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Ethereal
The yellow marigolds sprung everywhere, budding, velvety blossoms of bright yellow, edged with orange. They were wild flowers, their blue tinted emerald stems tangled with blots of weeds. While her body lay broken, battered and scarred in the real world, here, in this ethereal world her mind had created, she could lay among the yellow buds and tiptoe around the black chasm of truth that she wanted to forget…Here, in the mind her dormant body had shaped, she would not be the broken bird, shot down by the one whose hand she had perched upon and ate from. Here, she could choose to forget…
She knew she would have to wake up one day, see her own scarred body, cry and forget. But she didn't want to wake up. Here she never had to see the truth directly, she could just pretend it was all a bad dream…
"Hinamori…"
She heard a voice she had forgotten here in her mind. A voice coming from the real world, a voice she could now remember. A voice that although sounded cold to others, was filled with concern. For her. Shiro-chan…she though…
"Aren't you ever going to wake up, HInamori? The Aizen bastard is gone now…he's not going to hurt you anymore…"
She wanted to talk to him but she knew he couldn't hear her. "Shiro-chan," she wanted to say. "Don't you see? I don't want to wake up? I just want to stay here. Even if I open my eyes, it won't make everything okay…Nothing's going to be the same again. Don't you see? IF I just stay here, I can forget about what happened before….If only you were here too…
"Remember the time you overstuffed yourself with watermelons and even though you had a stomachache you wouldn't admit it? And then you threw up? It was so funny, Shiro-chan…I wish you would just stop worrying about me. I wish you would just forget about me…because I really don't want to wake up…I don't….I-I don't want to remember what happened between me and Aizen-taichou. I just want to forget……"
She wanted to forget the feeling of cold metal slicing through flesh, the sight of crimson blood on the floor before blackness took over. She just wanted to stay here…in her own secluded world where she was safe...
"You know that you're my best friend, right, Shiro-chan? So please be happy, okay? Because I might never wake up and I don't want you to always be waiting for me…….."
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He looked at her still form and wished she would just open her eyes. He felt so stupid talking to someone that couldn't even hear him…And yet she seemed only a heartbeat away…He could almost hear her voice…He could almost see her smile…But she was always a dimension away, even if the dimensions were only separated by paper thin borders….He wished she would just wake up…
Outside the open window, a yellow petal drifted by….Only a heartbeat away…..