Winter Wonderland
Chapter Four
Inu-Yasha carried his and Kagome's ski's and bags down to where they had left the snowmobile and to their relief, was still there.
"Kagome, are you sure you're head is still alright?" asked Inu-Yasha.
"For the hundredth time I'm fine Inu-Yasha, it's just a little bump,"
"Feh," mumbled Inu-Yasha as he climbed on behind Kagome.
"Hey Kagome! Wait!"
Kagome looked up to see Yuka, Eri, Ayumi, and Hojo running towards her.
"Don't they ever get a clue?" growled Inu-Yasha.
"Just wait here," mumbled Kagome as she got off the snow mobile and approached her friends. "What do you guys want?"
"Hojo told us what happened on the hill, are you okay?" asked Yuka.
"Yes I'm fine,"
"Hojo also said your friend lost his mind when he saw you were hurt," added Eri.
"Well he is a little over protective, he just gets worried when I'm hurt,"
"Kagome, do you think it's wise that you hang out with a guy like him? I mean you could get seriously hurt,"
"Will you guys stop it?"
"You guys this is not why you wanted to see her," said Ayumi stepping infront of her friends, "We wanted to ask if we could come to your place tomorrow?"
"Tomorrow?"
"Yeah, we could have the annual snowball fight," said Hojo.
Kagome glared at Hojo but nodded her head, "Okay, but it's me, Inu-Yasha and Sota against you two,"
"Three against four, do you think that's fair?" asked Eri.
"With Inu-Yasha you'll be the ones out numbered,"
Everyone looked a little confused, but nodded and let Kagome get back to the snowmobile.
"What was that about?" asked Inu-Yasha, pretending he didn't hear the whole conversation.
"We're have a snowball fight tomorrow against them,"
"Sounds fun . . . . what's a snowball fight?"
"I'll explain when I get home," smiled Kagome as she started to snowmobile and they were off.
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Inu-Yasha sat on his bed and stared out the window, watching the snow lightly fall from the sky. Kagome and her family had gone Christmas shopping, but Inu-Yasha had told them he was tired and wanted to sleep, but having a nap was the last thing on his mind right now.
(WARNING!!!!!!! Okay for all of you who don't know me, I have seen up to episode 122 in the Japanese version, plus both movies, but also I know what happens up to episode 131 and up to Manga 34. So big spoilers coming up here, so if you love spoilers please continue, but if you don't, TURN BACK NOW!) The time for the final battle against Naraku was coming, and it was going to be a tough one since before Naraku disappeared to Mt.Hijiri (I think that's the name off the top of my head) he had been quite hard to fight, but they had almost defeated him. But when Naraku disappeared he had become even stronger and now had a new body.
(Inu's POV)
What if we do defeat Naraku? Then the jewel will be whole, Miroku's wind tunnel will be gone, the monk and Sango would finally allowed to be together, Shippo would probably stay with Kaede, but what about me? What about Kagome? What will we do when the adventure is over? Will Kagome go back to her time forever and never come back? No . . . . no she can't do that! I need her . . . . i need her with me. But what about Kikyo? My old love . . . but I guess the real question now is . . . do I still love her? The Kikyo I knew fifty years ago was kind, gentle, didn't hate anyone, and didn't seem to have any anger in her at all . . . that is until we were ensnared into Naraku's trap. Damn it! Why didn't I trust her? If I had only trusted her, this never would have happened . . . but then again . . . I never would have met Kagome. But the Kikyo now . . . she hates me . . . or at least at first she did, but once she found out I didn't kill her, she still wants me to go to hell with her. At first I thought it was the right thing to do . . . if that was to by mine and her destiny I would embrace it without a second thought . . . but now that I really think about it . . . I'm not really sure that I want to die anymore, but don't I owe Kikyo? First she was killed by Naraku, and then Naraku tried to destroy her a second time by pushing her into the river of lava, and both times I couldn't protect her! But Kagome said that Kikyo was okay, and that she saved Kikyo from dying. But what confuses me is why Kikyo didn't want to see me? I swear I will always protect her . . . . but wait! What about Kagome? The last time I went to search for Kikyo, Kagome was kidnaped by Kagura. They tried to use Kagome to find the remaining jewel shards by using that recent detachment from Naraku. He had easily fallen into another trap by Naraku, leaving Kagome alone with out his protection!
