Bakumastu's Best Romance Novel
Fhb
R- Drama/romance.
An: High Percent of Waff and sensual intones.
Chapter 15- Being there, pacifism confusion, dirty secrets and beach-love…
-Dedicated to Battousai-Luver… (sorry I couldn't make a lemony-waffy fic, it's too close to school and I know I'd need some couple of good days to work on it. Please I apologize, but this chap was written just for you…thank you again)
(Chirping of birds)
Sunlight pierced through the curtains and window of a small room. There in one futon, two sleepy lovers slept. Awaking from the rays that stung her face, awoke a pretty face. Her artistic, aesthetic eyes blinked open to a serene blue which the ethereal heavens granted her. Her cherubic face felt something against her skin. Turning she saw what made her gasped.
'He promised and he came…'
Her impertinent little face grew a bit wicked. She sat up on her elbows looking at his quiet content face. She long for him to be this way. And one day he would be, and no, not in his death, but by her side, forever. She was a little girl who believed in fairy-tales but she didn't care because she believed great things could happen if we believe and have faith. Trying wasn't a crime and she wasn't afraid to try.
His fiery locks, resembling flames and blood on steel, were seen beyond as something else, seen as rich roses melted together, their rich shade flowing into his face. His masculine face, cut to perfection by all perfect heavens made her leaned over. How she long to do this. Looking at his perfect and sweet face, she found it impossible not to kiss and be greedy with. 'Salvation gave us heroes and lovers. And if mine is between the both, I must be living a dream'
Turning all her hair to the side so it wouldn't tumble into his face, she slowly made her way down to his lips, those lips that parted even in sleep to accept her. She breathed slowly timing his breathing as well. Closing her eyes slowly, she was caught off guard to the sight of her heaven awaking. Kenshin fluttered open his eyes to see what made him whole to her. Awaiting her, her lips touched his. They didn't move, but then she kissed him again. His eyes were so drowned into her beauty, that the feeling became sensual. Ambers too rude to maintain glossed with everything wrong. Kissing her back harsher than her kisses, her eyes fluttered open. His eyes were closed as he kissed her. She opened her mouth in a smile kissing him harder herself. Closing her eyes she melted into his arms that enrapt her. She was suddenly turned over so he was on top kissing her. She parted her lips waiting for his wonderful relaxing kisses…
"Kenshin…Kaoru get up…I don't want to see anything I'm not suppose to ---so open up" Ninsuko offered.
They let go of each other. Kenshin placed a hand in his head, 'this girl'
"Talk to her…" he pointed at the sapphire eye girl…
Kaoru giggled.
"What if I don't?" she giggled…
Kenshin arched a naughty brow. He came so close to her face, their eyes were a 8cm distance apart from each other, "if you don't I'll tickle you, like this" he tickled her. She giggled and laughed, her giggles traveled through hauls, sifting through shoji's.
"I'm sorry" she screamed!!
Kenshin and Kaoru were having a wale of a time in the room. He pelt the sheet in her face making her scream. She got up screaming out in anger and cuteness…
She walked to him cornering. "I'll make sure you suffer" she spoke silvery.
"Sure you will" he rolled his eyes in joke… "I'm so scared" he rose his hands in fright, yet she read mock all over his actions.
Picking up her ruler she lashed it down on his head.
"Ouchh" he rubbed his head
She laughed, then she stuck out her tongue. "Good for you" she teased. Then she turned her back.
Kenshin rubbed his head, 'oh we'll see who it's good for'
He caught her by her waist, she screamed.
He lifted her up and brought her to the futon, dropping her down, she groaned out in pain.
"Ouchh…this isn't a bed you know. My bomb is hurting" she rubbed her butt.
He laughed. "Well its good for you" copying yours truly.
She narrowed her eyes. He grinned loving how cute she looked pouting and trying to be angry. A while later, Kenshin placed on his gi and hakama ready for breakfast. Going to her he placed a hand beside both sides of her head. Looking wickedly into her eyes, he kissed her cheek and began pretentiously biting her cheek, she giggled.
