Change of Heart

By: Crazy-Cherry

I'm sorry if theres some spelling errors I really don't know if this one was edited or not, sorry again.

-Chapter 7-

Misha sat silently on Sakura's lap as they sat at the park; the sun was beginning its long day in the sky and ominous clouds hung over the edge of the sky, carrying with it the storm of the year forecasters say.

Lightly brushing Misha's hair with her fingers Sakura looked up at the sky with distant eyes, things had begun to go back to normal the last two days seemed to be calm, the situation with Syaoran was now locked up inside her heart and she intended to keep it there.

The breeze picked up and blew their hair; sighing Sakura leaned back and closed her eyes. She missed however when Misha's face lit up, frowning when Misha began to push down on to the ground Sakura opened her eyes and looked down at her daughter that was currently wiggling free.

"Misha what are you doing?" Sakura asked as she let Misha slide to the ground and stand up.

"I want to go say hi." Tilting her head back Misha looked her mother in the eyes and began to pout.

"Say hi to whom?" skeptically Sakura looked around for the person in question when her eyes landed on an elegant woman sitting down at a bench reading a book. "Okay." Looking away Sakura couldn't help but wonder what Yelen Li was doing at a park of all places.

"Misha I don't think she wants too be… Misha!" Sakura panicked when her daughter ran over to the woman only slowing to a walk when she was close enough to get the woman's attention.

Standing slowly Sakura gathered her bearings and walked over as steadily as she could, and hoped for the best.

"Li-san," Misha bowed her head as she said her formal greeting to the older woman, and she intern was greeted with a small smile and a hello.

"Misha wheres your grandfather shouldn't he be with you?" Yelen asked politely as she moved over for Misha to come and sit next to her, and looked around. When her eyes landed on the person Misha was with her gaze turned sour. "Oh I see, you where with your mother." Sighing she put her book down beside her and stood up.

Sakura didn't know what to do; she refused to let her children hate anyone from their fathers' family because it didn't seem fare so instead she never said a thing cruel about them and if she ever spoke of them she referred to them as strong willed people.

"Li-san," Sakura didn't bother with bowing she didn't feel the need to be polite to a woman that had helped in ruin her life, even if in the end it was for the best.

"Hello child." Yelen smiled a little and turned around to collect her book, "I'll see you soon Misha." Turning around Sakura followed her a few feet away from Misha.

"How do you know Misha?" Sakura asked as her heart rammed into her rids threatening to break threw them.

Yelen looked at the young woman in front of her; she couldn't stand her when her son was planning on marrying her, but know that her son was with the right woman she rather admired her. She obviously wasn't weak and helpless she proved that when she gave birth to her two grandchildren that she herself had kept close eyes on.

"I know of Kyo too, and my deepest sympathy too the two of you." She would never tell anyone she was scared to death for the little boy she had only seen three times since he was born. Once the day he was born another time in England when she went with Yoji, and had followed him to the park where he and their grandchildren had played on the grass and had a small picnic. The last time had been two months before when he was in the hospital she had watched him out side the room through the window.

Sakura's anger had already boiled and with the apology from a woman she particularly disliked she could scarcely keep herself from strangling the woman before her.

"What right do you have to show pity on my little boy now," Tears were shinning in her eyes and she could scarcely hear Misha walk up to the two of them, Yelen didn't even see the little girl that was now standing behind her mother.

"What right do you find belongs to you when you're the one that took away a father from them, you took away Syaoran's right to know he had two beautiful babies, and when you did you took away your rights as a grandmother so don't give me sympathy. I don't want it nor do I need it." Taking in a beep breath she backed up a little to keep herself from shaking the woman before her to collect herself.

"I'm his grandmother no matter what you say, and in the end you know why you left it wasn't because of me it was because of your own insecurities about your relationship with my son. I never once told you to get rid of your child; I didn't even know the two of you had conceived." Yelens face was becoming red and it was becoming harder to stop herself from talking of the past, it had been building up in her for years.

She had known of the books Yoji had with all the pictures of the kids in them, she had looked through them plenty of times admiring the two children.

"You're the one that made the decision to tell my son that you had a miscarriage not me, and if you really do believe that I should show no sympathy when my grandchild is about to die any day now than you are mistaken." Yelen stood tall she stated her case, neither her nor Sakura saw as the little girl behind them turned and went back to the bench.

Sakura swallowed hard she didn't know that Yelen had no clue she was pregnant at the time, standing straight she looked at the woman and smiled wistfully, "Have a wonderful life, knowing you succeeded in ruining mine and my children's." Saying that Sakura turned around and walked over to where Misha sat staring at the lake in front of her.

