Chapter.4
Jason and carly walked into Jakes both not really addressing the other...They sat at the table just as Coleman came over...
Coleman:" Well, what can I do for you two?"
Carly gave him a dirty look as Jason just ordered a beer...
Coleman gave them their drink's and left ...
Carly:"Ok I'm all ear's."
Jason looked at his best friend..He knew he needed to get everything out...And he knew Carly was his only choice...
Carly:"Hello? Earth to Jason.."
Jason:"Ok...Sam and I fought one night...I told her I didnt feel right about keeping baby Hope...and she blew up at me...I just needed to get away...I never meant to hurt Courtney...I went to the docks and..."
Flashback
Jason walked on to the dock's to angry to think..Sam was wrong you cant just keep someone's baby...It wasant right..What would you tell the child 10 years from now? 10 years? He couldn't imagine being with Sam that long...
He didnt even know why he was with her...
"Because she accepts you," a little voice said...No one ever has before...
Not Robin..Not Liz...Not even Courtney...
Courtney...She was diffrent the anyone else..She was his angel and she didnt want him.
And then he saw her sitting at the bench..Staring at the water lost in thought..She was worried..He could tell by her expretions...
Courtney looked up and found the love of her life staring at her.
They stared at each other...
Courtney:"Hey. Is everything ok?..You look upset"
Jason:"Yeah...Everything is fine.."
Courtney:"Jason dont lie to me.What is it Sonny or Carly or the boys?" she asked worried that something happend to her family."
Jason:" No everyone is fine.."
Courtney:"Your not..Come on Jase..You can tell me...I'd like to think that were friends still.."
Jason:" We are..."
Courtney:"I wount push I just wanted to help if I could."
Jason looked at her..She would never change..Always willing to help someone else...
Jaosn:"I dont feel right about the adoption..It feels wrong.."
Courtney:"I thought you wanted the baby."
Jaosn:"I do...But not like this..I want my own baby..Not someone elses...I care for Hope but I think she would be better off with her family.."
Courtney:"Well Sam can have babies right? I mean give it time," she said not really believing what was coming out of her mouth.
Jason:"I dont want to have a baby with Sam, I wanna have a baby with you."
Courtney was dumbfounded..What did he just say?..A baby..Wih her?
Courtney:"Jason..What?"
Jason:"Look I dont love her.. I love you..Ok.I just want us back..."
Courtney:" You dont know what your saying..Your upset and..."
Jaosn:"And what? I know what I want..And I want you Courtney.. Every morning I wake up and I think your in the kitchen making breakfast..Or your in the shower...I dont want to live with a ghost.."
Courtney started to cry..She couldnt go through all the pain again..She wouldnt.
Courtney:"No...No I cant listen to this...You dont know what your saying..We have been over for a long time Jason..The damge has been done."
Jason:"I cant live without you."
Courtney couldnt take it anymore...
Courntey:"Well you seem to be doing just fine..."
Jason:"Looks can be decieving"
Courtney:"I finally moved on Jason..I finally let you go..It was so hard to see you with her...And then u asked me to help you adopt Hope and I... I didnt want to Jason...I just wanted you to be happy..So I told myself that I was being selfish and that I needed to let you go..."
She walked up to him and touched his cheek...
Courtney:"You need to do the same.."
With that said she walked off...
Courtney ran home in tears...How could he do that to her...How could he ask her to come back to him after everything...
She walked into her loft and looked around...Everything reminded her of him...Everything...It was their home...Her first real home...
She couldnt stay here...She called out to Rosie..She would leave her with the neighbor for a few days...She needed to get away..To clear her mind..
Docks
Jason couldnt belive she just walked away...From him and everything he said...
"Well what did you expect.." came the voice again...
He needed to make her understand...He took his cell phone an called Stan...
"I need you to track Courtney down..I'll be in touch"
If he knew anything about her he knew she ran when she was scared...
And you scared her Morgan...You hurt her again...
End Flashback...
Carly looked at Jason with tear's in her eyes...She didnt know he bared his soul to Courtney...
Carly:"Jason what happend?..I mean you told her you wanted her back...And now you say it was all a mistake..What happened between the time you left to find her and when you both came back to P.C.? What went wrong?"
Jason just stared...He wanted to know the answer to that also...