Kagome . . . ever since she released me from the tree I've always been by her side, and basically she's become my life. I can't deny it anymore . . . I've fallen in love with Kagome . . . she makes me feel at peace and happy. She likes me for who I am . . . I remember when she told me liked me as a half demon, and she managed to bring me back to my half demon form instead of being consumed by my demon blood (You have to see the second movie here to know what I'm talking about). Now that I look at it, I've always loved her since the day I met her, and it wasn't because she is Kikyo's reincarnation . . . I love her for who she is. She's the only one who ever cried when I was hurt or on the brink of death. I've been kissed by both Kagome and Kikyo (Yet again people you have to see the second movie to know what I'm talking about), and I seemed to like it better when Kagome kissed me. But like I've thought before, my heart belongs to Kagome, but my life belongs to Kikyo . . . or . . . does it? Now that I really think about it more . . . not only did I not trust Kikyo, but she didn't trust me either. Was it really love that was between us? I thought I had found someone to love me as I am, but Kikyo wanted me to become human so we could be together. I've done a lot of thinking about this and I'll say it again, was it because the jewel was in the way, or was it because I was a half demon? But one thing that has been bothering me lately was when Kikyo was first revived by that witch Urasue . . . the real Kikyo needed her whole soul, so how is the Kikyo I know now still able to move? Urasue said it was because a fraction of the soul was not returned to Kagome's body, and that the fraction of the soul that was not returned was Kikyo's hatred for me, but I thought Kikyo didn't hate me anymore . . . or does she? She still wants to me to die with her since I was supposed to die on that day we were ensnared in Naraku's trap. At first I thought it was my duty to jump into hell with Kikyo since she followed me in death, but now . . . I want to live . . . I want to live with Kagome! She changed my life . . . she taught me to trust again. I know I've become less cold hearted than I use to be, and Kagome was the first person who almost made me cry when I thought she was dead (Episode 107 if you were wondering). But why do I feel like I can't abandon Kikyo? Is it that I'm afraid to move on from my past? That I don't want to be hurt again like I was fifty three years ago?
But could Kagome ever love me in return? Sure she's my best friend . . . but what I wouldn't give if we could go further. To just once embrace her and never let go. I really don't know how Kagome feels about me . . . does she love me? Perhaps, but I'm not sure. I want to know though, hopefully sometime on this vacation with her I will discover if she loves me or not.
I've decided now . . . if Kagome loves me in return, I swear I will be by her side forever, and kill Naraku to avenge the real Kikyo . . . but if Kagome doesn't love me, I will go to hell with Kikyo.
(End of Inu-Yasha's POV)
Inu-Yasha finally stood for the first time in hours and headed down stairs. It felt good to finally make a decision instead of bottling it up inside after all this time. It felt right that he had finally chosen Kagome to be with, and sometime on this vacation he would tell the girl from the future how he felt for her.
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Kagome stepped out of the car and headed to the trunk to grab her presents she had gotten for her family and Inu-Yasha. She wasn't expecting anything from the half demon, but she still got him something to show she cared. Kagome made sure not to hit the Christmas tree on the roof of the car as she grabbed her five bags of presents and three rolls of wrapping paper. She headed to the door to see Inu-Yasha waiting for them.
"Have fun?" he asked, opening the door for Kagome.
"It was fun, but very crowded," said Kagome setting her bags by the couch.
"Did you enjoy your nap?" asked Mrs. Higurashi as she passed Inu-Yasha.
"Um yeah I did," answered Inu-Yasha, "What's with the tree?"
"You'll see later today, would you mind bringing it in?" asked Kagome.
Inu-Yasha nodded and easily picked the tree up, "You actually want this inside?"
"Yes," answered Mrs. Higurashi.
"You mean you've never had a Christmas tree before?" asked Sota.
"No of course he hasn't," said Grandpa, heading back into the house.
Inu-Yasha shrugged his shoulders and headed into the house with the tree above his head. Kagome held the door open as Inu-Yasha carried the tree inside where Mrs. Higurashi was waiting for the half demon in the living room.
"Just set the tree in this tree stand," said Mrs. Higurashi.
Setting the tree down Inu-Yasha backed away from it, "Why do you need a tree in the house?"
