Heyy guys! Due to the large amount of reviews I got (I think 3 for a one-shot is good), I decided to turn Thank You into a larger fic for my so called good romance one-shots, which I call My So-Called Good Romance/Angst Fics. I cannot say that they are excellent, but they're the best I've got. Here goes nothing. Oh, and this one is a Tiyuna one—an unoriginal one, too. I'll try to make it good. Oh, and I put something in I found in a fic, but I don't remember what fic it was, so if you find something that you think you've used, I'm sorry. Oh, and X-2 never happened.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything. The song in this chapter, Here Without You, is by Three Doors Down.

Luv ya,

Gigglygal-Chan

Here Without You

Part 1

Yuna sighed as she stared at the star filled sky. 'He would have loved this.' She thought as she swore at herself for remembering him.

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face

Since he died 10 years ago, she has went to exactly 191 therapy meetings, trying to erase his memory, and make it seem like he never lived. She came in each one, hoping that she could forget him…his messy blond hair, his crystal blue eyes, his goofy smile, and his…uh…unique blitzball outfit. Every 191 times, she had ended up with only him on her mind.

A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

She continued to gaze at the sky, as they had done so during her pilgrimage. She looked at for constellations, one of the projects one of her therapy "buddies" suggested to get her mind off him. She searched for the little dipper, but instead found a constellation that oddly resembled Brotherhood. She searched more, and saw another thing that surprised her. She dropped her constellation paper in shock as she saw what looked like his face etched in the stars. She rushed in the house as those happy memories burned in her heart.

But all these miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

Flashback

"It's a little embarrassing to say this myself, but its said that Summoners and their Guardians are like Spira's ray of light," Yuna said shyly as Tidus listened intently, "I've learned to practice smiling when I'm feeling sad, you know." Tidus nodded sadly.

"Now let's see what you can do!" Yuna smiled as she threw her arms up in excitement.

Tidus stretched his mouth in odd ways, trying to find the one that closely resembled smiling. Yuna giggled in his failed attempts at such a simple thing. He turned to her. "This is weird." He informed her with a slight chuckle in his voice.

"Now laugh out loud." She said in that same enthusiastic voice.

Tidus began a series of "ha ha ha ha" s, but they sounded more like a chocobo screeching in pain. All within 100 feet of him clutched their ears in excruciating pain.

"You should stop now." She said between clenched teeth. Tidus however, seemed to not have heard her, continued in his attempted laughter as Lulu shook her head in disapproval. Yuna, who realized that stopping Tidus was impossible, joined him in the attempted laughter as both voices harmonized to sound like nails on a chalkboard. Seconds later, they both began cracking up at the awkwardness of the situation. "Too funny…" Yuna said, struggling to catch her breath.

"It was your idea." Tidus added breathlessly as the stood straight to face Wakka, Lulu, Kimahri, and Auron, who were looking them as if they had both grown extra heads. Yuna looked at them confusedly.

"We were afraid you had gone crazy." Wakka informed the bicolor eyed girl.

"My apologizes." Yuna said sheepishly.

End Flashback

She remembered that, as well as all those other memories that used to be happy, but since then made her so depressed to think that she used to be so joyful, very unlike her present self. She ran to her room and took at her trusty scissors and slit her wrist and sighed as the blood dribbled down her arm. The happiness was short-lived as she remembered her misery.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind

She was alone, without him. He wasn't there anymore, to dry her tears, to say it was all okay, to take her pain away. She knew she was falling harder with each passing day; she was almost to the point of no return. She always naïvely thought he would come back, but deep inside that he would not just jump back into her life. He had died, and would not come back.

She knew that no one could replace him, so she refused to even give a chance to any of her cousin's potential boyfriends. Rikku understood, but was disappointed each time when Yuna wouldn't even look at the boy that she had looked hard to find. The Al Bhed woman had given up 6 years ago, as she knew how much she missed Tidus.

