my manhood
"I supposed so!"
I took her back to our room and picture I was making love to Theresa and not Gwen I made sure that I didn't slip up this time and call her Theresa.
When we were done I decided that I needed another shower. Gwen went ahead and did the same we got dress and proceeded downstairs Mother said that she wanted to go to the wedding to.
When I got downstairs I saw the one person I didn't want to see for the rest of the day HIM!
A/N: Ha I am making Ethan suffer so bad that is what he gets lol