"Come on Misha lets get home it looks like it might start to storm soon." She held out her hand, but Misha refused to hold onto it. Standing on her own she walked beside her mother as they made their way out of the park. Yelen was stepping into her car as the two of them walked out of the park.

-Eleanor-

"What do you mean you want to stop this?"

"I mean just that, your sister may have been my second choice, but she's the only one that really maters now." Jason stated as he sat at the bar in the Clifton Hotel.

"Let me guess it's for the children too." Drumming her hands on the mahogany wood under her finger tips, and blowing her hair out of her annoyed face.

"Their, the other reason, but the other reason is that during our time together I really always knew we would never become what we once wished for. Don't look at me like I'm a villain when you know damn well that we both are. You're engaged to one of the most eligible bachelors in all of china even in the world, and you want to risk that by sharing you body with someone else. I wouldn't if I was you, you should stay true to him." Sighing her dragged his fingers through his hair hoping that he had gotten through to her at least on the not seeing each other part.

"I wouldn't have any problem with staying true to him if I knew he was being true to me." Eleanor snapped as she finished of her glass of dry white wine.

"Are you telling me that he's cheating on you, man if that isn't the damndist thing?" laughing he took another sip of his scotch. "If I may ask who is it he seems to find time for have a little roll around with." smiling he looked over at Eleanor that had steam coming out of her ears.

"The little tramp he was engaged to before me and can you believe it he even had enough balls to have two children with her." Pounding her fist on the top of the bar she turned around to face the crowed of people around her.

Jason's mouth dropped open on hearing the last part, "He couldn't possibly know about them I mean come on the man would have made sure to marry her then, maybe your just imagining things." Jason swallowed the last of his scotch in one gulp.

"Imagine this," slapping the pictures she had stolen from the Li's she turned to face him, and when he looked at the pictures and his face turned pale, he knew at least one of two children Li Yoji had in his lap in the picture, he and Eleanor both knew at least the little girl. "They've been dangling one of the little rats right under our noses, the sleaze bags, and the other one I cant seem to ever recall seeing that one, lets hope he's dead it'll make my job all the more easier." Turning around she placed her neatly folded bills on the counter to pay for her brink and then stood up.

"I hope to hear from you soon." Smiling she bent over and kissed Jason on the lips before turning around and stalking out of the bar and onto the street, already forming a plan in her head.

Drinking down another scotch Jason looked out the window and tried to hide the dread he felt when he looked down at the one picture she left behind of the two children Li kept a secret from the world, and thought of his own family. His eyes darkening he knew what had to be done.

-Yoji-

Sitting in the hospital with a book in his hand long forgotten as he stared the little boy he loved, he didn't want to believe he only had another week before he would be joining his ancestors.

Putting his head down in sham he felt o useless not being able to save his grandchild, he hadn't thought he could ever feel such pain, but he was wrong he felt his heat shatter to pieces every time he came here.

"Mr. Li?" Dr. Kudo asked as he walked into the room to check on Kyo for that hour, "Are you okay, would you like something to drink?" Dr. Kudo looked at the man sitting in the chair and saw the lines of fatigue that seemed to grow in numbers every time he saw him.

"No thank you I'm fine." Going back to looking at Kyo he held on to his hand hoping against hope that Kyo could feel his presence. It had been two days ago that he had lapsed into a coma and most of the doctors had their fingers crossed for a heart transplant, but he was starting to accept that no transplant would come.

"How much longer to do you give him?" Yoji looked over at Dr. Kudo as he finished up his check up, the man looked paler than usual.

"I'm sorry I can't handover that information to you, I…"

"Damn it, I'm his grandfather my son is his father I have every right to know how long my grandbaby has left, I have that right." Yoji shouted but by the end his voice was scarcely above a whisper.

"I'm sorry." Dr. Kudo walked out of the room only to stop out side the door and lean his head against the wall, Kyo had been moved up to top priority on the list and was now waiting, but the waiting was taking too long. Standing up straight he moved onto his next case. When his gaze fell onto Sakura and Misha walking toward him, when Sakura told Misha to go into the room he knew he had nothing but bad news for her, and he could see that she had a horrid day and that it wasn't going to get any better.

"Hello Shuichiro, anything new?" He could see she was already prepared for he worst, and he hated to see defeat in her eyes, she was the one person he felt most disserving of this operation for her son.

"I'm sorry; he's not doing any better,"

"How much time?" Sakura looked away from him and into the room next to her and saw a little girl drawing with her head in a small cap to keep it warm because it had been shaven.