Rikku knew just how in love Yuna was with Tidus. Tidus was everything to her, all she thought about, and everything she dreamed about. She gave her all heart to him, thinking that they would be forever soul mates. She saw their large tent in Besaid, Jecht Jr. and Braska Jr., their wedding day, everything in their perfect future that never happened. Rikku knew this, as the two were extremely close and spent most of their early childhood together.

I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

Yuna sat down on her bed as she wiped the blood off with her towel. It was one of the only things Rikku didn't know about it. Rikku was still worried about her, and she'd freak out and send her cousin to a mental hospital if she found she was cutting herself. She looked at the raw cut, and felt ashamed of herself. She was twenty-eight, and still mourning a man who had exited her life TEN years ago. She wanted to tell everyone what was wrong, and she had always chickened out when the opportunity came up. After all, why tell everyone when she had great excuses for her cuts.

Yuna opened her dresser and picked up her pistol, closed her eyes, held it to her head, and pulled the trigger. She sighed as she opened her eyes. The gun was never loaded, but she liked to make herself feel like she was killing herself. She had actually tried to kill herself once, but was sent to treatment, thanks to Rikku, for a few months. She knew that she could only use her pistol for certain times, desperate times, and that had just happened to be drastic enough.

The happiness that had once filled her heart had disappeared, and Yuna's heart turned black again. Every time she used it the relief it brought seemed to fade quicker and quicker. She learned to enjoy the feeling, while it lasted, since she knew that soon it would have effect no longer.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

She knew that the feeling was gone, and her heart felt empty again, throbbing with heartache. She felt the tears threatening, and she knew she couldn't stop them as they began to flow down her face as her eyes fell on a picture that she hadn't seen in a long time. It was just standing there collecting dust. She grabbed it hungrily, and after blowing the collected dust off of it, looked at it. It was her and him, in Bevelle. His arm was around her shoulders, hers around his waist. "Wow, was that really what I looked like?" she asked herself, trying to distract her mind from him.

It well…failed. She stared at him, studying his features. He was so good looking, with good sized muscles from all that blitzball, dark sun-tanned skin, sun-bleached blond hair, the most kissable lips she had ever seen in her entire life, and his crystal blue eyes that Yuna got lost in so many times before.

She then looked at herself. She looked so innocent, so naïve. She stared at her clothes, a wrap white shirt that hid that disgusting black bra she used to wear, and that blue wrap skirt she wore with it. She looked so happy there. "I was with Tidus." She noted to herself.

She swore again at herself for talking to herself…again. She knew it wasn't normal, but she couldn't control it. It was like her love for Tidus, unstoppable though she tried so hard not to. She tried to stop, but it only resulted in her talking to herself more. "Habits are impossible to break." She mumbled, failing what she was trying to achieve.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello

She put the picture down and lay down on her bed. It was soft and comfy, but it didn't matter to Yuna. A good mattress would never bring Tidus back to her. She wouldn't care if it was rocks she was laying on.

She had become numb, almost detached from emotion. So detached and antisocial that she made Lulu look like such a party animal. Yet, the black mage had married her childhood friend, Wakka, and she had opened up more. Lulu still was on the antisocial side though.

Yuna stared at the ceiling. 'White, boring, nothing new.' She thought as she continued to look intently at it. She didn't know why she was staring at it, but she found her whispering.

"My life"

It was out of almost nowhere, but it made sense to her. Her life was blank, with no unexpectedness. She predict each day so well that some could say that she had ESP. Nothing changed, which depressed Yuna more with each passing day.

I've heard this life was overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

She felt her eyes droop as she drifted into peaceful nothingness.

She woke up to the immense sunlight of her native island. She silently cursed the sunlight before getting up to change into her day clothes. After changing, she grabbed her brush to comb her hair. She had begun to brush it when she noticed her appearance for the first time in quite a long time.

