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Hey there! Well not too much to say but I am going to camp (yay...joy...) so the next update may take a little longer because it's going to be longer chapter and probably a few people will be pissed off at the end of it!

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CHAPTER 6

Gone, but Not Forgotten

"Ah… OUCH! God that hurt Cat!"

Beast Boy dropped his Game Station controller and held his ear in his hands while glaring at Catgirl. Lately she's been taking Starfire's old spot behind the guys and cheering them on…with a few exceptions. First she didn't ask what every button did…every frickin' time (Beast Boy noted this with a guilty happiness… it really did get annoying after three years) and second was she was a total cheater! Well… Cyborg was anyway, they're partners in crime!

Catgirl had a habit of annoying BB when playing. Sometimes she'd snatch the controller from him and start playing but lately she's been biting his ear. She would just be leaning against the couch and all of a sudden when he got to far ahead she reach out and bite his frickin' ear!

Beast Boy sighed and let go of his pointed ear. Taking his controller back in both hands and muttering foul things at Catgirl as Cyborg finished the race. It's not easy being green.

Raven's tea stood stand still halfway to her mouth as she also observed this strange behavior. Sure she was half cat…but an ear?
She sighed and closed her eyes sipping the tea. Obviously she's trying to impress Cyborg, Raven concluded.

Robin entered the room; his face was somber and blank. Raven lifted her head up from her tea noticing a melancholic edge had taken on the cheerful aura of the room.

Even Catgirl and Beast Boy noticed it. Cat's ears perked up as she looked over her shoulder, same with Beast Boy. Cyborg, however, used their distraction to finish off the game.
Catgirl raised an eyebrow, "What's wrong?" She asked, her golden yellow eyes traveled to the piece of light pink stationary he was holding in his hand.

Raven instantly recognized the paper. Starfire had sent out thank you notes with that type of paper, also occasionally you'd see a piece of pink paper taped on something explaining it's use and pronunciation written in Starfire's strangely neat (but badly miss-spelled) hand writing.

"Is that from Starfire?" Catgirl asked in an interrogatory almost suspicious tone. By the look on her face Raven could tell that Catgirl was curious why Robin looked so empty.

"Come to think of it…" Beast Boy began rubbing his chin in a old fashioned detective way that was so unlike himself (he still hadn't found 1000 Laughs in 1 Hour, which by the way was hidden under a pile of 'Goopy the amazing green blob!' comic books in the back of his closet) "I haven't seen her all day…is she still in her room as usual?" He said the last words under his breath, annoyed with how Raven-ish Starfire had become.

"She's not in her room, Beast Boy. She's not even on Earth…" That definitely perked up everyone's ears. "What do you mean, man? Like gone of vacation?" Cyborg asked with a bit of useless hope in his voice.
Robin shook his head and held out the note, "Read for yourselves,"
The group instantly appeared in front of Robin. Raven peered down on the page, the note was riddled with spelling mistakes and grammar errors but she was able to make out Starfire's unusual chicken scratch for writing.

Deer Friends,

You have may or may not know this but I am very un happy. I was so young and happy to come to Earth but how stupid was I. I have bean wasting a way for a year and no body has noticed or tryed to help me. I am just a worthless trog you to Earthling bastards. I am leeving this place, and yes it is your faults. Maybe some day I will forgive you but now I hate you all from the bottom of my broken heart. Maybe if you weren't so selfish maybe we could have stayed friends Raven. But I can't live anymore in fantasy 'what if' and 'maybe if this happened' worlds anymore.

I need to get a way from you before I do sumthing worst then this,

Starfire

"Did you try to contact her?"
It was Beast Boy's voice that broke through the stale awkward silence first. But Robin held up a slightly dented communicator with the large T on the top, "I found this on the ground near my door. I'm guessing she threw it the wall next to my door because there's now a dent there,"
A group of slow nods followed after. Raven pulled up her hood and wandered a bit away from the group. Her eyes were locked on the ground as guilty thoughts flowed through her mind. Sure I was a bit harsh but I was merely returning the favor, right?

Raven rubbed her temples and sighed, suppressing her emotions and powers was giving her a headache.

Catgirl's brave voice was the next to break the uncomfortable silence. "So… are the Teen Titans over?" She asked looking straight into Robin's masked eyes each word getting a slightly softer.
"No," spoke Robin's voice. It almost scared Raven at first. She had to turn around to see who spoken it. They had been through thick and thin together, times when Robin had been angry and times when Raven was angry but neither of them used that tone even in arguments.
His voice was low and dark sounding. It sounded so bitter and hateful, she was surprised how much emotion could be emitted with only one simple word. Raven looked over her shoulder and expected to see Robin about to strike out at something, but he was stiff and gazing out the window in an almost dream like trance.

Raven looked away not wanted to see her fiancé look like that.

Is he angry for Starfire leaving? Or is he angry at me for making Starfire leave?

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"Are you here for another heart-to-heart?"
Raven looked up startled. "Huh?" She asked looking around the roof top.

"Well that's why you're here right? You're looking for me," Catgirl's head poked around her usual tanning chair.
"Well actually…" Raven began advancing towards Cat with a lonely look on her face, "I was looking for some place to think and mediate,"
"You can't do both."

"Huh?"

"You mediate to clear your mind and help forget about it. If think about it then focus all your attention on the problem. You simply can not do both."
Raven narrowed her eyes and stopped moving, "So what if I was looking for a bit of human contact. Starfire basically said it's my entire fault that she left and she hates me. So what if I need a bit of friendship right now,"

"Don't need to bite my head off. I mean you could've been nicer to her, because I heard that you stole Robin away from her,"

"But she said-"

"People say what they don't always mean,"
"So you saying that she just gave up Robin,"
"Well would you want to be in a relationship that both people don't have equal feelings for each other?"

"Well I don't know…" Raven had joined Catgirl on the chair. She sat cross legged at the end of the wooden chair fumbling with her cloak. "Why is Robin so hung over about Starfire leaving if he doesn't care for her anymore?"

"Think about it, he just lost an old friend and a member of his team. And he probably feels guilty about you guys getting married also."

Raven sighed; though Catgirl's words were comforting they still didn't make her feel like jumping for joy.

Raven rested her elbows on her knees and lowered her head onto her palms. The dark girl looked down and her eyes slowly started to water.

Catgirl rested her hand on Raven's shoulder and spoke softly, "It's for the best that Starfire left. In her letter she said that if she didn't leave then things would be worst. Think of how guilty you'd be if she was dead, or Robin. Or even if she attacked you…"

Raven was about to open her mouth and tell her that it already happened but just stopped and closed her mouth. That day was the worst day ever, Starfire attacked her and she found out that Sarah died.

Raven looked up and a flash of sunlight illuminated Catgirl's hair giving it almost a golden yellow appearance. For a second Raven imagined that it was Sarah sitting across from her giving her comfort like she used to… until she needed comfort from Raven…that night…

Raven closed her eyes and looked back down trying to blink away the tears that were rapidly building up in her eyes, "I feel… so guilty…" Raven said softly.

Catgirl peered down at Raven knowing that the subject was moved from Starfire.

Raven suddenly jumped up and hugged Catgirl forgetting that it wasn't Sarah.

"I'm so sorry Sarah," Raven whispered, "I just push everyone away…"

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