"Another four days at least at maximum another week." When she nodded he excused himself and walked around her and out of sight, he didn't see when she turned around and walked out of the hospital.

"Misha where's your mother at?" Yoji looked at his niece with confusion on his face as he held Misha in his lap.

"Grandpapa can I ask you something," Looking up at him she didn't wait for him to agree or not, "Is Kyo going to heaven in a few days." Catching her breath she looked at her grandfather with tears spilling down her face.

Yoji knew Sakura didn't want Misha to know Kyo was going to die, but it was to late to protect her now, he knew she had a right too know and if she asked such a question he knew that somewhere in her heart, she knew the truth too.

"I'm afraid so sweetheart, his heart isn't as strong as yours is and it tires out easily."

Yoji watched as her eyes filed with tears that spilled over and down her cheeks.

His heart broke watching has she cried her heart out and held onto Kyo's hand and placing her other hand on his heart. Yoji allowed her to sit on the bed next to him. When Misha placed her hand over his heart she could fell that his chest was larger in sizes than hers was.

Yoji watched as she seemed to say good bye to her brother, and as soon as she fell asleep the beeping started.

-Syaoran-

"Eleanor I'm not having this conversation again, I told you before when Sakura left that was the last I heard from her." Syaoran groaned as he pulled his hand over his face.

"Please you expect me to believe you, I know all about your little affair with her, the little secret your families been hiding." Eleanor ragged, and as she watched his face turn red she knew she hit the right spot.

"Don't you ever talk to me like I'm the only one in the wrong here," Syaoran clinched his teeth together, he had thought he had kept it secret that he and Sakura had spent the night together, but apparently Eleanor had someone spying on him that or she was following him around herself.

"I don't know what you're trying to accuse me off, but I don't like it." She spit out she turned on her hill and headed for her purse.

"I'm accusing you of the same thing you're accusing me of adultery, now I may not know who it is you've been warming my bed with since you and I started seeing each other that doesn't change much of anything." Going over and sitting in a chair he looked over at Eleanor and watched her dig through her purse.

"Oh don't even think about pulling something like that, you're the only one here with an actual secret." Feeling particularly mean at the moment she didn't even bother to turn around to face him but continued to dig through her purse for the other picture she knew she had to of taken with her.

"I don't know what you're talking about, I have no secrets." Syaoran looked at the woman before him and knew he couldn't marry her in two days that was simply imposable.

"I'm talking about your children you keep on the side." Finally finding the other photo she had taken from Yoji's office she turned around with an evil grin n her face.

"I know all about your little affair and about how you did such a wonderful job of covering up you little visits with your daughter, I think its cute that you have Nonie be friends with her." She didn't stop when she saw his face pale she didn't think of it as anything other than triumph. "You know once the world knows what a horrible father you are leaving your children for someone else to take care of, and then go back to that woman on the side only weeks before your wedding." Her grin grew as she saw his jaw tighten, "Who would believe you claming I was sleeping around with another man, when I have more evidence than you do that you're sleeping with a whore." Smiling to herself she handed the picture to him.

Taking the picture into his hand he looked at Sakura sitting on a couch with two children in her arms smiling, grinning he handed the photo back to Eleanor. "That only proves she had twins, and I already knew she had a daughter with a man from England." Syaoran leaned back and sighed he didn't like the idea that she had twins with another man and yet she couldn't even carry one of his children.

Rubbing off everything he just said as a way to cover up his tracks she handed the photo back to him. "Look at the picture frame above them and look at who the reflection is of, and then try to squeeze your way out of it, and even if you try to your father as plenty more pictures of the rates in his office and a photo album.

Syaoran glared at her wondering what she was on, but when he looked back at the photo and really looked not only at the reflection but at the children in it he knew they were his, and that the reflection was of his father.

Standing abruptly he went to his room and left Eleanor standing in the living room with a smug look. He thought he was so smart, she had a feeling for a few weeks now that he was having doubts and he could no longer have them without ruining his family and their business.

What she hadn't expected was for him to burst out of the hall carrying his coat and a suit case with him.

"Where do you think your going?" Following him to the front door,

"I'm leaving and then as soon as you get out of this apartment I'll be putting it up on the market and searching for a new house." Pushing the button on the elevator he waited for the doors to open.

"You can't do that your company name will be ruined people wont want to do business with a father that doesn't give a crap about his children."

"I do business with men all the time that neglect their children I don't care much for them but if they make a good asset for a company or campaign then I'll look at them." Stepping into the elevator he turned around and looked at her.

"I want to thank you for brining this news to my attention." With that said he punched the ground leave button and disappeared from Eleanor's sight.

