My eyes!
By Satu
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The Ubermann – Cool. I read some of Edger Allen Poe's stuff and it freaked me out. Gotta love him. (hugs The Ubermann)
Raidersrule76 – I think she already is… Thank you, internet chocolate for you. (hugs Raidersrule76)
Wrathchylde – I'm touched by your concern. It won't happen. I have ideas for at least 4 chapters after this one.
Sonic Heroes Bliss – Yay! Thank you, an internet chocolate for you. (hugs Sonic Heroes Bliss)
BBRaelover4eva – YAY! Thanks. (hugs BBRaelover4eva)
Tammy Tamborine – I agree. He gets confused easily. (hugs Tammy Tamborine)
The Hidden Girl – Yours was one of the most extensive reviews I've ever gotten. Thanks. I agree with everything you say. Internet chocolate for you. You have a nice day too. (hugs The Hidden Girl)
shadow – Thanks, internet chocolate for you. Thanks. Bye! (hugs shadow)
Half-Gothic Girl – Thanks, internet chocolate for you. If I did bring her back, I wouldn't make BBXT. (hugs Half-Gothic Girl)
BeastWithin – Fair enough. Can I buy one of those lighters? Please? (BBxRae forever) (hugs BeastWithin)
.:brittany:. – Yay! I'd love to have a teaparty with you! I love waffles! Yay! (hugs .:brittany:.)
crowmurder – Yay. Thanks. (hugs crowmurder)
BBXRAVEN 4 EVER – Good and thankyou and I will. (hugs BBXRAVEN 4 EVER)
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pureangel86 – Thank you. (hugs pureangel86)
Whitefang88 – Thank you. (hugs Whitefang88)
Gem W – Excellent. I agree about Terra. Thanks and internet chocolate for you. I hope you like this one as much. (hugs Gem W)
animegirl175 – Fair enough. You got it right! Internet chocolate for you. Thanks. (hugs animegirl175)
The Real Xenocide – Understood, internet chocolate for you. I'm thinking about another fic with Terra, but I might not. (hugs The Real Xenocide)
moo – Agreed for everything… (hugs moo)
happili insane – Lol… Will do. (hugs happili insane)
EvilandBored – Excellent… (hugs EvilandBored)
Sinner666 – He'll get it back… sometime… Raven will find a way to deal, maybe. Thanks (hugs Sinner666)
lightsong – Fair enough. I'm sorry if the lines confuse you. And you're not, but you still get an internet chocolate. I wouldn't mind knowing that either, I'll ask. (hugs lightsong)
fhqwagad – Thanks, internet chocolate for you. Thanks (hugs fhqwagad)
They-Call-Me-Orange – Thankyou, Thankyou and Thankyou. 3 chocolates for you… Terra might show up in this, but as a statue. I specialise in stuff… Thankyou and good to hear. (hugs They-Call-Me-Orange)
MistOfDarkness – Thankyou, internet chocolate for you. Thanks about the characters, I wasn't sure… Thanks. (hugs MistOfDarkness)
SoulhopetheWolf – Spelling forgiven. Internet chocolate for you. (hugs SoulhopetheWolf)
disappearer/Syani – Yes I know. Terra can come back if she feels like it… (hugs disappearer/Syani)
Regrem Erutaerc - I see… Internet chocolate for you. (hugs Regrem Erutaerc)
animeobsessed3191 – Don't worry, I spaz all the time… Thanks, internet chocolate for you. (hugs animeobsessed3191)
Still trying to fly – Excellent, thank you. Internet chocolate for you. Terra won't show up as a person in this story. Only as a rock. Cushy might be a word, I'm not really sure… (hugs Still trying to fly)
Chaney343 – Ok, thank you, internet chocolate for you. (hugs Chaney343)
.:brittany:. – Thanks. Internet chocolate for you. I'd love to come to your tea party, do I bring anything? (hugs .:brittany:.)
BrokenNevermore – Thankyou. It means Out Of Character apparently… Thank you very very much. (BBXRae forever) (hugs BrokenNevermore)
Ninjamuffin13 – Thankyou. Fair enough. Thanks, internet chocolate for you. And I will do. (hugs Ninjamuffin13)
Calisto – Thankyou, internet chocolate for you. BBXRae forever! (hugs Calisto)
animezebra – Thankyou. And you're right, internet chocolate for you. (hugs animezebra)
AN. I probably should have put that the last poll was only for the show, not the story. I love all the people who reviewed and review, I glare angrily at those who read these words and do not review. I accept anonymous reviews so even if you don't have an account you can tell me what you think… Please… I'm sorry if I got any of your names wrong.