"You always have a tree up during Christmas,"
"But it looks like any ordinary tree,"
"Well we decorate it of course, which we'll do tomorrow since it's so late and it's time to go to bed,"
"Aw, can't we do it tonight mom?" asked Sota.
"Tomorrow afternoon honey since in the morning everyone's going to sleep in," said Mrs. Higurashi heading into the kitchen to turn the lights out, "Now everyone off to bed,"
Inu-Yasha headed to the stairs but paused as he watched Kagome gracefully move up the stairs Shaking her head, he followed Kagome upstairs to their room where she was digging in her drawer for her PJ's. Inu-Yasha grabbed his and went to the bathroom to change to give Kagome some privacy. Inu- Yasha pulled his red PJ's on and knocked on the door to make sure Kagome was descent.
"Come in,"
Inu-Yasha entered to the darken room to see Kagome already in bed. He didn't say anything as the he walked across the room to his bed beside Kagome's.
"Inu-Yasha?" asked Kagome.
"Yes?"
"Did I tell you yet what a snowball fight is?"
"No not yet,"
"Well basically what we do is make balls out of snow and throw it at people,"
"And that's supposed to be fun?
"You'll see tomorrow. Can I turn out the light?"
"Sure,"
Kagome leaned up and turned out the small light, covering the room in darkness. Inu-Yasha just stared at the roof, listening to Kagome's breathing. After doing his thinking from later in the afternoon, he felt like he couldn't sleep, as if Kagome wouldn't be there in the morning, but something else was on his mind as well.
"Kagome?"
"Hmm?"
"What do you . . . I mean . . ."
"Inu-Yasha?"
"Never mind,"
"No what is it?"
He could here her shifting in her bed to face him in the darken room.
"What do you plan to do once the jewel is complete?"
Kagome was silent for a while, "I'm not really sure . . . I mean . . . I don't know if I'll go back to my old life and just visit you guys on the weekends and holidays, or something else,"
"Oh,"
"What about you?"
"Huh?"
"What are you going to do when the jewel is complete?"
"I'm . . . I . . . don't know," mumbled Inu-Yasha.
"You mean you aren't going to become a full fledged demon?"
" . . ."
"I know I've said this before Inu-Yasha, but I like you as a half demon, I don't think you need to change at all,"
". . . ."
"But . . ."
"But what?"
"If you do change into a full fledged demon . . . I'll still stay by your side,"
Inu-Yasha didn't say anything as he rolled on his side.
"Unless you don't want me around after that?"
The half demon sat up and stared at the girl in the dark, "Of course I want you around! What kind of question is that?"
"Well . . . I mean . . . never mind," said Kagome, facing her back to Inu- Yasha.
"What did you mean Kagome?"
Kagome didn't say anything as she tried to fall asleep. Growing irritated Inu-Yasha got out of his bed and in two steps reached Kagome's. Turning her over he made the girl look at him, "Kagome you're my best friend, why would I not like having you around?"
"Well when the jewel is complete you'll be with Kik . . ."
"Please don't say her name?"
"But . . ." Kagome was cut off as she felt Inu-Yasha's arms wrap around her, "Inu-Yasha?"
"I don't want to think of Kikyo right now . . . so can we please not talk about her for the rest of this vacation?"
Kagome didn't know whether to hug back or not, "Okay, I won't mention her again," She expected him to let go of her, but the half demon didn't, instead he held her tighter and pulled her up into his lap.
"Can I just hold you?"
" . . . sure . . ." Kagome finally gave up and hugged the half demon back.
"Kagome, if you think you're just . . . a replacement . . . you're wrong, I like you for who you are . . . not because you look like . . . well . . . you know who,"
"I know,"
"No, I don't think you do . . . Kagome don't you understand that I need you . . . and before you say anything it's not because of the shards . . . Kagome your the only person I really trust in this world,"
"Not even Kik . . ."
"I thought we weren't going to say her name? But to answer your question no, I don't trust her, I only really trust you the most, and you taught me to trust others like Miroku, Sango and Shippo,"
Kagome was silent as she rested her head on Inu-Yasha's shoulder.
"Kagome?"
"Yes?"
"Will you promise me something?"
"Sure,"
"Promise me you'll never leave my side?"