Her hair had darkened to a much darker brown, and had grown to a length that nearly reached her rear end. She had lost some weight, and she knew very well that she had slight anorexia. Her skin had paled to a deathly white due to lack of sunlight, and dark bags covered her eyes. The only way you could know that this was High Summoner Yuna was her eyes, blue and green as usual.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind

"YUNIE!" a loud, squeaky voice screeched, "BREAKFAST IS READY!"

Yuna opened her door and poked her head out. "I'm not hungry," she yelled to her cousin.

Rikku walked out of the kitchen, stood to look at her cousin, and put her hands on her hips. "Yunie, you need to eat something. Last time I saw you take a bite of something was Thursday." The Al Bhed informed her cousin, with a stare that Yuna couldn't divert her eyes for.

"Rikku, I'm not hungry. I don't want to eat." She replied to her cousin.

Rikku was less than impressed. She knew how much weight her cousin was losing, and knew that Yuna was going to die if she didn't have anything to eat. She couldn't bear to lose her cousin, as any other human being would.

"Yunie, you need to eat something." Rikku pressed as her cousin rolled her eyes.

Yuna sighed. She knew that she had no way to win this one. Rikku always seemed to win these types of battles. "I don't want to." Yuna sighed as Rikku felt her temper soar.

"YUNALESCA! YOU ARE GOING TO DIE IF YOU DON'T EAT ANYTHING!" Rikku's temper had snapped, and she had passed the mark of being "mad".

Yuna's eyes shot open. Rikku had only called her Yunalesca, her full name, once before, and they were five and seven and in a very large argument. After getting off the aftershock, Yuna replied with, "Well, what if I do want to die?"

Rikku's eyes flew open in disbelief as Yuna realized what she said. "You mean; you're still having those suicidal feelings. I'm going to call the mental hospi-" Rikku was cut off by Yuna's palm covering it.

"Don't call the hospital. I'll eat a piece of toast. Just don't call them." Yuna pleaded. Everyone there was totally nuts, and Yuna always felt like she was the sanest of them.

Yuna took a few pieces of toast and plopped on the kitchen table and ate them down with a glass of water, then got back up. Mission-Eat-So-You-Don't-Go-To-The-Mental-Hospital was complete!

"Yunie, three pieces of toast is not breakfast. Don't think you can't get away with just a bit of bread. We're going to Lulu's tent. She's making chocobo sausages and eggs." Rikku reminded her cousin, who gave her a glare before they both exited the tent their shared and headed to Lulu and Wakka's tent.

I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

"We're here!" Rikku announced as the cousins entered the tent.

"Auntie Rikku!" A dark haired girl who resembled her mother squealed.

"You're here, ya!" An orange haired boy who resembled his father squeaked.

Rikku sat down at their little bar. "Your children have gotten so big. Clarisse's almost 5, right?" the 25 year-old Al Bhed said as she picked up the Wakka mini-me, "And Chappu Jr. is almost 3, if I'm not mistaken?"

Lulu and Wakka nodded as grins spread their faces. But their grins were swept away when they saw Yuna, who had also sat down at the mini-bar. "Yuna, is that you?" Lulu looked, tossing a section of jet black hair behind her ear.

Yuna nodded sadly as Wakka gave her a strange look. "You look different, ya?" he stared at her, and how much she had changed.

"Oh, yeah, Yunie changed a lot, right Yunie?" Rikku spoke for her cousin as Yuna nodded again.

Lulu raised her eyebrow suspiciously. "A lot is a bit of an understatement, you think?" The black mage questioned as Yuna's eyes darted around.

"Huh?" Yuna didn't like where this was going.

"I couldn't recognize you. I only knew it was you because of your eyes," Lulu told her sister-like friend, "You're paler than me, your hair is so much darker, oh…you are very thin, Yuna. Are you eating enough?"

"I'm eating fine." Yuna snapped as she speared her sausage and took a bite.

"Is this still about Tid—"Wakka began, but Yuna cut in.

"Don't say his name." Yuna screamed as she dropped her fork and darted off.

Wakka shrugged to his shoulders. "What's with her, ya?" he asked his wife.