AN. About ten minutes after the last one. I don't own Teen Titans or Crash Bandicoot, but if the owners of either want to sell them to me I have (loud swearing) a fish, a salt shaker and a mini tiki.
Answers to Poll:
I say: No.
My sister says: Maybe
The way I write:
You should know by now.
Chapter Three
Beast Boy lay curled up on his bed, his new dark glasses resting on what he hoped was the bedside table. He licked his lips gently. They were colder then usual. He licked them again and felt some warmth return to them. Immediately, he regretted it. He had liked Raven as more then a friend since they met. He had loved her since Nevermore. Seeing all those emotions, those different sides of Raven, he had finally realised how hard it was for her. He had realised that she was emotionless not by choice, but by cruel fate. He hadn't kissed her on purpose. It had been a spur of the moment thing.
Why did I have to kiss her? his mind moaned. Why did I have to ruin a perfectly good friendship? Then he stopped. Maybe it's not ruined, he thought. Maybe she liked it.
Then the other side of his mind spoke up, Maybe she didn't.
Shut up, he thought angrily.
Maybe you just ruined everything you've worked so hard to build up.
"Shut up!" he yelled aloud, then winced. "I don't need you telling me it might be disastrous," he told himself. "I already know."
He stood up, put on his glasses and tried to find his journal. When his hands connected with the worn cover, he grabbed it and walked back to his bed. He found a pencil and flipped to where the pages seemed less dirty. He scribbled down a few thoughts about his condition and his little mishap with Raven. He thought about writing more, then decided against it. He closed it and smiled, remembering his reaction when he thought Raven was reading about his feelings towards her. He put the book on the table he had his glasses on before and lay down.
I've been lying down a lot, he realised and sat up. I'm hungry. I'm going to make myself a tofu sandwich.
He stood up and made his way to the door. He followed the same, zig-zag route as before, finding himself in the living room. He felt along the wall until he found the kitchen. Then he tried to find his hidden tofu stash, knowing that one of the first things Cyborg would have done was throw his tofu out. Feeling his stash, he took it out and started to cut thin slices of it by feel. Of course, he cut his finger. He jerked the injured digit back, sticking it into his mouth.
"What are you doing?" Raven asked from behind him. He whirled around.
"I'm hungry," he said. "I want a tofu sandwich." She sighed.
"And you cut yourself," she said. She had moved so she was standing next to him.
"Is there blood everywhere?" Beast Boy asked. He still had his finger in the side of his mouth.
"No. Just a little on the knife." There was a clang and the sound of running water. "I'll make it for you. You go sit down."
"But you said you'd never touch tofu with a ten-foot long barge pole."
"It doesn't matter. Just sit down."
"Thanks Raven." He stumbled over to the table and sat on one of the chairs. After a moment, there was a quiet clatter as a plate was placed in front of him.
"I got you a drink of juice too," Raven said, now sitting on the opposite side of the table.
"Thanks," he said, his mouth full of the slightly unpleasant taste of tofu. To be completely honest, he had never really loved tofu, but he put up with it because it was better then eating what he thought of as himself. His hand found the cool glass and he took a gulp of it. He assumed Raven had left because she didn't say anything while he ate. When he finished, he sat back, let loose a tiny burp and smiled.
"Charming," Raven said.
"Oh." Beast Boy blushed. "Sorry."
"It's ok."
She sat across the table for a moment later, watching Beast Boy. He was just sitting there, but his ears were twitching, betraying his alertness. She thought about saying something about the kiss, then stopped when his cup cracked, a silver line running up the glass. He blushed again.
"Um… Raven?"
"Yes Beast Boy."
"Can I ask you something?" She paused.
"Yes."
"Can you… um…"
"Spit it out Beast Boy." His left ear twitched.
"Can you… um… play GameStation for me?" She thought for a second.
"Ok."
"Really?" He sat up straighter, lips curving into an enthusiastic smile.
"Really. But you have to tell me what to do. And I'm not happy."
"Got it." He stood up and ran to the couch, tripping over the back and flipping onto the cushions. Raven suppressed a laugh. The glass shattered. Beast Boy's emerald green head poked above the back of the couch. He was smiling sheepishly. "Come sit here," he said, patting the cushion beside him. She flew over the top of the couch and landed lightly on the cushion. He turned his head to her and smiled. She picked up a controller and looked at the many buttons littering the surface.