"I promise Inu-Yasha, I'll never leave your side,"
Inu-Yasha smiled and held Kagome even tighter as he laid himself and Kagome down back on her bed.
"Can I just hold you tonight?"
Kagome couldn't speak so she just nodded her head. She could feel Inu- Yasha rest his head above hers and could hear his breathing evening out until finally he was in a deep slumber. But Kagome couldn't sleep since she confused . . . confused on how Inu-Yasha was acting. *Why is he acting like this? I mean once the jewel is complete, Inu-Yasha will have Kikyo . . . or is it because . . . he loves me? No that can't be it! He loves Kikyo, I'm just his friend . . . but . . .* Kagome smiled and hugged Inu-Yasha back even tighter, *Might as well enjoy it . . . and tonight . . . I'll pretend he's holding me, because he loves me* thought Kagome as she snuggled closer to the half demon. She smiled as she felt Inu-Yasha wrap his arms even tighter around her. Kagome then had a sudden urge to touch Inu-Yasha's ears again as she reached her hand up and touched the fuzzy, triangular ears. Inu-Yasha gave off a husky hum and buried his face into Kagome's black hair. Kagome suddenly frowned, *Why am I doing this? All I'm doing is breaking my heart even more. I know Inu-Yasha could never be with me or even love me, but . . . I can't help it . . . I love him too much. I want to see him happy, even . . . even if it means him turning into a full fledged demon and him being with Kikyo*
Kagome could feel the wetness of her tears as they silently slipped down her face.
"Kag . . . ome . . . mmmm . . . don't . . . cry . . . please . . ." mumbled Inu-Yasha in his sleep.
Kagome looked up at the half demon who had a frown on his face, but his arms held Kagome even tighter to his chest. His one hand was on the small of her back, while the other was tangled in her hair. Shaking her head, Kagome pushed all her sad thoughts into the back in her mind and enjoyed the comfort and security she felt of being in Inu-Yasha's arms . . . the man she loved.
TBC . . .
Ok this was probably a really boring chapter, but hey the next one should be better with the snow ball fight! Please keep reviewing! Oh by the way, a thousand apologies for all the typing errors, blame my computer! ARGH! I need a new computer! Lynns
Chapter Four
Inu-Yasha carried his and Kagome's ski's and bags down to where they had left the snowmobile and to their relief, was still there.
"Kagome, are you sure you're head is still alright?" asked Inu-Yasha.
"For the hundredth time I'm fine Inu-Yasha, it's just a little bump,"
"Feh," mumbled Inu-Yasha as he climbed on behind Kagome.
"Hey Kagome! Wait!"
Kagome looked up to see Yuka, Eri, Ayumi, and Hojo running towards her.
"Don't they ever get a clue?" growled Inu-Yasha.
"Just wait here," mumbled Kagome as she got off the snow mobile and approached her friends. "What do you guys want?"
"Hojo told us what happened on the hill, are you okay?" asked Yuka.
"Yes I'm fine,"
"Hojo also said your friend lost his mind when he saw you were hurt," added Eri.
"Well he is a little over protective, he just gets worried when I'm hurt,"
"Kagome, do you think it's wise that you hang out with a guy like him? I mean you could get seriously hurt,"
"Will you guys stop it?"
"You guys this is not why you wanted to see her," said Ayumi stepping infront of her friends, "We wanted to ask if we could come to your place tomorrow?"
"Tomorrow?"
"Yeah, we could have the annual snowball fight," said Hojo.
Kagome glared at Hojo but nodded her head, "Okay, but it's me, Inu-Yasha and Sota against you two,"
"Three against four, do you think that's fair?" asked Eri.
"With Inu-Yasha you'll be the ones out numbered,"
Everyone looked a little confused, but nodded and let Kagome get back to the snowmobile.
"What was that about?" asked Inu-Yasha, pretending he didn't hear the whole conversation.
"We're have a snowball fight tomorrow against them,"
"Sounds fun . . . . what's a snowball fight?"
"I'll explain when I get home," smiled Kagome as she started to snowmobile and they were off.
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Inu-Yasha sat on his bed and stared out the window, watching the snow lightly fall from the sky. Kagome and her family had gone Christmas shopping, but Inu-Yasha had told them he was tired and wanted to sleep, but having a nap was the last thing on his mind right now.
