Change of Heart

By: Crazy-cherry

Hey everyone here's the next chapter, I know your going to like it, because a lot of you have been asking about Sakura and Syaoran… that's all I'll give you.

Also, I would like to say that I'm really sorry for anything I miss spell or even write the wrong word for like to and too… heheh I had someone tell me about that, I'm really sorry, I know the diffs between them its just that when I start typing I really start typing and I don't even look at what I'm writing. So I'm truly sorry about that I'll try to catch myself better…

Welps here's the next chapter!

-Chapter 4-

Waking up was harder to do now; the first week they lived there she was so busy putting things away, and settling in that she didn't have time to let herself think. The second week she was visiting banks trying to set up loan accounts for her to help pay off some of her bills, the hospital loans were the hardest for her to get , but in the end she received the loan. The third week of their stay in Hong Kong Sakura began to slow down and let things happen, she started her long term subbing at one of Hong Kong's most prestigious schools for children St. Mathews.

Misha started her schooling up as well and began to learn how to speak the language, when she and Misha went to visit Kyo at the end of their day he was mostly sleeping. Sakura didn't know what do anymore, she pushed down the pain she felt in her heart once again and was living as if Syaoran and she never happened.

However she couldn't fight the tears she shed at night when the world seemed to be sleeping. Misha began to stay quiet most of the time which scared Sakura more than she thought it would.

Now packing up her bags to leave for home Sakura looked to the little girl sitting at her desk swinging her feet and drawing a picture of a flower. Smiling at the little girl with black hair and burgundy eyes, she was glade that her mother was late because Misha seemed to take a liking to the little girl that was only two years older than her.

"Nonie, oh sweetie I'm so sorry I'm late I got held up at work." Smiling at her little girl she noticed the other one sitting next to her.

"Mommy," Smiling Nonie stood up and ran to her mother and grabbed her hand spinning her around to face the front of the class with a dark green chalk board going across the entire wall, and that's when she saw a woman sitting down in a chair looking at her through a pair of small reading glasses smiling.

"You must be Nonie's teacher, I'm Meiling Kalvert her mother, it's nice to meet you." Meiling bowed as was custom and so did Sakura as she introduced herself.

"Hi, I'm Sakura Kinomoto, it's nice to finally meet you."

Meiling tried hard not to ask if she new her from somewhere, she couldn't shake the feeling that they've met or at least saw each other once or twice. Sakura looked at Misha that was now walking up to the front of the class with her picture at hand as well as her school bag.

"Mommy, lookie I drew you, me Kyo, and Gampa!" Smiling as she bounced up to her mother with her dark brown curls bouncing around her, and her shoes making a clicking on the floor, she came to a stop when she reached her mother and handed her the picture.

Sakura smiled at her before looking at it, she nearly killed over seeing a man in the picture that had characteristics of Syaoran.

"Sweetie who's this?" Pointing at the man Misha smiled, and answered.

"Its Kyo-Kyo."

"Who's that?"

"He's a daddy, at school today I was asked what my daddy's name was and I told them I don't know what a daddy is and the lady laughed and said it was the man that helped take care of me with you."

"So I said it was Kyo-Kyo because you always say Kyo looks just like Him, and so him and daddy are kinda the same thing, right?" Misha smiled at the end of her explanation, and waited for her mother to answer her question.

Sakura looked up at Meiling and mouthed a sorry before she tapped Misha on the head and said, "In some cases like this one yes."

"But why'd you draw him like that, why didn't you give him green eyes like Kyo?"

"Because Kyo said him was the man in that picture thing you don't like us to look at." Misha smiled innocently at her mother.

Meiling stood there looking at the woman with a frown, wondering what that was all about. She was under the impression that all children knew what a mother and father were.

"Nonie why don't you and… Misha go out and color in the hall I need to speak to Miss. Kinomoto." Nonie nodded and Misha waited for her mother to nod and when she did she ran after Nonie.

"How's Nonie doing in her class work?" Sitting down at a desk Meiling looked at the woman in wonder.

"She's doing amazingly well, she is in competition for the head of the class with another young girl and boy. She also seems to be doing very well on her test, showing good study skills." Sakura smiled at Meiling waiting for her to bring the topic of Misha and her up, but decided against it and brought it up herself.

"Misha's only four years old and perfectly happy or at least she was until just recently, but that's beside the point now isn't it." Sakura looked to the door and could hear her daughters laugh coming in through the crakes and was thankful to have heard it.

Meiling looked at the woman sitting on the desk and felt sorrow fill her, looking at the woman reminded her of Syaoran when the woman he was to marry lost their child and left him.

"I raise her and Kyo alone, I don't know or care where their father is, but he was a good man to me, and I do mention him sometimes. I never say his name I fear that one of them will get hurt by him like I did. I've never called him their daddy. That's probably why she asked me that." By now Sakura had grown teary eyed, but with one deep breath the tears disappeared like so many other times.

