With All My Heart

Misunderstood

"Lily, open up, it is me, Natalie, tell me what is wrong." Natalie could here Lily get up and walk over to open the door. When she did Natalie walked in and took in every detail of the girl. Her robes were messed up and shaggy, as was her long red hair. She had tears in her brilliant emerald green eyes.

"What happened?" Natalie asked suddenly.

"Well, we were in the hall way, and under his invisibility cloak. He was studying this weird map, and I was standing next to him. He seemed very tense, so I stole his map. He did not resist, and I put it in my pocket. Then I kissed him and we started snogging, right? So it's all going fine, he lifts me up against the wall, after a couple minutes I break the kiss.

"I looked into his eyes, I saw two things. Love, and hurt. So Yeah, I started babbling on about how he drives me completely crazy, and then I went to say that I loved him, and he put a finger to my lips, and well, he said he did not want to here it. To just wait or what ever." Lily said frowning; the tears were welling up in her eyes again.

"I blew up on him. I started screaming about how he did not really care about me… and… and… Nat, I screwed up…" Lily said now the tears were gliding down her face.

"I know Lily, I know. You need to apologize, according to Sirius, James wants it to be special when he says he loves you, but you must know he does anyway." Natalie said. Lily smiled at these words; she loved hearing that he loved her.

"I guess you are right. I guess I should go speak to him." Lily got up and walked out of her room.

She walked briskly across the common room to James' room. She opened the door where she found James with tears in his eyes speaking to Sirius. He stopped talking the moment he saw her in the doorway.

"Sirius, can I speak to James… Alone." Lily said quietly. Sirius got up and walked towards her.

"He does love you." He whispered before walking out.

Lily smiled. "James, I am so sorry, I over reacted, I was not thinking, I just, I want to be with you till the end. I do not want to have the fear of losing you. I want you, to day, and tomorrow, and the day after that, and the day after that, I want you till the day we die, and after that." Lily said with tears in her eyes.

She was still standing in the doorway, so James got up and walked over to her. He wrapped his arms around her waste and pulled her into a tight hug. "I will never leave your side for as long as I live Lily." A single tear ran down her face when James spoke these words to her.

"James… You can not know that for sure." Lily spoke quietly.

"But I will say that because it is true. Lily, you are mine for good." James said smiling; he leaned down and kissed her softly on the lips.

"Come on, let's go back out there…" Lily said. James took her hand and led her out to go see their friends.

"You guys made up right?" Remus asked calmly when they walked in.

"No we did not Remus, we are just pretending we did." James said in a monotone. He squeezed Lily's hand to let her know to play along.

"Yeah." Lily said in the same sour voice.

They sat and watched everyone glance at each other not sure what to say.

Lily and James then burst our laughing.

"We got you guys!" James said.

"You should have seen your faces! It was priceless!" Lily said still laughing.

"That was not funny!" Sirius said. He still looked rather confused.

"Oh yes it was, Sirius mate, you looked like you were about to kill me and her! Oh my god, I can not believe you guys fell for that, I was holding her hand the whole time!" James said. Then the others saw the humor in it and began laughing with them.

"So you two did not break up then… Right?" Natalie asked.

"Yeah, that's right." Lily said, she had to add the after thought, "By the way, Nat, I realized while I was snogging James, that I definitely have the best boyfriend in the world, and the best kisser in Hogwarts!" James turned crimson, and Sirius had a look of mock hurt on his face.

"Hey! That's not fair! You only snogged me once! That is not fair! You can not make that kind of judgement after kissing someone once!" Sirius whined. Everyone was laughing at him.

"Sirius once was the only time you got to snog my girlfriend. Do not even insinuate that it will happen again." James said with an expression of mock irritation on his face.

"Well James, you never know, if we get in a big fight again I might have to snog Sirius to get over it." Lily said playfully.

"No you wont Lily, Sirius is mine! Unless we are both fighting with our boyfriends at the same time then there is no way you are going to snog my boyfriend!" Natalie said with an air of irritation.

"Whoa, Nat relax, I was joking." Lily said.

"Oops, sorry about that then." Natalie replied looking a little scared.

Remus was still a little pale. When Lily looked over at him. "Are you okay Remus?"

"I do not know I can not stand sitting here around knowing my parents are in St. Mugos!" Remus said at last.

"I know what you mean mate Do not worry, we will be seeing them later today. We could go to bed if you want." James said to his friend.

"No, I wont be able to sleep, I rather that we just sit up and talk. Girls you can go to sleep if you want, we wont stop you." Remus added as an after thought.

"Nah, we will stay awake with you Remus. I am really not tired, I do not think the other girls are either." Andromeda said, and Lily and Natalie nodded.

A/N: okay remeber this is all in the first night of school(how sad is that) yeah, thye haven't even started classes yet, but I keep trying to get there, but I needed some entertainment in the night, so much tension, fights were bound to break out... so by chapter 23 they will be out of Hogwarts... Maybe... I can't gaurantee it, but I have just finished writing an extremely long chapter 21, and I know 22 is going to be in taht same night, and the fight in the last chapter started around... 6 O'clock say, so it's a long night... sorry for dragging this out, but it's a lot of info, and its a lot of fun, till i realized that i had screwed up some stuff... yeah, i fixed it though, thank merlin, for stupid ideas! OKay, im notoriously bad for long author notes, so i'll post this chapter now, and shut up! REVIEW!

Love always,

Crazy Lily