My Eyes!
By Satu
YAY! Reviews!
Half-Gothic Girl – You're very persistent aren't you? (double hugs Half-Gothic Girl)
sweetnsxy – Thankyou! Stephen King rocks… so hard… I get a warm, fuzzy feeling just reading that… (tilts head to one side and grins) hehehe (double hugs sweetnsxy)
RonLuver2005 – I agree, completely. Poor Robin, I can just picture his face… hehehe… Rage was upset because Raven said that Beast Boy liked her, then he said something to make her think he didn't. She was upset because she thought he didn't like her after being to only one to like her for who she is in her life. Understand? Or did that just fly right over your head? Coz I'm having trouble understanding. (double hugs RonLuver2005)
Yama-Neko – She thinks he lied about liking her… I will, don't worry… (double hugs Yama-Neko)
They-Call-Me-Orange – (laughs) Cool… I agree. I don't hate her, but I want to kick her in the shin, stuff her in a bin and roll her down a hill. Especially while watching Aftershock pt 1 and 2… Thankyou :D (double hugs They-Call-Me-Orange)
DarkSideOfBlue – Yeah I know. Rage is just upset… It'll be figured out in this chapter. (double hugs DarkSideOfBlue)
disappearer/Syani – Thanks ;) I haven't played Sly Cooper either. Alone in the Dark and Project Zero are freaking SCARY games… They freaked the hell out of me… hehehe (sweat drops) I don't really mind how old they are, as long as they're in that order: BB Rae youngest, Rob Star middle and Cy oldest. It just seems right to me. I don't believe rumours, they are clorbaks… (in the background) I have to pay how much? Ok then… (dishes out wads of cash to Starfire) Don't mind me, I'm strange (grins manically) hehehe (double hugs disappearer/Syani)
BrokenNevermore – :D I never run, I join the ranks and stand proud. I'm obsessed too… :D (double hugs BrokenNevermore)
Regrem Erutaerc – Of course he will. Yeah I know… But only 8… There are so many emotions you can't put colours to them. So I did… Some of them… hehehe… I'm ranting, never mind. I've read that story, it's brilliant. Love it sooo much… :D (double hugs Regrem Erutaerc)
ShadowKnux – I think that the 4 red eyes have something to do with Trigon's influence. And BB's feelings towards her are personal so she'll have violet eyes. I don't watch Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, but I'll read it :D By the time I post this I would have read it already so… YAY! (hugs BB and gives him a quick kiss on the cheek) (Raven steps out of shadows, hands and eyes glowing black) Um… Sorry Raven. (pushes BB to Rae, who glares at me before teleporting away) He's so cute… Thankyou for that :D (double hugs ShadowKnux)
RavenOf Night – BBXRae forever! It's sometimes hard to keep each emotion as an emotion… Really hard… ;) (double hugs RavenOf Night)
the Desert Fox – Thanks. :D The whole 'BB not likey Rage' thing will be sorted out. Flash doesn't have a kid. When he was a kid they called him Kid Flash. He's in the comics. And he has a romantic interest with Rae… NO! NEVER! Hehehe… (double hugs the Desert Fox)
Tammy Tamborine – You'll find out what happens about Rage… It'll sort it out. :D (double hugs Tammy Tamborine)
DarkBeast – I'm sorry it took so long. All my stories are on my laptop and I couldn't find the memory stick to load it onto the stand-alone… But I know where it is now :D So I will (double hugs DarkBeast)
warprince2000 – YAY! I'll update faster this time :D (double hugs warprince2000)
WickedWitchoftheSE – hehehe… Rage and BB's problems will be sorted out in due time… hehehe… (double hugs WickedWitchoftheSE)
nightmare car – Thanks :D Who is Rex? I'm so confused. I don't know who I'm hugging these days… (shakes head sadly) (hugs Rex then lets go) hehehe…
animeobsessed3191 – (laughs) Understood. What's a cliffie? Is it like a plot that left hanging? Coz I have nooo idea… (double hugs animeobsessed3191)
mini-warrior – YAY! Rage isn't going anywhere… She's still chained remember? I LOVE COOKIES! (starts stuffing handfuls of cookies into pockets) mmmm cookies…. Thankyou :D Was the eggplant tasty? Or did it taste like EVIL! Does evil have a taste? Hmmm… (double hugs mini-warrior)
.:brittany:. – I know… I think BB will get a restraining order… hehehe… I don't know what song you'd have but I think I'd be a really wimpy romantic song… Coz that's the kind of girl I am… Sad isn't it? Hehehe… (double hugs .:brittany:.)