"How do I hold it?" she asked. She felt awkward holding the plastic blob.
"Here." He held out his hands and they closed around her arms. They slid down until they reached her hands. "Put your left one here." He positioned it. "And your right here." Suddenly the awkward hold she had on the controller felt more natural. The grooves in the plastic that had dug into her palms, now fit her fingers.
"Thanks. What game do you want me to play?"
"Hmm." He felt his way over to their scattering of games. He picked one up, ran his fingers over the surface, then put it down. He repeated this on several other games, then finally found one. "Got it." He stumbled to the GameStation and put the game in the slot. Crash Bandicoot flashed on the screen (AN. Sorry… I couldn't resist). She turned to him and raised one eyebrow. He was smiling at her. "It's really easy. I know it off by heart. Start a new game." He turned towards the tinkling music of the theme song. She pressed X and filled in her name.
"What now?"
"Now you have a learning level. Go forward for five seconds, then turn left. You'll see a box with a mask on it. Press square." She followed his instructions and a wooden mask with coloured feathers popped up.
"Hello," it said. "I am Aku-Aku." It proceeded to tell her about his job. Beast Boy laughed.
"Good job. Now you can go to your right for about 15 seconds, or until you see a yellow-orange fruit. Get it." She did and Aku-Aku popped up again, telling her about wumpa fruit. She smiled. "Ok. You're ready for your first kill."
"Kill? They actually kill things on this game?"
"Only evil hermit crabs and skunks. And the occasional little tribesman who disagrees with you." He smiled evilly. "Go five seconds forward, ten seconds left, then right for another five seconds."
"Alright." She tried, and saw a little skunk waddling back and forth. "It's so cute."
"Did you just say cute?"
"No."
"Just spin it. Press square." She did and the little skunk flew several feet, then disappeared with a small noise and a spray of sparks.
"You're getting it. I'll make a game-whiz of you yet." Beast Boy cracked his knuckles and leaned forward. "Now, you describe what you're going to do next."
"I'm going to follow this path," Raven said hesitantly, manoeuvring the orange marsupial onto a sand path. "And I'm going to spin this box."
"Keep going." He put a hand on her shoulder and started bouncing up and down.
"I've got the wumpa fruit and I'm spinning the tribesmen."
After ten minutes, Raven had gotten the hang of it. She told Beast Boy everything she did, from jumping over holes to spinning bosses. He listened to every word, every sound, drinking in the game. Raven paused at some point to get drinks for both of them, but as soon as she started playing again Beast Boy spilt it. It didn't matter because it was water, but it did splash on Raven's leg. She ignored it, knowing that bringing it up would spoil the moment. He was still bouncing up and down, cheering.
"Go Raven, go!" His hands were on his knees and the dark lenses of the glasses faced the screen. "Beat him!"
He threw his hands up and cheered as she defeated the second boss. She smiled at him, then watched the FMV showing Cortex's anger. He lowered his hands, grinning idiotically. One of his hands landed on her leg instead of his. She jerked, then relaxed. The heat of his hand burned her, even through his glove. She shivered slightly, thinking how it would feel if he didn't have the glove on.
He paused momentarily, realising the leg beneath his hand was cold as ice.
"Sorry Raven," he said softly, removing his hand. The FMV sequence finished and she paused the game.
"It's ok," she said. "We should stop now. We'll play again later."
"Promise?" He tried to do his puppy-dog eyes, then realised she couldn't see them under the glasses.
"Yes. I promise." Her cold hand gripped his and shook it briefly. Then silence.
He sighed, stood up and walked back to his room. As he lay back on his bed, he thought about things. Mainly Terra and Raven.
They had hated each other at the start. Then they had formed a shaky friendship that had broken the minute Terra went to Slade. But he had still believed in her. He had believed in her even when she was about to crush her with a huge chunk of earth. He stood up and left his room. He found a long stick and used it to find the front door. He walked out of the tower and through the city, along the well known path to the cave. When he got there, he stumbled along the path, his stick tapping along the sides of the chasm. There was a clang as wood met metal and he knew he had found it.
"Terra," he said softly. He dropped the stick and it thudded on the ground. He put his hands out, and they met the rough stone that covered Terra's thin frame. He slid them up, past her ribs and arms, to her face. They traced her long hair and covered her face. He took his hands away. "I'm sorry." He sat down at the base of the statue, his fingers now tracing the words 'Terra, Teen Titan, a True Friend' (AN. I'm sorry if that's not what it says). He felt a tear trickle down his cheek and wiped it away without realising. "You know I miss you. I'm so sorry." He leaned back against her frozen legs, tears rolling down his face in a flood. His breath came in harsh gasps, and his chest hitched up and down. His head was back, in the crook of Terra's knees. His hands lay motionless on his lap, his gloves slowly becoming drenched from the steady stream of tears.