Lulu sighed. She just had to marry the clueless one in the bunch. "She's still not over Tidus. She reminds me of myself when Chappu died." Lulu explained, lucky that her voice didn't freak out when she mentioned her dead ex-fiancé.

"It's been ten years, ya? Why is she still dwelling on him?" Wakka asked with an extremely confused expression.

Lulu rolled her eyes. Wakka asked too many stupid questions. "You have never lost a person you had fallen in love with. I'm saying, marriage, children, and life together. You've only lost your parents and your brother. Yuna lost the man she gave her heart to." Lulu explained to her obviously clueless husband.

"Oh." Wakka nodded his head in acknowledgement.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight boy it's only you and me

Meanwhile, Yuna had run as quickly as her legs could take her to Besaid beach. She looked behind her to find that no one was following. She collapsed onto the soft sand.

"I guess no one cares about me anymore." Yuna told herself as she saw that no one was coming after her.

"But why? I'm High Summoner Yuna, for Yevon's sake. I brought the Yevon-damn Eternal Calm and no one gives a damn about me. Some would be dead if I hadn't defeated it. No one cares about me." Yuna wept as tears fell from eyes and onto the sand.

"Do they hate me because I don't show my face to the rest of Spira? Do they hate me because I have anorexia? Do they hate me because I'm still in love with Tidus, the man who left my life a decade ago? Why do they hate me?" Yuna dropped to ground and stared at the sun.

"Why is the rest of Spira shunning me? Do they want me to die or something? What do they want from me?" She screamed at the sun, who did not answer her.

"It's him, isn't it?" Yuna said sternly, "It was definitely that Yevon-damn son of a freaking bitch."

She punched the sand. "Are you happy now, Tidus? You've destroyed my life. I'm such a wreck that I know it myself."

"You ruined my life. Yevon-dammit, I hate you so much Tidus. You destroyed everything. I wish I never met you. I hate everything freaking about you. You and your good looks, and your happy personality, everything about you. I hate you so freaking much, Tidus. I don't know how I fell in love with you." Yuna had positively gone berserk, and luckily she was alone so she wouldn't be brought to a mental hospital.

"You wrecked me so much, Tidus. I haven't cut my hair in 9 years, you know that. Rikku forces me to eat sometimes. Yup, Tidus, I have freaking anorexia. If it wasn't for Rikku, I'd be dead. I cut myself too, you know. And I have an unloaded pistol in my room, too. I've been pretending to kill myself for the last TEN YEARS! You ruined everything in my life, you know. I hope that Lady Yunalesca dumps you in hell. You ruined my life. I'm the High Summoner, and I'm supposed to be traveling around Spira, meeting everyone in the world. But no, this is the first time that I've exited the town of Besaid since you died. No one cares about me anymore. It's all your fault. Dammit, I hate you so much. Fuck you, Tidus." She screamed to the sky, hoping that Tidus was listening to her.

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

"You really hate me, do you?" a male voice behind her asked. It was cracked and emotional, like he was crying. She turned around to see who it was.

She turned to him, and her eyes widened in shock.

"Who are you?" She asked, even though she very well knew the answer.

"It's me, Tidus, Yuna." He said as she wiped a tear from his cheek.

"No, Tidus died. I'm not dreaming, am I?" She asked him in true disbelief. He was dead, right?

"No, you're awake, Yuna." He said softly to the disbelieving woman in front of her.

"Then you can't be Tidus. He died ten years ago. You can't be him. What's your proof?" She asked him, almost positive that she was truly dreaming.

"I'm from Zanarkand, I played on the Zanarkand Abes, I got sucked into Sin with Auron, I went to Besaid, I met this super hot girl named Yuna, I went on her pilgrimage, I kissed her Macalania and should have had sex with her there, and I have loved her for the last 11 years." He told her.

"No…" She whispered to him. She touched his shoulder, expecting to feel air. Instead, she felt actual, warm flesh. She felt his arm. She felt his clothes, his flesh. She inhaled, to smell his cologne. He felt real…he smelt real.