BrianDarksoul - :) Rage knows about BB already. Because she's part of Raven she knows everything Raven knows. I think that's cool… (double hugs BrianDarksoul)
Sonic Heroes Bliss – I don't either… But it's gotta be better then BBXT. (double hugs Sonic Heroes Bliss)
Coolcatjas – She can love… I think… :D (double hugs Coolcatjas)
Still trying to fly – Thanks :D I know… She'd better leave BB alone… (double hugs Still trying to fly)
darkdemon3592 – They're thinking about Jamaica… Maybe somewhere in the Philippines… That area… :D (double hugs darkdemon3592)
Eight-and-a-halph-tails – Rage won't hurt him. I promise. (double hugs Eight-and-a-halph-tails)
BBRaelover4eva – Raven has romantic attachments to a lot of guys in the comic. They've been building up slowly on the BBXRae thing in the show so I hope they wouldn't throw all that away… (double hugs BBRaelover4eva)
animegirl75 – Thanks. BB can't see… Poor guy… (double hugs animegirl75)
OveractiveMind – Thanks :D I love hearing that, it boosts me right up… I must use ALL of these things… You know what that means? MANY MORE CHAPTERS! Hehehe (double hugs OveractiveMind)
Draco Blade – Thanks. :D I agree completely with your view on Terra. She had to come and mess up BB's love life… He'd be happier with Rae… (double hugs Draco Blade)
oranfly – Agreed. (double hugs oranfly)
Sharon – Thanks (double hugs Sharon)
Teleportal – Pretty much yeah… I don't really care about who Terra goes with as long as it's not BB… Yes, I think you did. (double hugs Teleportal)
KellyClarkstonGirl – You'll see… (double hugs KellyClarkstonGirl)
dancingirl3 – Thanks :D (double hugs dancingirl3)
the rouge leader – I think so too.. (double hugs the rouge leader)
Angel of Nevermore – Yep… Shame that…. (double hugs Angel of Nevermore)
pureangel86 – Yeah… Sorry about that… The l's and 1's confuse me… All fixed now right? (double hugs pureangel86)
BeastWithin – Thankyou. I put it in sea water so it would be ready… Actually that's not true… I found it… Ages ago… But I'm rambling, forgive me… (holds up BBXRae lighter) The faith shall be kept forever!
LightSong – No, he hasn't betrayed her… And he never will… O.O I never knew there was so many Flashes. Or so many love interests… Creepy… Sorry, I just don't know much about the comics… hehehe (double hugs LightSong)
SoftShadow – I never thought about it that way… I'm nearly blind (cough stupid glasses cough) so I hope guys will want to fall in love with me… Oh well… (double hugs SoftShadow)
Raven The Black Rose – I agree… Thankyou :D (double hugs Raven The Black Rose)
lovex3spell – Poll: I agree completely… Commentary: All your questions will be answered in time… I will… :) (double hugs lovex3spell)
dark-demon2156 – Thanks :D I will. (double hugs dark-demon2156)
The Ubermann – Thanks :D Is it summer where you are? God. It's winter here in Aussie. It's freezing in the morning and boiling at night. I call that 'Cruel Fate'. Hehehe… Enjoy your summer (if it is summer…) (double hugs The Ubermann)
Sloane Miette – Thankyou :P Thankyou very much. It's really hard to respond to your review, and that's a good thing. Sometimes I go on and on and on… Oh dear… If you don't want a hug or double hug that's ok. Would you prefer a cookie?
