Hey, L.A. Here.
A new Drabble! Yay! Lol. Sorry I haven't updated anything for a little while. Things suddenly got quite a bit hectic around here... Life sucks:( Thus, resulting in this little ficlet.
Here-a goes.
Warning: This doesn't really have anything to do with the InuYasha characters. It's simply a poem/prose that reveals my feelings as of now.. But, now that I think about it, I'm sure several characters could relate to this. Tell me what/who you think. ;)
Disclaimer: I no own InuYasha... except for the awesome action figures of 'Demon InuYasha' and 'Sesshomaru!' :D
Word Count: 255 (Yeah, I know they're supposed to be 100...)
Do I even know what I feel?
Am I able to grasp it, explain it?
No, it's not that easy...
I'm finally realizing a dream that I have held for so long,
but at such high prices that I feel only shame, and bitterness.
I have been exposed. No longer concealed behind my brave lies, and pride.
I want to hide, to ignore; to harden myself again.
Form another, different mask that will save me from the harsh realizations that are rapidly revealing themselves.
I want to hide from my ultimate distruction, tuck away my vulnerabilities.
I desire to ignore the truth, for I fear reality.
My world is where I am safe, free from petty falsehoods that I myself have formed.
Too confused, I revolt against change.
I only fear the worst, and see only the rough path ahead, not the pleasant goal that awaits.
I convince myself that only I know what's right, and they are only trying to fool me...
That they simply desire to wreck my world and ruin everything.
I realize I am wrong, and thus, the one in the dark.
I hide from the light, thoughts of undeserving flooding my mind.
I know they reach out only to help, to save me from what I am;
What I see before me, is what I am becoming.
Apromise to myself from long ago, shattering to pieces.
I stand; clueless, afraid, confused...
And no better than before, despite my desperate attempts.
I only become more bitter, harder to rescue.
Quit wasting your time...
Sorry for the slight depressed feel of this. I was just able to capture my feelings so well with this, that I felt it needed to be posted. Hope someone benefited!
Also, from now on, I'll give the Word Count of these things. The last few times I've felt compelled to write more than 100, so I believe a fair 'warning' is called for. ;)
Anyway, hope you enjoyed! Please review!
L.A.