She didn't know what to think about the dark look in his eyes when the doors closed between them, but she did know is that soon she'd be out on her butt if she didn't do something fast, she had known her wedding was in trouble of being canceled a few weeks ago but now that it had been she had to think of something and fast.

-Sakura-

Running through the power doors and up the elevator she finally made it to the emergency room waiting center, her blood had frozen over when she heard Yoji's voice over the phone shouting at her to come to the hospital because Kyo had just gone into cardiac arrest.

Biting her lower lip she stood at the entrance of the waiting room looking at Misha and Yoji sitting down together with blank looks on their faces.

"Maybe you two should head back to grandpas and I'll call you when he gets out." Sakura stated, not asked as she moved into the room to touch Misha's forehead. She was relived when Misha didn't move her head away from her touch like she had been doing since that morning at the park.

"I think that would be best, I think Misha needs to take a nape, well come back in another hour or two." Standing up Yoji looked at her with a pain stricken face, and kissed Sakura on the forehead and began to make his way out of the room. Sakura looked over her shoulder as they left, and as soon as they were out of the room she fell to the ground and began to cry.

She didn't know what to do, Yoji knew as good she did that Kyo wouldn't make it out of the surgery, she had a feeling over a week ago that she would be saying good bye to him soon. Swallowing the lump in her throat she buried her face in her hands forgetting that her cloths were soaking from the pouring ran outside.

She felt so numb all over her body as she pulled herself over to a chair and lifted herself into it, and lowered her head into her hands again as she rocked. Her heart was sinking further down into darkness, she knew her heart would be perfect for Kyo, her heart was just right for him and not growing abnormally large. Fighting back the need to call her father to come and be with her to help her fight the darkness she felt swallowing her whole; instead she sat and let herself fall into it.

Standing up she walked over to the exit and made her way to the end of the hall to the emergency room and sat on the benches out side the doors. Her hands were running up and down her arms, the hall was sterile and cold exactly like she felt. Looking up and down the hall she found no one, not even a nurse watching over the area. Turning around she looked out side the window and found the storm raging, she could hear the wind rapping against the glass, and the thunder crashing in the distance. Somehow she felt the ragging storm inside her, it was the darkness that she felt, that storm was her darkness.

Standing up she walked to the exit and left the hospital to enter into the darkness, to let it take her and to give life to her son.

-Yoji-

Sitting facing the fire one of their servants made he stared at it with a hollow look, Misha refused to go upstairs to one of the guest rooms to sleep and joined him in the staring contest her grandfather had taken up with the fire.

Neither of them heard when Yelen stood up and see when she placed her book she had been pretending to read down on the coffee table, and go to answer to front door.

Misha looked at the fire still when a man walked into the room dripping wet, Yoji turned around however and saw his son staring at Misha with fascination in his eyes, and Yoji's heart sank he had a feeling everything was about to shift. He hoped that when things changed it would be for the good; because he had no doubt Syaoran knew Misha was his.

"Misha, come here." Syaoran ordered softly drawing the numb little girls gaze to him, he noticed that she had his eyes and his hair, and god she had everything of his how could he have been so blind to not have seen it before that, that little jewel he had been so jealous of Sakura for having was also his.

Looking at her at the moment broke his heart he saw how she had stiffened when she saw him and the hollow look in her eye's the same look Sakura had the day in the park, though Misha's wasn't as intense as Sakura's.

"Misha come here I want to look at you." Bending down to be on the same eye level as her Syaoran held out his hand to her, he missed the small smile that touched Yelen's lips and the astonishment on his fathers face when Misha stood from the chair and made her way to her father.

Taking his hand Misha stared at the man her grandmother and mother had called her father, she was nervous about seeing him this time she didn't know if he would want her, just her without her brother. She had a feeling that someone was going to heaven tonight, and she knew in her heart that Kyo was going to be the one.

"You're beautiful, god you're so beautiful, just like your mother, and your mine, your both mine." Choking on his words Syaoran looked at his daughter and couldn't fight the tears he felt stinging his eyes as he looked at her. "Can I hug you?"

His hand had begun to shake as Misha looked at him, her hand was so small compared to his, and his heart soared when she walking into his arms and hugged him. Hugging her back was the harder than he thought, he didn't know what his heart was going through all the different emotions he felt going through him at one time was more than he could handle.

"Can I call you papa?" Misha whispered in his ear fear laced every word that left her lips.

Laughing Syaoran stood up and walked into his father s study and shut the door, he didn't want his parent to see him cry, and as soon as the door closed his tears of pain and joy came crashing out.