Shantel – Agreed. ;) (double hugs Shantel)
TDG3RD – Don't worry, it'll sort itself out. (double hugs TDG3RD)
Giligan – Thanks :D (double hugs Giligan)
moo – It's a cliffie… I think… You'll understand… :D (double hugs moo)
dudeboy111 – I see… How strangely random… (double hugs dudeboy111)
Drow Judicator – You can! Thanks:D (double hugs Drow Judicator)
Gem W – YAY! I don't know about Sarasim, coz I haven't seen that ep yet… The shame… (double hugs Gem W)
Austin Norsworthy – See the email I sent you :D (give cookie)
RavenRulzRF – Cool :D (double hugs RavenRulzRF)
RavennBeastboy – Thanks :D (double hugs RavennBeastboy)
TheWonderguardian – Fair enough. The RaeXKFlash was in a comic, but he got freaked out when he found out she was manipulating his emotions to make him love her… I don't think she'd do that to BB though… (double hugs TheWonderguardian)
AN. A lot of you are worried about Rage. Don't worry, it'll sort itself out in this chapter. Also, if you don't want hugs just say so. I don't hug people if they don't want hugs… I givethem cookies:D
AN. Straight after the last one. I don't own Teen Titans but it the owners want to sell it to me I have (screams of 'Get Back! Foul Beast!') a pair of mismatched socks, a broken pen and an eraser.
Answer to Poll
I say: As soon as I read that, I knew it was fate…
My sister says: Maybe I dunno.
Chapter Seven
Beast Boy's hand rubbed the skin under the metal chain. It was hot, like there was a fire underneath it. Her breathing was quiet, so quiet only he could hear the raggedness of it.
"I didn't lie," he said softly. There was a slight breeze and her hair whipped against his face.
"You did. No one likes me. Not even Raven and I'm a part of her." He felt a wave of pity wash over him. He put his other hand up and felt the curve of her jaw. Then sliding his hand up, he felt wetness on her cheek.
"No I didn't," he said again. "I'm so sorry Rage." He hesitated for a moment, then wrapped his arms around her. The chains around her dug into his ribs slightly, but he kept his arms around her.
"Get away from me," she growled softly, trying to sound threatening.
"No," he said softly. He tightened his arms around her. "I love all Raven's emotions. Including you." He kissed her cheek gently. Her spine started to relax and she melted into his arms. He smiled.
"Please go," she whispered into his ear. "I don't want to hurt you."
"You would hurt me?" He frowned disbelievingly.
"My father is more powerful then you think," she whispered. After she said that, she started to jerk, her thin body bucking in his arms..
"Beast Boy!" Raven yelled from behind him. "Let go of her!"
"No!" he yelled back.
"We love you Beast Boy," Rage whimpered, then became rigid once more. "Get away from me," she repeated, this time her voice ringing with a deep undercurrent. A tingling energy wrapped around his stomach and pulled him away from the angry emotion.
"Are you alright?" Raven asked. Her hands ran over his arms, chest and stomach.
"Yeah. I'm fine."
"Good," she said, sounding incredibly relieved.
"Wh-," he started to ask, only to be interrupted by her lips pressing on his. Or so he thought.
"Love!" Raven yelled. "Get off him." The arms wrapped so passionately around him were forcibly pulled off, two new arms encircled him and a head rested on his chest.
"Rae?" he asked nervously, his ears trying to locate her position. "I think we should leave."
"I agree," came her voice from his chest. He blushed.
"Well," he said after a moment. He put his hand up and stroked her soft silky hair. "Shall we?"
"Yep," she said. The comforting weight on his chest and one of her arms left. The other slid around so it was around his back. He grinned and put an arm around her, his hand resting on the slight swell of her hip. They started walking slowly, Raven controlling the direction and speed. They walked for a few minutes before the crackling energy surrounded him again and he shivered slightly.
"Are we in your room?" he asked.
"Yes." Her arm came back around to the front, joined by her other arm.
"Are we alone?" he asked, a sly smile twitching on his lips.
"Yes," she said, sounding a little cautious.
"Excellent," he said, the smile now prominent on his green face. Before she could speak, he kissed her gently. After a moment he broke away. "I wanted to do that before, but I think Envy would have hurt me." She laughed slightly. Nothing cracked.
"I know. If I'm perfectly truthful, I wanted the same thing." He laughed. She returned the laugh and rested her head on his chest. It settled comfortably in the slight groove between his pectoral muscles (AN. You know, the muscles on your chest).
