A/N: Hometown here! I seem to have taken a small step away from the Silent Hill section. Anyway, this poem is (as you should know)completely from Akito's viewpoint. You'll notice that towards the beginning heseems to be the most stable, and a little more on the frantic side towards the end. Anyway, enjoy!
CRUEL
I can be so cruel
But they deserve it
Living the life that I can't have
Right before my eyes
Death is my near fate
Everything I do is pointless
Every action lost in time
Just another cursed Sohma soon to be forgotten
Replaced by another unfortunate soul
Can't stand all this sickness
Just makes my existence
Even more pathetic
I can be so heartless
Nothing matters at all
So I cry out in this darkness
Is this any way to live?
I cannot be loved
So neither can they
We all suffer as one
So this way I'm not so alone
So alone
No one would love me anyway
I can be so cold
As I wait in my tomb
For my impending death
Like killing time in a waiting room
Counting down
To my breakdown
How much longer till I snap
They're all I have to hold on to
But they're all waiting
For me to die
So impatiently
I can read it in their eyes
Oh, they're waiting like hawks
Over a dying animal
Watching its life blood spill
Waiting so impatiently
They live because of me
Breathe because of me
Feel
Love
Hate because of me!
All they can do is obey me
They can never repay me
I didn't ask to be their sacrifice
So impatient
I can be so bitter
But they'll continue to ail with me
Until my life slips away
I'll never let them go
Oh that revolting rice ball
She can't do a damn thing
She can't save anyone
All she can do is sit back and watch
What a burden
But they all love her
She's everything to them
I should be their everything
After what I'm going through for them
So inconsiderate of them
So unappreciative
I can be so sadistic
In my agony I continue hurt them
Their suffering eases my own
Even though I can't change my fate
At least I can control something, someone
I can be so jealous
They live with a purpose
Make a difference in this world
Instead of sitting around
Waiting for death
I can be so jealous
They can't get close to anyone
Why should they?
I can't
I'm just going to die
I can be so jealous
So overzealous
I'm just going to die
They hate me
Think I'm crazy
Going to die
I should be their everything
So cruel
So alone
I can never atone
Why does it have to be this way?
Don't want to die for them
Don't want to be condemned
I don't want this
I'm so heartless
I can be so cruel
Nothing matters at all
So I cry out in my darkness:
Is this any way to live?
A/N: (WARNING, MANGA ISSUE 17 SPOILS AHEAD!) I am perfectly aware of Akito's gender issues in this particular manga book. For my purposes, Akito from the anime (of whom I write about) is a male. I do have reasons and theories to back this statement up, so feel free to E-mail me if you really want to hear them.
I just had to include this note so Idon't any reviews reading: OMG AKITO IS A GURL!111! Understood?