(WARNING!!!!!!! Okay for all of you who don't know me, I have seen up to episode 122 in the Japanese version, plus both movies, but also I know what happens up to episode 131 and up to Manga 34. So big spoilers coming up here, so if you love spoilers please continue, but if you don't, TURN BACK NOW!) The time for the final battle against Naraku was coming, and it was going to be a tough one since before Naraku disappeared to Mt.Hijiri (I think that's the name off the top of my head) he had been quite hard to fight, but they had almost defeated him. But when Naraku disappeared he had become even stronger and now had a new body.
(Inu's POV)
What if we do defeat Naraku? Then the jewel will be whole, Miroku's wind tunnel will be gone, the monk and Sango would finally allowed to be together, Shippo would probably stay with Kaede, but what about me? What about Kagome? What will we do when the adventure is over? Will Kagome go back to her time forever and never come back? No . . . . no she can't do that! I need her . . . . i need her with me. But what about Kikyo? My old love . . . but I guess the real question now is . . . do I still love her? The Kikyo I knew fifty years ago was kind, gentle, didn't hate anyone, and didn't seem to have any anger in her at all . . . that is until we were ensnared into Naraku's trap. Damn it! Why didn't I trust her? If I had only trusted her, this never would have happened . . . but then again . . . I never would have met Kagome. But the Kikyo now . . . she hates me . . . or at least at first she did, but once she found out I didn't kill her, she still wants me to go to hell with her. At first I thought it was the right thing to do . . . if that was to by mine and her destiny I would embrace it without a second thought . . . but now that I really think about it . . . I'm not really sure that I want to die anymore, but don't I owe Kikyo? First she was killed by Naraku, and then Naraku tried to destroy her a second time by pushing her into the river of lava, and both times I couldn't protect her! But Kagome said that Kikyo was okay, and that she saved Kikyo from dying. But what confuses me is why Kikyo didn't want to see me? I swear I will always protect her . . . . but wait! What about Kagome? The last time I went to search for Kikyo, Kagome was kidnaped by Kagura. They tried to use Kagome to find the remaining jewel shards by using that recent detachment from Naraku. He had easily fallen into another trap by Naraku, leaving Kagome alone with out his protection!
Kagome . . . ever since she released me from the tree I've always been by her side, and basically she's become my life. I can't deny it anymore . . . I've fallen in love with Kagome . . . she makes me feel at peace and happy. She likes me for who I am . . . I remember when she told me liked me as a half demon, and she managed to bring me back to my half demon form instead of being consumed by my demon blood (You have to see the second movie here to know what I'm talking about). Now that I look at it, I've always loved her since the day I met her, and it wasn't because she is Kikyo's reincarnation . . . I love her for who she is. She's the only one who ever cried when I was hurt or on the brink of death. I've been kissed by both Kagome and Kikyo (Yet again people you have to see the second movie to know what I'm talking about), and I seemed to like it better when Kagome kissed me. But like I've thought before, my heart belongs to Kagome, but my life belongs to Kikyo . . . or . . . does it? Now that I really think about it more . . . not only did I not trust Kikyo, but she didn't trust me either. Was it really love that was between us? I thought I had found someone to love me as I am, but Kikyo wanted me to become human so we could be together. I've done a lot of thinking about this and I'll say it again, was it because the jewel was in the way, or was it because I was a half demon? But one thing that has been bothering me lately was when Kikyo was first revived by that witch Urasue . . . the real Kikyo needed her whole soul, so how is the Kikyo I know now still able to move? Urasue said it was because a fraction of the soul was not returned to Kagome's body, and that the fraction of the soul that was not returned was Kikyo's hatred for me, but I thought Kikyo didn't hate me anymore . . . or does she? She still wants to me to die with her since I was supposed to die on that day we were ensnared in Naraku's trap. At first I thought it was my duty to jump into hell with Kikyo since she followed me in death, but now . . . I want to live . . . I want to live with Kagome! She changed my life . . . she taught me to trust again. I know I've become less cold hearted than I use to be, and Kagome was the first person who almost made me cry when I thought she was dead (Episode 107 if you were wondering). But why do I feel like I can't abandon Kikyo? Is it that I'm afraid to move on from my past? That I don't want to be hurt again like I was fifty three years ago?