"Stopp…" she squealed…
"What was that?" he played bite her cheeks…
"Stopppp" She shrieked.
"Noooo" he laughed pulling back. "Come on" he pulled her to her feet.
"Lets go Kenni-sama"
Kenshin stopped in shock. "What?"
"I said lets go Kenni-sam---ahh---you thought I called you a god, HA!! You got that wrong"
"You said it, admit it"
"Nah-uh"
"Say it"
"Nope…"
"Say it"
"No"
"Come on"
"No"
"Come now"
"NOO! NO IS NO! SO BLAH"
He pouted cutely. "Don't be a bad baby for your sugar is gonna have to spank yuh" she reprimanded him.
"You wish" he leered at her…
"What was that Kenshin Himura?" she screamed out somewhat…
"Ahh, I see someone likes my name?!" he grinned evilly.
She narrowed her eyes, "what's that suppose to mean?"
He whispered over her ear, "somebody wants my surname" he whispered in her ear. She shivered…
"Well I am going to have it…" she said informingly.
He arched a brow leaning against the door, "oh really?" he mused…
"Oh yes" she placed a finger under his chin, "and soon…" she winked one of her eyes before pulling the tanto out, "or else" she threatened in joke to kill him.
He grinned.
"Well I await then…" he paused whispering in her ear shallowly "Mrs. Himura" he kissed her ear. She blushed.
"Good…coz I await it much more than you think" she spoke flatly.
He grinned.
She opened the door, "await what more than he thinks?" asked Ninsuko and her group.
The group folded their arms looking at both Kenshin and Kaoru
"So good morning Mr. and Mrs. Himura." it was the first time Ninsuko personally addressed Kenshin, verbally and force-rightly.
They looked at the group in shock
--
--
Kaoru and Kenshin went to have breakfast sitting close to each other, Kaoru yawned. Her head was on her food table. She was so tired, Kenshin realized this.
"Sleepy…?"
"..No" she whispered…
"What's the matter?" he asked…
"Many died didn't they?" she looked up. Her mood was changed…
"Men?" he asked
"Yes"
"Yes…" he nodded…
"Why…?" she asked. He could not answer.
Getting up she walked outside to see all the wounded.
She bowed her head.
'Kami why does so many have to be wounded? Why couldn't we just be in peace and live happy lives? Is it so much to ask? Have men forgotten to be like children just to ask so kindly? Does faith only come when we realize we need a providence? Why is corruption the fuel in the blood of the wicked and righteousness the initiative in the good? Why do we always have to hurt each other for something we want?'
Kaoru went to the front of the dojo…
Her eyes couldn't believe the sight. So many were wounded, bleeding and slowly fading into the far beyond. Kaoru closed her eyes tightly. Clenching her fist, she felt strong arms hold her comfortingly. She snapped. Turning around she looked at the reasons for all the blood…
"How many will die again for your country?" she gritted her teeth, her eyes welling in tears…
"Kaoru--please" Katsura tried to explain
"Father…why does murdering always seem to be the easiest way? How can you sleep father? Hmm? Can you at all? Doesn't it suppress your righteousness and your honor as a man, as a samurai? Do you not see what you do isn't a future of wonder, it is for a future of death, with no men father there can be no future. But of course you see it quite differently don't you?" she shivered, her eyes in tears.
"I try my dearest…but this nation…in any direction we turn we see blood. There is no room for the alternative---------pacifism.." he whispered…
"No room for pacifism? And what is there room for blood and the death of the innocents? If you could admit something to me in my face father I'd like to hear it, then I'd know who was the real murderer. None of these men deserve to die but by forcing them to kill for your dreams isn't really a dream at all is't it? It's just a thought---can you live knowing you are the reason they have slay and killed just for a dream which they themselves thought possible? What is the reason for peace if we have forgotten what it means? You have forgotten your wife's reason, your child's existence and the meaning of living in the boundary of sanity. You have dubbed your soul in insanity father, never can you be rinsed from the political oppression, suffering, mindless suppression and dirt of the devil himself." she paused her soul paining...truly burning with pain…
Kenshin walked to Katsura who looked at the floor…
"That is enough" Kenshin came over Katsura halting her from her words…
"Kenshin I am" "I said---that is enough" he shut her up.
