This fic will be a little different. It started off with TOW Ross's Wedding and continues through to the present. Its mostly a Chandler fic but Monica and the gang are in it.

Disclaimer: All Friends characters belong to Warner Bros. and NBC. I have Matthew though. He's entertaining me with the Chandler Dance and the best Chandler quotes. LOL

Title: Chandler's Journal

Rated :PG

Summery: Chandler keeps a journal where he writes about his relationship with Monica.

Chapter 8: The Secret's Out

Chandler and Monica were laying in her bed in each other's arms. "I love you" he whispered for the tenth time. "I love you too" she giggled. 'What's so funny" he asked running his finger down her arm. "You've said you love me ten times already" she said. "I know but I do love you and I love saying I love you" The re was a knock on the door. Rachel poked her head in. "You love each other that's great but just stop it already" she groaned closing the door behind her. They both laughed. Monica yawned "Night sweeite, love you" she whispered drifting to sleep. "Night babe, love you too" he whispered as he quietly snuck out of bed. He grabbed his journal and went out to the living room. He was glad to find Rachel had gone to bed. He sat down at the kitchen table opening his journal.

February 11, 1999

Today was a pretty interesting day. The guys all know about us now and I did it I told Monica I love her. Let me start by telling you how the others found out about us. Rach she found out shortly after the new year when she over heard a phone conversation between Mon and I. She heard Mon refer to me as Mr. Big. Now Rachel grins looks me up and down then winks at me. Could that be more embarrassing! Pheebs she was checking out Ross's new apartment used to be Ugly naked guy's. She was looking out at Mon's place and saw us doing it by the big bay window.

After Pheebs found out she teamed up with Joey and Rachel to get back at us for hiding it for so long. I was at the counter at Central Perk getting coffee when Pheebs came up to me and just started flirting with me. Later at Mon's she pinched my ass as she was leaving. Mon and I figured out that she knew. So we went to Joey. He said "I didn't tell them" We were stunned "Them" we asked. He tried to cover up by saying "Phoebe and Joey" but he came clean and said Rach too. So Mon had the bright idea of me going along flirting with Pheebs. So I called her asking her to come over to my place.

Phoebe was really creeping me out. I turned music on and she did this wiggley dance thing. Then she asked me to put lotion on her. I went to the bathroom to get lotion. Mon was hiding in there and she cleaned it. How can she clean all the time. I came back out Pheebs was at the front door. I asked her if she was leaving. She said "Not without you lover" I cringed not because she's unattractive she's hot and all but Monica was the only woman I wanted to be with. Anyway Phoebe turned around and her dress was undone a little revealing her bra. I hate bras they scare me almost as much as The Lord Of The Dance. She put her hand on my ass and I put my had on her shoulder and shared the most awkward kiss.

I pushed her away. I said "You win I can't have sex with you" Pheebs asked why and that's when I said it. "Because I'm in love with Monica" Rach and Joey came in from the hall, Monica came out of the bathroom. "I love her, I love her" I shouted. Then I walked up to her and said "I love you Monica" She smiled and said "I love you too Chandler" Phoebe grinned and said "Aww I thought you were doing it I didn't know you were in love" I'm still pretty much in shock. I can't believe that me, Chandler Bing said those three little word. Most of all thought I can't believe that Monica said those same three little words to me. I was so sure she wasn't going to say it back. I mean when Ross told Emily he loved her she said thank you. I would have been so bummed if Monica had said that to me.

After having my heart stepped on and broken by Janice and Kathy two women I thought I loved I was pretty skeptical about falling in love again, of giving another woman my heart but with Monica its so different. The love I have for her is alot stronger than the love I once had for them. Sometimes at night when I'm in bed I think about the future and Monica is always there in my future, we're married with a couple of kids and most of all we're happy. Wow scary I'm talking about marriage, kids and stuff I must be growing up! Huh that makes me think of Kathy she told me to give her a call when I grow up. Sorry Kathy I ain't calling you cause I've found the love of my life, my bestfriend, my soulmate, my lobster she's Monica Geller.

Oh I almost forgot about Ross. He found out about us the same way Pheebs did. He saw us doing it from his window. At first he wasn't too happy. I told him that we weren't just messing around that I was in love with Monica and she said she was in love with me too. Then he was happy. I understand though. She's his little sister he has to look out for her. Its kind of how I feel about Pheebs and Rach they're like little sisters to me and I look out for them. Anyway the gang knows. So we can be a couple in public now. We can hold hands, cuddle, and kiss when ever we want and most of all now I can hold Monica all night and wake up to her beautiful blue eyes and radiant smile. "Whoa could I be more in love"

Chandler Bing

Rachel padded out of her room yawning as she walked to the bathroom. She stopped when she saw Chandler sitting at the kitchen table writing something. "Hey whatcha got there Chandler" she asked. "Oh uh nothing Rach" he said trying to hide it. "Oh come on don't be shy" she said beginning to tickle him. "Rachel" he laughed 'Stop that" She managed to get the book from him. She looked at a few pages " Aww how sweet a journal and its all about Mon" Chandler sighed "Yeah now gimmie it" he pouted. "Fine here I gotta pee anyway" she handed it back to him.

"Uh Rach I know you love to gossip" he said. "Hey" she whined "You know its true" he giggled "But still" she pouted. "Please don't tell Monica about the journal okay" Rachel smiled "Don't worry I won't" She walked to the bathroom. He walked to Monica's room. "Chandler" she whispered "Yeah" he said stopping in the doorway. "I rethink its sweet Mon's lucky to have you" He smiled "Thanks Rach" he said as he went inside the room. He smiled at Monica sleeping. Even in her sleep she was beautiful. He his the journal and climbed back into bed. "Mmm where were you honey" she whispered snuggling up to him. "I had to go to the bathroom" he said kissing her temple. "Mmm okay, love you Chandler" she whispered. "I love you to Monica" he whispered holding her close and closing his eyes.

Chapter 9: The First Proposal....Coming Soon!!!