Meiling looked at her and wondered just what her life would be like if she ever were to raise Nonie alone, and she couldn't. "If you ever need someone to talk to you can always call me, I haven't got many female friends I kinda scare them away." Meiling tried to bring humor into the conversation, but the sad thing was that the last part was mostly true.

Sakura smiled at her and nodded her head, picking up her things she put them in her school bag and walked out of the room with Meiling and locked the door.

"Mommy, can Misha and her Mom go to dinner with us?" Nonie looked at her mother pleadingly, Meiling grind and said only if it was okay with Sakura. Sakura tried not to laugh as to sets of eyes turned her way and then a third pair, sighing she said yes.

Walking behind the girls Meiling and Sakura had a small conversation about themselves. Reaching the front of the school Meiling walked to her car, and turned to tell Sakura where to meet them, only to find that she didn't have a car. Mentally slapping herself for forgetting that they might not have many things her family has.

"Your not going to stand there all night, come on!" Turning around when she saw Sakura and Misha walk over to the car. Misha got in the back with Nonie and Sakura in the front.

Eleanor-

Standing in her sister's home that was a little out side of Hong Kong she looked out side one of the guest room windows. Jason was currently nibbling on her neck and his hands else where.

"We have to find a place to go and soon, my sister won't be out of the country much longer." Eleanor moaned.

"I… Have a place… out in the … the country a… little further, but Nancy never goes there… allergies."

"Sounds nice."

Neither of them heard the car pull up or the front door opening, but they both heard Jason's name being called out.

Sighing both went to put their cloths on, Jason walked out of the room first to find the woman he was now married to, all because he drank to much one night.

Entering the family room his wife was sitting down on the couch and his oldest son Koryu who was 6 and his most recent child a young girl named Yoko who was six months old. He sighed, if it wasn't for his children he would have left his wife a long time ago for her sister, Eleanor who he had been dating privately for almost a year when he made the mistake of sleeping with her sister one drunken night.

"How was your trip I wasn't expecting you for another two days?"

"Mom got a weird feeling and said she wanted to go home, so here we are."

"Oh, really." He grinned at his wife, wishing that she would have at least called to say she was coming home so he could make sure not to be here.

"Where's my sister?" Nancy's icy voice told him that something was wrong and when Eleanor walked in with a smile to great her and all Nancy did was walk up to her and slap her, he knew something was definitely wrong.

"Koryu why don't you go up to your room please, and ask Bridget to watch Yoko for me." Koryu walked out of the room holding Yoko as best he could and when he passed his Aunt he stuck his tongue out at her, and all she did was raise her chin to him.

"Now Nancy what was that for, you didn't need to hit your sister just or simply stopping by." Jason tried to sooth his seething wife.

"Really, did she just stop to get fucked or was she just being polite when she let you take her!" Nancy screamed making the whole house hold wince.

"Now what are you talking about?" Eleanor said trying to keep her anger under control, she wanted nothing more than to beat her sister silly for touching her face.

"Mothers on her way here right now I called her before I got home."

Eleanor smiled at this she knew her mother would never allow anyone or thing to come in between getting into the Li family, even a little infidelity.

Sitting down Nancy waited for her mother to come, knowing that it wasn't best to talk to her sister right now because she just might kill her for doing this to her family.

Syaoran-

He had waited an hour for Eleanor and was tired of waiting, he stood up and paid for the drink he ordered and left. Frowning he called her for the eighth time in hopes that she would answer the phone so he wouldn't have to wait up for the woman he was really starting to wonder about.

Looking at his Lexis i300 in front of him sighing he shook his head and pushed his keys back into his pocket and walked down the street to the park.

Sakura-

She was tired after that dinner and at the moment wanted to get away from everything when she and Misha entered the hospital. Yoji had been there for over and hour now waiting for them. Misha was supposed to stay the night with her grandfather at one of his smaller estates out side of Hong Kong for the weekend to help her relax.

Dr. Kudo had also noticed that she wasn't as bubbly as she was when he first met her and Kyo. He had asked Sakura about it and she told him everything she could, that Misha missed her brother and was worried sick about him, and was creating anxiety over the fact that they might loss him.

"Mama, you're here!" Kyo called as loud as he could, the treatments he was having during the day when Sakura couldn't see him was really taking its toll on him, Sakura could see it in his eyes and by how pale his skin had gotten.

"I'm sorry I was late, How are you feeling darling?" Sakura sat on the edge of his bed and picked him up careful of the monitors on him. Holding him to her praying to God to let her baby live, and to get the heart.

"My chest hurts, Mama when can I go home, I don't like it here." Kyo looked up to his mother his eyes full of hope. Sakura looking down at her son and could also feel the eyes of her daughter on her.