She cocked her head to the side. "D-do you believe what I say is true?" she whispered, a few tears falling.
He walked to her. Looking into her eyes, he whispered, "I am a murderer, I have actually carried out your father's wish, and I ---chose to. There is a choice to everything Kaoru. Something you fail to see, when you became a pacifist you had a choice. It is this choice that leads us to our mistakes and talents, but somewhere along the line we believe we are not perfect…so why do you feel that your father is? Just because he is an adult you blame him for the things he thought was right? Do not blame him for where he has seen wrong but you have seen right, for the tale is always scariest from who you've heard it from. Remember weather wrong or right, we are nothing on the battlefield, we are bad and good. No two ways of looking at it again. But certain to be known, we know how it feels to hurt and we remember and we learn…and there is the mistake we really do learn from…and you will, in time"
She shook her head, tears in her eyes. "I don't believe you" she walked past him.
He held her hand. She turned her face to him, swallowing the lump she saw his amber eyes becoming calm. "And there are mistakes we can never learn from because…we chose to be ignorant" he let go of her hand…
She shut her eyes and bit her lips. She walked past her father and made her way to the kitchen.
Katsura put a hand on Kenshin's shoulder, "thank you, Himura-san" he actually addressed Kenshin his surname for the first time in so many months.
He nodded. Walking back inside the girls quickly served breakfast mainly because they had lots of injured men to attend to.
Kaoru sat next to Kenshin in peace. She was still angry with him. Half-way through her meal, she stopped and slowly tears fell down her face. Picking her meal up she ran to the kitchen. Washing up her bowls and plates she ran into the medical room. There not too far from her were the many wounded bodies of the Ishin shishi.
"Dr. Tiki can I help you?" asked Kaoru softly…
"Ah Kaoru my dear, I didn't even see when you entered. You're becoming quite a sneaky one. Oh come over, sure you can help me" the doctor addressed seeing Kaoru was somewhat calm and over subservient.
Kaoru attended to the wounded man's hand, her motives were silent yet big. The doctor sensed some inner confusion.
"Something wrong Kao-chan?" she asked
"No…not really" she whispered…
The doctor inspected Kaoru, her eyes weren't as bright as usual, something must have been wrong.
"Do you think we become ignorant from the things we do at times?" she asked out of the blooms
"Hmm…well, it depends Kaoru. It depends on the kind of mind we have. If we believe in dictation for people then yes it is wrong" the doctor reckoned
"No, I didn't mean like that. I mean our dreams, to live it---is it sometimes so backwards, it's a mistake but we're so ignorant we don't know?" she asked
"Well Kaoru honey, dreams all usually intend to be for a good cause. Sometimes people overact or perhaps get different ideas which actually helps the primal dream. Sometimes the things we do, like our "side-line" dreams can be for the best or worst, but when we do have them we have to determine weather its right or wrong, if we don't we may never know if they even helped you…or your primal dream most importantly" she inclined.
"Would you say pacifism is an ignorant dream?" she asked softly…
"Of course not honey. I believe pacifism is one of the most righteous things to attain or do. But there are different pacifist, and you're not like the others that's for sure" she whispered
"What do you mean?" Kaoru asked uncertainly…
"Ouchh" the man groaned
"Sorry" Kaoru gently dubbed the man's hand with medication.