He closed his eyes, picturing the blond haired ex-titan. Then, as though a distant thought had summoned her, the long blonde hair turned short and violet. The wide blue eyes turned to deep purple ones. The metal armour morphed into a navy leotard and cloak. The healthy pink skin faded to a pale grey. Behind his eyes, in place of the girl he thought he had loved, stood Raven. He opened his eyes again, now used to the absolute darkness that greeted them, and sighed.
I've got to be happy, he reminded himself. The team expects it. He wiped his eyes with his wet glove, the fingers cold against his skin. He swallowed and relaxed his muscles. His eyes closed again and he dropped his head back onto the hard stone of Terra's legs. His breathing started to even out, his chest relaxing. He smiled and sighed.
"Do you miss her?"
He jerked up, not daring to believe it.
"Raven?"
Raven stood in the cave, watching Beast Boy rest at the base of Terra's statue.
"Well? Do you?"
"Yes." He turned his head away from her voice, putting his forehead to his hand. She sighed audibly. "But at the same time, I accept she's gone."
"Oh." She walked forward, her feet making no sound on the floor. "You feel like you've let her down, don't you?"
"Yes." She put a hesitant hand on his shoulder. He hitched in a ragged breath.
"Don't. She'd understand. Everyone heals with time."
"Even you?" He turned his face back up to her.
"Even me." She sat down beside him, her leg brushing his.
"Raven," he said softly. "What happened when she betrayed you? When she had you by yourself?" She sighed again.
"I went after Overload myself. I defeated him by breaking the water pipes. When I tried to interrogate him, the water turned to mud. Terra showed up. I said her name, she said mine. I called her a traitor and she called me a witch. We fought. But I couldn't win. I was surrounded by the element she controlled. But she wasn't happy with just beating me. She had to taunt me. She said that you told her about my temper tantrums. I said that anger was pointless. She called me a liar and made me show a side of myself, I don't usually show."
"You mean…"
"Yes. She woke up Rage. Only after she made Rage shout how much she betrayed us, how we had trusted her." Raven stopped, her lip shaking slightly. She took a deep breath and continued. "That's when her powers kicked in and huge hands grabbed me and pulled me under. Just before I went down, Rage gave me back control." She stopped. Beast Boy was facing her, his mouth slightly open.
"Oh Raven. I'm sorry." She swallowed hard.
"It's ok. I've forgiven her. But I'm still not her friend."
"That's fair." He put an arm around her shoulders. "I wouldn't like her either, if she did that to me." She smiled.
"But she didn't, did she?"
"No," he said hesitantly. "But she did it to you."
"Yes she did," Raven agreed. "But that won't stop you liking her."
"It might," he said quietly. He removed his arm and tried to stand up. Raven was on her feet instantly.
"The titans got home just before I came here. I knew you'd be here. Azarath Metrion Zinthos." A black aura wrapped around him and lifted him to his feet. At the same time another section of black picked up the fallen stick. It pushed itself into his hand and his fingers gripped around it.
"Thanks," he said, smiling.
"No problem." She felt herself smile in response. Beast Boy started to walk home. She followed him until they reached outside, then put a restraining hand on his shoulder.
"What?" he asked, turning his face to her.
"We can make it home a little faster then that." She put her hands out to her side. "Azarath Metrion Zinthos," she muttered and a black raven encased them both.
Next thing they knew, they were standing in the middle of the Titan Tower living room. Cyborg was busy playing a racing game, Starfire was in the kitchen making some indescribable recipe and Robin was pacing back and forth in the middle of the room.
"Where were you?" he shouted at the two super heroes.
"I went to see Terra," Beast Boy said. He winced, realising what he said. "I mean… I went to the cave."
"You shouldn't be going to places like that," Robin said. "Not in your condition."
"I'm fine," Beast Boy said. "Raven knew where I was." He turned to Raven.
"He wasn't going to hurt himself. He knows what he's doing," she said.
"Nonetheless," Robin said. "You shouldn't be endangering yourself. You're very vulnerable at the moment." Beast Boy turned. Raven almost put a hand on his arm, then held back at the last moment. She watched as the green changeling left the room, his stick tapping against the floor.
POLL!
Should there be an episode where Robin and Starfire kiss?