Bakumastu's Best Romance Novel
Fhb
R- Drama/romance.
An: Tomorrow is my last update…(sighs)
Chapter 14- Love wounds, caught, quarrels and sleeping with you…
Kaoru would have drowned in his arms accepting the affectionate hold, but she pulled back, her eyes frightened and burning an alive conscious of hindrance.
"No…" she look so scared. Her eyes so vulnerable and innocent looking…
He bit his lips in restraint, hissing at the failure for her to comply. Gruffly fixing his clothing he looked at her promisingly …
"You remember how I use to cut myself Kaoru?" he asked…
She nodded, tears in her eyes. How could she forget…
"Let my blood, just once…touch yours…" he begged…
"…What are you saying?" she asked fearfully, her eyes full of tears of fright. The bellows of her heart were weighed in this invisible weight that came from no where…
"…Let ---let---aghh---let m-e-, me cut your hand" he offered, taking the blade out…
Fear pumped it's way through her body and all she wanted to do was hide and be safe. Never to see such weapons. Knowing what he wanted her to do gave her an adrenalin-rush, and to subside something that meant dearly to him she found inner-like killing.
"Eric?" she tried so hard…
"I --need you…because I understood from the guys, you've always been there for me…and I want to be there for you" he whispered passionately
"Eric, that was then…" she turned her face from his…her voice croaking
"I wanna be with you…Kaoru" he walked to her, kissing the shell of her ear…
Tears fell.
"Please…stop it" she whispered sadly
"Oh God please Kaoru…I'm begging you…"
She pulled back from him looking deeply into his eyes. Swallowing the truth that lay on the core of his eyes she whispered, "okay Eric…cut me" she cried…she let her wrist out…
Pulling her into him, he hugged her from behind. Kissing her cheek, he brought the blade down on her wrist. Penetrating her wrist, she cried out burying her face into his chest…
"Shh baby…shh…its nearly done" he cut down until he was completed
Raising her hand to his mouth he licked her blood. Kaoru cried, it hurt so bad. She hurt so much. He sent his blade over his wrist in one slash. Red blood protruded giving rise to the birth of pain---with that, he allowed their wrists to touch, blood touching blood. In the surrender of pain and tears, Kaoru found herself away from nirvana and into a world only filled of shards…
"What are you doing to her?" came a cold hollow voice…
Eric and Kaoru stepped back from each other. Still standing close to each other. Taking the knife from his hand, she saw the shadow that spoke…
"Get away from her" Kenshin walked out the dark presenting himself to the two. Pushing the boy away from Kaoru, he inspected her face. It was in tears. Pulling her away, she followed him…
Leading her away from the blonde boy, he stopped in a place only filled of fire-flies.
"What were you two doing" he asked coldy
"Nothing…" blood bled from Kaoru's hand. It was not like Kenshin didn't scent it, it was just he was uncertain of what was the reason. For all he knew, she could be going through her pms.
Then the blade from her fingers became slippery…and the blade fell…
Watching the knife he noticed it was in blood.
Pushing her against the wall hard he looked angrily into her eyes…
"What the frick do you think you're doing?" he was literally in her face…
"My business…why should you care…" she pushed him back, her hand of blood becoming revealed.
"What the hell is this?" he asked vehemently
"My business" she spat coldly…
"You're suicidal aren't you…what's been up with you these past few days? Huh?" he dare her to reply…
"Let me go…" she ordered…
"No I won't…"
"I said, to let me go…"
"Let her go" came Eric's defensive voice…
"Eric, just go, please" Kaoru cried warningly.
Eric however chose not to listen, running into Kenshin, the hitokiri slashed him lightly across the chest.
Kaoru couldn't believed he did that. Slapping Kenshin solid across the face, he held onto her hand and pushed her against the wall…
"You're really starting to edge me"
"I said…to let me go…" she growled, trying to get out his grasp..
"No…not again"
"Aghh!! Let me go"
"No, I'm not done talking to you…"
Kaoru closed her eyes. Pushing his head against her cheek, he scented her skin… "you've be kissed" he drawled…
"Let me tell you something Kaoru, I am Hitokiri Battousai and I am one damn possessive guy, and I'll tell you, I don't want to see my girl in someone else's arms…you got that…?" he pulled her to him…
She didn't answer…
"You got that?"
"Well you know what? I'm not your girl" she voice coldly for him…
Kenshin blinked back, "really? Since when?"
"When you started liking Sakura" she pushed out his grasp.
"Sakura? Hah!" he laughed. Lifting her up in one shot over his shoulder, he pulled her away from everyone and made his way to one of the carriages with her.