"Not for a while darling." Patting his head, her voice took on a distant tone, wishing she wasn't so formal with him, but she couldn't bring herself to lie to him. Putting her chin on top of his head she just held him, rocking back and forth, humming a lullaby to him.

Misha watched her mother holding Kyo with no trace of any feeling at all in her eyes, and Yoji began to fear that soon his little grandbaby would fall into a world were emotions were a sign of weakness, just like his son was in now, and the one Sakura was in, and Sakura hid it better than most, and to Yoji that was far worse than letting people know that you were an empty shell.

Sighing he looked at the clock then to Misha it was time for them to go, he still needed to get out of the night traffic before he could start fully on his way.

Sakura had said her good byes to Misha and Yoji, and was now sitting holding Kyo, brushing her hand lightly over his hair. When one of the nurses told her that visiting hours were over, nodding her head lying Kyo back down and kissing him goodbye she picked up her things and headed to the door.

Walking out of the hospital Sakura drew her sweater closer to her body, her coal gray knee length skirt fluttered in the wind as she walked mindlessly down the street in hopes of clearing her mind.

Tightening her hold on herself she walked down the street feeling the cool breeze flow by her, memories of the times she and Syaoran would walk the streets before sunset like this and wind up at the park. Holding back a sod she couldn't help but wonder if the woman that made Syaoran happy then was still making him happy.

No matter how many times she told herself that leaving was the best case scenario she still felt as if she had done the wrong thing. Now however she was more sure of it then ever, because of her choice to let Syaoran be happy she was losing her baby in a losing battle. Squeezing her arms around herself harder she hoped to fight the tears that were fighting to come out.

Finally, she let them fall down her face the news the doctor had given her the first day Kyo was admitted to the hospital rang in her head. Everything that the man had said seemed to drain the life out of her.

She slowly opened her eyes and was shocked to see were her feet had lead her. Chocking she looked out over the ocean the same one were she last saw Syaoran, the one were she had ran away all because she couldn't make him love her the way he loved the other woman, the other woman that seemed to love him just as much.

She couldn't breathe now, leaning forward onto the railing she grasped it as hard as she could before slowly falling to the ground where she hugged herself to it and looked out over the view wishing she could fly away, away from everything, to just forget.

Moaning at her horrid thoughts of wishing to be gone from this place, she had tried so hard to erase her memory of his face and of the pain she felt, however she was ashamed of herself for letting those thoughts come to her. Thoughts of death seemed to be easy when everyone around you seemed to be leaving you.

Sakura looked up at the sun set, and cursed herself; she cursed herself for being a horrible mother, for wishing for death when she still had two children to raise, to look after, even though one would soon be leaving her. Crying out in pain she buried her head in her knees as she curled up in a ball and rocked back and forth, her tears coming down now uncontrolled.

Eleanor-

She sat and smirked as her mother argued with her little sister Nancy to keep her mouth shut.

Nancy looked over to her sister with eye's that looked so betrayed, Eleanor only shrugged her shoulders and turned to grin out the window. Her mother had done exactly like she thought she would.

Their mother had warned her to keep her mouth shut because for years she had been trying to get into the Li family. Their business was old and still going as hard as it had back when the small porting firm had opened.

Nancy looked disgusted at her mother and for the first time in her life felt like she was worth nothing, looking at Jason she couldn't believe he wasn't trying to stop this, but then why would he, when he never really cared about her at all, and it took all her will not to cry out in pain of the loss she felt, of the loss of love she once thought she had.

Though most of her pity wasn't on her it was on the Li's and the young man that was to marry her older sister, a woman who had no respect for him other than his check book.

"Nancy do you understands what I'm telling you?" Came a regal voice in the back of her mind. Looking over to the old woman sitting on the love seat across from her in a dark blue skirt suit that she used to be proud to call her mother, she shook her head to clear it.

"Perfectly," The people in the room looked at her strange before Eleanor gave a squeal of victory missing her little sisters grin. "Under, one condition," Eleanor fell silent and looked at her sister, everyone in the room looked at her and she waited, wanting nothing more than to squeeze them tight,

"I want a divorce and I'm going to have full custody of my children, and I will be putting down that you were disloyal to our marriage though I will not put in with whom." Eleanor looked at her sister and didn't like the way she was looking at her.

"Also, if I ever find out that the two of you ever come together again I'll personally make sure your life's crumble right out from under you." Whispering the last part to everyone she stood up slowly and patted her loss slacks.

"Your out of your mind, their my children!" Jason shouted out also standing, he couldn't believe that she would do something like this to him, he looked back at Eleanor who seemed to be just pissed, but other than that she didn't seem to care, their mother stood up from her chair and nodded her head.

"You can't be agreeing to this, their my children too!"

"Yes and you shouldn't have been sleeping with my sister!" With that Nancy walked out of the room and headed up the stairs to get her children and their bags packed, they would be leaving tonight.

