Disclaimer: I have a distinct feeling of Deja-Vu.
While you read, pretend that Jess is standing on the beach, while Rory finds a package in the mailbox. She opens it, she finds The Holy Barbarians, and Jess's later. Which is "read" in his voiceover.
For the lovely gals over at S-H, who really, really, really wanted this letter.
Deleted Scene # 1: The Letter.
Rory-
I was flipping through this copy of The Holy Barbarians, and I realized it's actually yours. It's not fair to you for me to keep it, so I'm sending it back. I'll pretend it's just something I'm doing because it's the right thing to do. So, pretend this letter fell in between its pages because of a moment of carelessness.
I can pretend I don't care about this book, but it's not true. In the short time I've had it, I read it cover to cover. I know all there is to know about it. Ranks right up there with those works by Hemingway you hate so much. He's still thinking and saying lovely things about you. He always has. He never stopped.
I need to be different. I need things to be different. I need to know if there is a place where things can, or will, be different. I need to know if out here, with the sun and sky and the ocean and the beach, I can be different.
It's got nothing to do with you. It's got everything to do with you. My life's a mess and I don't know what to do about it. I don't know how, but I know I' ve got to figure it out soon. Here. Without you.
Jess.
A/N: Hehehehe. There it is. I've been wanting to do that for a while. Now... I just gotta tackle K!M! and... more moments... stay tuned. Oh, for who's wondering... LUFI, which you should be reading if you want long, deep, meaningful, angsty chapters... is not abandoned. It's on a little hiatus. But it shall be updated. Carys thanks for the feedback.