Pushing her against the seat to lie down, he came over her.
"Now that's interesting" he started, looking down at her…
"Is it? I've tried so hard for days for you to notice me…and you won't even see me…you don't care don't you?" she cried…
"You're right Kaoru…I don't care…I don't care for her. But I care for you…" he spoke truthfully…
"Then why didn't you kiss me the other day when I asked you too? Or why didn't you speak to me, or even be at my side when I was angry?" she cried…
"Because the day you asked me for my kiss, I had a kill, that same afternoon. We didn't take the kill the night before because of you. I wasn't at your side koishii because I thought you wanted your space. And I did try to speak to you, but Sakura came between us. The only reason I act like I'm kinna attached to her…is because ---I was taken care of a woman called Sakura when I was young…and I don't know…perhaps I let that intercept. And though they don't resemble, they're kind, but not as sweet as you. Sakura bugs me Kaoru…that's why I like to confine with you…and I'm sorry------th-that I made you hurt" he swallowed the lump.
Kaoru rose from her lying position… "you really mean it?" she asked with a tear-track face…
"Of course I do" he whispered…
She smiled. Making her way to his lips, he trust his against hers.
"Mmmm--- I have been waiting for this a long time" they both spoke…
They both lunged forward hugging each other for several moments.
"Kenshin my hand is hurting…" she cried
He stopped. "Koishii…did you cut yourself…"
She nodded no…
"Okay…that asshole is going to die" Kenshin got up…
"No…please, don't" she cried…
"Kaoru…you ask me to do the hardest things. We have to get you back to the Ishin shishi immediately"
She nodded. Leaving her side, he promised he be back.
Stating the issue with her hand to the Ishin shishi, the large group made tracks to go back home. Kaoru sat on Kenshin's lap just looking as the world passed her eyes.
"I feel like Cinderella" she whispered for him to hear… (An: yeah Disney didn't come out back then, it was in 1954 Disney came out or so. So I just need to improvise with ideas--lala)
"Whose that?" he asked
"A girl who found her prince" she looked at him..
She leaned into the crook of his neck watching out the window, feeling so loved under the stars…
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"What happened?"
"I just got scratched by a tree" she lied…
"Kaoru…what's wrong honey?" he asked… "are you unhappy?" Katsura asked his one and only child
"No papa… (she cries)" Kaoru cried…
"Then honey…how did you get it? I'm worried of you Kaoru…" she could see tears in his eyes…
She had no words as tears fell down her face, "your room is in black, you have pictures of killing yourself…you talk to ravens…and cutting yourself?" he cried in a question…
"What are these drawings about?" he handed her…
She cried seeing her gothic art.
"I-I--" she could only cry…
"What is it sweetheart, are you hurting?" he cried…
"Why cut yourself?" he asked…
"I didn't" she cried…
"Then sweetheart, who did it?" he asked…
"I--I can't tell you daddy?" she wailed…
"My baby…why---why have grown apart so suddenly?" he cried…and so did she. Everyone crowded around Kaoru and her father.
"I'm sorry daddy…I'm sorry I'm not your good Kao…" she cried…
"Oh sweetheart…you're always daddy's angel. Always daddy's good Kao.." he croakily spoke…
"Thank you daddy…" she shivered, biting her lips…
"Your welcome honey…just don't ever do it again…okay?" he asked…
She nodded…
"Kenshin" Katsura addressed.
"Hai"
"You have been upgraded" the man spoke tall…
"Upgraded?"
"Yes, you will be at my daughter's side for most of her outdoor activities. You are strictly to stay with her. I can't have her repeating these episodes. I want you to be a guard, so if it means sleeping by her window I want that…" the man got up and left somewhat hurt from everything.
Kaoru watched her father disappear from her. 'Daddy' stumbling to her feet, she ran through the crowd of people making her way to her father.
"Daddy" she called like when she was small…
He stopped.
"I'm sorry…" she whispered…
He turned to her…
Running to him she hugged him, "I'm so sorry" she cried falling on her knees. He fell with her and cradled her…
"Shh angel, shh…I know you're sorry. But daddy is worn. He needs sleep…and some time to heal from all the events ---but that doesn't mean I don't love you a day less, a moment less…I always love you…" he kissed her forehead…
"Arigatou" she pulled back seeing him smiling down at her.
"Go get that wound clean and go to bed." he paused, "Kenshin…please take her to the doctor"
He nodded. Walking to Kaoru, she stood and walked away from her father…
Kenshin and Kaoru walked down the lone hall.