"Well you're one of the most extraordinary pacifist I have ever seen. You're extremely determined and nothing seems to break your ego. I swear if there's something to be afraid of is the lamenting of your ego being broken. You're so special Kaoru. You have so much and your heart its so big, not for yourself, but for humanity and this nation. For one this nation needs a savior and saviors come in all different forms, from Gods, idols and to gifted humans, like you, the rising sun of Japan pacifist."
"Thanks Tiki-san---you give a lot of hope and wonder to a person…a shame really" Kaoru whispered.
"A shame?" came the odd question
"I keep none for myself" Kaoru finished.
The woman plastered a small face, "now that is the heart of a pacifist"
Kaoru frowned oddly. She wasn't sure what she was, or what she wanted. Finishing off cleaning the injured men and giving courage to the living-dead, she manage so far to hold one back from completely leaving reality, but there were those her heart broke for, those that leaped into the forever darkness. Never to be known again. Or even remembered as the legend himself. Kaoru sighed. She opened the shoji and ran up the stairs, 'So much killing kami--so much'
Opening her door, she began changing. Closing her eyes tightly she wished it would stop, she wished the spinning-ride she placed herself on would stop so she could breathe so the vertigo wouldn't cloud her visions of reality, but that was all too hard …
"Angry at yourself?" came a cold voice. Slick and silver like a serpents tongue for its taste.
Kaoru fluttered open her eyes. Standing in the corner of her room, melting in the shadow was no other than him.
"No" came her snappy reply.
"Spiffy…" he whispered.
She didn't bother to argue with him. Placing on her blue kimono she tied her sash making it into a beautiful bow. Pulling the scarf from her hair she threw it on her futon. Running over her futon she raised it up taking out a black hair holder. Tying her hair in a hide side pony she pulled at it so it was high and wild looking.
"Where are you off too?"
"Out for the day" she answered back
He followed her…
"What are you doing?" she turned around upset more than ever.
"I am your body-guard, or have you forgotten I have been upgraded to anywhere you go?" he hinted with a thoughtful arch of the brow.
"Dressed that way?" she pointed off
He didn't looked at his clothes, "one second" he walked down to his room changing from his yukata. Coming out in a dark blue gi and black hakama she saw he wore his hat. He looked simply delicious. She wanted so bad to do something naughty but she held back her thoughts with a hard bite of her lips.
"Lets hit the road" she cliché
He nodded.
They both existed the compound heading out into Kyoto's bright streets. The sun was way high and people were already beginning their daily routine. Kaoru sniffed the smell of baking bread. It smelled great. She hadn't eaten out her meal mainly because of her disturbing thoughts but thinking of it more closely she'd been eating more. Maybe it was because Japanese food had more taste than English foods.
She went over to a bread-store asking for a hot bun. She bought two offering Kenshin one. He refused. She nodded back saying 'fine suit yourself, more for me'
They walked through the streets. Kenshin was two steps behind her, his watch alert and constantly darting from alley to alley where the unknown seekers meddled in. His eyes caught the sight of three beautiful ladies, around his age. They giggled at him waving out. He didn't want to be intrigued today so he just turned his stare to the now latched on Kaoru. Her arms were around his arm. 'So I see somebody gets jealous quickly.' Kenshin allowed her to keep the close contact with him. They walked in silence. Kaoru felt a tension she couldn't maintain, sighing to herself she opened her mouth but was shut off…
"I forgive you, you don't need to ask for my apologies" came his cool voice…
A small blushed made its way on her cheeks. He smirked. Just for the littlest things she blushed.
Kaoru laced her fingers through his and stopped him in his tracks. He cocked his head to the side giving an innocent stare of 'what you're doing?'.
Biting her again red lips, she tip-toed forward and kissed him on the lips. He smirked across her lips, she giggled feeling his lips pulling on her bottom lip which was between his lips. She giggled bringing attention to them. Kenshin then sensed ki differentiations echoing throughout the ground. He unconsciously kissed Kaoru, his eyes on his surrounding. There not too far from them was the Shinsen-gumi. Pulling apart from Kaoru, he lifted her up and ran to the alley.
