Change of Heart

By: Crazy-cherry

Hey Everyone, here's the next chapter to Change of Heart I hope thatyou like it!

I have something to say that a certain reviewer brought to my attention I would like to state for most writers on that has a plain text note pad with a (hint) read star thingy next to it meaning that it's basic support; writing styles will not be preserved.

Therefore the way I write my story doesn't come out the same on where I have indentation for paragraphs there are none on try as I may I don't know how to fix that so I'm really sorry if that bothers some of you if you know how to fix that please tell me I'd really appreciate that.

Now here's the story…

-Chapter 5-

Three months passed, and with each month Kyo seemed to sleep more and more, and with the past week he seemed to be asleep almost always, and when he was awake he could barley lift his head, or speak.

Misha sat next to him reading one of the books her mother bought for her about a little bird trying to find its mother, and it had soon become one of her favorites. It was called "Are You My Mother?" by a famous writer named Dr. Sues.

Her mother had explained that a father was exactly like a mother, and that was enough for her to want one, and she knew just were to get one to, and he was called Shuichiro Kudo.

When she finished the book she closed it and looked up at Kyo that had tubes running into his mouth and nose that her mother said helped him to breath. "Did you like it? I like it, it's one of my favorites." Smiling slightly at her brother, turning her head to look out the window of the hospital all she saw was a blue horizon that wasn't anywhere as nice as the one she had back at her real home.

"Why such a long face, hmm?"

Misha jolted upright in her seat at the sound of Dr. Kudo walking into the room with her mother that looked as though she had just cried.

"I don't have a long face, because if I did it would be touching the floor right Mama?" Misha looked at her mother with a small grin on her face, the only time she ever showed any kind of emotion was around Kyo.

"Right" Whispered Sakura as she smiled at her daughter,

With a plan in motion to get what all her class mates and her friend Nonie had, a father, Misha popped out of the seat next to her brother and walked over to her mother.

"You're not going to give me a hard time about leaving today?" Asked Sakura, surprised because every time they had to leave Misha would cry herself into hysterics.

"I wanted to go to the market with you today,"

"Really, I thought you hated it there, with all the crowding people and the stuffiness." Sakura had a perplexed look on her face, but soon washed it away with a bright smile.

"Alright, I was going to call your Grandpa and see if he wanted to sit here with you and Kyo, but if you want to go then sure, let's head out then." Holding Misha's hand they walked out of the room and into the hallway where Misha stopped and looked back at Dr. Kudo.

"Misha?" Sakura looked down at her daughter that was looking back at Dr. Kudo who was filling something out on a clipboard. Her dark brown curls swished on her head as she turned around and marched over to him, her white shorts and Pink sweater went stiff as she stands erect in front of him.

"Yes, Misha." He smiled down at the little girl waiting for her to ask him what ever it is she wanted to know.

"Can you come with us?" Putting on her best pleading look she stared at Dr. Kudo who laughed, "Please, Mama can cook you dinner after words, right Mama?" Misha looked back at her mother showing her that it wasn't a suggestion more of a command Sakura tried to hold back a horrified giggle.

Dr. Kudo looked up at Sakura and smiled before shaking his head no, "I'm sorry Misha, but I don't get off for another hour, and I'm sure your mother doesn't want another mouth to feed." Misha looked at him crestfallen.

"Mama, you don't mind do you, and we can spend another hour with Kyo, please?" clasping her hands together, with her lip out in a pout; Sakura couldn't help, but to laugh and say yes because Misha obviously wanted him to come though she couldn't figure out why.

"If he wouldn't mind," Smiling at Misha, Sakura looked up at Dr. Kudo who seemed to find the moment very funny, and had a huge grin one his face.

"I'd be honored to go grocery shopping, and have dinner with the two of you; I actually need to pick a few things up as well. My shift doesn't end for another hour I'm afraid."

"We'll wait." Sakura took Misha's hand and walked back into the sterol hospital room and sat in the same chair Misha had.

Syaoran-

Walking up the steps of his cousin's house to knock on the door with his fiancée walking impatiently next to him, he couldn't help, but feel like the evening just died when she said she wanted to come as well. Knocking on the door he waited for the all to familiar sound of Nonie and her newest friend to come screaming down the hall to great him, he had to hold back his laugh when he felt his fiancée stiffen next to him thinking the same thing.

When the sound didn't come and Meiling opened the door to let him in he sighed with some relief knowing that it wasn't going to be another hectic night like the last one. Seeing Meiling dressed in a pair of jeans and a loose blouse he cringed, because that meant only one thing, the market.