And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

"You feel so real…" She said in disbelief.

"It's because I am real, Yuna." He told her, putting his hand on her shoulder.

"No, you can't be real. I've had this dream so many times. I'm not going to get my hopes up again." She said as she felt tears rolling down her cheek. He pushed them away.

He sighed, as he knew that she must have dreamt he would come back. "I should have known." Tidus looked at the sky and cursed himself.

"What?" Yuna had no idea what he was getting at.

"That you wouldn't believe me," He replied as he sat down next to her, "I always thought that you would have moved on or you would run to me."

"Well, I guess you were wrong." Yuna said coldly.

"Hey, I fought with Lady Yunalesca for years to let me out. I was miserable in the farplane without you, and so I fought with that woman just so I could see you again. She finally got sick and tired of my whining, so she brought me back to life so I could see you. I've been waiting to be with you, Yuna. I love you, Yuna." He told her as he stroked her hair. She grabbed his hand and placed it on the sand.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind

"Why do you love me, Tidus?" Yuna asked him.

"Do I really need a reason?" he asked her with another one of his goofy smiles plastered on his face.

Yuna had this desire to kiss him, but controlled herself. She had always loved his goofy smiles. "Yes, you do." She said, trying force this out of him, in case this was not a dream after all.

Tidus thought to himself briefly. "Well, you're gorgeous, for one." He told her, extending his finger, for reason #1.

"You had this energetic, happy personality. I think you might have lost though," he said as he extended the second finger, but quickly took it away. Yuna gave him the finger.

"Okay, okay. No need to use inappropriate gestures." Tidus put the finger back.

"Anything else?"

"You always had confidence in me, even when I didn't, like when I was ticked off by Auron, and whenever I had taken a glimpse of Seymour. I don't know why you married him." He said as he extending finger three.

"It was for the betterment of Spira. He finally died, though." Yuna reminded him.

"So you're a widow." Tidus inquired.

"He died before I could divorce him." Yuna explained.

"Well, for my fourth reason, you were willing to sacrifice herself for the betterment of Spira." He extended his fourth finger.

Yuna's cheeks turned pink. "I was just following my father's legacy, Tidus." She informed him sheepishly.

"Sure Yuna, sure." He raised his eyebrow, knowing that wasn't the whole truth. She opened her mouth to confess, but he continued. "And you're a really good kisser."

Yuna slapped him in the face with all the strength she had.

"What in Yevon's name was that for?" he asked as he clutched his face, and hid the face that his eyes were tearing again. She had hit him hard, after all.

"That was totally unnecessary." Yuna said coldly, "And that's a really bad reason."

"I think you broke my nose."

"Tidus, you are such a baby." Yuna giggled, she knew Tidus was being showy about it to make her laugh, "Grow up, T."

"Yuna, I am appalled that you would be so mean. I am offended." Some people never change.

"Oh, shut up." Yuna rolled her eyes at Tidus's immaturity. Maybe the people who say that boys are immature were right…

"So, Yuna, am I real yet?" Tidus asked, seeming to forget that he was supposed to be mad at Yuna.

Yuna blinked her eyes a few times.

"Why are you blinking?"

"Making sure I'm not sleeping."

"Are you sleeping?"

"Nope, and I'm pretty sure you're real."

Tidus sighed in relief. "I love you Yuna."

"I don't remember if I love you." The smile on Tidus's face faded.

"Yunalesca!"

"You know my full name, Tidus?"

"Rikku told me."

"I will kill her when I return."

"Do you love me, Yuna?" Tidus's expression seemed a bit desperate, as he had heard her cursing him off to the sky.

"I love you Tidus. I'm sorry about what I said. Yevon, I love you so much." Yuna's eyes twinkled, so Tidus knew she was telling the truth.

"Oh, and how much of my outburst did you hear?"

"When you started talking about Spira shunning you. Do you really have anorexia?" Tidus asked, sounding very worried.

"Yeah, and the cutting was true to."