"Hey Rae," he said softly after a moment.
"Yes BB," she replied just as softly, nuzzling her head into his body slightly. He shuddered pleasurably for a second, then stroked her head tenderly. Inside he was marvelling how, in just a day, they had reverted to using nicknames so casually.
"Do you know what I think about this room?"
"No," she answered. His scent was all around her, somehow heavier then the other smells in the air.
"I think it's nearly perfect," he said softly.
"Nearly?" she asked. In truth, she was amazed that he found this dark, gothic room to be even close to acceptance to this happy, go-lucky teenager.
"Yeah," he said.
She stood there for a moment, loving the feel of his arms around her, then started to move over to the bed. The couch was closer, but she wanted to sit on the soft mattress. He sat down without letting her go, forcing her to shift her lower body sideways so she could sit on his lap.
"Rae," he said softly.
"Yes BB," she said.
"Do you mind me being blind?"
She looked up. He was facing forward, and she could only just see the shadow of his eyes. She sighed slightly, her chest rubbing against his with the small movement.
"You don't have to answer if you don't want to," he said.
"I do, I do," she said quickly. She sighed again and rubbed her pointer finger in a small circle on his chest. "I don't want you to be offended, but I'm sort of happy that you're blind."
His jaw dropped and she hissed in breath slightly, scared she had hurt his feelings.
"Why?" he asked suddenly.
"If you hadn't become blind, we wouldn't have become closer." She put her head back between his pectorals and inhaled sharply through her nose. He stroked her hair slowly, as though in deep thought.
After a few minutes he spoke, his voice making his lungs vibrate against her ear, "That's true." He twirled a strand of her hair around one finger. "I guess I'm glad I'm blind too. I've never been happy to be hurt before."
She was instantly shocked.
"Are you hurt? Does it hurt?" She stopped abruptly, realising that she was panicking. Beast Boy had obviously picked up on this, because he laughed.
"No. It's just weird. You know how you have dark so dark, it seems to have weight?"
"Yes," she replied, hesitantly.
"Well it's like that, only for the whole time. It's sort of scary. But at the same time, it's not."
She looked up, one eyebrow raised slightly in a silent question, then remembered that he couldn't see. "Why?"
"I get to think more. When I could see, it was all about light and sound. Now that I've experienced true darkness, I can see that laughter isn't all there is to life and everyone can be depressed sometimes. I can remember and reflect on things that happened in my childhood. I've been thinking about the team, the villains we've faced, the trivial teenage problems we've overcome. I've realised that all the problems we've had with each other, all the petty arguments, have all lead up to a stronger, healthier friendship between us all. And even blossomed into even more then friendship, into love."
He kissed the top of her head lightly and continued, "I would never have believed it possible for me, but I've come to understand what makes each of us tick. Star has her cooking and her obvious crush on Robin. Robin has his public obsession over Slade and less-then-private obsession over Starfire." She giggled. "Cyborg has his car and his goal to beat my high-score, which I have to say is NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. And you," he ruffled her hair, "have your dark poetry, depressing novels, gloomy cafes and your overwhelming attraction to a certain green team-mate."
"And what do you have?" she asked, shifting her legs slightly to get more comfortable.
"Me." He paused and thought for a moment. "I have my laughter, my amazing personality, my hoards of screaming fangirls, my countless stacks of GameStation games and the most amazing, beautiful," he paused, building up the tension, "girlfriend ever known to mankind."
Wow, Kindness said from her mind. Raven closed her eyes and frowned when she saw bronze. That was so nice. Return the compliment! The hyperactive emotion was positively jumping to have her will carried out.
In your dreams, Raven retorted. She was jerked out of her little mind conversation by Beast Boy chuckling.The movementmade her head bounce slightly up and down on his chest, but it settled quickly.
"Sorry Rae," he said. "I was just thinking, I used such big words then. I'm surprised I understood what I was talking about."
"I know, I was about to say the same thing," she said smiling.
Beast Boy felt her hair again. It was soft and silky smooth between his fingers.
Damn, he cursed inwardly. I left my gloves on the roof.