"I didn't know you became so---suicidal Kaoru" Kenshin suggested…
"I am not" came her diminutive voice…
"Humph"
She stopped him, "do you think I'm mad too?" she asked frighten…in a whisper form.
"…I'd never think you mad, just upset" he touched her cheek…
"..I need to be comforted from everything…" she begged, her eyes watering from insecurity, frustrations, pains and mortal physical inflictions.
"You don't need to ask like if we're strangers…I am your Kokoro, so I should know…wouldn't I?" he kissed her…
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During the night a knock came on the door. Kenshin perked up, he had been sleeping against Kaoru slightly.
"Kenshin" came a whisper…
Covering Kaoru he proceeded to the door.
"Hai…"
"We have a kill, get ready" Katsura addressed
Kenshin nodded. Blood was something he could not clean his hands from. No matter how much he looked at Kaoru, it was something she could not remove, a stain forever imprinted on his mind, his soul…and his heart. Kaoru sighed to herself, she felt around in her place, her brows becoming knit from worry. Slowly opening her eyes, she saw her kenkaku standing marveling at her. As if he was watching her one last time. Her body inwardly crumbled at the thought. She could not. About to get up, he rushed to her;
"I do not understand the look in your eyes" she whispered worriedly at him…
He stooped. Cradling her cheek, he swallowed the lump. If one day he was forced to leave this, how could he? How would the end look? Without her? He allowed their foreheads to touch. He wish fate wasn't as cruel as he envisioned it. Kaoru felt this bad ki he emitted.
She held unto his hand, smoothening her cheek in his palm.
Her eyes welled with tears. Things that were unspoken were already said in his eyes--in his ki.
"I---I" she choked a sob.
He placed a single finger to her lips.
"Shh…tonight I have a kill…" he placed his next hand to the side of her cheek.
"You're…not leaving me forever…right?" she asked innocently curious at him…tears falling from her eyes…
"No…" he whispered. Wiping the tears away. Gently, and carefully he placed her head back unto the headstand. He looked into her eyes. Their eyes were timed to the next, emitting a romance which was almost numb to understand but it was there to somehow breathe.
She let out an inward sigh and waited for him to comfort her…
"You shall sleep tonight…" he paused and kissed her forehead slowly like a father to his daughter, "and I promise you, I will be at your side…tomorrow…always" he slowly moved away from her…
Placing on his clothes, she marveled at him with expectant eyes. Worry still married her senses, and he knew he couldn't subtract her pain. She was like a glass ornament so fragile, he protected for a generation, for love, for selfishness…and most importantly, himself. With all reasons known, he tied his hakama belt another time. Looping his katanas through, he saw how interested she became watching him.
"Sleep…" he begged her, pulling the tanto from the door…
"Okay…" she whispered softly…
Nodding, he ran out the door proceeding to Katsura and the other men.
"Gentlemen, we have ourselves a little issue" spoke Katsura knowingly.
Kenshin arched a brow.
"Tonight…we fight for the hiding area of the Ishin shishi. Remember if you are caught off guard, do not return to the Ishin shishi. As cold as my remark is, you must remember who you are, a samurai. Live the honor, forget the relationship you have grown with others. Burry your triviality and fight for a new morn. Fear no evil, for the devil shall fear you. Drink no burden and none shall engross in you. Love your sword, and your sword shall fight. Insanity is as sanity will. Remember my men, killing is not a sin, if we kill the ones we hate, for the ones…we love" he paused watching how his men became somewhat scared, broken…perhaps---hurt from his words.
"Seppaku is your only alternative if you are caught, or forced to speak. Kill the enemy, or die by their hands…dismissed, Izuika, you know the strategy…dismissed" the man nodded.
The men left the Ishin shishi that night, turning their backs on the things they loved and had grown attached to. Such memories would never be forgotten, not even if they were taken to the grave.
Chazu didn't feel his heart decided. He felt so confused. Looking back on everything he loved, he looked at his home, his teacher:- Kogoro Katsura…and the female who looked at him with tears in her eyes…Ninsuko…
She raised a hand to bade him…
He fisted his sword in his hands and rose it at her. 'I shall not fail you' he lisped
'I believe you…my Chazu'
Izuika assembled the men. "We ride into the East, follow my pace or don't follow at all" he curtly spoke. Everyone nodded.
Hopping on their horses, Iziuka saw the prettiest sight. There peeping out her window was a small sapphire-eye girl looking at them. She wore glassy eyes that were soiled in tears.
