December 20th, 2009

There was a certain feeling in the air so close to Christmas. The kids were all excited, but behaved very well. They had set up their artificial tree so River wouldn't get another bought of allergies.

"Momma, is Santa coming yet?" Caroline asked. Alex shook her head as she wrapped the colourful lights around the tree.

"You have four more days." Alex said. Caroline sighed.

"Den its my birthday right?" She asked.

"That's right." Alex chuckled, "Do you know how old you're going to be?"

"Four, mommy!!!" Caroline laughed, "Did ya forget?"

"No." Alex laughed as she continued to wrap the lights around the tree.

"Do you remember that lady?" Caroline asked.

"What lady?" Alex asked.

"The lady who took me." Caroline said. Alex turned around and stared at her, "You know."

"I remember...." Alex whispered, "Do you?"

"Ah huh." She asked. Alex's chest began to tighten.

"Everything? Do you remember everything?" She asked. Caroline shrugged.

"I dunno." She said. Alex sat down next to her daughter.

"Tell Mommy everything you remember." She said.

"Um...I remember the lady crying." Caroline said, "And when she got all bloody." Alex's stomach turned, "Why did she hurt herself?"

"Cause...Cause she was sick in the head." Alex said.

"Okay. Can I get a cookie now?" Caroline asked.

"Yes." Alex said. Caroline smiled and ran into the kitchen. Alex's eyes filled with tears. She kept on replaying that dreadful day in her head. The feelings still sometimes coursed through her veins.

"Alex?" Ty stepped into the living room. "What's wrong?"

"She's remembers." Alex whispered, "She remembers the whole day." Ty sat next to his wife.

"I'm sorry sweetheart but you're going to have to be clearer than that." He said.

"The day she was kidnapped. Carrie said that she remembered that day." Alex said. Ty shook his head.

"That's impossible." He said, "She was just a baby."

"She told me, Ty." Alex looked at him, "She remember the blood and all of that." Ty sighed deeply.

"She's never mentioned anything before." He said.

"Well, can you blame her?" Alex asked taking in a deep breath, "I wouldn't mention anything if I knew my mother would start bawling." She smiled weakly at her husband, "What are we going to do?"

"Well, we can see if she wants to talk with someone. She shouldn't keep all of this in." Ty said.

"You mean a therapist." She mumbled. Ty nodded as he pushed her blond hair away from her face.

"If she can remember what happened, then she's probably not understanding it. I think it'd be only right if she did." He said.

"My poor baby." Alex whispered. Ty sighed as he wrapped his arms around his wife. That was a scary day for them. They never wanted to remember it, but now that they knew that Caroline remembered, it brought all the pain and fears back.

January 3rd, 2010

It was a New Year and Alex and Ty hoped this year would be a lot better than the previous. Caroline was being very annoying about her fourth birthday coming up.

"Mama!!" River bounced in his crib, "Mama!!!" Alex grunted.

"I'm coming, Boy." She shuffled to his bedroom and stared at him, "Boys are supposed to be easier than boys." River giggled and extended his arms.

"Mama, up!" He said. She smirked and scooped him up.

"How up?" She asked.

"Up! Up!" River cried. Alex tossed River into the air. The child squealed with excitement.

"You're going to throw up up if you're not careful." She smiled walking downstairs with him. Ty smiled as he walked passed them and left the house. Alex frowned, "I love you too. Thanks for the kiss." She sighed and went into the kitchen.
"Dada bye bye." River pouted.

"I know. He stinks." Alex said. River wrinkled his nose, "Not like that." She couldn't help but to chuckle as she started the coffee. The doorbell ring, "Maybe Daddy came back to give me a kiss." Alex went to the door and Blaire stood there, "Oh it's you."

"Good morning to you too." Blaire chuckled softly; "Did you forget I was coming over for coffee?"

"What? Oh no." She smiled softly, "I just started the coffee. Come in."

"Mama!!!" River squealed.

"Coming." Alex gave Blaire a look as she went back into the kitchen, "Can I ask you a personal question?"

"We're friends. Nothing is too personal." Blaire said getting a couple of mugs out of the cupboard so Alex could tend to River.

"Well, Do you ever feel like your marriage is in a rut?" She asked.

"Sometimes I guess." Blaire said looking at her, "Why?"

"I don't know. I just feel like we're stuck." Alex said, "He goes off to work. I send the kids off to school. I take RJ to daycare. I got to work. I pick the kids up. I cook dinner. Ty comes home. Kids go to bed. We go to bed."

"Stuck in the same old routine." Blaire nodded, "We were like that once."

"What go you out?" Alex asked.

"A nice young man from the post office name Juan." Blaire chuckled. Alex looked at her with confusion, "I slept with him Alex." Her eyes widened.

"You cheated on your husband??" She asked.

"No. I mean, sort of. We both got partners outside the marriage." Blaire said, "it made our marriage a lot stronger."

"Oh my god. I couldn't do that." Alex said.

"It's really great, Alex." Blaire said. Alex shook her head.

"I can't even imagine sleeping with someone who's not Ty." She said. The idea sent chills up her spine. Blaire shrugged.

"Well, that's what worked with us. I would suggest talking to him." Blaire said, "Don't let I get so far away where you can never mend the marriage. Put the kids to bed early and cover yourself in whip cream. It'll catch Ty's attention."

"I don't even know if he's into me like that anymore." Alex said.

"Trust me. He's into you. He's a man. He'd have to be blind." Blaire said. Alex smiled softly. She hated this. She hated not knowing if Ty wanted her or not. Maybe that Whip Cream idea would work.

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