"I would love nothing more than for you to call me that." Squeezing her to his chest he sat on the couch afraid that if he let go she would disappear.

"Where's your brother?" Finally gaining his since back he pulled away a little and looked his daughter in the eyes and asked a question that had been on his mind since he saw the picture of Sakura holding both a little boy and girl so obviously twins other than the eyes.

Chewing on her cheek Misha sat stiff in his arms, he was afraid she wasn't going to tell him anything when finally she began to cry.

"Shhh… its okay, where's you brother, my son." He was amazed at how fast his parental instincts took over his system, but that wasn't as much of a shock as how quickly Misha had accepted him, but he thought it even odder that she asked him before he even told her anything if she could call him father. Brushing that aside he looked down at the weeping angle.

"He's going to heaven to meet God tonight, because he had such a big heart mama said his heart was so kind and caring that it grew too big for him." Misha began to cry harder, as Syaoran's blood ran cold.

He thought back to the first time he hand seen her at the park, he now knew why she seemed so lost, he couldn't place why she thought she couldn't make him happy. He sighed in frustration as a thought struck him she loved the father of her children she had said that the night they had made love, she said she had never stopped loving him, and that she never could stop loving him. He had to smile one short smile knowing that she had told him straight to his face that she loved him, though he didn't know it was him she had confessed she loved. Just as soon as that joy washed over him he remembered he had a son that had died.

Leaning back in the sofa a chill ran down his back.

-Hospital-

"Doctor, they have a heart."

Dr. Kudos face drained of color at the wonderful news and then soon broke into a grin, "Then get the damn thing in here right this instant.

"Yes Doctor." Running out of the E.R. she made her way to where the woman who had just past away was.

-The park 30 minutes earlier-

Standing in the open as the rain pierced her skin the woman looked over the roaring sea, the water was as troubled as her soul was, everything in her life was falling apart she didn't know what to do.

Her body had long ago frozen over from grief and now seemed numb to everything that was around her, her mind was no longer hers the darkness of her soul had taken control of it long ago, and as she watched with horror filed eyes as the ocean crashed into the wall and over itself, she wondered how it would feel to be in it.

Hearing someone she turned around, and felt nothing but the darkness slowly take her over as she fell to the ground pain shooting through her a pain that numb her own…

-Another side of the Park-

A woman walked in the ran heading to the area she was supposed to meet someone at, she didn't want be there she wanted to be here she wanted to go sit and sulk, she had lost her chance for a great life because she thought she had the upper hand, but oh how she was wrong now her carefully laid plans where shoot to pieces. She had nothing left for her, her family wound frown upon her and the world would laugh. There was nothing left.

As she walked through the park she turned more into herself it was getting colder, and her mood had suddenly become very cold. She knew already what this meeting was going to be about, the man she had loved for so long was going to say good bye to her for the last time, and she tried to hold in her emotions like she always had, but her wall was slowly crumbling down, and her tears were starting to sparkle in her eyes.

When she was half way to the place she was too meet him, she looked down the path that was next to the ocean and saw to figures in the distance, shivering she couldn't place if it was the cold of the night with the rain or the thought that the meeting now involved and other person possibly the woman he had betrayed her for and later betrayed the woman for her. Her heart sank and all she wanted to do was jump the railing leading to the ocean, she wanted to die.

Walking faster, she wanted to get the meeting over with, her mood was becoming to dark for her and she wanted to go home and cry her eyes out where no one would see her. A few yards from the two figures she heard thunder rocket through the park, but saw no lightning. Her heart dropped when she saw the figure of a woman fall to the ground, stepping backwards she chocked on a sob.

She had never seen anyone be killed, she chocked on another sob of pain and took another step back when she saw the man raise from the ground with the woman's purse and a .32 in his hand.

Eyes wild the man looked at her, and when he saw her they churned to rage.

"Look what you made me do, this is your fault if you hadn't been late I wouldn't have mistaken her for you!"

"I… please… please." Her eyes wild with fear she stepped back and her hill caught in a crake and broke sending her to the ground, and with one last try to get up the man stood before her the gun raised. Not willing to plea for a life she knew was already gone she closed her eyes and bowed her head, she knew if she lived she would die of sorrow, so why not let him end her life, it would be so much easier.

The shoot range in her ears as the built pierced her, slowly lowering herself to the ground she heard grunts and a man yell, before everything went black.

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That's the end of this chapter I hope that you guys enjoyed it sorry if theirs any to or too errors or anything else you cant catch everything. Well have a wonderful day, and stay tuned for chapter 8! It's a duzy!