He thought about getting them, but that would disturb the dark angel on his lap. He ran his fingers through her short violet hair, feeling the individual strands slip past his skin.
"Rae," he said.
I've got to stop asking her questions. It must be driving her mad.
"Yes?"
"You know how I can tell how things look by touching them."
"Yes."
"Can I… um… touch your face?" (AN. Just what were you thinking? Minds out of the gutter people, come on. Let's pick them up, dust them off and put them back in our heads where they belong.) He blushed slightly. There was a pause.
"Alright," she said.
Score! And the crowd goes wild! CRRR!
He slipped a finger under her chin and tilted her face up, then closed his eyes. He then found her hairline and ran the tips of his fingers across it. In his mind, he could see each inch of skin as his fingers ran past them. His fingers ran over her thin eyebrows and gently across her closed eyelids. He brushed over her nose and cupped her cheeks gently in his palm. She sighed slightly, relaxing in his arms. He traced the outline of her lips, smiling to find they were curled up. As he completed the small circle around her lips, she kissed him lightly on the space between the second and third knuckle. And finally, the searching tips of his fingers found her slightly pointed chin.
"I can see you," he said, smiling widely. "I can see your face. You're even more beautiful then I remember."
"Does this mean you liked me before?"
"Way before." He blushed slightly, realising exactly what he was saying.
"How long before?" she asked, sounding happier and happier.
"Um… I had a crush on you when we met. I mean, you were a beautiful, mysterious girl. Then I got to know you and… I've loved you since Nevermore."
"But that was ages ago. That was before Ter-"
"I know," he said, cutting her off. "I thought that you'd never love me. Then I met Terra. She was everything I looked for. Laughed at my jokes, was always happy. Basically, she lived in the light."
"Oh." The young woman on his lap sounded disappointed.
"Let me finish," he said gently. He patted her head lightly, then continued, "I asked her out, just like everyone expected. And, lo and behold, she betrayed us. It made me realise that you'd been right all along. But I kept my faith in her. I thought that if we could get Robin back, we could get Terra back. You were the only one of us who accepted that she had betrayed us of her own free will. I'm just sorry it took me so long to realise. Even if she redeemed herself in the end, it wasn't enough to take back the hurt she dealt us. I moped for days after that, and only with your help could I get back to myself. So thankyou."
"Don't thank me," she said. "I helped you after Terra, you helped me after Malchoir. We're even. And just so you know, that's your second big speech in ten minutes."
"Yeah it is." He grinned. "I should probably go now. I've got to write stuff in my journal." He kissed the top of her head lightly and she levitated off him. "See you soon." He walked to the door, blew a kiss in her vague direction and left the room. Or he tried to. Unfortunately for him, the door was closed. Raven laughed, flew past him and opened the door. "Thanks." He grinned sheepishly, then left again.
He hummed something he heard on TV, most likely a jingle or some unnamed theme song, while he walked. His feet carried him along a mostly straight path, but sometimes he veered to the left and hit his side on the wall. After this had happened twice, he started walking with his arms pointing to the side. He walked down the hall and stopped where he thought his room was.
Gonna write bout Raaaven, his mind sang, very out of tune. Gonna write bout Raaaaaaaaven. After ten seconds of this terrible chant, the other half of his mind started to strangle the singing half, before it relented and stopped. Gotta get my gloves first, it thought, before shutting up.
"Later," he said aloud, pressing the button to his room.
Raven flew out of her room, desperate for a cup of herbal tea. She looked down the hall as she exited. She smiled when she saw Beast Boy's foot disappearing into his room. She floated slowly to the lounge room. As she entered she saw a sight that almost made her laugh.
Robin was sitting on the U shaped couch, holding Starfire's left hand. He was speaking to her in low tones, staring down at their fingers.
Suddenly she shouted, "Oh Robin, I love you too." Then she wrapped her arms around him and started to kiss him. Robin looked surprised for a moment, then relaxed, holding onto her gently.
Raven cleared her throat. The two embracing teens seemed to fly away from each other, both as red as her chakra.
"Just came to get some tea," she said. She floated serenely over to the kitchen, staring at them out of the corner of her eye. They glanced at each other and flushed a deeper shade of scarlet.