"Ken-" "shhh" he interjected her.
She respected that. Peeking her head with his, she looked at what seem to be the oddest looking men she saw.
"Who are they?" she asked curiously
"Shinsen-gumi" he curtly answered
"Sooo?" she wasn't even sure of who he fought
"They were the ones we fight against. If that man there" he pointed to the man with amber eyes.
"Yeah, what about him?" she asked
"If he saw me alone with you, and um, kissing he'd definitely attack. The Shinsen are the ones who fight against us for the old government. They are the ones who want the corruption and oppression not your father. He knows they'll never listen so he tries to fight for a tomorrow of peace, but behind that peace is the fact that blood has to be spilt, blades broken and many left to die…do you understand why we fight, why I kill?" he asked her.
She looked into his eyes "no" she whispered
"It is because----I kill the ones I hate for the ones---I want to be with" he held her hand kissing it gently.
She touched his cheek, "you don't have to kill koishii, I will always be with you…" she whispered.
He pushed her against the wall, "where in a grave?" his face was somewhat flush and anger-filled.
"No Kenshin, not in a grave, I'll always be here…at your side" she cradled his cheek…
"But it hurts when I think of all the alternatives---the negativity" she nestled her finger on his lips
"But that can't happen Kenshin" she informed
"Oh and why is that?" he asked smoothening his cheek in her palm
"Because…" she bit her lips cutely, "I am your angel"
He smiled.
"You could make me die…" he pointed off, "Oh god Kaoru you're so adorable"
"I'm not a dolly" she pouted
"Yes you are… and mine as well" they both walked out the alley through the next side…
"Okay maybe your dolly, but I don't want to be a doll" she spoke…
"Okay fine, what about a rose?" he asked
She bit her lips, "I hate roses" she sadly answered.
"Why?" he asked, a bit shock a girl like her would hate roses…
"When I was a little girl, my grandma said I could never be a rose. I would always be the flowers on the side, just a plain white flower" she sadly related
"And why is that?" he asked
"Because she said my mother was already the rose, I'd have to be the white flower…always adorning the rose for the beauty it impose" she whispered sadly. Kenshin stopped her… turning her to him.
"That's bullshit! Your grandma doesn't know what she's saying. Even if she did, you'd know that being a white flower is beautiful by itself and it doesn't need a flower to make it beautiful, because it just is. Take away the plain white flowers from the side of a rose, you see the rose for its true shade. It has its thorns---and warns something. But your flower says---hold me. Remember little girls learned to pick up wild white flowers before ever holding roses in their hand, its got to mean something" he whispered
"Like what?" she asked
"That you are beautiful to so many…"
She smiled weakly.
--
--
--
Kenshin and Kaoru found themselves by a beach just watching the water as the sun shined down on both.
Kaoru sat on Kenshin leaning back on him whilst his arms wrapped around her.
"So a time I barfed in a boy's face" she groused out…
"Eww…you were really nasty" he laughed
"Kenshinnn" she scolded…
"Now now, no use hiding from it" he pointed off
"Shut up! It's your turn by the way. Tell me one of your dirtiest secrets" she asked…
"Dirty---as in what dirty?" he asked with evilness in his eyes
She looked into his eyes, "I think you know what I mean" she pushed her lips against his speaking the words against his lips.
"Alright…I hope you can take this" he sauntered.
Kaoru bit her lips "I certainly can"
"Good. I sketch" he said…
"You sketch..? What?" she asked in a confused manner
"You…" he looked off at the sea…
"Me?"
"Yeah you…"
"In what way?"
"As a good angel gone bad"
--
--
An: Well its kinna incomplete, but I advise all to use their imagination. Well this is my big break from fanfiction. I must admit it was lots of fun to right this chapter. Battousai-Luver this is dedicated to you since I couldn't make a fanfiction immediately for you. I hope you like it chica. Well take care everyone I'm outha here!
Bye guys…
ROCK ON!!