"Meiling, I wish you would have told me if you were going to the market so that I could have come later instead of wait for you to come back and cook what ever monstrosity you have planed next." Walking into the foyer he slipped out of his suit jacket and hung it up in the small coat closet, and then doing the same with Eleanor's.

"And where's the brat and her little crony at I don't hear them screaming anywhere." Eleanor grinned at that, she disliked the brats just as much as he did, or so she thought.

"Misha's not here today her mother and her went to go visit a sick family member and put your jackets back on your going with us to the market, and Eleanor I know you don't like work so you can just leave back to Syaoran's apartment." Smiling Meiling looked at both of them and took their jackets out and handed them to them. "Or if for once in your life would you like to be a descent person or at least as close to one as you can possibly be and help with the shopping?" With that Syaoran put is jacket back on and gave a look to both Meiling and Eleanor telling them to back off. Eleanor glared at Meiling before slipping her jacket on.

"Why Meiling, I would just love to come along." Meiling's eye twitched when Eleanor said that, and it caused her to grin even more.

Sakura-

Sakura held onto Misha's hand as she made her way down the small street market with Shuichiro Kudo's hand pressed lightly against the nap of her back. She couldn't help the feeling of butterflies in her stomach.

"Mama, can we get some grapes too?"

"hmm, oh um yes." Smiling over at Misha she shook her head to gain back her lost thoughts and began to look through some grapes. Finding a good set of grapes she bagged them and paid for them, Sakura walked over to another vender and started to purchases rice and a loaf of wheat bread.

Shuichiro walked along other venders looking for cantaloupe which seemed to be scarce in the small crowded street with sweaty people and families with their children. The food here was a bit better than the food he bought from the corner market down the street from his house.

Pausing to look at some of the scallops on a large wooden table covered in different sea food, he looked up after buying a dozen long scallops and saw Sakura laughing at something Misha apparently said, and found him self grinning as he watched them.

He didn't know what it was that made him drawn to her, but there was just something about Sakura Kinomoto that made him want her. Clearing his throat, he couldn't help the faint blush that made its way to his cheeks.

Walking over to them was harder than he thought it would be with the crowed pushing him, but by the time e reached them Sakura looked pale and Misha was jumping up and down waving at someone. Looking in the direction Misha was waving he saw a little girl waving back towards Misha and Sakura; she was being carried by a man with a woman smiling next to him.

"Nonie," Sang Misha as the little girl and her parents neared them, Sakura didn't seem to be looking at them, and Shuichiro couldn't see who it was there was just too many people around them to pinpoint who it was.

"Hello," Shuichiro extended his hand to the man before him, as he introduces himself, "I'm Shuichiro Kudo." The man had a firm shack and as he introduced himself Shuichiro looked over the other mans shoulder at a couple coming their way.

"I'm Cole Kalvert, this is my wife Meiling Kalvert and our daughter Nonie." Smiling Cole looked at Misha, "The monster came with us here you might want to hide." Smiling when Misha jerked back and ran behind her mother, Sakura gained back her lost thoughts and pressed Misha to her as Misha hid behind her.

"What Monster?" asked Sakura a bit confused about the conversation happening around her.

"My cousin, Misha bumped into him and spilt some water on his pants, he freaked out of course, and now the girls call him Monster or for Nonie Uncle Monster. It's quit cute actually."

"Mama, I didn't mean to spill it on him I swear." Misha clung to her mothers pants speaking in her native language. Causing Nonie to look perplexed, Meiling and everyone else seemed a bit surprised by the fact she didn't speak in Chinese, they all knew of courses that she spoke another language but she never said a word of it in front of them even if she didn't know how to phrase a word in Chinese she would try and figure it out.

"It's all right, did you apologize to him." Forgetting that everyone is looking at them and that couple that she had been staring at was now standing right next to them Sakura spoke to her daughter just the same in Old English.

"Yes I did and he was still mad at me Mama." Misha looked back at everyone, and saw that the man her and her mother were talking about was looking at them, mostly at her mother. Pulling on her mother's gray slacks which since Kyo's illness have grown to big for her and Sakura found herself pulling them up just a little.

"Sakura I would like to introduce you to the monster," Meiling grind when Sakura looked up but it fell from her face the moment she saw the look on her friends face, "His name is Li Xiao Lang, and my gosh are you okay you look white as a ghost."

Shuichiro noticed it to and started to push her toward the exit of the crowded market, Sakura leaned into him for fear that she wouldn't be able to hold herself up. Misha gripped Shuichiro's hand as he pressed through the crowed. Meiling and the rest of them followed.