"Uh…" Robin said, his voice croaky. "I'd better go try to solve the latest lead on Slade." He dashed out of the room.
"I must also go and follow leads on Slade," Starfire said hurriedly and followed Robin.
Raven laughed softly in the empty room. She put the water on the boil and levitated a cup and a bag of lemon tea over to her. A shrill whistle told her the water was ready and she poured a steaming cup-full. She blew on the still water, sending ripples over the surface and took a sip. She walked out to the living room and sat, cross-legged, in front of the window. She took another sip and held the cup in her lap.
It was a beautiful day outside, the sun shining, great white clouds rolling across the blue sky. The water was deep aqua-blue and calm as she'd ever seen it. She took sip after sip of her tea, just staring outside. After a few minutes she had finished it without even realising. She put the cup to one side, and closed her eyes.
"Azarath Metrion Zinthos," she chanted in a low voice. "Azarath Metrion Zinthos." She felt herself float gently up in the air and smiled slightly. "Azarath Metrion Zinthos."
Meditation was one of the ways she could get into her mind, the other being her mirror, to control her emotions. But it was also a way to converse with each emotion individually, in a place the others couldn't get too, usually an unreachable extension of their realm. It also gave that emotion the chance to ask for favours or show her things they thought were of some importance. This time she opened her eyes in a small, dark room, filled with books.
"Hello Raven," Knowledge said, approaching Raven with her yellow cloak buttoned. Her large glasses flashed in the dim light.
"Hello Knowledge," Raven said quietly, still hearing her real self repeating her chant over and over.
"I wanted to talk to you," Knowledge said nervously. "So I brought you here. It's the back room of my realm." Knowledge lived in a huge library.
"This is the back room?" Raven asked, staring around at the books.
"I like reading," Knowledge said dismissively. "That's not the point. I need to talk to you about this." Her cloak parted and she held out a green book. It was thick, very thick, at least 750 pages. Raven took it. It had gilded letters on the front proclaiming, "Beast Boy". Raven stared at this with disbelief. "Compare Beast Boy's book to this one," Knowledge said, bringing another book out of her cloak. It was black, green and red, the golden letters on the front reading, "Robin". The book was less then half the size of BB's book. She took it in her left hand, using her body to help support the green book. She glanced from one cover to the other.
"What's your point?" she asked after a moment.
"Well," Knowledge said, clearly nervous. "You see. Since you brought Beast Boy here, this book has had 100 pages added to it. Even Rage has a good thing to say about him. And everything said about someone by you or your emotions, goes in these books." As if her words were an omen, the book in her right hand suddenly thickened past her hand width. She balanced it on her palm.
"Here, take this," she said to Knowledge, gesturing towards her with Robin's book. The yellow-cloaked emotion did so. Raven smiled at her for a second, then turned her attention back to Beast Boy's. She opened to the start.
I've always found you funny Beast Boy, it said in pink writing. Raven looked up and raised an eyebrow.
"The colour ink matches the emotion who said it," Knowledge said quickly. "Just to stop confusion."
"Right," Raven said.
"Look in the back," Knowledge said. Raven did so, hesitantly, and gasped at what she saw. Line after line of different colour text was filling the pages, so quickly that Raven could barely follow them. "They're still at the conference," Knowledge said. "I managed to slip away without them noticing. I went to get this book and was absolutely shocked at how large it's getting. It was barely 200 pages this morning." She sighed and stroked the pages gently, almost tenderly. "I'm afraid if you don't stop them soon, they'll be able to fill the library with Beast Boy."
"What about this then?" Raven asked, holding up the book. Her finger was pointing towards a certain entry.
Beast Boy's smarter then he looks. I'm quite surprised, it said in yellow ink. Knowledge blushed.
"I remembered this book after I said that," she said hastily. Raven nodded. Then another entry caught her eye.
"What about this one?" she asked, horrified.
He has such thin fingers. I wonder what it would feel like to have those fingers caress us… it said in dark pink ink. Raven felt a blush rise to her face.
"That was Femininity. She was talking to Love and got a bit strange."
POLL!
Is Beast Boy really that immature, deep down? (in the show, not the story)