(A thousand apologies if the last chapter wasn't good, but when you feel like shit and typing, well I did the best I could at the time, but enough of my problems. This chapter is mainly going to be fluff and some Hojo scheming, so sit back enjoy and onward!)

Winter Wonderland

Chapter Eight

Soft snowflakes slowly danced down from the night sky, landing on the already white ground. The moon could be barely seen through the dark clouds, but the stars still seemed to glitter. The cabin was dark and lightly cool with the heat turned down, and everyone peacefully sleeping in their beds . . . well almost everybody that is.

Inu-Yasha lay on his back wide awake and was in deep thought. If anyone had looked into his eyes, they would have seen confusion, hurt, rejection, love, acceptance, and many emotions he was thinking at the moment. He stared up at the roof as thought after thought ran through his mind. A small sound caused him to look down at the woman that was held tightly in his arms. They were in same position as last night, with Kagome's head tucked under his chin, while her hands were on his chest. Inu-Yasha leaned down and planted a soft kiss on the girls forehead. She mumbled something in her sleep and snuggled more closer to his chest. Sighing, Inu-Yasha leaned his head back and did some more thinking.

*Did Kagome really mean it? When she said she would be my mate? Was I rushing her? Maybe I should have waited a little bit longer?* thought Inu- Yasha. Questions like these were the ones that were keeping him awake. He was so afraid that Kagome didn't mean all the things she did, but what scared him the most . . . was the demon inside him. Ever since he had first realized he was in love with Kagome, his demon side had acted very strangely towards her. It was almost like there were to of him at times. At first he had managed to control his most deepest desires, but now that he knew that Kagome loved him in return, it had gotten much worse. Even now he was struggling as he just held the woman he loved in his arms. It was a constant fight inside his mind, the human side of him being caring and understanding, while the demon side of him wanted to be rough, and take Kagome right there and now as his mate. His demon instincts had been screaming at him to take her, but he had managed to stay in control and not let that happen, the last thing he wanted was to hurt Kagome.

*She isn't safe with me. Sure I can protect from other demons, but how do I protect her against myself? I'm having a hard enough time just holding her in my arms as we sleep*

Inu-Yasha sighed. He was so afraid that one day he wouldn't be able to hold his demon side back, and take Kagome by force, but that was the last thing he wanted, even though that's what his demon side wanted. He could picture it in his mind every time, two beings in his head, constantly fighting one another. The beings were his human and demon side, always fighting with no side showing any sign of losing, but he could tell his human side was getting close to losing, his demon side was just too strong for him. Sighing heavily, the half demon pulled Kagome closer to him.

*How can she love me? I've always been a jerk and an ass to her, plus she doesn't know fully of my past at all*

"Inu-Yasha?"

The half demon looked down to see Kagome wide awake, staring into his eyes.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothings wrong, go back to sleep Kagome," whispered Inu-Yasha, his hand stroking her hair.

"Inu-Yasha I can tell that something is wrong, your eyes look so . . ." she couldn't find the right word to explain how he looked, almost lonely . . . and vulnerable.

Sighing, Inu-Yasha turned so that he and Kagome were on their sides so he could talk to her better.

"Kagome . . . are you sure?"

"Sure about what?" asked Kagome.

"About me. You wanting to be with me,"

"Of course I am Inu-Yasha, why wouldn't I?"

*I can't do this. I can't tell her how I feel, I've already swallowed my pride too many times on this vacation*

"Because I'm a filthy half breed, that's why,"

"Inu-Yasha, I already told you I don't care if you're half demon, because I accept you as you are,"

"But how can you? I've been such an ass to you. How is that you fell in love with me? Wouldn't you be better off with someone else?" asked Inu- Yasha.

Kagome could feel tears welling up in her eyes. So far in the vacation he had been nice and understanding towards her, but now he was being the arrogant half demon like he was around Miroku and the others.

"Why are you doing this?" whimpered Kagome.

"Doing what? I asked you how can you stand being around me?"

"Stop it!" cried Kagome as she grabbed onto his shoulders, burying her face into his chest, "Why are you acting like this?"

"Acting like what? I'm a filthy, dirty, bastard of a half breed, how can you stand being around me Kagome? If we are together you'll be shunned from the world and . . ."

"I don't care," whimpered Kagome, "Inu-Yasha I don't care what everyone thinks . . . as long as I'm with you, it doesn't matter,"

"Kagome . . ."

"Why are you doubting? Just a few hours ago we were sitting on the couch holding each other, telling how much we loved one another and now you're doubting my words," whimpered Kagome.

Inu-Yasha felt horrible. Every time he tried to act tough he always ended up hurting her like this. Wrapping his arms around her, holding Kagome as close to him as he could, "Gods, Kagome, I'm sorry," whispered Inu-Yasha.

