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He walks in through the gates, not seeing anything except the bleak, uncovered coffin.
His breath hitches as he kneels down in front of the casket, a red rose grasped in his tightened hand.
A new life made up of empty eyes
Taken over by all the lies
Who said you were better than before?
"I'm so sorry," he whispers.
Autumn leaves drift around him, landing on the ground in seas of gold and red.
Tears run down his face, falling steadily to the grass.
When you try to laugh it won't escape your lips
You want to scream but your voice slips
And you just lay there crying out for more
"I- I wanted to tell you something," he says quietly.
The wind breathes softly through his hair, calming him slightly.
"I loved you, you know."
He laughs to himself.
"But I think you knew that already, didn't you?"
The sun fades behind a grey cloud.
"You knew everything..."
You saw your friends, they drifted away
And you didn't even try to make them stay
Inside, are you dying?
"I remember once, when we were out by the whomping willow, you- You explained to me how every person in the world had a true name, and a purpose."
A quiet sob.
"You were right, weren't you? About our purpose in life? To have each other, but to lose in the end...?"
More tears.
The bittersweet pain was all you could feel
And you wanted more because at least it's real
But it still left you crying
"I want to hold you. To kiss you..."
A hand runs through his hair.
"But I can't, and that is killing me every day I remember the times when I wouldn't."
You finally gave up, you no longer smiled
You'd given in to the denial
You'd realized what had been done
"You just knew you'd die, didn't you? Did you even try to stay? No, probably not...You hated the thought of everyone knowing, didn't you?"
You'd lay there broken on your bed
You'd wish that you were already dead
What's life without any fun?
"I would've given everything for you to stay. Now, I realize that. Just for one more look from you, I'd give my soul to anyone who offered."
His hand brushes the tears from his eyes, only to have more fall seconds after.
"I can't believe you're gone, sometimes. I half expect you to walk through the door at home, and pin me down like you used to. I just...I want to take a time turner, and just go back in time to the first time we met."
A sun patch falls over him, lightening everything around.
"I killed him for taking you away from me. I know that seems so wrong, but I just...To see him still there, so smug, I could only think of how you used to be. So proud..."
Is this what it takes to be tamed?
Your destroyer, will they be famed?
Will a medal be on their breast?
"You never said it, but I guess that you never could never be broken without dying first. Over your dead body, right?"
A choked laugh.
"Yeah, everyone saw you as perfect. They took everything, more and more until all you had was your pride. But you still went on, pretending not to see that, didn't you?"
You hid the truth, you hid the lies
You pretended not to hear the cries
Your heart had pounded in your chest
"So perfect...And you chose me, of all people, to be perfect with you. I always asked myself how could I be with you? Compared to you, I was nothing."
Quiet tears continue running down his face.
"Everyone wanted you, wanted to be you. You were perfect!"
Once upon a time you were proud
You were perfect, you laughed so loud
To everyone, you were known
"I'm so glad you're able to rest now, though. Out of anyone, you deserve this peace the most."
His hand clenches the rose tighter.
"I loved watching you. Never giving up, always striving to be better. Fight to be the best... But you can stop fighting everything, now..."
You were wild, your eyes were bright
But you've lost the war, you lost the fight
Now all you are is alone
"I guess I'll never know what you really were going to do. All your secret plans, I never could keep up. No one could. I guess that's why he wanted you in the first place..."
He growls softly.
"I couldn't believe it when I found out. You, captured? But there's only so long you can fight, isn't there?"
You wanted love, they offered hate
You said no, but it was fate
They took you to be their's anyways
"I suppose it was partly my fault, wasn't it? I tried to keep you from fighting, tried to fight your battles for you. And you just let me, knowing that it wouldn't save you."
His eyes close, and open.
"And now you're dead."
You devoured all the disdain
You've emptied where you once have lain
You can't even dream of better days
"You look so peaceful. Such a controversy to how you died. You look as if it never happened."
His hand goes to touch the other's face, before pulling back.
"You were never anyone's, were you? Not even mine...But I loved you anyways."
Now no one will meet your stare
You act as if you don't care
About all the people in your stead
"I imagine it must be wonderful, where you are. In a way, I'm so happy that you are gone. But I'm sad as well. So selfious, you'd say to me."
He laughs sadly.
"Do you even remember, now?"
You've forgotten what it's like to love
You've forgotten what you once dreamed of
And now all your memories are dead
"Everyone knows what you did. I couldn't exist without them knowing it wasn't just me. That you weren't a horrible person, bent on saving just yourself."
Your new life tried you too hard
Your story's sung by every bard
Humbled by all but your reflection
"No one knows about us, do they? If there was one thing you were good at, it was keeping secrets..."
He stands, kissing the rose softly before placing it delicately on the casket.
"You had to be perfect for everyone, didn't you? Their Prince, he couldn't have any flaws. Bit by bit, you broke, but you never let them see."
His voice cracks slightly.
"Me, the Boy Who Lived, and you, the Man Who Died to Save Us All. Rest in Peace, Draco Malfoy."
He turns, and walks away, never looking back.
Because when it comes down to it, you can never look back.
Humiliated, you lay so still
The coffin bed holds your chill
You always had to be perfection...
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Poem, written by me. Please review.