But could Kagome ever love me in return? Sure she's my best friend . . . but what I wouldn't give if we could go further. To just once embrace her and never let go. I really don't know how Kagome feels about me . . . does she love me? Perhaps, but I'm not sure. I want to know though, hopefully sometime on this vacation with her I will discover if she loves me or not.
I've decided now . . . if Kagome loves me in return, I swear I will be by her side forever, and kill Naraku to avenge the real Kikyo . . . but if Kagome doesn't love me, I will go to hell with Kikyo.
(End of Inu-Yasha's POV)
Inu-Yasha finally stood for the first time in hours and headed down stairs. It felt good to finally make a decision instead of bottling it up inside after all this time. It felt right that he had finally chosen Kagome to be with, and sometime on this vacation he would tell the girl from the future how he felt for her.
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Kagome stepped out of the car and headed to the trunk to grab her presents she had gotten for her family and Inu-Yasha. She wasn't expecting anything from the half demon, but she still got him something to show she cared. Kagome made sure not to hit the Christmas tree on the roof of the car as she grabbed her five bags of presents and three rolls of wrapping paper. She headed to the door to see Inu-Yasha waiting for them.
"Have fun?" he asked, opening the door for Kagome.
"It was fun, but very crowded," said Kagome setting her bags by the couch.
"Did you enjoy your nap?" asked Mrs. Higurashi as she passed Inu-Yasha.
"Um yeah I did," answered Inu-Yasha, "What's with the tree?"
"You'll see later today, would you mind bringing it in?" asked Kagome.
Inu-Yasha nodded and easily picked the tree up, "You actually want this inside?"
"Yes," answered Mrs. Higurashi.
"You mean you've never had a Christmas tree before?" asked Sota.
"No of course he hasn't," said Grandpa, heading back into the house.
Inu-Yasha shrugged his shoulders and headed into the house with the tree above his head. Kagome held the door open as Inu-Yasha carried the tree inside where Mrs. Higurashi was waiting for the half demon in the living room.
"Just set the tree in this tree stand," said Mrs. Higurashi.
Setting the tree down Inu-Yasha backed away from it, "Why do you need a tree in the house?"
"You always have a tree up during Christmas,"
"But it looks like any ordinary tree,"
"Well we decorate it of course, which we'll do tomorrow since it's so late and it's time to go to bed,"
"Aw, can't we do it tonight mom?" asked Sota.
"Tomorrow afternoon honey since in the morning everyone's going to sleep in," said Mrs. Higurashi heading into the kitchen to turn the lights out, "Now everyone off to bed,"
Inu-Yasha headed to the stairs but paused as he watched Kagome gracefully move up the stairs Shaking her head, he followed Kagome upstairs to their room where she was digging in her drawer for her PJ's. Inu-Yasha grabbed his and went to the bathroom to change to give Kagome some privacy. Inu- Yasha pulled his red PJ's on and knocked on the door to make sure Kagome was descent.
"Come in,"
Inu-Yasha entered to the darken room to see Kagome already in bed. He didn't say anything as the he walked across the room to his bed beside Kagome's.
"Inu-Yasha?" asked Kagome.
"Yes?"
"Did I tell you yet what a snowball fight is?"
"No not yet,"
"Well basically what we do is make balls out of snow and throw it at people,"
"And that's supposed to be fun?
"You'll see tomorrow. Can I turn out the light?"
"Sure,"
Kagome leaned up and turned out the small light, covering the room in darkness. Inu-Yasha just stared at the roof, listening to Kagome's breathing. After doing his thinking from later in the afternoon, he felt like he couldn't sleep, as if Kagome wouldn't be there in the morning, but something else was on his mind as well.
"Kagome?"
"Hmm?"
"What do you . . . I mean . . ."
"Inu-Yasha?"
"Never mind,"
"No what is it?"
He could here her shifting in her bed to face him in the darken room.
"What do you plan to do once the jewel is complete?"
Kagome was silent for a while, "I'm not really sure . . . I mean . . . I don't know if I'll go back to my old life and just visit you guys on the weekends and holidays, or something else,"
"Oh,"
"What about you?"
"Huh?"
"What are you going to do when the jewel is complete?"
"I'm . . . I . . . don't know," mumbled Inu-Yasha.
"You mean you aren't going to become a full fledged demon?"