"What's wrong Inu-Yasha?" asked Kagome, "I'm here for you, you can tell me anything,"

Inu-Yasha drew in a shaky breath, she was right. They were together, and now he had to be open with her instead of bottling his emotions up, "Kagome . . . I'm just so afraid . . ."

"Afraid of what?"

"I'm afraid I won't . . . I won't be able to protect you . . . from myself,"

"Inu-Yasha . . . what are you talking about?" asked Kagome, her hand lightly brushing his cheek.

"Kagome, it's . . . my demon side. Ever since I found out . . . that you loved me in return . . . my instincts have been going wild . . . every time I see you, touch you, here your voice . . . it's like I'm having a constant battle with myself . . ."

"What does your demon side want?" asked Kagome, although she had a pretty good idea what his answer was going to be.

"You. It wants you Kagome . . . it wants to take you and . . . and . . . mate with you," whispered Inu-Yasha, "And it gets harder everyday . . . I'm scared that . . . well you know what my demon side is like,"

"Is this what you were worried about?" asked Kagome.

"Yes, it is,"

"Inu-Yasha, all men are like that,"

"Kagome this is serious! I could hurt you and not even know it!"

"No you won't,"

"What?"

"You say your demon side wants to mate with me?"

"Yes, it does,"

"Then why hasn't it taken over you yet?"

Inu-Yasha was about to respond, but didn't. He had been around Kagome plenty of times without the Tetsusaiga, and yet he never transformed, "What are you saying?"

"Inu-Yasha, if you're demon side really wanted to mate with me, it would have taken over by now, wouldn't it?"

"I suppose, but why am I always fighting with it then?"

"Don't fight with it Inu-Yasha, try and reason with it, after all it is part of you,"

"Do you want me to try right now? To reason with it?"

"Yes,"

"Get up Kagome,"

"What?"

"If my demon side takes over, sit me, and keep doing it till I'm back to normal okay?"

Kagome got off her bed and sat on Inu-Yasha's. She watched as he laid completely still and closed his eyes.

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Dark. It was so dark inside his mind that you couldn't see a thing. Inu- Yasha tried to concentrate . . . tried to find the demon inside of him that was always screaming for Kagome.

(* okay this mean the human side of Inu-Yasha talking, ~ this means the demon side of Inu-Yasha is talking. Understand?)

*Where are you?*

~I'm right here~

Inu-Yasha spun around and came face to face with his demon side. The demon was wearing the exact same clothes except had longer nails, fangs, and blood red eyes. He on the other hand was now in his human form.

(Okay I'm going to tell you from the start, the conversation between Inu and his demon side may sound a little corny)

*What do you want?*

~I want her . . . she is mine . . . all mine . . . I need to touch her . . .~

*Stop it!*

~Don't you want her too? Feeling her soft flesh . . .making her yours for eternity~

*No, not like that, I won't take Kagome by force*

~Who said anything about taking her by force~

The human Inu-Yasha stared at his demon side. It was suppose to be wild, out of control, unable to compromise with, and yet he was a having a sort of civil conversation with it right now.

*Then why are you always trying to take control of me and take her?*

~I might want to mate with her right now, but I would never take her by force . . . she is your mate . . . our mate~

It was just then that Inu-Yasha realized something . . . his demon side was still wild and out of control, and yet it recognized Kagome. Every time he had transformed, he never hurt her. When Kaguya was forcing his demon side out he had taken a swipe at Miroku, but when Kagome tried to wake him up, his demon side never hurt her . . . well that wasn't completely true, he had grabbed onto her arms which had left marks behind.

*Why do you want to mate with her right now?*

~Don't you worry that she will be taken from you? By that boy or that wolf?~

Inu-Yasha had to admit his demon side had a point. He was scared that Kagome would be taken from him.

*But we can't yet! It's too soon and dangerous with the jewel and Naraku*

~If you will not mate with her, then . . .~

*Don't even think about taking over me!*

~Then mark her~`

*What?*

~Mark her as our mate, then no one else will touch her~

*Mark her . . .*

~Yes mark her, then I will be satisfied . . . for now . . .~

Inu-Yasha watched as his demon side disappeared into the dark, and then he couldn't feel it anymore. He couldn't feel the demon inside of him crying out for Kagome's touch. Opening his eyes, Inu-Yasha stared at Kagome who was sitting across from him on the bed.

"Kagome . . ."

"It's alright Inu-Yasha . . . I know,"

"What?"

"You were talking the whole time to yourself, I know what happened,"

Inu-Yasha motioned Kagome to come sit by him, "Kagome, I have to ask you something,"

"Yes?"

"I am Inu-Yasha, half demon, and I ask that you Kagome, miko, be my mate until our dying breaths, and I will be by your side through sickness and in health . . . do you except or decline?"

Kagome looked at Inu-Yasha quite confusingly, "Um . . . yes?"

"You're not sure?" asked Inu-Yasha.

"Well is that all I have to say?"