Syaoran couldn't help the rage that grew in him as he watched the man hold Sakura up and she seemed perfectly fine with him touching her, and then to add to it she has a daughter. Swallowing the vile taste in his mouth he watched as the man went over to a bench and sat her down in it.

Misha sat looking at her mother then at Syaoran, when he looked at her she shrank and tried to hid under her mother who didn't seem to mind to much about having her there. Leaning back Sakura felt Misha pushing against her back, she had a pretty good idea as to why she was trying to hind and she wished she was small again and able to hid behind someone or something.

Turning slightly Sakura scoped Misha up in her arms and held her tight to her. Shuichiro left to get her some water. Meiling sat next to her rubbing her back.

"Are you alright, what happened back there?" Meiling questioned

"Just dizzy that's all, go finish your shopping I'm fine Dr. Kudo should be back soon."

"Dr. Kudo," Meiling looked at her oddly then sighed realizing that the man was only a friend, when she saw them together they had looked like a couple, but apparently she was wrong.

"You guy's go and finish your shopping I'm feeling much better, I was just a little worn out that's all." Meiling nodded her head; obviously her friend didn't want to talk about what ever it was that was bothering her.

"If it's okay with you I'll take Misha with me, she can stay the night so you can rest."

"If Misha wants to then it's fine." Sakura mentally slapped her self, she was letting Meiling watch her little girl, Meiling was his cousin, his family. He knows now, he knows about Misha, he'll put two and two together and he'll know Misha is his, God help me.

Misha nodded her head vigorously; she would never pass up a chance to spend time with her new best friend. Turning to her mother she kissed her cheek before saying good bye, Meiling hugged her and Cole squeezed her shoulder.

Looking at Syaoran he simply turned around and walked away, everyone following him.

Sinking into the bench Sakura closed her eye's, what was she thinking, he saw her with Misha, the pain in her heart grew even more and she tried hard to cover it back up. The last time she saw him she wanted to throw herself at him to ask him to save her baby, no their baby. Chocking on a sob Sakura covered her face with her hands as her body jerked with sob after sob, rocking herself slightly as she leaned forward.

She stiffened when she felt a pair of arms come around her, stiffening she jerked away from the person, when her eyes took in the person that was holding her she began to cry more.

"I hurt you, I really hurt, God I really hurt you." Syaoran whispered brokenly as he looked at the woman before him, her eyes were blood shot and she looked as though she hadn't slept in months. She was small this time, she lost weight since he last saw her, reaching out again she didn't move away or shove him to the ground as he pulled her to him.

She gripped his shirt and cried into his chest, his arms wrapped around her small figure as he held her to him. He had lost Meiling and the rest of them in the market as soon as they left, when he reached her again his heart broke as he stood there looking at her small figure crumble. He couldn't understand why she would ever cry so, when they were still together she only cried during movies or when reading a book, sometimes even when they fought, but he didn't understand why she would ever cry so hard, and for what?

He had made his way over to her and he knew instantly that it was his fault, he had seen her with a man earlier before Meiling pointed her out. He saw how her face lit up, but when she saw him she turned white, so white that he almost reached out to her. Now holding her he couldn't think of anything else, the anger he had when he had seen the way the man had taken her away to the bench how she had allowed him to touch her, it was all gone now.

Standing slowly he brought her with him, moving back just a little he smiled sadly down at her as he brushed his hand over her cheek and wiped away the tear stains on her cheek.

"Please forgive me, god please forgive me." Whispered Syaoran as he lowered his lips to hers and lightly kissed her, Sakura's fist clinched even more as the kiss deepened and she could remember how wonderful she felt the first time he had ever kissed her.

Syaoran held her a moment longer letting himself drown in the her; it had been so long since he had felt this way. Slowly letting go he looked down at her, he couldn't place what had flashed in her eyes, but he hadn't anytime to investigate he could see the man walking hurriedly back to them.

Slowly putting distance between them he cleared his throat and looked her right in the eyes. "So you have a daughter." He smiled sadly at her before turning toward the man that was now walking toward them. "She's very beautiful, I hope there were no complications this time around for you."

By know the tears had started to flow again, she smiled sadly before replying, "The doctors kept close eyes on me, and my father lived with me during the pregnancy." Wiping her tears away she smiled at Shuichiro as he handed her a water bottle.

"I'm glad to her that, Misha will be at Meiling's, have a nice evening." Syaoran mumbled as he turned around to leave, Sakura smiled at him trying to hide her sorrow as she watched him leave. Turning back around she faced Shuichiro and thanked him for the water.

"I'm sorry it took me so long to get here, I kind of got lost." He smiled is friendly smile as she drank from the bottle.