"Yuna, how could you? I'm not a big enough loss for you to stop eating and for you to cut yourself."

"I…I d…don't k…n…now." Yuna stuttered as her temper began to rise.

"Yuna that's…"

Yuna had finally snapped. "I would not be saying much right now. I was almost eighteen when you died, and you were the only person I every loved. I fell for you so fast that before I knew it I was giving you my heart. And you know what; you ripped it, tore it, and smashed it to tiny pieces. I got into a serious depression, and that's what happened. You may not realize it, but I've almost KILLED myself because of you." Yuna turned away from him as tears spilled down her porcelain cheeks.

Tidus felt like he'd been slapped in the face, kicked in the nuts, and punched in the stomach, all at the same time. He could have sworn that his heart had split in two. He had never imagined that his death had such an effect on her future.

"You…tried to kill yourself." Tidus said softly, in such a quiet tone that Yuna could barely hear him. He knew tears were coming, but didn't care as one slid down his cheek.

I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

They sat there in silence for what seemed like eternity.

"Yuna…I never knew." Tidus's voice was cracked again, and Yuna saw the tears streaks on his cheeks. He was crying for her. "I…I'm so sorry. I didn't know."

Yuna turned over to him, and wrapped her arms around his neck in an embrace. At first, Tidus was shocked, but he found himself wrapping his arms around her waist.

"Thanks for caring about me, Tidus." She smiled at him.

Tidus was about to reply, but he was cut off as Yuna leaned in and kissed him. He held her closer to him, deepening it. After thirty seconds, Tidus broke it.

"Yevon, you are so beautiful." Tidus kissed her forehead.

She stared at him. He looked almost exactly like he had ten years ago. Yevon, he was so adorable. "You're too bad yourself." Tidus looked at her strangely.

"Okay, you are the hottest man in Spira."

Tidus grabbed Yuna and kissed her cheek. "Why thank you."

"Hey, don't get all cocky on me."

"I won't get cocky, Yuna. I promise." Yuna leaned over and kissed him again.

She stared to look at him again. She looked into his eyes, letting herself get lost in them again.

"Yuna, is there a problem?"

"Yevon, you have the most gorgeous eyes." She told him.

"I bet I love your more than yours." He teased. Yuna chose to ignore his comment.

She looked down, and her eyes fell on something she had never seen before. "What is that?" She asked, pointing to his neck.

Tidus looked down. "Oh, this?" He pulled his necklace out of his shirt and held it out to Yuna. She nodded. "Oh, on this necklace is the ring I planned to propose to you when I got back."

Yuna gasped as Tidus got up, then got down on one knee. "Yunalesca, will you marry me?"

"Yes." She grabbed him and kissed him until she ran out of breath.

"I hope I'm not dreaming," she said breathlessly, "Because I'm going to get married!"

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight boyit's only you and me

THE END!

I hope that was good. I really liked writing it. There is going to be a continuation, next chapter. There may be things wrong in this, as I have not finished the game yet, but I know a lot about the end and stuff. I know that Lady Yunalesca oversees the farplane, but is that true? If not, tell me.

Well, this was the Tiyuna one. I'm probably an Aurrikku one next. After that, which one should I do? I can do the following:

Rikka (Rikku/Wakka)

Rikkipal (Rikku/Gippal) Someone will need to tell me who Gippal is, though.

Yunason (Yuna/Bickson) I'm doing this anyway…haha…

I will also do the following, but they may be crappy because I am not a fan of these pairings:

Tikku (Tidus/Rikku)

Tulu (Tidus/Lulu)

Seyuna (Seymour/Yuna)

Aurlu(Auron/Lulu)

Yumahri (Yuna/Kimahri)

I will do the 4 highest, then all pairings (these and Lukka, Tiyuna, and Aurrikku) will be available. If you feel that there needs to be a different pairing, I will put it up. I do not do yuri or yaoi, though, so don't suggest those. Save your time and review!

Luv ya!

Gigglygal

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