Syaoran-

He ran as fast as he could to the source of the scream hoping that nothing had happened, it had sounded like a women and he was afraid that something horrible had just taken place.

Coming to the line of sidewalk that was next to the ocean he ran along it until he came to a stop looking at a young woman curled up in a ball crying. Slowly, he made his way to her and bent down ready to ask if she was okay when she jumped back at the feel of his hand on her shoulder.

Syaoran nearly died when he saw who it was that was looking up at him, his pulse was racing, and he touched her face in hopes that it wasn't a dream, and when he felt the hot tears slid along his fingers and over them he knew she was really here in front of him.

"Sakura…" Her name sounded so sweet when it left his lips he had to say it again,

"Sakura…"

"No, God no… "Was all she had gotten out before passing out in his arms,

Later-

He couldn't help, but feel his heart fall to pieces by the way she had seemed to be pleading with him. He didn't feel as if she was pleading for him to leave, better yet it seemed as if she was begging with him for something else.

Sitting at his desk he looked through some of his files, sighing he realized his pulse was jumping to fast for him. When he looked up he knew why, she was standing there in his doorway looking at him, her face was devoid of any feeling much like his own.

"You need to eat something, I'll go make something I'm a bit hungry myself." Walking past her he could smell her, she smelt the same, just like the last time he saw her, honey, and he was damn near sure that she still tasted like it to.

Walking behind him Sakura's mind was screaming at her to run, she didn't know what to do, the last thing she remembered was him holding her and then nothing everything was blank. Holding down an other whimper as she began to remember what happened before that. Syaoran heard her and turned around only to see her sway a little ignoring the impulse to just leave her to fall he went to her and held her up.

He didn't know why, but he felt disappointment when she stiffened, leading her to the kitchen he helped her sit down and went to work making them both something to eat.

"I don't really know what you like so I hope sticky rice and some vegetables are alright." Looking at her he saw the bags under her eyes, anger he didn't know he had built up in him seeing her look so wrecked.

"I could've made you happy." His tone came out sharper than he thought it would, but what did he care he knew he was telling the truth and she's the one that left him not the other way around.

"But I couldn't make you." Whispered Sakura as she looked down at the table before pushing her self up, "I couldn't make you." Hugging herself again she slowly backed away from him and the kitchen, and made her way out of the apartment leaving Syaoran alone again leaning on the counter for support. He let his head hang low as he tried to put himself back together.

He stiffened suddenly when he heard the door shut softly, he looked over his shoulder to an empty apartment, but then what had he expected for her to stay and beg for him to take her back, no she would never do that she was to strong and proud a person to do something like that.

Dread soon washed over him as he ran for the door, entering into the main hall he saw the elevator door closing, and by the time he reached it the door had already closed with her in it.

Pushing his hair out of his face he looked around and found the fire escape, running for it, but when he got there he stopped. He had seen the pain in her eye's the way she looked at him made his heart lurch from pain. She looked different, like she wasn't his anymore liked she lived for someone else, and she looked so much weaker, and it pained him, so he decided not to go after her to just let her go.

Hitting the wall with his fist he looked back to the elevator and watched as it stopped on the bottom level.

He had wanted to hurt her, to make her feel pain, and that's why he had wanted to find her to tell her that he had found another. Looking at her though he could see that her life was just like his empty, and alone.

Kyo-

Sitting on his bed he played a game with his doctor, he didn't know what it was called, but everyday that he played it he seemed to be able to understand what the nurses were saying better.

Writing down what the picture was on the card he moved to the next one in hopes that he would be able to beat Dr. Kudo.

"Finished!" Kyo yelped in surprise when he finished the last card,

"Well I see you've beaten me this time, how about you say them back to me before I leave."

Sakura stood in the doorway watching them with a smile on her face, her son looked so alive so happy, but she knew better she knew that he was hurting and that everyday that passed and the amount of therapy he had to take grew, that his hopes were dying. She swore to her self that she wouldn't ever let her hope's up, she would always believe that her son would make it out of this.

She watched as Dr. Kudo helped him to lay back down which had some how in the past few day's turned into a struggle for him. Walking into the room just as Dr. Kudo was giving Kyo his nightly shot to help him sleep.

Placing her hand over Kyo's she squeezed it to let him know she was here. Taking a seat next to his bed she held his hand, wishing she could be the one in that bed and not him. She didn't need to see anything else in life, but Kyo did and that's what killed her the most.

"I'm sorry I can't save you, I'm so sorry." Laying her head down on the bed she held his hand and soon let sleep claim her.

Yoji stood by the door holding a sleeping Misha, he couldn't help, but feel that this all could have been prevented if only his damned wife hadn't gotten in the way of things, but he had to take some of the blame because he knew his wife would never tell his son what she had done.

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