" . . ."
"I know I've said this before Inu-Yasha, but I like you as a half demon, I don't think you need to change at all,"
". . . ."
"But . . ."
"But what?"
"If you do change into a full fledged demon . . . I'll still stay by your side,"
Inu-Yasha didn't say anything as he rolled on his side.
"Unless you don't want me around after that?"
The half demon sat up and stared at the girl in the dark, "Of course I want you around! What kind of question is that?"
"Well . . . I mean . . . never mind," said Kagome, facing her back to Inu- Yasha.
"What did you mean Kagome?"
Kagome didn't say anything as she tried to fall asleep. Growing irritated Inu-Yasha got out of his bed and in two steps reached Kagome's. Turning her over he made the girl look at him, "Kagome you're my best friend, why would I not like having you around?"
"Well when the jewel is complete you'll be with Kik . . ."
"Please don't say her name?"
"But . . ." Kagome was cut off as she felt Inu-Yasha's arms wrap around her, "Inu-Yasha?"
"I don't want to think of Kikyo right now . . . so can we please not talk about her for the rest of this vacation?"
Kagome didn't know whether to hug back or not, "Okay, I won't mention her again," She expected him to let go of her, but the half demon didn't, instead he held her tighter and pulled her up into his lap.
"Can I just hold you?"
" . . . sure . . ." Kagome finally gave up and hugged the half demon back.
"Kagome, if you think you're just . . . a replacement . . . you're wrong, I like you for who you are . . . not because you look like . . . well . . . you know who,"
"I know,"
"No, I don't think you do . . . Kagome don't you understand that I need you . . . and before you say anything it's not because of the shards . . . Kagome your the only person I really trust in this world,"
"Not even Kik . . ."
"I thought we weren't going to say her name? But to answer your question no, I don't trust her, I only really trust you the most, and you taught me to trust others like Miroku, Sango and Shippo,"
Kagome was silent as she rested her head on Inu-Yasha's shoulder.
"Kagome?"
"Yes?"
"Will you promise me something?"
"Sure,"
"Promise me you'll never leave my side?"
"I promise Inu-Yasha, I'll never leave your side,"
Inu-Yasha smiled and held Kagome even tighter as he laid himself and Kagome down back on her bed.
"Can I just hold you tonight?"
Kagome couldn't speak so she just nodded her head. She could feel Inu- Yasha rest his head above hers and could hear his breathing evening out until finally he was in a deep slumber. But Kagome couldn't sleep since she confused . . . confused on how Inu-Yasha was acting. *Why is he acting like this? I mean once the jewel is complete, Inu-Yasha will have Kikyo . . . or is it because . . . he loves me? No that can't be it! He loves Kikyo, I'm just his friend . . . but . . .* Kagome smiled and hugged Inu-Yasha back even tighter, *Might as well enjoy it . . . and tonight . . . I'll pretend he's holding me, because he loves me* thought Kagome as she snuggled closer to the half demon. She smiled as she felt Inu-Yasha wrap his arms even tighter around her. Kagome then had a sudden urge to touch Inu-Yasha's ears again as she reached her hand up and touched the fuzzy, triangular ears. Inu-Yasha gave off a husky hum and buried his face into Kagome's black hair. Kagome suddenly frowned, *Why am I doing this? All I'm doing is breaking my heart even more. I know Inu-Yasha could never be with me or even love me, but . . . I can't help it . . . I love him too much. I want to see him happy, even . . . even if it means him turning into a full fledged demon and him being with Kikyo*
Kagome could feel the wetness of her tears as they silently slipped down her face.
"Kag . . . ome . . . mmmm . . . don't . . . cry . . . please . . ." mumbled Inu-Yasha in his sleep.
Kagome looked up at the half demon who had a frown on his face, but his arms held Kagome even tighter to his chest. His one hand was on the small of her back, while the other was tangled in her hair. Shaking her head, Kagome pushed all her sad thoughts into the back in her mind and enjoyed the comfort and security she felt of being in Inu-Yasha's arms . . . the man she loved.
TBC . . .
Ok this was probably a really boring chapter, but hey the next one should be better with the snow ball fight! Please keep reviewing! Oh by the way, a thousand apologies for all the typing errors, blame my computer! ARGH! I need a new computer! Lynns