Everything I do: I do it for you
Chapter 22: It's Your Fault Courtney
I can't imagine living without your smile, feeling, knowing you can hear me keeps me alive…
Courtney began to dream. In the dream, Jason was laying on an empty metal operating table, naked but covered with that surgical paper. He was entirely motionless and looked cold. His eyes were closed. She walked further into the operating room until she was right next to him. She looked down on him. Suddenly, making her jump fiercely. His eyes jerked open and he grabbed her face. He sat up slightly and looked at her. Blood started to seep from his eyes, his mouth, his nose, and his ears.
"It's your fault!" he said angrily.
With that she jerked awake. Her breathing was heavy and as she looked around, and suddenly she felt cold and alone. She stood up on her stiff shaky joints and tried to find someone to ask about Jason. She saw a nurse with her back turned to her and so she tapped her shoulder. She jerked around quickly and she had blood dripping off of her face.
"Jason's dead, and it's your fault Courtney." she said in an eerie emotionless way.
With this, Courtney woke up for real. The dream had seemed so real she could practically feel Jason's cold hand on her face. With an uneasy feeling she stood up and ran to the nearest doctor.
"Hello? A man was brought in here not to long ago his name is Jason Quartermaine he was in a car accident, do you know who I am talking about" she begged for information.
"Oh yeah, I actually just put him in a room, but I can't tell you anything unless you are family" he said. She wanted to punch him.
"I'm his girlfriend gosh dammit! I need to know if he's ok and what room number he's in!" she said through fresh tears. Concern took over the doctor's face and he sighed deeply as if contemplating to tell her.
"Ok, he's in room 342, and he's in a coma." He said gently.
All the blood left her face and her knees became wobbly. Coma. It just can't be right. Tears streaming off her face, she ran all the way down the hall until she reached the entrance of his room. She stopped outside of it. Slowly and cautiously, as if some how she would hurt him by opening the door to quickly, she entered the room. The sight broke her heart. The eye that had been bloodshot was blackened and so swollen you couldn't see the crease of a lid. He had small cuts all over him most covered in bandages. His nose was swollen and you could tell that it was broken. His head had a very large bandage spanning the greater portion of it. She walked over to his bed and lay down beside him.
"I'm so sorry." She said gently and then she laid her head on his chest.
She was almost surprised to hear a heartbeat; he just looked… gone. At that moment she closed her eyes as tightly as possible and prayed as hard as she could.
"Please God, just bring him back. Even if he hates me, don't let him die." And with that, she fell asleep again.
Hoping that she'd open her eyes and be in music class and she could take it all back. If only she could just take it back. She slept there for about an hour and then got up and sat by his bed. She was holding his hand, and she whispered
"I love you" so quietly that he could have been the only one to hear it.
When she did, his heart rate jumped a little and the brain wave monitor started giving higher ratings. She looked at them in shock and then looked to his face.
"Jason, you can hear me can't you?" she said.
The brainwave monitors stayed high. She went out of the room quickly to find a doctor. She found one, a man in his mid-thirties, and she brought him to the room.
"Watch, the brain wave monitor spikes when I talk to him." She said. She grabbed his hands.
"Jason babe, I love you," she said. The monitor spiked as she had said. The doctor looked at a couple things.
"Well, people who are in comas typically can hear people. People like to hear from the ones they love the most, so I think that it would be helpful for you to stay here as much as possible and talk as much as you can." He said.
The monitors were registering more waves at a steady pace now.
"Ah, yes." He said with a grin. Courtney was confused as to what it meant.
"He's dreaming, probably of you. I'll leave you two alone" The doctor, who's name was Dr. Chapin.
Jason was indeed dreaming. His dream started at the cabin when they were lying in the rain. But then it was like an alternate reality. They got in the car and started driving through the country. Soon the road turned through a forest. It was the most beautiful forest they'd ever seen. Wild flowers were everywhere in all colors; there were tons of bright green ferns, grass, and other natural plants. Suddenly the car seemed to speed up. Jason let go of the wheel, took his feet off the pedal and grabbed Courtney's hand. They leaned back and closed their eyes. The car went faster and faster until everything in the windows was a slur of colors. It was like they were traveling through time or something. Meanwhile, Courtney held his hands and told him all the things she was thinking. She wondered how she would be able to come with A.J. and all. She stayed with him until 7:00 at night. She kissed his lips and put on her leather coat and walked out. When she reached the door, A.J. was waiting. It surprised her, and by the look on her face you could definitely tell.
"What are you doing her Courtney?" he asked.
"Uh, I was thinking of applying for a job as a candy-striper." She replied instantly.
"Oh. I thought it might have something to do with the fact that my brother was in a car wreck and was in this very hospital." He said
"No, I stopped by to see him on my way out but I was just seeing how bad it was." She said.
"Well either way let's go." He said.
She followed him out the door and they got in his car. She wasn't sure where he was taking her. She didn't really care though. Suddenly A.J. pulled over. Courtney looked around. They were in a very rural area, no one to be seen for miles.
"What are we doing A.J.?" she asked.
He took his seat belt off and climbed over to her seat. With one swift movement he tipped the seat back and adjusted himself on top of her.
"A.J. I don't want to do this." She said pushing on his chest.
"Oh, you don't mean that." He said, pushing back with his body.
He pressed his mouth on hers with a great force. She wasn't kissing back. She was actually trying to squirm away. She slapped his face, so he pulled back for a moment.
"A.J.! Get off of me!" She screamed.
He looked mad, and kissed her again, forcing his tongue in her mouth. This disgusted her. She bit his tongue as hard as she could and instantly tasted blood. He yelled and pulled away, blood on his lips. He glared at her and slid over to his own side again. She sat up instantly and wiped off her mouth and straightened her hair and clothes.
"This is just great. I have a shitty day at school and all I want is a little screw from my girlfriend and I can't even have that you little bitch!" He yelled.
"Well my day wasn't exactly tops either okay! Just take me home now!" she yelled back.
He started to drive in the direction of her house.
"Where is this attitude coming from anyway? You need to remember where you place in this relationship is!" he said.
"And just where is my place in this relationship?" she yelled.
"Underneath me any time I want you to be that's where!" he yelled, his member puffing up.
"Stop the car now!" she screamed.
He pulled over, thinking that she wanted some.
He started to slide over to her side again but she opened the door and got out. She started to walk away. He pulled back onto the road along side her.
"Get back in the fucking car!" he screamed to her.
She ignored him and kept walking.
"Fine!" he yelled and sped off.
He made her feel so low and dirty. She started to cry as she walked. How was she supposed to handle all of this with out Jason? She hated everything that was happening. She felt so out of Control. And it was all her fault.