Shuichiro helped her back to her apartment and then said good bye, Sakura sank into Misha's bed, they had been sleeping in the same bed for a while, Sakura couldn't stand the couch, and she always woke up with lower back pains.

She lay there looking at the ceiling she didn't know whether to be relieved that he didn't battle over the thought as to why Misha looked so much like him. She touched her right hand to her lips and sighed. Her stomach turned when she thought about what today could have been like.

Syaoran-

Syaoran looked down at the little girl he was carrying up the stairs to put in bed; she had fallen asleep on the couch waiting for Nonie to finish her bath. Syaoran had stayed over at Meiling's long after Eleanor had left for home, but he didn't mind he was hypnotized by the fact that he was in the same room as Sakura's daughter.

He didn't know why, but he was happy for her, she seemed to be so much happier when Misha was around her. Though it upset him to know that she couldn't even stand to look at him, he had noticed that every time he came close to her she turned pale, and she even passed out the first time.

His stomach turned thinking about the kiss; he shouldn't have done that, everything in him at the time, whoever had told him that just one little kiss wouldn't hurt anyone was lying, because the look in her eyes and the way she had looked told him that she was hurting. Why was it that every time he got near her she became upset, scared almost? Did she really feel like he would hate her for losing his child, it wasn't her fault he needed to let her know it wasn't her fault, that she wasn't to blame.

Walking down the hall he came to Nonie's door, slowly opening it so not to wake Misha up, when he walked in he went right to the full size bed with animated teddy bears on the bed spread and pillow cases. Lying her down on the bed he gently pulled the covers out from under her, and then pulled them over her.

He looked down at her and couldn't help the jealousy he felt toward Sakura, she had a child and he knew that he would never want children with Eleanor. Pushing the feelings aside he slowly turned around and left the room.

Meiling and Cole-

She sat in the living room and read through some of the guest that had already sent their RSVP for the wedding, and so far no one had said that they couldn't make it. Cole sat watching her from the single seat next to her, he didn't like the look on her face; actually he didn't like the look on her face all night. She seemed preoccupied with thoughts that weren't even on discussion.

Placing his hand over hers he drew her attention away from the papers, besides he was sure she had memorized everyone on it already. Meiling looked up at him and smiled slightly.

"What's bothering you?" asked Cole as he slipped his hand into hers and held it.

"Syaoran, at the market when we lost him I could have sworn he wanted to loss us, and even before that, did you see how he was looking at Sakura it was kind of scary, he looked as though he was going to explode standing there. I guess even the way she looked at him, like they knew each other. Maybe they do, when I first met her she seemed familiar somehow, but I just couldn't place it." Shaking her head, she sighed and leaned back looking at her husband.

"I don't think you're the only one that saw it, actually right when Syaoran came into view was when she started to pale, my guess is that they probably do know each other. We'll ask your uncle tomorrow when he comes by in the morning to pick Nonie up, actually he even said her friend could go along with them to the zoo."

Meiling smiled at that, "That was nice of him; he hasn't been paying much attention to Nonie or any of his other grandchildren as of late. Auntie says that he's been busy with some kind of work concerning the company." Standing up she looked at Cole and smiled, "I'm tired I think I'll turn in." Leaving the room she walked across the hall to get Nonie to put her to bed, it was much too late for her to be up if she was tired herself.

"I'll be up in a few minutes I need to look over some files for tomorrows meeting."

Both walked their separate ways as they began to finish the day, as Cole walked down the hall he noticed that his office light was on. Walking faster he reached his double oak doors that were stained dark.

Reaching for the door knobs he twisted and yanked them open, only to see Syaoran on the phone and writing something down. What he didn't see was Syaoran flip close a small black address book that was kept on the left of the desk so that phone numbers and addresses were only a flip away.

"Well, well, well I guess you feel compelled to work all the time, which isn't exactly a healthy thing to do I hope you know." Cole walked over to his desk and sat in his chair as Syaoran got up from it and made his way to the door.

"Sorry about using your office, I just received a message from my secretary that I needed to look at some paper work." Syaoran grind as he turned to leave, he didn't feel the need to tell him that he was going through his address book looking for his ex-fiancées address.

"That's alright I don't mind at all, you should hurry home though Eleanor might be freaking out that your not home yet, its what, ten thirty, wow ten-thirty and I feel like I've been up for over twenty hours, I must be getting old." Syaoran grind at that,

"Actually I'm heading into the office to check on the documents more before I head home." Looking over his shoulder he nodded his head to Cole's good bye before saying good bye, and leaving to find someone.