Izuika read through the letter pretentiously, "she can't keep her eyes off of you, you know" Izuika whispered…
Kenshin looked at him oddly. Turning around he manage to see his lady looking on, she immediately hide behind a curtain, yet her large blue eyes still sparkled under the dense sky of stars…
He smirked. "All roses were made for reasons…" Kenshin eyes didn't budge from Kaoru …
"You're a lucky boy you know…"
"If blood stained on my heart forever to be seen by the innocents is known as lucky, then spit words to the grave coz my ears need not hear it" Kenshin leered vehemently at the man.
"Humph" a grim smug on the man's face, "follow me" he shouted riding into the East…
The group of men disappeared into the East, Kaoru held a hand over her heart. 'Kami keep him safe when he feels all light has gone'
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Kenshin ran through the bushes, 'I am going to cut your head off Shinsen.' Stopping in his one place, he waited for the signal from Izuika. The sound of hooves and horses could be heard.
"Yahhh" shouted what seem to be a coachman.
Izuika timed the carriage, 'come on---come on…' he muttered under his breath.
Signaling Kenshin, the young hitokiri busted through the bushes. Running to the same speed of the carriage, he jumped on slashing the coachman in half. Slamming his foot into the door, he entered, assassinating all that lay in his way. Having done his very simple mission, he jumped out.
Flicking the blood off his sword, he stood perfectly still awaiting what seem only civil, only expected….
"Well what do we have here, the lone Hitokiri Battousai?" came a sinister voice.
"Saito" Kenshin snapped, knowing the sinister voice of the wolf far too well…
Slowly, the Shinsen revealed themselves from the darkness, peering at the Ishin shishi with eyes full of sardonic hate. Rivalry which was as grim as Satan and God the both parties coldly stared at the next.
"This is the Battousai gentlemen, the one which has made hundreds fall to the stroke of his one sword"
Kenshin stood listening to the gibberish Saito was informing to his men. A few odd whispers sporadically circled around in the group.
"How does it feel to be ambushed by the unknown?" Saito's amber eyes burning flames…
Bit by bit the Shinsen circled the Ishin shishi in a small ball.
"Do you have any last words to say men-of-the-never-to-come-government?" voiced the atrocious Saito…
Chazu raised his hand.
"Yes…what is it my boy?"
"One, I'm not your boy. Too, you're going down asshole" came his anew defiant voice.
Kenshin smirked.
Saito grew grim. "Kill them…kill them all" he shouted…
Charging into the group of men, Kenshin awaited what seem to be all too easy. They came and he waited, timing their breathing, heartbeat rate, ki impulse and most importantly, their adrenalin.
Having everything understood and timed to perfection, he placed a hand over his blade. Ready to strike the awesome Battoujitsu.
His right hand already on his blade, his left hand on the sheath waiting very patiently for the perfect second. Wicked Shinsen
Right before their very eyes, he was gone before their very eyes only to be rematerializing in their face. Slashing them across their body's in halves, blades and clothing went with his one cut.
Running through the many lines of Shinsen, his one thought was why he could never stop the madness.
Stopping. He saw Saito.
Walking to the man, a new face lit paths with him. There in the distance was what seem to be mistake and the calling of the fates. A woman was approaching the scene. She was approaching walking through the many the rivers of blood, the graves of men. She wore a white kimono with blue about it, then as she kept passing through the rivers of blood, her kimono became stained. Looking up at her, he felt as if he was seeing things. The woman was no other than Kaoru…she walked through a man that was being slashed, she only bowed her head.
"You kill and you ask yourself why" was her only remark...then she faded into the shadow…
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Very few Ishin shishi returned the next morning. It was still dark. Kenshin peeled off his clothes and entered his bath. Burying his face in the water, he tried to understand why a ghostly vision of Kaoru would come to him? He opened his eyes under the water, all he saw was red. All he heard were screams, seeing this face of a screaming woman and child, he surfaced. Sighing to himself, he wished the madness would stop. Covering his face with a hand, he swallowed the lump on the things he had done. Never again could they be undone. Washing up, he wiped up then proceeded to place on his yukata. Wiping his hair he walked up the stairs, opening Kaoru's room he saw her sleeping. He examined her, his eyes lingering on her peaceful face. Picking up the tanto from the table he pushed it through the door and shoji locking it firmly from opening. He sat near the window watching the moon, wondering and thinking his life over.
'May I find some peace at least Kami---in her arms'
He yawned 'Please'
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An: Well what's up guys? Made the cut for it, and I have finally gotten down to make a bonus chapter which is next chap. Tomorrow will be my last update until December perhaps. I wanna say its mainly studies which is hindering me from updating. I recently found out something, and that's I need to update badly. Well hope you guys like this update!!
BxK are back together…
Well take care everyone. ROCK ON!!