"Yes,"

"Oh, well yes then, of course," smiled Kagome as she kissed his cheek, "But I thought you already asked me to be your mate?"

"I know, but I had to do it the proper way," said Inu-Yasha, his hand drifting to her left hip, "I have to mark you now,"

"Okay,"

"This might hurt a bit," whispered Inu-Yasha. He leaned his head down and kissed the spot in between Kagome's neck and shoulder. Then ever so gently he sank his teeth into her flesh, tasting her blood in his mouth. Kagome jolted slightly at the sudden pinch, but relaxed since it didn't really hurt at all. After a moment, when he felt it would leave a mark, Inu-Yasha released his fangs and gently lapped at the spot were his fangs were to stop the bleeding.

"That wasn't too bad," said Kagome.

"We're not quite done yet," whispered Inu-Yasha, "I half to mark you on your hip, but I'll do that later,"

"Why not now?" asked Kagome.

"Well, I'm supposed to do that . . when we . . . er . . you know . . . mating . . . that way it doesn't hurt,"

Kagome blushed ten shades red, but smiled and nodded her head, "Well, what else are we supposed to do then?

"You have to mark me,"

"How do I do that?"

"Usually with demons they use their teeth, or nails,"

Kagome stared at her fingers, they weren't that sharp, but she had a feeling they would cut something with the right amount of pressure, "Where do I mark you?"

"On my neck,"

"Won't it just disappear?"

"No, it won't,"

Kagome leaned forward and placed her hand on Inu-Yasha's neck. Taking her index finger she slowly ran it across his rough skin as hard as she needed to to draw blood. When there was a small pool of blood, Kagome leaned her head up and licked the wound clean like he had done for her.

"Now we are mates, we have marked each other, and tasted the others blood. We are now bonded for life, or death due us part,"

Kagome smiled and wrapped her arms around Inu-Yasha. The half demon pulled her back on top of him, and covered them with the nice warm blankets.

"I love you Kagome,"

"And I love you Inu-Yasha,"

They were both silent for a moment, showing no sign of sleep.

"Kagome?"

"Yes?"

"What are we going to do once Naraku is destroyed?"

"Well, I should be out of High School then, we can get married,"

"Married? What's that?"

"It's a little ceremony in my time that let's everyone know we're husband and wife,"

"If you want to do that, we'll have to do it at night when I'm human so no one is suspicious,"

"Of course. Then after that, well I'm not sure,"

"What do you mean you're not sure?"

"Do you like children?"

"Children?" Inu-Yasha suddenly caught onto what Kagome meant, "Of course we're going to half pups silly, but we'll have to wait till Naraku is destroyed of course,"

"I know, and then we'll live happily ever after by each others side,"

"You know, I am a half demon,"

"So?"

"Which means I'll live longer than you,"

"Oh that,"

"But there is a way we can be together,"

"I already told you Inu-Yasha, I don't want you to become human for me,"

"Yes I know that Kagome, but what would you think of having a immortal life?"

"What do you mean? I can become immortal?"

"Yes, but it can only happen on the night of the full moon, and when we . . um . . . you know,"

Kagome laughed, "Yes, I understand what you're trying to say.

"Myoga said that if we mate on that night, and share each others blood, yours will change only slightly so that you become immortal, well not quite immortal, almost the life span of a half demon anyway,"

"I would like that Inu-Yasha,"

Inu-Yasha kissed Kagome and pulled her closer to him. He was completely surprised that he couldn't feel his demon side screaming at him for him to take her. Smiling Inu-Yasha kissed Kagome more passionately and demanding. Kagome kissed back just as equal as her arms wrapped around his shoulders.

"And I have to tell you one more thing,"

"What's that?"

"Kagome, if you think you know me, you're wrong. Sure you may know me now, but you have no idea . . what I was like back then. I was full of hatred, and rage, and I was he one responsible for blinding Kaede's right eye. I was a cold blooded monster then,"

"But you didn't kill anyone,"

"What?"

"You never killed anyone, which makes you not a cold blooded monster. Humans and demons were cruel to you back then, and I understand how you must of felt,"

Inu-Yasha was slightly surprised, and realized that Kagome did know him, inside and out. Smiling, Inu-Yasha wrapped his arms around Kagome's waist and held her on top of him.

"I could get used to this," whispered Inu-Yasha.

"Me too,"

"Let's get some sleep,"

"Okay,"

Inu-Yasha closed his eyes, his mind clear without a single doubt.

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Hojo sat on his bed, still pondering about what he had seen today at the skating rink, but what was he going to do about it? Kagome deserved him, not that over protective, violent, extremely jealous boyfriend she was with now, but how was he going to break them apart?

TBC . . .

It's almost one thirty in the morning, i feel like shit, and yet here i am typing away at my story. Am i a devoted writer or am I a devoted writer, let's see some of you guys top that. I know this chapter isn't good, but oh well, just review.

Lynns