Chapter 5: Regret

Disclaimer: I don't own anything....EXCEPT!!! (YAY!!!) Most (or all) the storylines, and all Matt, Mary, Lucy, Simon, Ruthie, and David's kids and soon to be kids. I also own (what a funny word) Andy's girlfriend, and David's girlfriend. Hmmmmm......I don't think I own anything else, so bye bye!

A/N: CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? NO AUTHORS NOTES!!!!!!! WOW....ok time for the story

"I can't believe I was so stupid," David said to Simon. "I know how you feel Dave," Simon told him. "Maybe," David said, "but I don't know why, it's just, I feel like my whole life is falling apart." "Maybe because it is," Simon almost chuckled, "but the thing is not to let your life fall apart, and soon you'll probably realize its been falling apart long before you had sex with Stacy." David asked, "How's that?" Simon replied, "Well the second you left your brother, not to mention your twin, behind, I suspect that's when your life started going down hill." "What are you talking about," David said having no clue. "You don't know? You really don't know do you?" Simon, who was surprised, asked. "No," David replied. "So, you don't know that Sam almost commit suicide about a month ago." Simon informed him. David got a blank look on his face. Simon just stared at him chuckling and shaking his head every once in a while. After about 10 minutes David said, "He did?" "Yeah," Simon assured him. Simon said, "You know, when you first told me that you got your girlfriend pregnant you said I could help because I had been through this already." "So?" "So, I didn't go through this. Well, I did get a girl pregnant when I was the same age as you, but I didn't shut out my family. I wasn't so 'popular,' and I didn't let my brother be humiliated every single day of his life since he started high school. I didn't hurt my brother more than anyone would ever think someone could ever hurt someone they love, and I didn't go so long without knowing important things going on in this family. I'm not the one who completely abandoned my morals and beliefs. You were, you did. And I bet you don't even regret having sex with Stacy, you just regret getting her pregnant. You loved having sex with her, and I'm absolutely positive you would do it again if there weren't the risk of having a child." "Wow, you're so...right. I would do it again; I did completely abandon my morals and beliefs. I was a horrible son, a terrible brother, and an even worse twin." David said admitting that it was true for the first time out loud. "What am I supposed to do Simon, I really don't know what to do now, and how am I going to tell Mom & Dad?" David asked his older brother. "I honestly don't know what you're supposed to do, I guess that you should trust God and follow your heart Davey, and WE can tell Mom & Dad together, I would have given ANYTHING to have someone with me when I told Mom & Dad Georgia was pregnant, so I can be there for you." David smiled halfway. "Thanks" "Don't mention it" David remembered something else, "Remember when you told me that you realized one of the reasons that you were having sex with Georgia was because you thought you were going to go to hell anyways, so it doesn't matter what you did anymore." "Of course," Simon replied. David continued, "Then what do you think MY excuse is?" Simon answered, "First of all that's not an excuse at all, secondly maybe you don't have an 'excuse,' but then again maybe there is some reason why you did what you did." "Hmmm" David said unsatisfied. "When are we going to tell Mom & Dad?" "We'll tell them after dinner, and I think Ruthie, Peter, Simon (his nephew), and Mark are coming over. Cecilia is too, and Tom, Jay, and Keely." "Okay," David said.

Later that night before dinner, everyone was sitting at the table. Just when Annie was about to bring dinner to the table David backed out saying he wasn't feeling well, but Simon went with him outside the room. "Wait! David, It's just dinner." "I can't do this," David admitted. "Yes you can, its okay, I'll be with you." Simon reassured him. David then said, "I know, but I want to skip dinner today." "I understand, you want me to skip dinner also?" Simon asked. "Yeah," David Said, "Ok let me go tell them." Back by the table where everyone was, Simon whispered to Cecilia he was going to talk with his brother, and then said he wasn't feeling too well either and left the room. Ruthie got up too, but before she could leave, Annie said, "RUTHIE!" "Sorry Mom," said Ruthie.

Later that night Annie went to see what was up with her "sick sons." Annie went up to David's room and saw David and Simon talking. She knocked on the door, went inside, and said, "Simon, while you two were up here being "sick" Thomas actually got sick, and Cecilia asked me to come up to her to get you so you guys could go home." Simon said thanks and got up and right before he opened the door, he looked back and saw David's helpless expression on his face, so Simon said, "David, umm you want to stay over at my house tonight?" David immediately took the offer and said bye to his mom. Downstairs, Simon took his sick son in his arms, Jay took Keely's hand, and as they were walking out the door, David looked back at Sam watching T.V. David quickly asked Simon and Cecilia if Sam could come too and they agreed. David said the 1st true words to his brother he had said in a long time, "Hey Sam?" "Yeah," Sam replied. David asked him, "You wanna come along?" Sam, actually happy for the 1st time in a very long time excitedly said, "YEAH!" Sam said goodbye to his family and went with his twin, Simon, and Simon's family.

Preview of Next Chapter: Chapter 6: How to Deal

David, with Simon by his side, said, "I got my girlfriend pregnant." Eric & Annie sat and stared, then they started to yell at their youngest son. Simon couldn't let them though, they couldn't take it, he couldn't take it, and most definitely David couldn't take it.