Syaoran-

He parked his car at a corner and got out, looking around he saw small buildings some apartments others small stores with apartments above them or offices. Looking at the building Sakura lived in he noticed that it needed a new paint job and possibly needed to put in new windows and a new entrance, other than that the place had a nice charm to it. Walking up the steps he jiggled the knob a little and noticed that it needed to be replaced because he could easily open the door with out the key which was supposedly needed to open it.

Walking up the stairs that seemed surprisingly very stable, something he, at the moment wasn't. His hands were beginning to feel clammy and he could feel the sweat on his back roll down his spin.

Coming to the third floor, he made his way to the door marked 5 which was to his left. Looking at the two other doors on the floor he wondered who lived in them and if they had ever talked to Sakura or even the father of her daughter, which he assumed was the man she was with today at the market.

Knocking on the door he waited and when he didn't hear anyone coming he began to ring the door bell, he stopped however when he remembered the man from the market, what if he lived with her, he didn't want to ruin her life with the man he just wanted to try and make amends with her, to try and make her see that he didn't blame her for losing the baby and that he was sorry if he had ever made her think that he only wanted her for children, hell at the time when they were together he always anticipated having children with her, and just simply being with her.

Now he knew coming here in the middle of the night probably wasn't that great of an idea in the first place. Stepping backwards he slowly turned around and started his way down the stairs; only to stop by the sound of his name being said.

"Syaoran is that you." Came the small voice from the top of the stairs.

"Sakura, um… I'm really sorry I didn't mean to wake you up I wasn't paying attention to the time, I just wanted to see if you were doing better." Okay that was a lie which in his experience is never good to start with. Though if you thought about it, it was a pretty good lie and somewhat true.

"Well you already have," her small voice came again, rubbing her eyes she turned around and began to walk back to her apartment," Come in I'll fix you some tea."

Syaoran's heart began to race as he walked up the steps slowly, he felt sick with himself for how he was looking at her, he liked how she still wore draw string pajama pants and a white camisole with a sweater of any color she simply pulled out of the closet, no matter how long it had been he still found looking at her that way was the most erotic thing he had ever seen, not even the things Eleanor put on for him made him feel as close to losing it as Sakura did just simply wearing cloths she found to be comfortable.

Walking into her apartment he noticed how small it was, but she did have a bathroom of her own and didn't have to go down to one of the public bath houses. Her kitchen consisted of one small proton of the wall next to her window with a small floor table that had papers all over it.

Sitting on the couch he watched her as she moved easily through the small kitchen and heated water. Standing with her back to him she concentrated on the kettle that was resting on the stove. She could feel his eyes on her and it unnerved her just a little with each passing second. Pulling the silver kettle off the stove she took two cups out and pored the hot water into each one, placing a tea bag in both she lifted them and walked over to the couch and handed one to Syaoran that was still watching her.

Sitting next to him only out of necessity because she had no other chairs in her apartment, making herself comfortable next to him she took her first sip.

"I'm sorry about what happened today, I shouldn't have kissed you, it's obvious that you already have someone."

"As do you, but that didn't seem to stop you." He was stunned her words weren't harsh they were more of a thought; he would have thought that she would have given him an earful.

"Sakura I'm not sorry, actually I'm glad I did it," Turning he placed his tea cup down on the small side table next to him, turning around to face her he cupped her face in his hands.

"Please just tell me one thing, one simple thing before I leave." His eyes seemed to be pleading with her, she gulped she knew what was going to happen she had thought she would get away with it, but Syaoran was to smart to not have noticed how much Misha looked like him. Meiling more than likely would have said something, she was always saying how much she thought Misha looked like a cousin of hers, and now it finally made since considering her cousin was the father of her children.

"Do you love him?" whispered Syaoran, he took Sakura's sudden shook as a not so good sign. "I guess I'll take that as a yes." Shaking his head he started to stand up.

"Love who?" When she spoke he looked back down at her and she seemed to be confused at the question.

"The father of Misha,"

She smiled sadly up at him, "I've always loved him, and I'll never stop." A tear slide down her face as she spoke.

Syaoran looked away from her and began to walk himself to the door; he reached for the knob and paused when he felt a small pressure on his right arm. Turning around he saw Sakura standing behind him, he didn't know what to expect but he certainly wasn't expecting her to lean up and kiss him. "Good night Syaoran." Slowly stepping back he continued to watch her as she licked her lips and her face turned rosy, and that was all the invitation he needed to continue on with their earlier escapade, he leaned forward and kissed her again and gently and slowly it progressed into something more.

The next thing they knew was that they woke up the next morning holding each other on the small bed in the only bedroom in the apartment…

That's the end of this chapter please don't kill me for leaving it there.

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