Chapter 5:

Lost

(…) Youko

/…/ Kurama

…. Shuichi

Last Time:

"Inuyasha?" Kagome called out quietly. "What is she doing here?" Kagome asked. "I-I'm sorry, Kagome," Inuyasha whispered. "Sorry? What are you sorry for?" Kagome said with a nervous laughed, trying to laugh off the tension that was suddenly forming her and her best friend. "I've chosen Kikyo," he whispered again, in a raspy voice. The look of sorrow, shining in his eyes, as Kagome digested what he just said. The look of betrayal, regret, anger, sadness and one that showed the most, horror shone in her eyes. 'No!' she thought, as she backed up. 'T-This can't be happening!' her mind screamed.

This Time:

"You've got to be kidding me!" Kagome choked out, Inuyasha watched in sorrow. "After years of traveling together…you choose her over me! Can't you see that she's dead! I can't believe you're actually doing this to me," Kagome sobbed. "I HATE YOU INUYASHA! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!" she screamed. "K-Kagome…you don't really mean that! You promised that you were going to stay by my side forever!" Inuyasha yelled! "I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU! YOU CHOSE HER AND YOU EXPECT ME TO STAY! YOU ARE ONE HELL OF AN INSENSITIVE JACKASS, INUYASHA! I HATE YOU! AND I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN!" Kagome screamed, as she ran to the heart of 'Inuyasha's Forest', to the ancient well, to her time.

With the YYH Gang:

"We have to fine her, damnit! Koenma! Transport us there now!" Yusuke roared. "Of course!" Koenma squeaked. The spirit detectives found themselves in a forest behind a shrine. They sensed Kagome's aura and rushed there immediately, but stopped short before they reached her. They heard her voice, she was singing. Her voice was so full of pain and when they listened carefully to her lyrics, their heart wrenched at her words.

(The Middle of Nowhere; by: Trish Thuy Trang)

When, there's nowhere left to turn.
I, get lost inside my mind.
Where my thoughts start running wild, running wild.
Now, I'm living in the dark.
Where's the light I'm so afraid.
Here in solitude I've lost my way.

In the middle of nowhere there's nowhere left for me to hide
Is there anybody out there,
to help me through this lonely time.
I'm all alone. Just empty roads.
In the middle of nowhere I'm on my own.

Hope is nowhere to be found. I can't find my way back home.
Slowly drifting far away, away.
Desperately, feeling weak,
can't you see I'm calling you to come and rescue me. In the middle of nowhere there's nowhere left for me to hide Is there anybody out there, to help me through this lonely time I'm all alone. Just empty roads In the middle of nowhere……I'm on my own.

Kurama just wanted to rush out there and hold her, to make her pain fade away, but she began to sing another song, and this one made him want to kill the stupid half-demon even more.

(Every Little Thing; by: Trish Thuy Trang)

I realize, it's no big surprise. I spend my time pretending.
All that I do means nothing to you. I tried it all to escape.
Alone in my life I drift awhile.
I'm lost out at sea cold and weak.

Everywhere I go is an empty place.
Everything I do washes away.
Every little thing in my head, still remains, never-ending.

So many days, I wasted away. I tried to hide the memories.
All that you said play over again,
keeping me here in this place.
Your words cut so deep. It rips into me.
I'm pleading inside in my mind.

Everywhere I go is an empty place.
Everything I do washes away.
Every little thing in my head, still remains, never-ending.
Every little thing you say.

"Why? I gave up my life to fulfill my duty, I gave up everything for him and this is how he repays me! It's like no one can understand me, it's just like 3 years ago when I was 15, before she fell down the well…

(Flashback)

Kagome was wearing black baggy pants, black etnies, and a tight black top. Her hair was whipping around her face from the wind and she was glaring down at a boy that seemed to be around her age. "P-Please Kagome! I didn't mean to! I'm sorry!" the boy said. "Sorry! Sorry, doesn't cut it Shane! You kept on acting as if you cared! As if you actually liked me! I thought you understood me! But you didn't really care, you were just poking my buttons for your enjoyment, yet you led me on still! You insensitive jerk!' Kagome yelled, as tears brimmed in her sapphire eyes. "Just because I'm tough, doesn't mean I can't feel! I have emotions too! I'm human!" She yelled, as she tried to keep from crying, she didn't want to show him that she was weak, that…. she was hurting, so she turned. "I hate you…." She whispered. "Kagome…I'm so sorry, so sorry," he whispered, as he watched his beloved friend walk away from him.

(End of Flashback)

She stood, wiping away her tears. 'I need to grow up. I need…to move on. If it's not meant to be, then it's not meant to be,' she thought. "But, when will I fine someone who can accept me as me? As Kagome?" she whispered. Kurama and the others watched her walk slowly back to the shrine.

(Her eyes…were not like they use to be, when she looked at us)

/She has gone through a lot Youko/

Youko? Kurama? Promise me, something. Promise me that when she is ours, that she will always be happy…that she will always smile.

( / I promise…/ )