Always By My Side
The pitter patter of padded feet that once echoed through these halls is now gone. Black corners are now only blacker, and the emptiness is swallowing me alive. I stare ahead no longer seeing; only fading memories dance weakly through my mind. A cold wind lows across the open windowsill sending filth and dust in a frantic whirlwind. I shiver; cold but no longer caring. A whimper resounds through the darkness and my heart skips a beat but quickly sinks, realizing it was m own escaping misery. Caught in the swirling wind, he dust laden curtain brushes my shoulder, tears my eyes away from nothing and makes them rest on the disturber of my dark thoughts. I look away again, but as though to mock and taunt me, the fowl cloth beats at me without wavering. My mind is still to numb to allow my mind emotion and I can only step out of its reach, thinking what horrid things curtains really are. Again my mind swirls with black memories, and again they are disturbed by the ever lingering veil. No longer able to contain my fury, I thrash out, ripping the damned thing of f the wall. I am now collapsed on the floor, shaking and wanting nothing more than to tear it to shreds. But as quickly as my rage had come it has left and I can only sit here and bury my face in my tormentor sobbing. I whisper to the room, my voice hoarse and strained. Begging for the pain to leave, begging for me to never have loved you. But it is no use and I am now ashamed and horrified to have pleaded for such a thing. I must leave this room, I must leave this house. Perhaps not forever, but for now I must go. I get up to leave, giving the room one last look over. My eyes come to rest on the curtains; the source of my violent outburst. For some reason I can not explain, I hang them back in place and quickly turn to leave. Before closing the door I look back one last time and the curtains are still and calm. As I close the door and walk down the empty hall, I swear I hear the fall of padded feet on the floor beside me. My throat tightens and my eyes swell with tears, but I know that even though you are gone, you will always be by my side, leaving paw prints on my heart.